MY PAIN IS VISIBLE IN YOUR EYES- A DBO One shot by KEHKASHA

Om’s POV
As soon as I finished the juice….even after she tried hard to stop me from doing the act….. “See I had it…did anything happened…. No…now just lea…” I exclaimed but couldn’t complete as I felt that I was about to fall….and before I could understand anything…..i end up falling on floor…. All I heard the last time was her scream…. “Omkaraji” she shouted as hard as she can…. I felt as if not me but she was the one who suffered….

Everything was blank….as I opened the eyes after a couple of hrs…. I found her sitting on the couch….having a complete check on the door as well as on me….”But why”…. I thought…

I stood up and she noticed….she rushed to me and provided me with her support…..and I was now able to walk properly…..with her help….but my mind was still blank…. I didn’t get why I was like that… Why I needed her support…. Or should I say that I was still half conscious….

She walked with me to my art station and made seated there…..and rushed to take a glass of water for me….

I was just starring her as if it was the only work I prefer to do….as if it was the only thing that I love to do….as if she was the only addiction that I had…

“Omkaraji how r u feeling now….?? I hope u r alright….” she said… And then turned to Lord Shankar’s idol to thank him for keeping me safe…without even waiting for me to answer…

Unconsciously I stepped towards her……and she turned…. She saw me approaching her….and felt a lil nervous…. I moved close to her….more close….and this was completely unexpected to her…..as if she never ever have imagined this act from me….

I hold her close to me….and made her dance….round and round….then almost captured her aura in a deep breath…..and finally locked her between the wall and me….. She became restless….though she was feeling quite safe….. We starred each other’s eyes till I unconsciously kissed her forehead……leaving her shocked and chilled…… I was about to approach her lips…..when she jerked me with full power she can…. And I fall down on the couch nearby….

I again started starring her in the fit of semi consciousness…. She seemed to be the only person I know….. She seemed to be the only one I own…. She seemed to be mine….

I was lost in all these thoughts when I realizedor for a better explanation I found myself completely drenched in water…… Yea she was the one who had thrown a whole bucket on me…..drenching me completely from top to toe…..and this actually help me in gaining complete consciousness……. And I looked at her with questioning eyes….

She was recapitulating the act that I did just few minutes ago…..and feeling extremely guilty…..she ran away out of the room….as tears made way through her eyes…
Now I finally realized what I was going to do in the act of semi consciousness……and I myself felt guilty…..as for the first time I insulted a girl’s feelings….. I don’t know what happened but immediately one of my instinct said… THIS GIRL CAN’T BE WRONG….MAYBE I WAS THE ONE WHO MIS INTERPRETED HER CHARACTER….

Gauri’s POV
I just ran as fast as I can….. As I was shocked with the sudden act of him….. I never expected that we can be so close…..that too without any reason….. Of course a reason is required for being with each other…..that reason is love…or trust….or respect….or care…. But the fact is….that till few hrs ago there was nothing from these present in him….. For him before this I was just a CHEAP CHARACTERLESS GIRL….. Then what happened to him suddenly….. My thoughts took a break as I realized that it might be the effect of the same drink that he finished even after I tried hard to stop him…..

I was walking lost in my thoughts when I saw him standing in front of me….. I wondered from where did he appeared suddenly…. But to my bad luck I realized that I simply took a whole round of the area itself and was standing out of his room only…. I could see the guilt in his eyes…. “But why…did he got consciousness….??”, I questioned myself mentally…

“I am so sorry…. I did all that coz of that juice….. U were right there was something in it….which forced me to do all that….”, was his words as the reply of my unasked question….to my surprise…

I simply nodded and left the place….
I was walking and was feeling his stare on me….but I ignored….. I kept on walking….without turning back….

But suddenly….. I heard a bullet shot….before I could understand anything….. I saw him falling off the railing of that floor…..
I felt my heart beat stopped immediately…..and without wasting a second I simply ran and held the railing tightly looking down at him…… He who was starring at me then also….when he was lying in the pool of blood….

Maaji came running seeing her son lying like that…. While we were in a kind of eye lock….. He was looking at me….and for the first time I felt immense love….and care for me in his eyes….. While I looked at him completely shocked…..

Maaji placed his head in her lap….and started patting his cheeks….in order to let his still eyes move…. But no…his adamant eyes were stuck to me…..and he didn’t moved….not even reacted….
And I was feeling my heart stopped beating…..as if my soul was leaving my body……and it almost happened as slowly he closed his eyes……

I felt a jerk within me…..and I don’t know how…..but my legs immediately started covering the distance between us……and I finally reached down…..near him….still at some distance….

Maaji was continuously patting his cheeks….rubbing his hands…..asking….no begging him to open his eyes once…..but no…maybe he was sleeping a sleep more deep than getting conscious….and less deep than never returning back…..

I dragged my body towards his…..fall down with a jerk…..and took his hand into mine….all I felt was that he was trying to hold me…..but didn’t have that power…..to do so….due to the bullet that pierced his head…..dripping max of blood….

AT HOSPITAL
Om’s POV
It had been one full month since I am sleeping……without even making a moment….. Although I was aware of the surroundings….. I was aware about the presence of people around me…..

I still remember her face….yes…her face….when she saw me falling…. The pain that was clenching me into its deep grip….was visible on her face….. I still think why….I did so…. But then I think….its good that I did so….else…she would have been lying here instead of me…..and I would have been in her place….. Yes the bullet was meant for her……and to my surprise it was from the gun that was held by my buama….

As soon as I saw her pointing the gun at gauri…..i was shocked and more than shocked i was recalling all her (Gauri’s) words about buama….. I immediately shouted her name…..to ask her to dodge…..but no use….maybe she was still having the fear….. I didn’t exactly know about her fear….but yea….she was having a fear for sure…..Again I saw buama pointing her as the target and now without wasting time……I ran to her….and almost covered her so that she didn’t get hurt……

And as soon as I did this the bullet pierced my head…..driving her (Gauri’s ) attention towards me……while I noticed buama making a face of disgust as if her plan failed again…. Maybe she wanted to kill gauri so that she can’t interfere in her actual plan…..whatever it would have been….

While I was falling down I saw her rushing towards me….in utter shock….. But the fact was that…..now she can’t do anything…..instead of just carrying the pain….that I possess…..

At that instant I don’t know why and how…..but I felt love for her…..instead of pain of the shot…..or hatred for her….. I felt that very moment…..that I am not loosing myself…..but I am loosing her….. Which I can’t afford….. Maybe that feel is the reason that I AM STILL BREATHING EVEN BEING IN COMA FOR MORE THAN A MONTH…..

During all this period…..she used to visit me daily…..or should I say that for her maximum time she ….used to be around me…..taking my care…..and trying to save me from further accidents (if any)… I literally thanked God for placing me in such condition…..coz being in coma I actually got to know WHO GAURI IS…. WHAT HER SITUATIONS WAS…. AND HOW TOUGH TIME SHE HAD FACED…. How…?? Coz she used to tell me her life’s stories…..when she felt sad or when she felt bored….. COZ SHE DIDN’T KNOW THAT I WAS LISTENING EVERYTHING SHE WAS SAYING…..COZ SHE THOUGHT THAT I CAN’T LISTEN HER…..IN THIS STATE….

I was feeling lucky more than feeling guilty……coz don’t know why….somewhere inside my heart….i got to know….through her talks that she wasn’t angry on me at all….. Coz till date she actually don’t know….WHY I USE TO THINK SUCH RUBBISH THINGS FOR HER….

But one day I felt that I am loosing myself…..as her words, “I AM DYING FROM INSIDE COZ TODAY I LOST EVERYTHING…..THE ONLY PERSON IN MY LIFE…. I LOST MY MAA… I FEEL THAT NO RELATION WAS MEANT FOR ME….AND SO EVERY PERSON NEAR ME IS LEAVING MY SIDE….FIRSTLY I LOST MY FAMILY….THEN MY PAPA WHO ADOPTED ME…THEN FRIENDS….THEN TRUST…THEN MAA….AND NOW I CAN’T LOOSE YOU….COZ IF ANYTHING HAPPENED TO YOU…THEN I WILL SURELY DIE….. AND SO I AM LEAVING YOU FOREVER…. I KNOW YOU ALSO WANTED THE SAME….AND I BEING ADAMANT WASN’T LEAVING YOU….BUT TODAY…I AM FINALLY LEAVING YOU….ACTUALLY I AM GOING FROM YOUR LIFE…..FOR YOUR BETTERMENT….AS IF I STAYED WITH YOU THEN I HAVE A FEAR OF LOOSING YOU….” saying so….in a terribly crying state she left the place…. And her words kept on pricking me…. Once I felt that I will die….but then I don’t know what happened…..that i woke up with a sudden jerk….

As I opened my eyes…. I saw mom standing new me….and almost crying….. But as soon as she saw me conscious,” U woke up… It’s too late Omkara….who sleeps for a long duration of three months…” ,were the words that she spoke….

“Where is GAURI…??? I questioned…without even paying heed to what mom said….

“She might be here…somewhere here only…” said mom…

“No she left…u don’t know mom…she left…she was saying that she is going away from me…” I exclaimed being completely restless….

“I will call her and ask her to come here asap…” said mom…trying to comfort me..

Her phone rang near me only….Maybe she forgot….or maybe she intentionally left it here… I was thinking all this when Rudra came rushing….he was happy plus sad…. Happy to see me awake…and sad coz something clicked his mind….maybe what he was going to say….

“O… Bhabhi….Chulbul Bhabhi….. I saw her going towards bus stand….” said Rudra….with worry…

I immediately took off the bed sheet and all the wires and pipes that were supplying me life for these many days…..and rushed out…..while all kept on stopping me…..

I reached the bus stop…. She was about to step in the bus when I held her tightly and dragged her out…. And almost dragging her all away I seated her in the car and drive off to some quite place….

We were quite…. No I was quite while she was almost crying seeing me standing safely in front of her…

“What were you going to do….??” I shouted at her with a fear clearly audible in my voice..

“I was just going back home… ” she replied shivering due to my anger…

“Home” I smirked… “And will yo plz explain who is waiting for you there….??” I questioned

She remained quite… But soon managed to answer… Actually to divert my attention…

“When did you get consciousness…?? “she diverted

“The moment you left…” I replied

“Then you should go and rest… It’s not good to take strain…. Plz go back… “she urged…

“I will go back… But with you…”,I countered…

“I am not coming back “,she replied

” Then I am alone not going back”,I exclaimed

“Fine then stay here only…”,she said and started leaving…

I dragged her to my car and pinned her…. And asked her….

“Can’t you understand I am here for you… ”

“Noone in the whole world is there for me..”, she replied

“Plz let me go away… “, she further mentioned

And she managed to loose my grip and started leaving as if she never cared for me….

“I love you Gauri… I want you to be my side always…. That’s why I came here searching you…”, I somehow managed to speak…

She stopped listening to me….

“I heard you each day you thought I was sleeping…. I got to know about everything that happened to you till now…. You were thinking that I couldn’t listen to you…. But I not just listened u but also understood you…. Your pov your situations everything…. “I continued…

She came a lil bit close to where I have kneeled down for making sure that I was feeling better….

“I am sorry… I know that’s not enough in return of all the insult that I did…. But you atleast have to give me another chance…. You have to trust me once… I am not bad… But circumstances were…. “, I cleared myself…

” I know that you aren’t bad….and circumstances were… And you plz stop blaming yourself… I know that you haven’t committed any mistake… You can’t do anything wrong and I trust you…. ” she comforted me

” But I can’t come with you…. Coz I don’t deserve anyone around me…”she exclaimed…

“Then let me decide what you deserve… And trust me.. You deserve everything… If not me then ask your Shankarji… ” I complimented

She remained quite just the tears made way… I cleaned her face and cupped her face in my hands…

“Plz accept me as your friend family and life partner… I wish I could mend my mistakes and all this could be done when you will forgive me… “I requested..
I am not angry at you omkaraji….how could I made u understand….this…plz understand….i can’t be angry with you…coz..” she said…but didn’t completed…

“Coz…coz…what gauri plz say everything you want to….plz” I requested her to complete…

“Coz I respect you…. I loved you… And so I understand you…and so I trust you… But I can’t be with you…”she completed…

I was teary eyed…coz I got that I was mistaken….about her….completely mistaken…. I realized that she was right….always… And I was wrong…wrong…

Gauri’s POV
He was crying….for me… Yes…he was crying for me… But what should I do…should I give him a chance….but the point is that I am in a state to give him chance…. I am just afraid of loosing him…. I can live without him….but I can’t live without his presence in this world… What should I do….

Tears just rolled down with full flow….and we both were drenched in tears…. We both were starring each other…. We didn’t spoke a word for few minutes….

“You know what my life was always like this…. I got cheated by those whom I trusted….and so I didn’t tried to trust you…. This was my fault….but now I got it that….not everyone is same in the world….” he exclaimed….

And I was convinced….coz this was the only thing that I felt was missing in our relation since day1…. And that was TRUST…

“If there is trust there is everything…. No love…care….or affection is required for the relation…. Trust itself is enough to build every relation….and consequently every emotion….” I stated…but couldn’t complete….as he interrupted…

“And I trust you… I love you… I realized this the very moment i got the fear of loosing you…. The very moment i realized that the bullet will hit you….the very moment when i was falling off the railing and you looked at me with shocked…..the very moment i saw you starring me from upstairs with MY PAIN VISIBLE IN YOUR EYES…. The very moment i captured your image in my eyes and closed them for resting in…..”he gave the long speech but i didn’t let him complete….

As I hugged him as tight as possible….coz just now I realized….that he saved me from the shot…. It was my fate that he lived….these many days….

He too held me in his warm hug and we were still crying our heart out….

“Plz come with me plz…” He requested ..

“Yes I will come but plz promise me that u will never do this again…. You will never put your life in danger…..that too for me…” I rebuked him almost realizing his stupid act for saving my life….

I was still hugging him….while he laughed listening me….

I hit him slowly and he held my hand…and pulled me toward him…. I looked at him…and then shy away…

He asked me… Shall we leave…

“Yes”, I replied…

We finally seated back in the car….to return back to the mansion….our new home…

Om’s POV
She was happy…. Actually I wanted her to stay the same….always…. I wish that she remain happy forever….and I should never be the reason for her sorrow….

We drifted back to the mansion….forgetting the past….stepping into the bright future….

Where Om and Gauri were now not just individuals…. But Om and Gauri have traveled the journey of being RIKARA…

I AM HAPPY TO GET ADDICTED TO YOU….AND MORE THEN THAT I AM LUCKY THAT I FELL IN LOVE WITH THE MOST UNEXPECTED PERSON AT THE MOST UNEXPECTED TIME…

Both smiled looking at each other…

THE END…