swasan ff : punar vivah by kaynat khan episode 69

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But guys i was short of time…..
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It was 7 am in morning….
Usually everyone wakes up at maheshwari mansion at 8 am….
Even for the kids they dont have to wake up because their school is of 10 am…..

But today in swasan room…..

Swara put the alarm at 7am…..
And the alarm started ringing….

Making both sanskaar and swara’s sleep disturbed……

Sanskaar and his sleep has a diferent connection….
He can live without anything but he wants his sleep and no one can disturb him before 8 am…..

Sanskaar irritatedly looked at phone as it was continuously ringing…..

He was about to throw that phone when swara catched the phone and switched it off…..

Sanskaar : jaan you know i dont like alarms and all before 8 so why the hell it was ringing……

Swara : because doctor told……to wake you up early and do the excerises….

Sanskaar closed his eyes and muttered something under his breath….

Sanskaar : i’ll kill that doctor for once…. so he wont give stupid advices??……

Swara : sanskaar stop cursing him and get up……

She gets up and helps him to get up and sit on wheel chair…….

She took him to washroom…..

And made him freshen up…..
He saw her yawning and realised she too haven’t slept completely yet……

She took him out to the balcony……

Sanskaar grabbed her hand….

She bent down to him…..

Both were facing eachother….

Sanskaar : i am sorry….. for me you have to bear so much na……

Swara smiled and came close such that her breath were leaving on him……

She pecked his lips twice and was still close to him….

Swara : dont ever say that…..for me this all is nothing…..i can sacrifice my everything to see you smile…..

Sanskaar smiled and now this smile was a genuine smile…..

Sanskaar : you know i love you very much……

Swara : i do more……

Now swara touched his left hand……

And tried to straighten it but it was getting more tiff….

Swara : sanskaar common try to loose your left hand…….

Sanskaar tried but instead it pained him…….

Sanskaar : aahh….

Swara : acha slowly dont need to rush……

Sanskaar saw her how much efforts she is giving in for this……

Sanskaar tried very much with her…..

After around 10 mins the fingers of his left hands which were closed finally opened……
And again got closed……

Swara : sanskaar try to open and close your fingers……

She then bent down and took his leg and started moving up and forth……

After around half an hour they both praticed quite a lot of excerise……

Sanskaar was hell tired because he cant take any pressure much……
Now he was getting sleep agaiin……

Swara was taking him in while sanskaar said…..

Sanskaar : swara i wanna sleep more please let me sleep……

Swara : sanskaar but you should eat breakfast now…..

Sanskaar : swara you know that my medicines effect is also high and because of that i am getting more sleep….please let me sleep……neither my head will start paining…….

Swara : oh haa am sorry i forgot about your medicines effect…… ok you sleep till then will do rest of the work……..

She made him lye on the bed properly…….

And covered him with blanket…..

She was about to go when sanskaar took her hand…..

Sanskaar : you too sleep na…. there is still some minutes for everyone’s getting up……and you know my eyes dont close when you are not with me……..

Swara smiled and laid beside him and kept her hand on his chest…..

While he took her hand from his right hand and kissed his knuckles……..

And entangled his fingers with hers……

Swara smiled….. and he slept…..

While swara laid cross side and was just viewing her husband…….

Her eyes were filled with tears…..

The sanskaar which she knew was all confident and always her support….
But now sanskaar was loosing all his confidence now all his confidence was changing into insecurities…….

She can see how much weak he is becoming from inside……

But the thing in her heart is telling her that he will become fine… but when????

When he will becone her old sanskaar who will walk run and take her in his arms…..

She let out two tears thinking……

What will she tell kids if he dont get cure soon…..

She know she can handle this sanskaar all the life without complaining but she was scared of him…….

He will loose himself if he dont gets hope of getting himself back……

And i dont wanna loose you sanskaar……

She kisses his cheeks and went not being able to control anymore or she will burst crying and his sleep will get disturbed…….

She goes into washroom and let her tears flow out…….

She just determined herself more that she have to fight this for him…….

She started to take a quick shower and get herself fresh…….

Swara was down wearing a simple salwar suit and does her pooja and started preparing breakfast for everyone…..

By the time she was preparing breakfast pankhuri too came…..

Swara saw pankhuri….

Swara : good morning bhabhi…..

Pankhuri : oh morning swara…. you are here so soon…..

Swara : yeah actually i have to make sanskaar excerise daily na…. so i woke up at 7 am only……

Pankhuri : oh that’s really good to hear…. so anything happened????

Swara : not yet bhabhi….. but will try my best……

Pankhuri kept her hand on her shoulder……

Pankhuri : everything will be fine….. and as you told we will never make him feel as he is handicap allright…… we will behave with him like before……

Swara nodded smiling……

Pankhuri : so smell is coming what have you cooked????

Swara : well i thought to make aloo ka paratha…… so made them only few are remaining…..

Pankhuri : so that means you took all the efforts….common swara you should have come to me….. and wake me up…. i am sure i would not shout on you…..

Swara : no bhabhi i didn’t wake you up because you and adi bhai hardly soends some time with eachother if i disturb that time too then??? And its really ok i like to do kitchen works very much……..

Pankhuri : you wont improve na….. everytime you just give us a reason to love you so much…..ok then if you had prepared parathas let me prepare tea and wash dishes….. i am sure you wont have problem with it……

Swara chuckled and nodded……

Later ragini too came and joined the two……

Breakfast was served to everyone on table……

The kids too came wearing uniforms and eating their breakfast…….

When anupoorna didn’t ate anything swara come to her……

Swara : mom you haven’t took anything???? Please have some…..

She kept paratha in her plate…..

Anu : i am not hungry swara……

Everyone looks at her….
Anu was about to wake up……

Swara : mom sanskaar wont feel nice if he sees or hears that you skipped the food for him……

Anu let out two heavy tears……

Anu : i can’t have swara….because ny son is suffering so much and i am much helpless that i cant do anything…..

Dp interrupted her…..

Dp : anu things have gone….. sanskaar is paralysed so we shouldn’t curse ourself for him instead we should be with him…..support him if we break like his by not eating food or just thinking about him he will never get cured….. so eat little for him only……

Anu nodded and started eating small small….

Swara smiled intears…..

While all had their food….

But the morsels weren’t actually going from their throat…..

Everyone is thinking about sanskaar and wht they can do that they will make him fine……..

Dp : waise swara did sanskaar woke????

Swara : nope papa not yet…. when he will wake will give him bf……

Dp : and make sure you too have it……

Swara : sure papa……

Later adi went with kids to take them school and directly to office…..

Maheshwari empire was really famous in India if they keep decling the business it will fall down……

And dp and shekhar too retired so all work was now on karan and adi……

Laksh stayed at home for sometime advising swara of medicines and oil……

While ragini and pankhuri goes to kitchen to prepare lunch and dinner…..

It was 10 am…….

Sanskaar opened his eyes……

His eyes buried all the stress and he was feeling good after excerising a bit…..

While he was so hungry and need to take bath too…..

His wheel chair was bit far and he looked for his phone but it was on left side drawer……

Sanskaar somehow made his right hand reached to left side…..

And when he was so close to phone when his balance failed……

He fell down hurting his paralysed hand again…….

He was in much pain now……..

Sanskaar : aahhh swara…..

Swara who was reaching to their room for waking him up heard his voice…
Ans ran to her room……

The state which she saw of sanskaar……
It was like a burn where someone has pricking salt…….

Sanskaar was lying on his front with his left hand down and he was helping himself getting up but failing everytime……

Swara immediately ran towards him and somehow picked him and just made him sit on floor and hugged him……
While he was thinking of something else…..

The thing which happened now have hurted her much……

He now understood that he is now fit for nothing…….

Swara didnt felt him hugging back……

She released the hug and looked at his face…..

His eyes looked her but there were no emotions now…..
Damn she was scared of this moment…..when his eyes which show various of emoitions of his are just blank………

There were some tears too….. in the corner of face of his….. she kissed that tears…….
And hold his chin and once again their eyes met……

Sanskaar : i have became a burden on everyone na especially you…… i am just like a thing without his working parts…… i can’t even get up without anyone’s help…… i cannot live this life anymore…..

As soon as this words escape from his mouth she immediately crashed her lips with his……..

Sanskaar became shocked when he felt she kissing his lips angrily…….

She was just showing him her pain…..
The pain which she always went through when he just speaks that he will destroy his life……

She always gets torn apart when she heard this words from him……
He is her living existence and when he say this things it really hurts her beyond anything…….

She just bitted his lips much hard……

Sanskaar didnt respond to the kiss……

She just holds his nape tightly with him and was nibbling his lips to tell him respond……

But he wasn’t responding……

When she felt he wont respond she was about to back off but she felt something on her waist……

And he kissing back to her with equal passion……

Swara smiled as if she won some sort if battle……

And started kissing him like before……

After around 5 mins when they were out of brrath they break the kiss……

Swara immediately hugged him tightly……

Swara : no sanskaar you are not a burden on anyone…… no one thinks like this way about you sanskaar you are their son their family why will they think of you like that way……. and of me you know better what are you to me so i shouldn’t have to say…… if sanskaar you are really thinking that you are useless and you should end your life before ding to anything just remember the day you took such step i am also gonna die with you…… and i wont be coming back ever……..

She started crying now hugging him……

Sanskaar felt bad he was breaking the hug but she held him more tightly…….

Swara : no dont…… just listen mr. Maheshwari you can think and do what you want but i also can do whatever i want…..i will finish myself whenever you will try any attempt……because i can’t live without you so its baseless to live here…….

Sanskaar : swara stop it please…….

He was now loosing himself…..

He didnt hugged her but stop breaking the hug too……

Swara cried more……..

Sanskaar couldnt take anymore hugged her back with his right hand tightly……..

Swara’s cries reduced…….

Sanskaar : shhh i am sorry jaan…. am sorry……

Now swara broke the hug……

He saw her face it was all of tears….

He wiped them with the back of his right hand………

Swara looked at him……and held the collor of his shirt…….

Swara : you cannot go away leaving me sanskaar…… i have right on your life……if you feel anything down just scold me tell me anything i wont feel bad but dont ever think this kinda stupid…… i swear i will beat you much……

Sanskaar chuckled……

Sanskaar : i wont i promise…… but swara today……

Swara kept her fingers on his lips…..

Swara : sshhh its ok it was just a bad thing happened….. it was my fault that i wasn’t there when you needed me…… i should be there so that you wont fall….. but i will never let this thing happened ever…….

Sanskaar : swara it wasn’t your fault….its just i am becoming more helpless day by day……and my only support is you and that wheel chair…….

Swara : you are not helpless sanskaar….. you are just leaving the battle before fighting…… you are just loosing hope dont do that please…… please be my old sanskaar who dont loose hope easily…… i know this is nothing we both can fight but you are not willing to do it……. i promise sansmaar the results will be best in future but just patience now……

Sanskaar nodded sadly……..

She just brought his facce closer and hid his face in hers body…..

She wast holding his head and hugged him taking him away from all the world……

He kept his hand on her back………

Bg music……

“Mere Sang To Chal Zara, Kyon Dikhe Dara Dara
(Come, walk with me, why do You look afraid?)

“Chal Tujhko Aa Chhupa Loon Apni Baahon Mein”
(Come, let me hide You in my arms)

“Chal Khawaab Kuchh Saja Doon Teri In Nigaahon Mein”
(Come, let me decorate some dreams in Your eyes)

“Main Jo Sang Hoon, Tere Rang Hoon”
(As I am with You, I’m colored In Your colors)

“Raahon Se Teri Chun Loon Main Khawaab”
(I will pick up (select) dreams (for You) from Your roads)

“Har Lamha Yun Guzre Ke Gehraata Jaaye Pyaar”
(May every moment pass in such a way that our love keeps on getting deeper (growing))

“Main Jo Sang Hoon, Tere Rang Hoon”
(As I am with You, I’m colored In Your colors)

“Raahon Se Teri Chun Loon Main Khawaab”
(I will pick up dreams from Your roads)

“Har Lamha Yun Guzre Ke Gehraata Jaaye Pyaar ”
(May every moment pass in such a way that our love keeps on getting deeper)

Sanskaar hid himself in her arms….
Today letting all his problems e just wanted to be safe…..

Like she feels safe in his arms he too feels peace in her arms……..

She after alot of time broke the hug……

Swara : come lets take you to bath…….

Sanskaar looked at her with raised eyebrow…..

Swara : what cant i help you???? I am your wife i have that rights on you……

Sanakaar : but i haven’t said anything yet sweety……

Swara looked at otherways to avoid it……

While he chuckled……

Swara : now come you haven’t ate anything also…….

She made him sit on the wheel chair and took him in washroom…….

She made him lye on baath tub and removed his clothes…….
While looking that she dont hurt him while doing so…….

She took out water spray and sprayed on his body while he just looked at her without blinking……

He didnt opposed nor stopped her because they way he claims her as his…..
He is also hers……

Swara took the shampoo and applied it on his head then she took some lotion and started applying on his body…..

She holds his left hand and applied lotion in that…..

He cannot feel her hand and that’s what makes it worst…….

She kissed his left hand assuring him everything will be fine……

He smiled looking at her……..

“Hansde Zara Sa Tu Teri Hansi Se Mere Kal Ho Haseen”
(Laugh a little, my tomorrow will become beautiful because of Your laugh)

“Bas Itna Chahun Main Is Zingagi Se Zyada Kuchh Nahin”
(I desire just this from life, nothing more)

“Hansde Zara Sa Tu Teri Hansi Se Mere Kal Ho Haseen”
(Laugh a little, my tomorrow will become beautiful because of Your laugh)

“Bas Itna Chahun Main Is Zingagi Se Zyada Kuchh Nahin”
(I desire just this from life, nothing more)

“Main Jo Sang Hoon, Tere Rang HoonAs I am with You, ”
(I’m colored In Your colors)

“Raahon Se Teri Chun Loon Main Khawaab”
(I will pick up dreams from Your roads)

“Har Lamha Yun Guzre Ke Gehraata Jaaye Pyaar”
(May every moment pass in such a way that our love keeps on getting deeper)……

She rinse him off with the spray and then took towel and wiped him……

While he smiled how much care she took him……

She somehow managed him to sit on wheel chair…..

And made him wear his blue shirt and shorts till knees….

and took him inside……

Swara : just wait will bring breakfast…..

Sanskaar held her hands and confess….

Sanskaar : i love you. ….

No matter how many times he can say this to her…..

She smiled and murmured the same and goes to bring the breakfast. ……

Sanskaar thought he have to build hope in him for his family for his swara……
He cant see her broken all the time coz of him……

After 5 mins swara brought the food and sat on bed……

And made him have it…….

Sanskaar happily ate from her hands smilingly. …….

Swara was about to another one when he asked……

Sanskaar : have you ate????

While swara answered truthfully….

Swara : no will have after making u eat…..

Sanskaar : you seriously na swara from morning you are starving you should have ate na…..

He took piece of paratha and stuffed in her mouth…….

While she smiled….

Sanskaar : i know you love to eat with me but if i am having it late so you will eat your food wont wait for me promise……i know you wont promise me but then too i dont want you to play with your health……

While swara salute him : yes sir……

While he smiled at her antics…….

Episode ends……

Precap : sanskaar convincing swara to join office…….

I know i know its short but i want it to be short and sweet with only swasan and swasan. …..

I hope it was not bad and guys i will be back with next soon……

And what youll want next incomplete journey or raabta……

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