The confession- Rikara (shot 8)

Hey everyone!! This chapter of The confession is dedicated to Revu, who never fails to comment and keep me motivated to continue, in this chapter I’ve also added some things that she wanted me to…I hope you like this!!

Om: Gauri, I know I’ve hurt you a lot and I don’t even deserve your forgiveness but I just want to tell you everything. Everything that I have deep in my heart. And I promise, whatever decision you take, I’ll accept that. But I can’t go away without trying once. I’ll answer all your questions, all the questions that I was never able to answer.

Omkara walked closer to her.

Om: Gauri you asked me your value in my life right? The answer is, you are my life. Without you, I’m nothing, my life is nothing without you being a part of it. Without you it’s darkness everywhere. I was completely engulfed by darkness when you stepped into my life and became the moon that started to light up the darkness in my heart. And I don’t know when or how but my heart started beating for you. I couldn’t explain it, put it into words why I felt all that for you, why I couldn’t see you in pain, why my heart broke each time I accused you, why it hurt me to see you hurt. It took me long to realise why. But now I know why.
Gauri: kyu?
(Why) Gauri asked innocently.

Om smiled with tears filled in his eyes and walked towards her and held both her hands in his before he continued

Om: Tumne mujhe apna bhagwan samjha tha na Gauri, par sach to yeh hain ki main bhagwan kehlane layak hi nahi hoon. Maine kabhi bhagvan pe vishwaas nahi kiya hain, haan bohut pehle karta tha, par halat ke wajah se un par se mera vishwaas tut gaya tha. Bohut suna hain ki log bhagvan ko doondte doondte pahad chad jaate hain. Lekin mujhe meri khuda mil gayi. Tum. Tum ho meri bhagwan. Marriage, love, I had stopped beliving in it all…But you made me belive in it again. You made me meet myself again. For me everything was just either black or white, but you showed me the grey in between, the colours around. Gauri, I know I’m a duffer, but honestly I was scared, scared that my trust will be broken again, that my heart will not be able to handle another cheat, that’s why despite my heart wanting to believe you, my brain didn’t.
(You considered me your god right? But Gauri truth is, I’m not worthy of being called a god. I’ve never believed in god, I did long back but then lost faith due to the situations that occured in my life. I’ve heard people searching for god in mountains and all. But I found my god, you. You are my god)

Gauri looks on with tears in her eyes.

Om: Gauri, I want to erase all your complaints, I want to give you every happiness that you deserve. I never understood why you were so important to me, why your presence mattered to me. Why my heart ached when you were away..I know I’ve hurt you a lot, but please give me one chance. I swear I’ll make up for all the mistakes I did. I dont want to rush you into things…so…Will you please be my friend for life?

Gauri felt a sting in her heart hearing just the word ‘friend’. What all she had expected and what did it become? How she thought he would tell her he loves her but look at him doing so much for a friendship request. Hadn’t she already accepted that? Are rich people mad?

Omkara noticed her fallen face but he couldn’t really understand why it had fallen. Did he do some mistake again?

Gauri: you did all this just to ask that?

Gauri couldn’t help but ask. Omkara looked blankly at her. There was an irritation in her voice and he couldn’t understand why. Then it striked him that she was expecting him to confess. He wanted to dance then and there but decided to stay in his position and play around a little.

Om: is there a problem?
Gauri: no, not at all. I’m leaving
Saying this, Gauri turned away to leave.

Om: Juda hona kismat tha
Iss adoore kisse ki
Abhi mohobbat karni hain
Humein humari hisse ki

Before Gauri could leave he held her hand and pulled her close to himself. She landed on her back against him and he whispered with his husky voice in her ears. The shayri that he had said replayed in her head, she was curious to know if he actually meant that he….loved her?

Om: where are you going? You didn’t answer me
Gauri: why should I? I’m already your friend right? Just let me go. You wont say anything useful anyway-

Om: I…Love….You
The three magical words were finally out of his mouth cutting her off and a shiver ran down her spine due to their intimicy and his confession. She looked back at him wide eyed.

Am I dreaming?
She wondered.

Gauri: you…what..?
Om: I love you Gauri. I love you a lot. I realised it very late but I really love you.

Gauri’s mind went numb listening to his confession. She couldn’t make out words to tell him.
He freed her and cupped her face.
Om: Teri aahat ke bina
Yeh dil dhadaktha nahi
Tere bina yeh saason ka karwaan chalta nahi
Khuda ke saamne bhi sar
Utaye ghoomta hoon
Tara naam poonchon
Toh mera sar jhuk jaaye

He gets on his knees and continues.
Om: Mere liye ishq aur ibadat mein ab koi farak nahi hain Gauri. Omkara sirf aur sirf Gauri ka hain. Sirf Gauri ka. Please come back Gauri.
(There’s no difference between love and worship for me anymore. Omkara belongs only to Gauri)

Gauri: think once more before you say such things.
Even though she could see his love for her, a part of her still wanted to be assured that this time he wouldn’t change.

Om: thinking is done in deals. Love just happens, Gauri.

Gauri let go of all her insecurities and got on her knees and embraced him. He hugged her back, as close as possible, thinking that she could move anytime from her place. He wanted to stay in that moment for as long as possible.

Jo Na Keh Sake Hum
Jo Na Keh Sake Tum
Jo Na Keh Sake Hum
Jo Na Keh Sake Tum
Kehne Lagi Dono Se Woh
Khamoshiyaan..
O Saathiya
Kehne Lagi Dono Se Woh
Khamoshiyaan..
O Saathiya
Saathiya Saathiya
Saathiya Saathiya
Saathiya Saathiya
Saathiya Saathiya

After some time Gauri moved apart and looked into his eyes. He wiped away her tears.
Om: come on. Something else is also remaining.
Om says getting up and helping her get up.
Om: does this mean you have given me another chance?
Gauri nods.
Om: will you return to our home with me?
Gauri: ya
They both smiled.
Om: thank you so much Gauri..
Saying this, Om pulls Gauri closer and Gauri looks at him surprised.

Om: so…won’t you say..?
Gauri: say what?
Om: the three magical words Gauri..
Gauri blushes
Om: tell me Gauri, I want to hear it from your mouth..will you..?
Gauri looks into his eyes.
Gauri: Omkara ji, ishq puja hein aur hum yeh puja karte rahenge. Jeevan bhar ke liye.

For a moment, Om couldn’t think of anything to say.
How did I become so lucky to have someone like Gauri in my life? Om thought
Om: Gauri..
Gauri: I. Love. You. Too Omkara ji..
Gauri said blushing.
Om felt like he was on top of the world. He embraced her and they both stayed in that moment for some time.

Om: now come with me. Next surprise..
Gauri: another surprise?

Omkara nods and takes her to one of the corners of the room. Rose petals fall on her and she looks at him surprised.

As she enjoys the moment, Omkara pulls a cloth off one canvas that was covered.

Gauri looks at it. A plain canvas. Was this his surprise? Will he ask me to paint now?
Gauri wondered in shock.

Gauri: yeh toh kaali hain, Omkara ji

(This is empty, Omkara ji)
Omkara moves closer to her and takes on her hand and places it on the plate filled with some colour. He makes her grab a fistfull of the dust and throw it at the canvas. Gauri let’s him control her and she looks on curiously.
The canvas starts to display something and Gauri reads it out in a whisper.
Gauri: will…you…marry …me?
Omkara gets on his knees again and takes one of her hands in his.

Om: will you marry me Gauri?
Gauri looks on shocked.
Gauri: but we’re already married right Omkara ji? Then why are you asking this?

Om: Gauri that marriage was done without proper rituals and without our consents. I want us to marry with all the rituals and this time with our full heart. So, will you marry me Miss Gauri Kumari Sharma? Will you become Mrs Omkara? Will you give me the chance to become your husband? Your friend for life? I want to wake up everyday to you. I want to finish my day seeing you. So will you fill your colours in my life? Will you make my life beautiful by coming into it?
Kya zindagi ki har safar mein
Saath do ge mera
Kya mera haath
Apne haath mein tham lo gi
Ladkadoun main kabhi
Toh kya sahara do gi
O saathiya mere
Kya banogi tum mere
Druvtara

Gauri stood speechless taking each word in, for some reason her jaathadhari was on shayar mode today and had been saying shayri after shayri to her, and he just proposed her for marriage!! A remarriage!?

Gauri: but we married-
Om: so you don’t want to marry me? Ok it’s fine. I can understand you wouldn’t want to keep tying yourself with me-

Gauri: no Omkara ji that’s not the matter-
Omkara: then what’s the matter Gauri?
Gauri: I…I’ll…I’ll marry you

Omkara gets up and engulfs her in a hug.

This was his happiest day.
Gauri: but what was the need of all this?
He cups her face with his huge hands.
Om: it was needed Gauri, I wanted to show you how much you mean to me. And I know all girls will have some dreams regarding her marriage. I want to fullfill all your dreams. I want to do everything that I can to make you happy. You deserve everything Gauri.

Gauri: thank you Omkara ji for everything. You have no idea how much this means to me. How much I’ve waited for this day to come. I never even thought that this day would finally come and that it would be so beautiful.

Om: please don’t ever leave me again Gauri. If I do some mistake, which I’m sure I won’t. But if I do, then slap me hard and give me punishment but don’t disappear again. You have no idea how much I and everyone else searched for you. I don’t want to go through all that ever again. I promise you Gauri that no matter what my trust on will never even shake. That you will be my first priority and I’ll keep your happiness before anything. I promise to you that I’ll be a really good husband, I’ll never be that monster again. I swear I hate myself for what I did to you..I really do. I-

Gauri too cups his face and interrupts him.
Gauri: I’m happy where you are there. But promise me that you will love yourself. Cause if you don’t, then how will you love me? I know you have changed now, and whatever happened was in the past. You got your share of punishment. But if you keep blaming yourself, then how can we be happy?

Omkara nodded his head and attached their foreheads.

Om: I love you Gauri. I love you so much.
Gauri: I love you too Omkara ji.

Baadlon Mein
Ghul Na Jaayein
Hain Jo Lamhein Thehre Thehre
Do Dilon Mein Jazb Karle
Saare Jazbe Gehre Gehre

Kal Kya Pata Mile na Miley
Nazdeekiyaan
O Saathiya
Kal Kya Pata Mile na Miley
Nazdeekiyaan
O Saathiya
Saathiya Saathiya
Saathiya Saathiya
Saathiya Saathiya
Saathiya Saathiya

After some time they walked out of the room and went inside a car that was waiting for them.
Gauri: where are we going?
Omkara just winked at her and the car stopped infront of a chaat stall.

Gauri: this place..?
Omkara nodded his head: I know you love Sharma ji’s paani puri.

Gauri: but there’s no one here. And this is not Sharma ji-
Before Gauri could complete her sentence, Anika emerged from the stall with a chef like attire and winked at Gauri.
Gauri: bhaujai….

Anika: bhaujai koun madam? Main toh chaat wala hoon, aapko kya kaana hain? Humare paas Sharma ji ke khaas pani puri hain. Aapko doon?
(Who’s sister in law, madam? Im a chaat vendor, what do you want to eat? We have Sharma’s special pani puri, shall I give you?)
Anika asked imitating a chaat vendor. Gauri looked on surprised at her sister in law’s new attire and then back at Omkara. He had a huge grin on his face.
Anika: tell me madam ji

Gauri: ji paani puri.
And then Anika served her paani puri and Gauri ate it in her style. Both Om and Anika looked on surprised at her style.

Gauri: this really is Sharma ji’s paani puri…
Soon Omkara and Gauri fed it to eachother.
Once they were done Om thanked Anika.
Om: thank you.
Anika nodded.

And then Omkara and Gauri walked a little further to see Bhavya standing with kulfis.
Gauri: Bhavya..
Omkara took the kulfies from her, thanked her and offered one to Gauri. Once they were done with the icecream, Gauri saw Rudra standing with flowers.

Gauri: rudy bhaiya.. you-
Omkara takes the flowers from him and gets on his knees and gives it to her, Gauri gladly accepts the flowers and thanks him.
Rudra goes away leaving them alone. A strong wind blew and sent shivers down Gauri. It was getting cold. Omkara quickly went towards the car and returned with a shawl.

He wrapped it around Gauri and she realised that it was the same shawl he had brought from Germany, with those peacock feathers.
Gauri: this..?
Om: I had bought this for you, but could never have the courage to give it to you..I hope you like it..

Gauri: thank you Omkara ji…I really love it.
Gauri couldn’t believe that this was for her, that he had thought about bringing something from Germany for her too! Her heart was screaming in joy.

To be continued…
Are you guys excited for rikara remarriage? If you have any ideas or scenes you would like to be added, do let me know..