SWASAN: AASHIYAN [EPISODE-4]

SWASAN: AASHIYAN [EPISODE-4]

sanskar’s side-
sanskar started his car to drive back home and DASH!!!!
his car dashed with a wall due to improper handling of steering by him being drunk and the car stopped. lucky enough that he didn’t get hurt but the car is not starting anymore.
sanskar- why isn’t it starting. hahahaha! isne bhi bich mein saath chod diya. [this also left me in middle]
in full drunken state he came out of the car holding the bottle in one hand and his coat over his shoulder. he wobbly walked on the road while drinking and after some time stopped an auto.
sanskar- [in drunken tone] bhaiyaa ghar leke chalo.[bhaiyaa take me home]
saying this he sat in the auto drinking.
auto driver- sahab where is your home.

sanskar- home…haaan……arrrree you don’t know. xyz road….. maheshwari mansion. haan maheshwari mansion is my home……hahahaha there i live……..[sarcastically]… hahahahaha i live there. [a tear escaped his eye which he wiped from his arm’s sleeves] bhaiyaa bich mein mat chod dena [bhaiyaa don’t leave me in middle]
and he again started drinking while the driver looked at the drunken state of sanskar and sighed and drove towards mm.
after about half an hour the driver stopped the taxi in front of mm. sanskar unsteadily stepped out of the auto and took his steps towards mm when the driver called him from back.
driver- sahab paise to dete jao. [sir give me my charges and then go]
sanskar turned back.
sanskar- haan paise. [oh yes your money]
he took out his wallet and opened it to find only cards and not a single penny as he spent all he had in his wallet on his drinks.

sanskar- wallet mein toh paise hi nahi hai. [there’s no money in the wallet]
auto driver- sahab jab paise nahi the toh baithe hi kyun auto mein. itne bade ghar mein aa ke ruke ho aur dikhne mein bhi amir lagte ho per jeb mein paise hi nahi hai. [when you did not had money then why did you sit in the auto. you came here to such a big home and also look like to be rich but don’t have money in your pockets.]
sanskar got angry hearing the driver. he marched towards him with unsteady steps and angrily held his collar.
sanskar- kya bola tumne. sanskar maheshwari se baat kar rahe ho tum. soch samajh kar bola karo. [what did you say. you are talking to sanskar maheshwari. speak after thinking] [said sanskar angrily tightening his hold making the driver a bit scared]
just then the guards came forward to separate them but sanskar was hell angry and least bothered to give a damn to them.
guards- sir leave him…sir….sir.. [said while trying to hold him and control him from harming the driver which were all going in vain]
just then swara too came there who was waiting for him sitting in the hall but worriedly came outside when informed by one of the guards that sanskar has come in drunken state and that he is angry on the auto driver.
outside sanskar pushed the driver who got saved from falling due to the auto behind him.
driver- [scared but gathered courage and spoke] sahab ye kya kar rahe ho. maine kuch galat thodi na kaha hai. [sir what are you doing. i didn’t said anything wrong]
sanskar- sab matlabi hai is duniya mein. [all are selfish in this world] and u i will show you what i am and what i can do.

sanskar was going to punch him but at the nick of time swara came and shouted his name seeing his state and him going to punch the driver.
listening to her shout sanskar stopped in his tracks and the driver sighed in relief.
swara- sanskarrrrrr….. [she hurriedly went and held him by his arms who finally looked at her completely drunken, anger still evident in his eyes which were ready to fire someone and for once swara flinched but composed]
swara-[ the strong smell of alcohol came from him when she stood holding him which made her feel like vomiting but she controlled herself and spoke softly] sanskar what happened, why are you getting so angry?
sanskar- [rudely] none of your concern….. stay out of it…. how dare he to speak to me like that. [said glaring the driver angrily and jerking off her hold on his arms]
driver- [scared but gaining some courage] madam ji humne toh sirf apne paise mange the aur inke paas paise nahi the toh inhe auto mein nahi bhaithna chahiye the. kya galat kaha humne. [madam ji i just asked for my money and if he didn’t had money he shouldn’t have sat in my auto. what wrong did i say?]
sanskar- just shut up. how dare you…. [roared sanskar only to be interrupted]
swara- sanskar..sanskar calm down. leave this matter.
sanskar- [gritting his teeth] i won’t. he…
swara- [strictly] sanskar enough. just two minutes please be calm and keep your anger within yourself because anger only worsens situations. please.

sanskar hearing swara looked at her and got lost in the memories of the past when swara said something similar to him just before leaving him putting the blame of laksh’s disappearance on him.
flashback-
swara- just because of your anger sanskar, just because you couldn’t control your anger laksh is not with us, with ragini and my sister is suffering and going through this pain. if you would have handled the situation with calmness and made laksh understand instead of fighting with him he would have been with us and not away. you were his elder brother sanskar. you should have understood and acted maturely. but no in front of your anger you didn’t see anything and wanted to kill your own brother. how could you? [said swara in anger]
why didn’t you be calm when he was angry sanskar. it’s all because of you that now laksh is not here and we all are suffering. even though we fought the evil and won we still lost just because of you. would you have murdered him sanskar.
sanskar- swaraaaa
swara- what happened getting angry again. will you harm me now. say naa. [she said slightly pushing him on chest]
sanskar- swara enough. he was….
swara- i don’t wanna listen to you sanskar. please… [said she chocking almost at the verge of crying]
ragini- swara please stop. leave this all. you don’t need to be angry on sanskar.
swara- no ragini what i am saying is the truth.
ragini- let it be swara. it’s ok. [to shekhar] baba please take me from here. till laksh doesn’t come back i don’t want to be here because every corner makes me remember laksh. please baba [said ragini crying bitterly]
shekhar- beta please don’t cry. [swara too came to ragini and held her shoulders supporting her]
dp- shekhar ji you take ragini along with you. we understand her situation. [said dp with heavy heart]
ap- ji what are you saying.
dp- annpurna i am saying correct. laksh is not here. when it’s hard for us then think of ragini. what she is going through. let her go.

ragini came to ap folding her hands and sobbing.
ragini- maa i can’t live here without laksh. i will be the dil of this house always but till laksh returns allow me to go with baba because here memories of laksh haunts me and i can’t bear it. and now that… [she paused a little composing herself] and now as all are finding him i don’t wanna be disheartened everyday about not getting any clue about him. these all here reminds me each second of him not being besides me and i can’t take that. i will become mad. please maa let me go. please…
ap kept hand on her head and said – it’s ok i understand. you go. i will welcome my son and dil together in the house when he returns and take care of yourself.
ragini hugged ap crying who also cried silently.
ragini- [to shekhar] please baba let’s go. [said she wiping her tears while fresh tears were coming from her eyes]
shekhar/shomi- haan chalo [yes come]
ragini looked all around the house and started crying more and slowly took her steps forward to go but stumbled by the sofa and swara held her.
swara- ragini sambhal ke. [ragini careful]
ragini nodded crying holding on swara hands tight.
swara- i will also come with you. [all looked at her]
sujata- thik hai chori tu kuch din reh aa waha pe. ragini ko bhi thik lagega. [ok . you go and stay with ragini for few days. she will feel happy]

swara- mom i meant to say that i am also going with ragini and will return only when laksh is back and my sister is all happy with her husband. for now she needs me.
all are shocked hearing her.sanskar just stared her endlessly replaying her words in his mind trying to understand and digest the fact that she wants to go baadi and not for some days but till when laksh returns. she wants to support her sister and what about him then. first she accused him and now wants to leave him.
sanskar- swara you won’t.
swara- [snapped at him] i will mr. maheshwari. find laksh because ragini needs him and her this state is because of you. her sindoor is not with her. and my husband being the reason for my sister’s this condition is not acceptable to me. so till the time you bring laksh and ragini’s sindoor is incomplete i will also not live here. till then we will have no relation.
shomi- shona think once beta. you should not decide….
swara- maa i have thought and let’s move.
swara held ragini’s hand and they started moving out and on the last step sanskar voiced out for swara making her numb and then her decision made him numb.
sanskar- swara if you step out of this house then you would never be able to come back in this house. once you leave me and step out i will never accept you back in my life.
swara looked at sanskar numbed and others shocked. swara stared at him and was about to take steps towards him but couldn’t as ragini stumbled hearing sanskar and swara seeing ragini stumble held her firmly and once looked forward and then made her decision. she held ragini’s hand and walked out of mm.
sanskar was shattered. tears escaped his eyes without his knowledge and he kept on looking at the entrance from where his love, his life exited. wiping off the tears from his face and not hearing what all his mom and badi maa spoke out he marched to his room.
flashback end.
swara asked the guard to pay of the money and that she would be giving it to him in the morning. the driver took the money and drove away. sanskar didn’t realise as he was lost in the past memories. alcohol had it’s effect on him and he saw images blur but the fresh tears that formed a layer in his eyes made it to blur more. he was lost and came back to sense when swara shook him a little.
swara- sanskar…sanskar..where are you lost?
sanskar looked at her and jerked her hands which were holding him. pain and anger were all he had for now. he looked around for the driver but he was already gone and so he started making his way towards home walking unsteadily and stumbling.
swara hurriedly made way to him and again held him which he jerked.
sanskar- [cold and angered voice] stay away…… don’t try to come near me.
swara [shocked but composed]- sanskar stop talking rubbish and please let’s move inside. all are sleeping, so don’t disturb there sleep. and what is all this. you are drunk. how could you. [said angrily while covering her mouth and nose with the saree’s free end as she felt uneasy with the smell of alcohol]
sanskar- [pulling her to himself angrily due to her answer and action of covering her mouth] don’t you ask me how could i? i could do many things and i would do it. you just wait and watch.
swara was not understanding exactly why he is drunk and angry and over that talking so rudely. he was fine in the evening and even he was being romantic then what happened now. she was feeling bad that sanskar came home drunk and behaving like this. she expected to talk to him and share so many things to him, waited to eat along with him and here he is completely out of sense.
swara- [came to sense when sanskar left her with jerk and started walking again] sanskar….. [to guards] please help me take him in and yes don’t tell anyone about all this. ok.
guards just nodded and one of them came forward to help her.
swara- sanskar please please listen to me and come inside without disturbing anyone. all slept and if they see you like this then it won’t be good. chalo let’s go to our room.
sanskar- our room [chuckles making her confuse] you just left that room and me [said painfully looking directly into her eyes]wasn’t i important to you? is our relation so weak before her[ragini]. ahhhh whom am i talking to. leave it.
hearing him and seeing the hurtful and pained expression swara thought within herself- ‘is sanskar still thinking about when i left him? didn’t he forgave me? i know i hurt him but if he is still thinking that then in the evening all what happened that? may be because we haven’t talked till now about anything that’s why?’
her thoughts broke with sanskar’s slight scream because he stumbled and fell. she immediately rushed to him and held his hand to support him to get up but he jerked her hand again and tried to stand himself but failed. swara signalled the guard to hold him and so he did. although sanskar protested but the guard made him stand and supported him to walk in the house. sanskar was continuously blabbering to leave him in his staggered voice as the effect of being drunk. seeing this without any option swara kept her palm over his mouth and made him to keep quite while he stared at her eyes lost in them.
somehow they reached the room and making sanskar sit on the bed the guard went followed by swara who closed the door and arranged two plates of food and went in the room only to get shocked finding the room in a messy condition.
she kept the food plate on the table and went to sanskar who was throwing the clothes from the cupboard one by one with his half closed eyes.
swara- sanskar sanskar why are you messing it all up. sanskar….
sanskar- i am not getting my bottles. i need them. i want to drink more. where i kept them. ahhh…
swara- sanskar calm down and tell me clearly what you want. [swara is not understanding his talks as his voice is muffled due to being drunken]
sanskar- my drink. i want them… [he moved towards table when swara held him and brought and made him sit on the couch.]
swara- sanskar have the food and then sleep. search whatever you want tomorrow.
sanskar- keep your care with you for your sister. don’t show your concern to me and give me my bottle. you must have hided all. give..[said he trying to stand in shaken staggering voice with half closed eyes annd looking around with blur vision]
swara- sanskar i am not understanding what you are saying so please we will talk calmly in morning. now have this [said forwarding a bite to sanskar]
sanskar- ahhh why are…. [could not speak as swara put the bite in his mouth]
without giving any chance to sanskar she made him eat some amount of food and then wiping his mouth made him to sleep removing his shoes and belt and opening two buttons of his shirt.
she ran in the washroom and puked due to the alcohol smell which she somehow controlled herself till now. washing her face she came out and first thing she did was to spray perfume in the room and a nice cologne to sanskar so that the alcohol smell gets reduced. she looked towards her food plate and tear skipped her eyes. how she wished to eat with him and talk her heart out today but fate that he came home drunk. but why did he drink? today they spent time so close to each other. it was him who initiated and he romanced with her then why he drank?
these thoughts were suffocating her. though not willing to eat she came forward and had the rest of the food from sanskar’s plate. at least in this way she can console herself that sanskar ate with her. after finishing the food she took both the plates in kitchen. keeping the used plate in washbasin she kept the untouched food in the fridge. leaning on the slap she thought of the past months and cried silently. wiping her tears she went back to the room and laid beside sanskar looking at him. she caressed his face lovingly.
swara- sanskar i have to share so many things to you. i am trying from the last three days but not getting a chance. when will i be able to say you about all this. when will we talk sanskar. when will this struggle end and we will be sharing everything with each other like before. what made you drink sanskar when you hate drinking. is it because of me? if it is so then i am sorry, i am really sorry.
sanskar stirred in his sleep and moved towards swara and kept his hand on her stomach. he moved a little more and held her waist looking innocent in sleep with his dishevelled hair.
she smiled teary eyed for his action and moved to him and slept hugging him sobbing slightly. she felt the warmth of his embrace after so much time. sleep took over her after sometime and both looked heavenly in each other’s embrace.

precap- next morning. let’s see what’s going to happen.
what has swara to share with sanskar?
what happened in the past months?
what happened during swasan were separated?
will sanskar forgive swara for choosing ragini or will there life be changed or will they be separated?
let’s see what happens in their lives.
and someone asked me to not convert ragini negative. for that i would say to read the story and her role i guess will not be completely negative but yes but her character would be like it was in serial so let’s see how the story blends because i can’t reveal everything.