Swasan- His love Her Strength (chapter 7)

Chapter 7

Swara was sitting beside Sanskar and caressing his hairs while he was sleeping because of medicine effect.

She was thinking of all the incidents happened in her life till date, tears started to roll down her cheeks..

She immediately wiped her tears..

‘No more tears Swara.. no more.’ She was reminding herself time to time and caressing his hairs..

Sanskar started to move in sleep after about an hour.. it alarmed Swara and she immediately pulled her hand back and saw him with concerned eyes..

“Water…” Sanskar murmered trying to get up.

She immediately helped him to sit straight and gave the glass of water to him from the side table, helping him to drink.

She saw him.. he avoided looking at her.. his face was pale and stressed..

“Sanskar..” she called out for him..
“Hmm.” He jst hummed looking everywhere else.

She held his face in between her palms and made him look at her forcefully.. she can see some tears forming in his eyes, this state of his stabbed her heart..

“Sanskar.. what happened?? Is it paining?” She asked being concerned and he nodded.
“Oo.. shit!! Is it paining too much.. where is it paining? Wait let me call Doctor.” She literally freaked out and was about to leave when he held her wrist..

She gave him a worried expression..

“It is paining here Swara..” said pointing towards the left side of his chest directly on heart with his hand, tears started to roll down more his eyes..

She immediately understood what he is talking about and hugged him such that his face was buried in her chest and he was weeping..

She made no attempt to make him stop crying because sometimes tears are much needed but was just rubbing his back..

After some time he stopped and departed himself.

She cupped his face and had numerous unspoken questions in her mind…

Swara: I know Sanskar what happened completely broke you down and is hard to accept but we have to na…( she said wiping his tears with her thumb).

Sanskar: I am not sad for that.. this is the reality which I have accepted long back when Ragini and Laksh did our last rites (he said closing his eyes… seeing it swara held his hand)..
But instead I am feeling guilty.

Swara:(shocked): Guilty???

Sanskar: yes guilty for not being a good son.. not being a good brother and a good husband..

Swara looked at him as if he is mad??.. (me too?)

Swara: Sanskar???

Sanskar: Wait let me complete.. you know Swara I always was close to badi maa more than mom.. mom always used to feel bad but didnt said anything seeing my happiness..
Unintentionally I was avoiding her and giving badi maa more time.. i always thought she also loves me like laksh and adarsh bhai.. i was very happy.. i love mom too bt still and bade papa was my idol… every child make his/her dad idol bt i always made bade papa and respected him alot and used to think of all the things making him happy.. loved adarsh and laksh like uttara and always helped them in every thing but what they did in return… (tears rolling down both of their eyes)..
And today only mom, dad and uttara are with me while they all considered me dead and are fine with it..
They are even ready to forgive the culprit of my death…
They always discriminated with me.. when i did mistake few years ago they just abonded me.. but when their own son did the sin, they even not thought to punish him and even not try to find me.. (swara was about to speak).
Wait wait. And you know what i didnt expect this from them even… bt i think i got the punishment of what I did to my parents.. I did bad to them and see destiny is doing the same with me.. seeing mom here i was happy, i wanted to sleep in her lap and cry but more then it guilt over took me..
I dont know how i will face them.. i (his voice begans to choke)..

Swara jerked him away from her, he looked at her in shock.

Swara: Who are you? What you did to My Sanskar?

Sanskar was shocked to listen these words.

Sanskar: Swara, what are you speaki..?

Swara: sushhh(placing her finger on his lips) bht bol liya tumne aur bht sun liya maine.. hadd ho gyi agr main kuch bol nhi rhi toh it means tum mere Sanskar ke bare mein kuch v bologe…(she said showing her eyes to him).

What you said?? You are not good son, brother and husband.. you know what I agree to you in it..

You are defintely not good but you are the best one…bestestttt…
From where these thoughts crossed your mind. Huhhh.. Idiot..(he looked at her in shock and pouted his lips hearing ‘Idiot’ while her finger was still on his lips).
Stop dont give these expressions… you are an idiot.
You know Sanskar why you did this things.. because you never differentiated between mom and badi maa. You loved both equally and understand both equally..
Just tell me was there any incident when mom cried and you was not there?? (Not giving him chance to speak).. no na..

Sanskar tried to speak but her finger was coming in between.. she pulled her finger back..

Swara: Bolo.

Sanskar: Actually han swara.. you know when Bade papa send me out of the house with Kavita (swara shifted a bit hearing her name).. toh i was the reason of her cries and was not their to wipe them..

Swara: Haan haan tab tumhe uss chipkali ke alawa dikhta hi kaun tha. (She again sealed his mouth but this time with her hand.. he chuckled a bit seeing her jealous still of her)..
Tum na aise hi ache ho.. muh band krke.
On a serious note.. you still came back to them right?? And first of all you came to mom and said her everything.. you already erased the pain she had because of that..
And about dad… he always thought of bade papa as his god.. and making a idol of your parent’s god is not bad according to me.. is it??
Sanskar you know what.. this is not bad but you are too good keeping every relation and valuing it most… you never neglect any relation for other.
You are best one could ever get..
But unfortunately with the wrong people.. ( she said closing her eyes and including herself in ‘wrong people’ as she thought she never gave him importance he deserved… she was going back to her own guilt but she looked at Sanskar and kept her thoughts aside)..

Sanskar: Swara.. i dont want anything.. we will leave this place in few days only forever.

Swara: Noo Sanskar not before completing some pending works..

Sanskar: we will not be doing any planning and plotting…

Swara: we will.. its time for them to pay back.. for harming you..  you dont know Sanskar what I have gone through from last days.. and what they did is not a mistake and a sin..

Sanskar: Swara.. they dont matter to me anymore.

Swara: not even me.. but I wont let them go that easily.. they have to value you and have to pay for every scratch on your body and every blood and tear drop you lost…
(she said wiping his remaining tears).

He sensed the seriousness in her voice and he know very well that if she thinks something then definitely she will not back off.

He nodded… and hugged her while she reciprocated..

*** During the same time***

In badi..

Dida entered inside and shouted name of Shomi..

She came out of the house and looked at her mother with all the affection and love…

(Imagine the dialogues of dida in bengali.. sorry bt i didnt knew it???)

Shomi: Maa..

Dida: Shomi chal. Mujje tere saath baat krni hai.

Shomi: come maa..

Dida: Idhar nhi.. mere saath chal.

Dida came out of badi while shomi followed her..

They reach near the lake where Ragini pushed Swara.

Dida: why you did this shomi?

Shomi looked at her shocked.

Shomi: maa what??

Dida: Shoru told me everything.

Shomi: maa.. meri shona.. she is bearing so much of the pain and i am not able to do anything. She is not ready to talk to me..

Dida: why will she talk to you? Where were you when she needed a mother?

Shomi: maa aap??

Dida: haan why you did this?? How can you ask her to go against Sanskar? Why? What was the need?

Shomi: Maa. I cant see my shona hurt and sad.. i know i did very wrong by asking her to do this but you also see na.
I know how much my shona wanted to have a big, joint family…
How much she craved for her father’s love because of my one mistake… bcz i didnt try to make him understand?
She used to pretend she is fine but she used to cry whole night hiding from us.. she showed it never affected her but i have seen my chirpy shona turned total gloomy on father’s day…
She never asked me anything but I always saw her suffering…
When she got to know abt Shekar i saw the happiness in her eyes…
She tried best to unite us after tht i have seen her happiest. She got a sister..
When she got married to Sanskar…, she got a complete full family.. for whom she craved from birth..  i know Sanskar also misses his family and so i asked Swara… i know how much the family is important for them…

Dida: par for family are they important shomi?? You saw only one side of coin.. but you forgot a coin is never completed without another side too.. and about which father you are saying shomi?? The one who never trusted Swara and always blamed her for everything?? Tht father??

And sister..(she laughed at it)..
She is the same sister who pushed Shoru from here to die( pointing towards the bridge… shomi’s eyes filled with tears)..
That sister who totally tried to destroy her character and all..
She is still selfish shomi.. she can never change

( sachi dida never???).

She didnt thought once before hiding the truth to Swara but agreed to Laksh.. and about Family… they never thought once before blaming shoru and Sanskar for everything which happens wrong in their house.. do they?? No never and they never forgive them too instead think to punish them but for their own children..

You know shomi sometimes orphans are more happy then a person who have family.. you know why??
Because the family they choose makes them feel happy and complete… their friends and the ones who came to their life….
And a family one.. if your own family doesnt respect you then.. will you be happy living in that place… it is not less then a living hell…

And blood relations are not everything.. husband and wife never shares a blood bond but it is the strongest in all the relations.. you know y?? Bcz their relation contains love,trust, respect for each other..
Do you think you did right still?

Shomi fell down on her knees…
She cried thinking what she did?? How can she expect swara to do this? Her daughter is her everything and she unknowingly is making her suffer the most..

She wiped her tears and stood up..

Shomi: Maa.. i wont let her do this anymore.. i will support shona.. she bear a lot now.. not anymore..

Dida smiled and patted her head.

Only a mother can teach her daughter anything, any lesson of the life in any age group… the best..

Shomi: but maa shona, will she forgive me??

Dida: what you think? Will she not?? She need a mother right now.. yes i agree may be she will take time but she will understand your pov and will forgive you.. our shoru is so pure at heart tht she cant keep her hatred for much time..
Shomi nodded and smiled with teary eyes..

Shomi: maa i need to do somewhere first.

Dida: where?

Shomi: to take my son with me and to come to my house back…(refering to bose house) leaving a man who never cared for my child.

Dida smiled proudly while shomi left.

**Dida didnt told anything about Sanskar being alive or revenge thing to shomi as she knows she will not like this and can still create damage to them**

Precap: Finally Revenge, romance?, masti?

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