Kya Hua Tera Vaada? A Nairan Fanfiction ~ Chapter 4

Naina’s POV

I went to my room and locked the door after playing with Muskaan and Meher. I didn’t know how to react after Karan apologized. I had responded coldly but deep inside, I knew that I loved him. I didn’t trust him after what he had done to me but I loved him and I missed him! I had my self respect and I couldn’t go back to him or forgive him after everything he had done. He might have apologized to me but does he realize what went through me when he mistrusted me? I hated him because I lost her because of him! If it wasn’t for him, she would have been with me!
~~~~~~~~~~Flashback~~~~~~~~~~
Naina: “Karan, trust me! I can’t even dream of doing something like this to you!”

Karan roared, “Shut up! We are over! I don’t even know why I married you!”

In his anger, he didn’t even realize what he was saying.

Naina: “Karan, meri baat suno! I haven’t done anything like you’re thinking! How can you even…?”

She was interrupted by a loud sound and she felt her right cheek paining. She kept her palm on her right cheek and looked at Karan with tears streaming down her cheeks. She couldn’t imagine that Karan, her Karan would ever slap her or accuse her of something like this!

Naina: “How dare you? You know what, Karan, I can’t take this anymore! I need a divorce!! Be happy, tumhe mujhse hamesha ke liye chutkara mil jaayega! Exactly what you wanted, isn’t it?”

Karan: “Yes! Divorce on mutual understanding! I don’t want anything to do with you, Miss Naina Solanki! Good Bye!”

He stormed out of the house and Naina sank to the floor, crying.
~~~~~~~~~~Flashback ends~~~~~~~~~~
Karan’s POV
I knew that I didn’t deserve forgiveness from Naina after what I had done but I knew that I had to gain her forgiveness. I would leave her life after she forgave me because she deserved someone better than me but I knew that I had to get her to forgive me!

Third Person’s POV
Naina was sobbing silently and Karan was thinking of the various instances where he didn’t believe Naina.

(Please do listen to this song while reading. I’ve included the English translation as well.)
Ranjhan dhoondhan main chaleya
Raanjhan mileya naa ae…
Jigraan vichon agan laga ke rabba
Lakeeran vich likh di judaai

I went out to find my lover,
but couldn’t find my lover..
O God, having started a fire in my heart,
why have you written separation in my fate..

Naina cried and thought of Karan. The way they had met, how he had proposed to her, the way they had got married and finally the way they had gotten separated.

Kho gaya, gum ho gaya
Waqt se churaaya tha jo
Apna banaaya tha..
wo tera, wo mera
Saath nibhaaya tha jo
Apna banaaya tha..

it’s lost, missed,
what was stolen from time itself,
and was made my own..
that closeness that was there,
between you and me,
that we had embraced..

Karan thought of the way Naina had impacted his life, how she had cured his disease, how she had always been there for him, always supporting him and then how he had mistrusted her and told her that she was the biggest mistake he had ever committed!

Chadariya jheeni re jheeni
Chadariya jheeni re jheeni
Aankhein bheeni ye bheeni ye bheeni
Yaadein jheeni re jheeni re jheeni..

The sheet is thin, worn..
(the meaning here is that it’s a little transparent, as it is wet with tears.)
My eyes are moist,
The memories are delicate..

Naina cried thinking of how she lost “her”. She thought of the number of times she had tried to prove to Karan that she hadn’t broken his trust, that she had always remained his!

Aisa bhi kya milna, saath ho ke tanha
Aisi kyun sazaa hum ne hai paayi, raanjhana ve
Phir se mujhe jeena, tujh pe hai marna
Phir se dil ne di hai ye duhaai, saajana ve
Lakeeron pe likh di kyun judaai..

What kind of meeting this is, separated even though together..
Why have I received such a punishment, O beloved..
I have to live again, I have to die for you,
This my heart says again, O beloved.
why have you written separation in my fate..

Karan thought of how he promised Naina that he would always trust her, that he would never allow tears to come in her eyes, that he would always keep her happy and how he had broken all those promises in a fraction of a second.

Ghair sa hua khud se bhi, naa koi mera
Dard se kar le chal yaari, dil ye keh raha
Kholoon jo baahein, bas gham ye simat rahe hain
Aankhon ke aage, lamhe ye kyun ghat rahe hain
Jaane kaise koi sehta Judaaiyaan..

I became separated from myself, no one is mine..
Make friends with pain, my heart says now.
If I open my arms, only sorrows come to me,
I don’t know why these moments are taking place in front of my eyes..
I don’t know how someone bears with separations..

Naina cried thinking of the numerous times when she had to hear taunts from neighbours, the times when she was called a person who couldn’t handle a relationship, the times when Meher was called illegtimate, the times when she had cried herself to sleep thinking of him.