Tere bin (kuch rang pyar ke aise bhi) shot 5 (revised)

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Jatin: Soha tried to kill herself.
Dev: What???
Jatin: That night when we returned to hotel Sona asked me to take Soha along with me. I knew she was disturbed so I agreed. I kept on thinking and I found it weird..Sona never left Suhana alone so I just thought to check whether everything is ok..I rushed to the room but she didn’t open the room. I called the hotel staff to open the door and when they opened the door Sona was laying in a pool of blood..We rushed to the hospital. I called Sourabh and told him everything. I asked him to not tell anything to uncle and aunty. He came to Delhi. He went to your house but no one allowed him to meet you. Your family told that you are sick. Thanks to God that he saved Sona. We stayed in Delhi for more days till Sona feels better..after that I asked Sona to promise me that she will repeat such a stupid thing. If she ever loved you then she will not harm her in any manner. And we returned. That’s it..
Dev: Thank you Jatin mere biwi ki Jaan bachane ke liye..(thank you jatin fir saving life of my wife)
Jatin: Sorry to say Dev but tumhari biwi to tabhi mar gayi jab tumne khud aake use divorce papers diye the. Jo Bach gayi vo bewkoof ladki thi jisne tumse pyar Kiya tha. (Sorry to say Dev but your wife died when you sent her divorce papers. The one who is alive is the stupid girl who is mad in your love)
Dev: Jo tumhe pata hai vo Aadha sach hai..(whatever you know is half truth)
And I called Sourabh and asked to come here right now..And he came in 15 minutes.
Sourabh: kya hua? Sona thik to hai?(what happened?if Sona is ok?)
Dev: ha vo thik hai.. Sona ne jab khudkushi karne ki koshish ki why didn’t you inform me? Tum to sab kuch jante the na..(when sona tried to kill herself why didn’t you inform me? You knew everything)
Sourabh: mai aaya tha pr kisine mujhe aap se milane hi nahi diya. Mujhe laga ki aap sach me move on kar rahe hai isliye mujhase Milana nahi chahte aur disappoint hoke mai vapas aa gaya..(I came to meet you but no one allowed me. They told me that you are sick. I thought that you are moving on that’s why you are trying to avoid me. I was disappointed and I returned)
Dev: move on aur mai? (Move on and me?)
Sourabh: Sorry vo tension me sab negative socha..(sorry I was in tension.. I took it in negative manner)
Jatin: Dev move on to tumne tabhi Kiya tha jab tumne vo divorce papers bheje the..(you moved on on that very moment when you sent her divorce papers on your own)
Sourabh: nahi Jatin..Vo divorce papers nakli the..(no Jatin..that papers were fake)
Jatin: What???

Dev: humari shaadi bachane ka vo ek hi solution tha. Agar Bijoy baba aur Sona divorce papers ready krte to humari shaadi such me tut jati isliye Maine, Asha Maa ne aur Sourabh ne decide Kiya ki hum hi nakali papers banate hai.(that was the only way to save our marriage. If Bijoy Baba and Sona makes the papers then everything will finish so me , Asha maa and Sourabh we decided to make fake papers and send it to Sona.)
Taki mahol shant ho aur humari shaadi bhi na tute pr Asha maa ne mujhase ek promise liya ke Mai koi galat step nahi lunga. Aur mujhe Sona ke saath contact rakhane se mana kar diya. Na mai Sona Ko call kr skta tha na hi uske call utha skta tha. (Then everything may get normal and we could save our marriage. but Asha maa asked me to promise that I will not take any stupid decision. and prohibited me from calling or meeting Sona. I was forced to not receive her calls.)
Asha Ma ye chahati thi ki Sona tabhi mere life me vapas aayegi jabtak meri Maa khud Sona ko accept nahi krti. Vo bhi pure dil se.. kyu ki last time maa ne Sona Ko sirf mere khatir apnaya tha..pr vo Dil se Sona Ko kabhi accept nahi kr payi. (Asha maa wanted that Sona will return in my life only when my mom accepts Sona..that to without any external forces. When we got married maa accepted sona only for my sake.)
Legally mai aur Sona abhi bhi Pati Patni hai. Meri Maa aajtak Sona se nafrat krte aayi hai. Mujhe laga tha ki Maa kuch din baad sab kuch bhul jayegi pr aisa kuch nahi hua. Mera dard usko kabhi dikha hi nahi..Ye 7 saal maine kaise gujare hai vo bas mai hi janta hu..Bina usko dekhe, Bina uski aavaj sune..Kabhi kabhi lagta tha ki isase behatar mar jau..pr jimmedariyo se bhag nahi sakta tha..(legally me n Sona are still husband and wife. Till now my mom hated Sona. I thought that after some days she will forget it but nothing happened as I thought. My mim couldn’t understand my pain. Only I know that how I have lived in these 7 years. Without seeing her, without listening her voice. )
Jatin: I am sorry Dev . Mujhe ye sab nahi pata tha..(I am sorry Dev I didn’t know that)
Dev: It’s OK Jatin. Mai to isi baat me khush hu ki Sona Ko kuch nahi hua aur vo mere saath hai (it’s ok Jatin. I am happy that Sona is fine and she is with me. I don’t want anything else)
I moved to read next letter..But it wasn’t for me. It was written to Maa.. I was confused.. Should I read it or should I give it to Maa.. it’s almost 3:30am. I asked Sourabh to be with Sona till I come.

And I was on my way to home. I took the entire envelope with me.
I went to Maa.. I was impatient.. I woke her up.
Ishwari: Dev itni raat ko tu yaha? Sab thik hai na?(Dev if everything is fine? You came very late)
Dev: Ha Maa sab thik hai..Ye khat padh..Tere liye Sonakshi ne likha tha..(maa everything is fine. You just read it. Sona had written it for you)
Ishwari: likha tha matlab ?
Dev: tu pehle padh na..Mai fir batata hu tujhe (you just read. I will tell you after that)
Ishwari: Sonakshi thik to hai na?(Sonakshi is ok na?)
Dev: Haa vo thik hai..Tu bas ye khat padh..(she is fine. You just read it)
Maa started reading it..And I was just looking at her and wondering what is there in that letter..And Maa started crying while reading it. I asked Maa what happened but she didn’t say anything. She was still reading. And after finishing it she was terribly crying. And I snatched letter from her hand.
Dear Maa..
Aap kaise ho? Mera gussa khane pr to nahi nikalti hai na? Apna khayal rakhiye Maa kyu ki ab aap pr sirf Dev ki Jimmedari nahi hai. Shayad maine kabhi aapko kuch diya nahi isliye aaj mai apni sabse pyaari chij aapko aur Dev Ko sop kr ja rahi hu. (How are you maa? I hope that you are not angry with me. Take care of yourself because now you have some more responsibility rather than Dev. I never gave you anything that why I am giving you the most previous thing of my life)
Aapki ek poti hai maa..3 saal ki.. Suhana. Mai Soha Ko Dev Ko sop rahi hu ye Baba Ko pata chalega tab Baba bahot gussa aayega pr mai nahi chahati ki Apne maa baap hote huye Suhana unse alag rahe. Shayad mai ab Suhana ka saath nahi de paungi isliye ye khat aur humari Soha..(you have granddaughter of 3 years old..Suhana. If baba comes to know that I am giving my Soha then he will be very angry. But I don’t want that having her own parents Sona should not live without them. I couldn’t accompany Soha further that why I m handing over this letter and Soha.)

Dev hamesha se ek bahot achhe insaan the..Ek achha beta, bhai, pati..Aur mujhe pura yakin hai ki vo ek Bahot achhe Papa sabeet honge. Sunaha bahot Naseeb wali hai kyuki Dev uske Papa hai. Maa..Mai Dev Ko aapse kabhi chhinana nahi chahati hai.. (Dev was always a nice person..a good son, brother, husband..and I know that he will be a very nice father also. Suhana is very lucky to have Dev as her father..Maa.. I never wanted to snatch Dev from you)

Dev ek ped ki tarah hai jiski jad aap ho. Mai bas us ped ki chhav me rehna chahati thi..Use aur badhane ke liye apne pyaar se sinchana chahati thi. Aur ped ko unchai chhune ke liye jadon se alag nahi Kiya jata. To mai kaise aapko aur unko alag krti..Mai to bas thoda pyaar unko Dena chahati thi aur aapka thoda pyaar pana chahati thi. (Dev is like a tree who’s roots are you. If you want the tree to touch the height you should never separate it from its roots. I just wanted to be there in the shadows of that tree. How could I separate you from Dev)
Maine koshish ki ke Mai ek achhi biwi aur bahu ban saku pr nahi ban payi. Shayad aap abhi bhi is baat se naraj hogi gussa hogi. Pr mai janti hu ki is baat ki vajah se aap Soha se pyar karne ke liye khudko rokegi nahi. (I tried to be a good wife , a daughter in law but I failed. I guess you are still angry on me because of that. But I know that you will punish Soha because of me.)
Soha Dev ki parchhai hai. Vahi masumiyat, vahi gussa, vahi Zid, aur bahot saari baatein aap khud Jaan jayegi jab aap khud Soha se milegi. Agar Soha meri beti hai is baat se aapko Soha pe kabhi gussa aaye to Soha me Dev Ko dhundne ki koshish kijiye.. Aap khud Ko usase pyaar karne se nahi rok paogi. Pichhale 3 saal maine vahi kiya hai..Dev Ko Soha me dhundane ki koshish..(Soha is like shadow of Dev..Same innocence, same anger, same passion, and much more you will get to know once you meet her. If you ever get miffed with her because she is my daughter just try to find Dev in Soha. You will not be able to stop yourself from loving her.)
Aapko pata hai jab Soha mere pet me thi tab mujhe aapke haath ka besan ka halwa khane ka bahot Baar man krta tha. Aapke jaisa halwa banane ki koshish ki pr nahi jama.. (you know when I was pregnant.. many times I wanted to eat besan ka halwa made by you. I tried to make it by my own but it was not as tasty as yours)

Aapne kaha tha na ki mai kabhi samajh nahi paungi ki Maa hona kya hota hai. Apna bachha Dard me ho to kaisa lagta hai. Pr aapko pata hai Maa hona kya hota hai, kitna anmol hota hai ye mujhe tabhi pata chala jab Dev ne mujhase kaha tha ki shayad mai kabhi Maa nahi ban sakti. Paise ki kimat garibi me pata chalati hai, khane ki kimat bhuke pet ko pata hoti hai aur aulad kya hoti hai ye shayad mujhe bhi pata chal gaya..(Do you remember that once you told me that I will never come to know that what it feels like being a mother. But you know I came to know about it on that very moment when Dev told me that perhaps I couldn’t become mother. You get to know the value of thing when you don’t have and there are chances that you could not get it ever in the future.)
Soha to vo dua hai jisne mujhe pura kar diya. Soha ka dhyan rakhiye. Shayad use pata bhi nahi ki uski ma kaisi hai aur mai uska saath chhod rahi hu.. please use kabhi mat kahiye ki mai achhi nahi thi.. varna meri beti jindagi bhar us rishte ko kosati jise banane ke liye maine, aapne aur Dev ne n jane kitni mannate mangi thi. (Soha is like a blessing. Take care of her. I don’t think that she will ever get to know about how her mother was and I am leaving her. Please don’t tell her that her mother was bad. Otherwise she will curse that relation for which me, Dev n you have always prayed.)
Dev aur aap bahot khush naseeb hai ki aap dono ek dusare ki jeene ki vajah ho. Shayad aapke aur mere jeene ki vajah ek hai. Soha ko mere jeene ki vajah banane ki maine bahot koshish ki..4 saal vo mere liye ummid ki tarah thi. Pr ab vo ummid nahi rahi. Mai haar gayi..Mera pyaar haar gaya..(You and Dev are very lucky.you are the reasons for eachothers life. I tried to make Soha the reason for my survival..For last 4 years she was like a hope for me. But I don’t have any hopes now. I failed..My love failed..)
Soha ka khayal rakhana..aap Soha ka uske maa se bhi jyada khayal rakhegi is ummid me…(please take care of Soha. In the hope that you will love her more that me..)
Aapki Sonakshi

I looked at Maa..she hugged me tight and cried a lot.
Ishwari: Mujhe maaf kar Dev… mai kabhi Sonakshi ko samajh nahi payi. Mai samjhati thi ki vo Suhana ko kabhi mere paas aane nahi degi. aur vo bechari apni bachchi sop rahi thi. mai kitni galat thi. Mai hamesha irsha krti thi. Mai to bhul hi gayi thi ki jis Dev pe mera haq hai uspe sonakshi ka bhi haq hai.. tum dono ko juda karne ke liye mai kabhi khudko maaf nahi kar paungi. Mujhe Sonakshi se milna hai.. usase maafi mangani hai. Mujhe abhi usase milna hai.
(I am sorry Dev.. I never understood Sonakshi. I thought that Sonakshi will never allow me to be with Soha. And that poor girl was ready to give me her child. I always envy her. I forgot that the way I have some rights on you..She also has the same. I will not forgive myself for parting you. I want to meet Sonakshi. I want to apologize for my mistakes. I want to meet her now)
Dev: Maa.. Sona so rahi hai.. bahot weak ho gayi hai. Vo jab thik ho jayegi mai tujhe usase milvaunga.(maa..Sona is sleeping right now..She became very weak. When she gets well.. I will take you to meet her.)
Ishwari: kya mai subah aa sakti hu.. bas use dekh ke, kuch der uske sirhane baith ke chali jaungi..(can I come in the morning.. I will just see her.. I will just sit besides her for some time and will leave after that)
Dev: Thik hai.. mai chalta hu..(ok maa.. I will leave now)
I went to home.. Sona didn’t wake up yet..I asked Sourabh to go and sleep. I took her hands in mine and I saw the marks of stitches on her left hand.. I kissed that wound. Even if Sonakshi forgives me.. I will never ever forgive myself for pushing her to that extend that she tried to kill herself. Agar Jatin us raat nahi hota to? My Sona could have died. Don’t leave me Sona.