Bol Na Mahi Bol Na – An AvNeil OS (Naamkaran)

AN: Hi this is my first OS for avneil! Hope u guys like it!

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Not Proofread. Kindly excuse the errors. Embarrassed

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Bol na mahi bol na…

I don’t know what is happening to me… Right from that fateful day I met that girl, she was a puzzle to me or should I say Trouble with a capital T’? I don’t know what power was behind it but it looked as if wherever I went or whatever I was involved in, she would be right there in the middle of it all! Uff! That girl has messed my mind and my life real bad in the few days I have known her.

But that was another thing… there was also that invisible pull whenever I am near her. I get a feeling of old familiarity whenever I meet her and that is strange because I had known Riya for more years than I had known her, but it seems my heart is more comfortable in her presence than in Riya’s, for God knows whatever unknown reason! And this is just one of the many things of hers which puzzles me… Too many puzzle pieces and I have no clue what the end picture is gonna be…

Chhuteya na chhute mose
Rang tera dhol na
Bol na mahi bol na

I know I shouldn’t trust her; well after all my IPS training does kick in when I spot a lie and I somehow knew that even if the lie detector didn’t catch her lies, she surely was a walking talking lie… But the weirdest part was that recently my heart and brain didn’t seem to coordinate like it always did before… because even though I know… yeah know that she is lying her teeth out and hiding God knows what all, my stupid heart still agrees to whatever dumb explanation she gives me! And yeah to top it off the satisfied smile she usually gives me after she thinks she has convinced me, which by the used to irritate me to no end, has off late started to make me smile too, albeit unknowingly! God knows what is happening to me! Looks like the weather is changing and I am not even aware of it… And I’m afraid, nor do I think I’m prepared for it…

Tere sang hasna ve
Tere sang rona
Tujhme hi rehna ve
Tujhme hi khona

All through the impromptu field trip I knew that she was safe guarding a criminal and yet even before I came to know the truth about her mother being kidnapped, I could have and in fact, should have punished her! But to be frank that thought didn’t even cross my mind! And there she was asking why I was always defending Riya? Really? That girl surely takes the title of ‘Irony master’!

Tere liye aaya main toh
Tere sang jaana
Dholna ve tere naal
Jindri bitavaan

And yeah, then great girl ended up at gunpoint of that spoilt brat! Can you believe it? I didn’t realise but my heart skipped a beat there, seeing her at gunpoint! Thank God for my Police training otherwise that stupid girl it seems was on a suicide mission!

I hate that her stupidity has started to affect me… My heartbeat shouldn’t have skipped… And seeing her safe at the end shouldn’t have made me more happy than it should have to a police officer trying to save a victim… After all she was nobody to me… wasn’t she?

Dil mein chhupa ke tujhe
Dil naiyo khol na
Marke bhi maahi tosey
Munh na mod na
Bol na mahi bol na
Bol na mahi bol na

After all that eventful drama, when I thought I had made some progress in trusting her and in turn in gaining her elusive trust, albeit a little bit, she again goes to her spinning yarn mode and starts to weave a web of lies!

Here I was worried for her and her mother and there she was busy putting an emotional barricade between her and me! I had thought if not full-flegedly, at least we were at the beginning stage of a friendship, but no, looks like she didn’t think so. And now it looks like somehow someone’s stupid behaviour which shouldn’t have mattered to me at all because she was no one to me, has suddenly begun to matter… And I am afraid that stranger, that unknown one, was all of a sudden turning into someone very important to me… I didn’t know why it mattered but I was starting to realise that it simply did.

Ik tere baajo dooja
Mera koi mol na
Bol na maahi bol na

Then finally today when she showed up at my office, I thought it was to enquire about the case progression but not in my wildest dreams I would have thought that she was there to free up the very person who had abducted her mom! Seriously, who does that? I just couldn’t believe her! Then when Riya’s dadi came in after her, I got a clue that her actions must have been motivated by daadi.

At first I felt she was under pressure to withdraw the case but as the conversation progressed it seemed more like a deal than a threat… There was a weird undercurrent going on there between her and daadi regarding that criminal grandson of hers.

I felt disappointed that I had trusted her again and she let me down… But somehow the determination in her eyes when she was talking about reforming that brat struck a chord with me, after all I did talk about second chances that day and she wisely quoted me to myself! But I didn’t like that idea one bit and still have doubts on that brat’s capability to reform but there was nothing I could do about it… If it was someone else I would have threatened her about hiding the crime and so many other things, but as usual all my heart allowed me to do was stare at her disappointingly and leave the place dejected in her betrayal… And all I want to ask her is a simple… WHY?

Kadi naiyo chhodna
Ishq di dor na
Saare chhad jaayen maahi
Tu na chhodna
Bol na mahi bol na
Bol na mahi bol na

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Song : Bol na from Kapoor and Sons. #Credit: Lyricsmint

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