Swasan os: I DONT CARE.

Hi guys this is my first os please support me. The story is which swara is narrating. I know this is extremely boring but give it a try.
Warning: long os.
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I was sitting on the chair dreaming about him and wondering”if he ever loves me back” right now i am dreaming about my love,.my prince charming whom i thought the world of. Whom i always had loved and and have always considered as mine but never had the slightest idea what destiny had in store for me.
I was reading a romantic novel and seeing the her and heroines love for each other i wondered again” would he do this to me? Would he love me? Would he?” Questions questions questions. Questions which i never got an answer and afraid to ask anyone. Only one person in the world i could share these things to. Ragu my bestie. I love her so much and we share literally everything so i dont feel shy or afraid to ask her anything.
trust her to give a satisfying answer to my qusetions.
I asked her.
” swara, if u love him then say it to him but if u are unsure of ur feelings then dont.” Satisfied.
True to say i cant really say that i love him. Ragini always say find ur real feelings. So i always try but right niw i know i love him.
I said ragini so but she said” u both have never spoken to him neither does he so how”
True again, we have.near spoken to each other. He is a distant relation but he is living quite near.

Dad knows him. I really wanna say that i love him but felt extremely shy.

I thought to confess him Soon but dropped the idea. The next day we invited them for supper in our home.
I often stole glances at him through out the whole time.
The way he was smiling with everyone and the way he looked and the way he was making everyone smile.

Then supper time.I and mom dint eat. We were serving . Dad made mom sit near him and and everone pulled their repective wives. Brothers and sisters.
Only free space was near sanskaar.
(sanskaar is the guy swara loves)
“swara beta sit with sanskaar,and eat.”
Mom said. I refused but a glare from mom made me sit there.
I could hardly get food down my throat.
Suddenly felt a kick from under the table. Our Legs brushed and i felt a spark throught my body and was the exact moment we quickly withdrawed. Then i looked in the direction to see who is it, to see it was sanskaar his eye tightly shut and biting his tougue. Looked at my other side to see my brother smirking. Sanskaar took a quick at me and ate in silence.

The next day i went to his home.and and was,continuously gazing him for 5 mins then went to tall with others. All the while i stole glances at sanskaar.
3 months passed and my love still is unconfessed. And my love,for him grew deeper and deeper. I just wanted to spend eternity with him and had very high hopes about it. I knew he would accept me.
Ragu had always supported me. 3 more months passed. Still my love remained untold and now i couldnt live without him. There is no world without him. These feelings were inside me.

That day was my birthday. I Eagerly waiting to tell him. I wanted nothing on my birth day but him accepting my love. That wad more than enough for me.
I went to his home and was surprised to see dad already there.
” aree swara beta come ina nd have a seat.” Dp uncle called out i smiled polietely and stood behind papa’s chair.
Dp uncle called sanskaar and they all spoke about……. His marraige and he was smiling and agreeing.
I felt like my whole world shattered into a million pieces. I felt like my world falling apart.I felt like … Like dying. I murmured an excuse and went home and locked the room, i made a huge mess in my room and cried miserably.
Ragini came and knocked swaras door.
No response. Again knocked no response. Ragini got to know about the marraige proposal and was desprate to see swara. She was continuously knocking hoping swara hasnt done anything stupid.
Then she tried the door knob and it was open and she entered it.
“Swara!!!”

Swara was sitting on the floor reading a book. Her room was neat and clean.
“swara!”
“shhh, cant u see i am reading? Its a crucial part.” swara said.
” did u know, sanskaar marraige?”
Swara looked up ” yeah” she said.

She saw swara was smiling so she decided to drop the subject. Then she locked the door behind her and sat beside swara.
” swara but u love him” ragini couldnt help asking this.
” correction loved him. Not now.”
“but”ragini said but swara interrupted ragini.
” i know ragu I just understood one,thing.True love are only in fantasies. Happy endings are meant for luckiet people
…… this is all madness this isnt even love and anything else and i am just letting my imagination go wild. u know what I DONT CARE whatever is gonna happen and i serously dont care if i am marry him or not or love him or not and etc..etc… Why shud i be in dumps about a person who never loved me and whom i never talked to?? I am gonna live the usual I am gonna smile laugh enjoy
Coz i know my real prince charming where ever he is gonna come searching for me one day. He will come for me only me.
One day , i will get my my mr. perfect.”

” you r right swara!”
They both hug.
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Authors note.
If u have love failure, or so many problems in ur life, u all think that suicide is the only solution to it. SUCIDE IS NOT A SOLUTION.
when u guys do this stupid stuff u all think only about urself. U font think what will ur family and ur close ones feel.
problems come and go in our life and u have to say ur self” the best always comes after the worst.”
If u have love failure, maybe u both were not destined to be together. U will get a person better than that.
Please whenever u feel like ending ur life just think about ur family and loved ones and what they have done to all these years. How they had loved and cared for u. That thought of ending ur life will go away.
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Hi guys this is my first os, pardon me for errors and please Please comment since this is the first time . Please i need everyone to comment and envourage me. I wont disclose my name now but i am pretty sure one person will definetely find me. And if u guess who i am say it in ur comments. I will disclose my name when replying to your comments. Please comment. And sorry for wasting ur time by this remarkably stupid os.