Jee Le zara…. Swaragini (ragsan) part 36

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ragini rubbed her forehead worried for kanav.she looked around defeated with tears threatening to spill over but composing herself she resumed her search.”ragini”sanskar’s voice hit her ears as he ran towards her,his expression mirroring her worry.ragini hugged him tightly bursting into tears as he ran circles on her back in a soothing manner.ragini looked up biting her lip to forbid self from crying.she had to be strong for kanav, sanskar and herself.”kanav….he…he got… to know.. that I am.. not his… mother”she had to gather all her strength to say these bitter words which will haunt her relationship with her son for some time.sanskar cupped her cheeks wiping her tears with his thumb.”ragini he had to know someday…yes this is not the correct time or way but now it has happened… you can’t regret it.. you now have to stay strong for kanav… to convince him…we can hope he understands but you have to know he is also hurt…we will try our best to explain him…. and I am sure once he gets to know the truth he will love you more… you are his mother by all means… just blood can’t break your relation…we have to find him and make him understand”sanskar said optimistically but his broken voice revealed his fear.ragini squeezed his hand breaking a smile to comfort him.sanskar kissed her forehead and they set out to search kanav.
it’s 2 a.m. kanav where are you”ragini looked around hyperventilating due to continuous running.she was about to leave but seeing a sillhoutte of a person she moved towards that direction.the sight gave her a relief but at the same time a feeling of dread.ragini took careful step towards him as her heart broke seeing him shaking due to sobs.”baby”ragini said coming in front of him.kanav looked at her with his tear filled eyes.his heart shuddered seeing his mumma so broken but he didn’t speak anything neither acknowledged her presence.ragini sat beside him sighing heavily.kanav looked at the ground hiding his emotions.they sat sometime in silence with only rustling of leaves and the sound of insects filling the space.

ragini took his hand in hers patting it gently.his small hands were cold and ragini wondered if his heart would be the same for her.”kanav baby I know you are hurt…”ragini started staring at him intently as he stared the ground.her heart flinched seeing him not reacting to her but she had to be patient.”I wanted to tell you but at a correct time when you would have grown up… I didn’t wanted this part of your life to ruin your childhood… already you are much mature than your age and this would have shattered you and you might have lost your childhood completely…no mother wants her child to grow more than his age… I just wanted to protect you from the harm’s way… I feared that you will hate me… for not telling the truth….. but behind this truth there is a big story which you are not ready to know now…. I know you are really understanding but you have to give me some time…. I will tell you everything when the time comes…. and yes I may not be your blood mother but I love you like she would have…. I have raised you like her….in raising you I have also grown as a mother… you are my son and that is the truth you need to know now….. I ask you to trust me for some time…. will you please forgive your mumma for hiding this truth?”ragini held her ears as tears trickled down her cheeks.kanav looked at her hearing her sobs and moved his hand to wipe her tears away but withdrew it.”you are not my mumma?why are you not my mumma? what did I do that I didn’t born as your son… you love me more than any mother can love her child but I wanted to be your son…. I am disappointed that I am not your blood….I hate good that he didn’t make you my birth mother but I also thank him that I got you as my mother even after I had a mother…. maybe my mother would have loved me but then I would have lost your love… yes I am angry you didn’t told me but I am your son and I understand you had your reasons…I am angry on you but just some time and it will cool down…. but still I can’t accept it that I am not your son….am I so bad that God didn’t make you my mother?”kanav looked at her innocently with resignation in his eyes.ragini hugged him as he cried pouring out his pain.ragini rubbed his back breaking the hug.”mumma I am really not your son?is it true?am I that bad? mumma I…”kanav pouted sadly but was taken aback as ragini stood suddenly with hands on her waist glaring him.”listen here master kanav ragini gadodia you are my son and will always remain my son….past is past and dwelling on it you won’t get anything… I will always love you like I did and this truth won’t change my motherhood”ragini’s tone changed from high pitched command to a soft and warm understanding tone.kanav stood up and hugged her as she knelt down.sanskar stood at a distance witnessing the whole scene amazed by ragnav’s bond again.”nothing can break them apart”sanskar whispered softly as a smile threatened to break on his lips.

“Papa”kanav smiled as sanskar moved to them.”I am sorry that we didn’t told you anything”sanskar kneeled down holding his ears.kanav held his hands removing it from his ears and hugged him encircling his small hands around his neck.sanskar felt kanav’s warmth relieve him and he smiled at ragini in understanding.they reached baadi as kanav slept on sanskar’s shoulder.”laado I am sorry I didn’t know kanav would hear it…. I should have taken care of it…. I made you more worried”dadi folded her hands asking for forgiveness.ragini shook her head holding her hand as dadi hugged her.sanskar smiled seeing how much ragini matters in everyone’s life.”dadi…. actually I want to request something… can I take ragini with me now… I will drop her till morning… before haldi… Please”sanskar felt like he is about to be murdered as he said these words fearing dadi’s reaction.parvati looked at a wide eyed ragini who gave a pitiful look to sanskar, her eyes held so much pain and exhaustion due to past events but she still managed to smile,dadi looked at rachna standing beside her who made puppy eyes asking her to say yes.dadi smiled and said yes shocking sanskar as well as ragini.”now go before I change my mind”dadi admonished lightly as ragini held a frozen sanskar’s hand and pulled him out.”what just happened?”sanskar asked astonished.”are we going or not?”ragini smirked raising her eyebrow.sanskar nodded smiling as he turned his head to open the car.ragini took a long breath calming her nerves.sanskar smiled at her as she sat beside him.
the cool breeze hit her as sanskar opened the windows letting her nerves to relax as their heart beat rhythmetically.ragini felt awed by the starry night with the twinkling stars providing light feeling the dark path with hope.sanskar held her hand as they walked to a cliff.”ragini I know what you are showing is not true… yes you have to be strong but you also are a human…. and I am here to share your pain… just like you are my solace I want to be yours… I want to be your confidant… I want to hold you in your weak moments… I want to be there so that you don’t feel lonely…. trust me with this”sanskar held her shoulders as he spoke soothing words with utmost sincerity.ragini’s eyes twinkled with her tears as she hugged sanskar tightly bursting into a bitter cry.he held her close to himself letting her cry supporting her.sanskar rubbed her arms till her violent cry turned into weak sobs and then ragini turned completely normal.sanskar raised her chin wiping her tears as she smiled warmly at him.he side hugged her as they looked at the full moon emitting it’s Aura shining on them providing calmness to them.ragini kept her head on his chest hearing his heart beat which tickled her senses.she felt a blush rising on her cheeks as she drown herself in his sweet scent.sanskar withdrew back feeling her tucking her hair strand behind her ear but failing miserably.sanskar chuckled putting the strand behind her ear successfully.ragini looked at him innocently as he felt his heart flutter due to her action of biting her lip in nervousness.their eyes met and they looked at each other lovingly.sanskar turned towards her and cupped her cheeks with his shaking hands.ragini looked at him and shied away blushing as her ears heated up due to the proximity.sanskar leaned in and kissed her on her cheeks.ragini felt goosebumps rising in her body with butterflies colliding in her stomach.sanskar’s lips on her skin gave her a content feeling yet made her go weak on her knees.she leaned on him for support but he broke the contact and looked in her eyes with an unfathomable passion and intensity.ragini averted her gaze down to his lips and taking the cue sanskar leaned forward capturing her lips in his.ragini’s hand were engaged in his hair running smoothly around as sanskar held her hair pulling on slightly to get better access to her mouth.if the prior kiss was the highest she could feel now ragini felt ecstatic, the butterflies in her stomach found fireworks and cannonballs tickling her whole body.ragini moaned as sanskar nibbed her lower lip asking for entrance to her mouth.sanskar’s tongue roamed in her mouth as he savoured the feel of this moment with the heat rising at a threatening rate.sanskar explored her mouth as she whimpered for breath which made him withdrew to let her breath while he kissed the corner of her lips not loosing the contact.their nose rubbed against one another as he captured her lips again fiercely this time.
ragini felt his lips touching hers softly as if a petal indicating his care for her, with each second the intensity rose expressing his need,desire and passion to have her, to hold her.his warm lips softly tickled hers as the kiss grew more intense.she felt as if her place is natural in his arms,his arms designed to tuck her safely and it was her safe haven.in his arms,near him she could forget all her worries and be vulnerable not caring of the world as he will be there to protect her…. always.

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done!!! now you can curse me for coming so late but with the last part of this chapter I hope I mended some of it.ragsan’s first kiss ??. hope you guys liked it. I am really nervous as I am not quite…. specialised in writing such scenes but reading stories I tried to imagine what a kiss is like.i hope it was…. satisfactory.
I promise…no I don’t promise but let’s hope I come back soon.
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