1 Heart wrenching incident
15 Aug 2018 1:30 am
I always used to say that heart relation never breaks or get week. But never experienced pain of love ones’. I can’t even think of tears in my Love Ones’ eyes and can only allow tears of happiness for them that too very some. But today I get to know about the sorrow we get when our Love Ones get sorrows and it’s heart wrenching.
Before some months my uncle (brother of my mother) died and we don’t use to meet him from almost 9 years. It hurted me and I cried too but not much but today I get to know that my Nabeel’s father has been passed. I get to know it before 2 hours and still i am crying. I met him last 4 years ago and now i will go to his home tomorrow when he and aunt will be crying. To be true I am just fighting with Allah G that why He did this with my Nabeel. He knows that I always said Him to make me cry (in such a way that only I get hurt) but none of my Love Ones ever then why He did this with my Nabeel. Can’t handle any such grief???. Feeling pain in my head. Now will try to sleep.
17 Aug 2018
He didn’t made me meet him before I can meet him He made him left for his village. Then I went to my other friend’s house near by to his’ but just for some minutes. Still having the same question,the same grief,the same pain.
In life nothing is in our control so we should allow nothing to effect us but this heart plays a very important role. Sometimes it gives us the reason to live like Love, sometimes it kills us by losing our Love and the many cases i have explained in my 2nd last article. And sometimes it turns heart wrenching when our Love One is sad/crying and we are helpless and can’t do anything except crying. I don’t know about others but I can’t handle even myself if he will cry, handling him is very far. Although I am also praying for my Nabeel and his whole family for giving them the strength to face this phase of life but on the other hand these questions also exist in my heart. Maybe with time my heart get satisfy but not now.
Never to make my Love Ones cry/hurt/sad. Please??? Allah G please
Bichra kuch iss ada se k rut hi bdl gai
Ik shaks sare shehr ko veeran kr gya
Please pray for everyone not to get any grief when happiness is knocking/is just going to knock at their door. And pray for every person on this world to get rid of their problems/difficulties /sorrows they are facing and will have (Please). Aameen Sum Aameen Ya Rab bul Aalameen
May God bless his soul and souls of all who died with peace and place all of them in heaven.And give a lot courage to the families to move on and handle themselves so as with my Nabeel’s family.
Aameen Sum Aameen Ya Rab bul Aalameen