‘You can’t force someone to love you. The best you can do is strive to be someone worth loving.’
-Unknown
Introduction
I sat on the rocks as I watched the ripples of water flow down the river. It was a damp , cold and windy Autumn day, the blue skies were overshadowed by dark and gloomy clouds. I took off my shoes and folded my jeans from the ankles to my knees on each leg and dipped my toes into the water. I closed my eyes, feeling the cool wind caress my face. I felt relaxed and at ease, a feeling I have been searching for a long time.
The atmosphere was so peaceful and soothing. I listened to the rippling sounds of the gushing water. The water was flowing faster as the blustery winds were getting stronger. The air felt moist as if a storm was approaching, I could feel tiny drops of rain fall on my face. For the first time in a long while, my mind felt clear.
But this feeling wasn’t to last long. I heard crunching sounds, the sound of small footsteps walking on the fallen leaves. Suddenly, my heart began to beat faster. I felt a tingling sensation in my body.
I knew this feeling, this feeling was all too familiar.
It was her.
I could feel her around me, I could feel her presence.
I opened my eyes, I quickly turned around and stood up, my right foot slightly slipping on the rocks. My body felt weak. I could feel she was here. I walked faster, following the sounds of the footsteps, I saw a shadow move from the corner of my eye. I turned and I ran. I ran as fast as I could to catch her. It started to rain heavily, I wasn’t going to let this stop me. I will find her today and I will not let her go.
As I ran I found myself in a dark area in the woods, full of high trees, towering over the woods, concealing the sunlight. I ran faster, pushing the twigs out of my way. My heart was beating even faster, I was getting closer as the footsteps got louder, I had to catch her. I reached out my hand to grab hold of her when I slipped and lost my footing, I tried to get up but I tripped over some rocks and fell onto the muddy ground. I looked up, I couldn’t see her. The sound of footsteps disappeared. I turned, looking around for her, but it was dark, I couldn’t see anything. I felt a knot in my stomach, I felt suffocated, I couldn’t breathe. There was complete silence, all I could hear were drops of rain falling onto the ground.
I was heartbroken as it hit me, I realised it had happened again.
I had been hallucinating again. She was a figment of my imagination. I see her everywhere I go, I can’t get her out of my mind. I try to run away from it, but my heart just won’t let me forget her.
I sat on the muddy ground in pain, shivering from the heavy rain pouring down on me. Everyday, I feel that ray of hope; the hope that she has come back. I feel her presence around me, I follow her to try and catch her but then she disappears into the distance. Everyday, I hope that I will get a tiny glimpse of her, but as quickly as I feel that ray of hope, even quicker my hopes are shattered into pieces, realising that she wasn’t real, it was all in my mind. She’s not here and she won’t come back.
As each day passes, a piece of my heart breaks for her.
I cried uncontrollably, the pain of losing her rushes back, everyday the pain gets even more and more unbearable. I repeatedly cried out her name loudly, hoping that somehow, somewhere she would hear me……
Hi everyone!
Shaz here, I’m back with a new FF! Sorry it has taken me so long to write a new FF, I have struggled to come up with a new story. But believe me, I have been itching to write again, I loved writing my previous FF. This will be another intense love story. I hope you like it, this is just a little glimpse of the story. I hope you will enjoy it. Please be patient with me as I will probably only update once a week. I hope you enjoy the new story. Let me know what you think x
23 Comments
Thank you so much Shaz… I’m sure..This will be more intense love story… Than first… I just fall in love with your writing Shaz… It’s like some force attracting everything to your ff… Once in week… But it’s ok..I can wait… It’s just worth wait.. Thank you for this dear…
Thank you Fidato! Your comments mean a lot, especially coming from a talented writer! I will update soon! I really hope you like the new story x
hello dear, it is so gud
continue soon and make my kriyam one
Hi Naymaz, thank you for your comments. I will update soon x
It’s just brilliant..such an amazing start..update soon
Thank you so much! I hope you enjoy the story, I will update soon. Thank you so much for your support, you have supported me since my first FF. Happy Friendship day to you too x
Its amazing epi waiting for next epi
Thank you so much! I will update soon x
Intro was so attractive…u r like a professional writter….waiting for next…
Thank you, your comments are so lovely! X
OMG!!!! What a different starting……..
I can definitely wait a week for such an awesome story…..
Thank u so much Shaz for this beautiful story….i thoroughly enjoyed ur previous ff…that was awesome…And i can sense this is also going to some another level…Really loved ur writing dear…
Come soon…
Thank you! I really hope I can make this story as good as my last FF. Thank you for supporting me since my first FF. I will update soon. You are an amazing writer, your comments mean a lot x
Wow this is something really different.. i jus love kriyam and totally loved this story❤ can’t wait for the next update.!
Thank you so much Akshara. I will update soon. I also have written another FF on TU, if you would like to read on Kriyam it should be on here somewhere called True Love.
Thank You for reading, I will update soon! X
Yea Shaz i read that ff… but as a silent reader i never commented on that ff sorry?.. But this ff is so interesting that i couldn’t stop myself from commenting?
Loved it ??
Waiting ??
Aww thank you! ? You have supported me since my first FF. I will update soon! X
Woah, Shaz, that was such an intense start. I absolutely loved it, your use of words and the way to play around around with them in your writing is just beautiful. The way you describe sensations and emotions is so breath taking…looking forward to reading this!??
Love ya! ???
Aww Shreya, you always say such lovely comments! Thank you! I can’t tell you how much I appreciate your comments, you are such an amazingly talented writer, I’m a big fan of your writing. For you to like my work means a lot. I will update soon, possibly later today or tomorrow x
One of my fav kriyam writer is back.. Yaay.. Let me throw some confetti.. And I have always been a fan of ur amazing professional writing.. Looks like I am streaming through a novel.. If the intro is so amazing how would the epi be.. Its soooooo good. I am already itching to read more..??
Aww thank you Annie! I always look forward to your comments, they always make me smile! Thank you so much! I will update either later today or tomorrow x
This was amazing Shaz!!! You have seriously outdone yourself. It was like reading a novel ??The descriptions of the surroundings and the emotions were brilliantly written! I am already hooked to this and cannot wait for this story to unfold. I can just imagine the rollercoaster of emotions to come ?
Thank you so much Faeeqa. Thank you for you support and encouragement, even when I had doubts about whether to write another FF or not. I have uploaded the first chapter so it will be up soon x