Swasan : Kaabil Hoon Ya Tere Kaabil Nahi – Chapter 18

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Thanks for supporting me and I am again sorry for late updates… I know I am giving monthly updates but that is the only time that I get….

Link for Chapter 17: chapter-17

Before starting this chapter a small note – Guys I am focusing my story on all characters let me know if you want only Swasan, then I will change the track… I know my story revolves around them but I felt that these lines will help me evolve bonding between Swasan.. So as you guys say I will do as you are the readers, what you like I have to give you…

Recap: Swasan Win, Ragini got a job

New day brings new challenges in life and New Challenges give birth to New Confidence.

Bose House

Swara’s POV
I am so happy today. Ragini is gaining her confidence and she has got a job. Nandini has settled in her daily routine. She is also working hard and I am happy. Mom is also happy. We have got great support from the Mittals and I have got good friends in the name of Laksh and Sahil. I have also got my one and only best friend in the form of Sanskar. Though these friendships had just bloomed, she felt positivity. This was something new to her and she immediately decided to pen down her feelings in her favourite Diary.

Ragini’s POV
God has been so grateful to us. I am starting to come out of my cocoon. Laksh is been of great support. She wants to discover her new self and she was pretty excited about the job. Ragini loved the Mittals and also she liked Sanskar and Sahil as friends. She was nervous as she had an appointment with Laksh for her treatment. She was confused whether she would be able to tell the past to him or not.

Sharmishtha’s POV
My life is all new. I feel all fresh and happy. I thank God and my children for being my strength. The Mittals have been wonderful. Being an orphan I never got any love then I thought I would get love from my Husband, but he turned out to be a looser. He left me and my daughters all alone to fight the world because he wanted a son. But here all my three daughters are the sons and much better than son. I have applied for my PH.D so I could start teaching at universities and colleges. I want to grow and I want to surprise my kids so that they can also consider me as role model in future. I am going to be giving my final exam today, I just hope all goes well.

Nandini’s POV
I am so happy Bhagwanji. My sisters and my mom are happy. I feel so blessed that we can see happiness in our life and without anyone’s interference. I just hope that the Gadodia’s do not come back in our lives with another bomb in our life. Now I just want to concentrate on my exams and then even I want to enroll myself in the best engineering college with full scholarship. Hopefully I am able to achieve my target and make my mom and my sisters proud.

All kicked started the day with new hopes, new determination and new beginnings. All had their breakfast quickly and started moving towards their designated destinations and determinations. Meanwhile Swara had gone in Mittals car, picked up Khushi and left for college. As soon as they entered their class, both Khushi and Swara sat next to each other. Sanskar and Sahil wished them a good morning and Kavita as usual ignore Khushi and Swara. Awaiting for their lectures to start, a group of professors entered along with DP

(DP) “Good Morning students”

Good Morning Professors, Students mentioned in unison

(DP) “You must be wondering why all of a sudden, all the professors and that to all of us together, strange isn’t it?”

Students “Yes, professor”

(DP) “Actually, we professors have come out with a very unique idea that all you students would be having the same seating arrangements that was earlier there during my project. They want to try the same in every class of theirs, so the professors want you all to sit back with your old partners. Also don’t make my head fall, as according to me I had made the best pairs.”

Students “yes Professor”

(DP) “Ok guys, now the professor who is going to handle will start with your classes and balance will take leave, so see you all later.”
All the students were happy with their arrangement. The only one who was unhappy was Kavita, not because her partner was bad but because Swara was paired with Sanskar and she only wanted Sanskar to be hers.

Like that the day had passed and it was already a Friday, therefore Swara and Sanskar had music practice on Sunday as they had a competition on Tuesday and it was their band that was representing the university.

At the Clinic

Ragini was waiting for her turn as being a clinic, it was filled with patients. She felt like someone was being watched. But when she had turned around, there was no one and thereby she dismissed the thought of being watched. When people were leaving the clinic she kind of felt lonely as she was the last patient for the day. Then Ragini was called and she entered his cabin,

(Laksh) “Hi Ragini, How are you feeling?”

(Ragini) “Hi Doctor, I am good”

(Laksh) “Don’t be so formal Ragini. Treat me as your friend”

(Ragini) “But you are my doctor and I am at your clinic, so we are not friends”

(Laksh) “Ok Fine. Then let’s start with the process”

(Ragini) “Hmm”

(Laksh) “So Ragini are you getting any nightmares?”

(Ragini) “No. After our last meet, I have never got any nightmares.”

(Laksh) “That’s a good progress. So can you tell me about yourself? Like how are you feeling from within yourself?”

(Ragini) “I feel light. I feel more confident, I don’t know how to express this new feeling that is getting cultivated in me. I guess I like this new change.”

(Laksh) “Impressive Progress Ragini, I am happy to hear. Now next are you ready to share your past?”

Ragini started feeling helpless and she started feeling scared. She didn’t know whether she was ready or not. She was confused, anxious and God knows what. She started Hyperventilating.

(Laksh giving her water to drink) “Relax Ragini, I just asked if you are ready. I am not forcing you to tell me now or at this moment itself. So just chill”

Ragini gained back her composure after drinking a little water and after hearing the soothing words from Laksh. But was she ready to share the past?

(Ragini) “Doctor, I do not want to postpone, I am ready to share the details”

(Note: Finally Ragini’s past is going to come in front of you all)

(Laksh) “Okay Ragini, just be free and tell we have all the time and at the point where you are feeling uncomfortable, we would stop the session immediately and continue at some later session. Do not stress yourself am I clear Ragini. Again do not stress. So are you ready?”

Ragini shook her head in a positive nod and she started

(Ragini) “I was in my high school, final year, exams were nearing. There was this guy who used to tease me and gave me dirty looks. That boy always irritated me, sometimes touched me and would always call by vulgar names. I hated all this but being a quiet person, I never spoke out. I kept quiet did not inform the teachers or my family. I thought being last year and the school coming to end, I did not want to create trouble for my family or myself, moreover he was my father’s second wife’s relative. One day just before our exam prep holidays, he held my hand and pushed me inside a room, he tried to molest me but I slapped him and ran out of the room. I somehow calmed myself down and didn’t utter a word. I managed studying during holidays but being all alone at home as mom used to go to school, Swara to college and Nandini to school, I started thinking more and more about those moments. It was a nightmare, but as I said, studies gave me a cushion and that was the only time those nightmares wouldn’t come back. So I tried my best to just study all the time. Then one day as usual I was alone at home and suddenly I heard the rattling of keys and then the front door lock opened, I thought that my mom or my sisters would have come, so I walked towards the hall. What I saw just shocked me. It was the same boy (will name him as Raj) who tried to harass me had entered my home freely. I was scared to the core, I stood paralysed.”

FLASHBACK

(Ragini) “What are you doing here and how did you get the house keys?”

(Raj) “Oh my darling, it was so easy. Have you forgotten Sakshi aunty is my aunt and your dad is my uncle? So how do you think I got the keys? Isn’t it obvious, Sakshi aunty stole it from your dad and gave me the keys”

(Ragini) “Why are you here?”

(Raj) “Obviously to take revenge for the slap stupid girl”

(Ragini scared) “Raj I am really sorry. Please forgive me.”

Raj slowly locked the house main gate and started walking towards Ragini. He was looking at her lustfully. Raj reached her caught her by arms and started tearing apart her clothes.

(Ragini pushing Raj and crying) “Please Raj, don’t do this. I am sorry for slapping you but please don’t come near me”

Ragini tried running away from him and was going towards one of the room

(Raj caught hold of her hand and threw her on the bed) “Do you think it’s easy to escape from me, you dumb girl. I am here to use your very beautiful body and I intent to do that fully”

(Ragini tried getting away from his grip) “Raj please, I beg of you, don’t do this.”

(Raj) “Oh baby, cry how much ever you want but I will not leave you today and I have a perfect opportunity too”

Raj started tearing her clothes, but as soon as he was going to take her bottoms, someone had rung the bell, hearing the bell, Raj got scared and ran away through the window. Ragini was there sitting all numb as she didn’t know how to react.”

FLASHBACK ENDS

(Laksh) “Ragini now calm down and if you want you can stop right here and we can continue some other day”

Ragini wiping her tears said

(Ragini) “No doctor, I really want to continue, I want to take the burden from me heart. I do not want my heart to feel heavy. I want to feel like a free bird that can fly up in the air.”

(Laksh) “Ok then continue”

(Ragini) “I wanted to thank the person who rang the bell. The person actually saved my life and my respect. But that didn’t stop me from getting those nightmares. I never told my family members about that. I know that my family knows that something happened and they were hell worried. But I was never able to say anything. So Swara then found a psychologist and then I started taking treatments. The problem with those treatments was that I was not able to survive without medicines. Then I somehow completed my high school and I didn’t want to go to college, so I completed my studies through correspondence and online courses. I became quieter. Then I diverted my mind by taking extra classes for students who needed help with subjects and slowly all the four started extra classes for weak students and that became our bread and butter. I never saw Raj again and I certainly do not want to cross paths in future. Even if I do, I want to give him a piece of his brain.”

(Laksh) “So how are you feeling?”

(Ragini) “Super better. I cant describe the feel”

(Laksh) “Can I suggest you something?”

(Ragini) “You are my doctor and you can suggest me anything you want”

(Laksh) “Talk to your family about this matter and then see the results it will be great. You would feel lighter”

(Ragini) “But what if they feel disgusted by me?”

(Laksh taking her hand in his and said) “You know what Ragini, you have done nothing wrong. This talk with your family will make your lighter and their life guilt free that their daughter is safe. Trust me on this. I wouldn’t give you any wrong advices. Please talk to them today itself and if there is any problem, send me a text or give me a call. Apart from being a doctor, I am also your friend. Just go for it”

(Ragini) “Ok, I will try”

(Laksh) “Also Ragini, I know exactly a person who could help you out even more. So please don’t feel anything towards him and let him give you suggestions. Please”

(Ragini) “Ok. Now Laksh I guess I have to leave I have even taken up your lunch time and I am really sorry for that.”

(Laksh) “Anyways it is the closing time too of the clinic. So why don’t you join me for a quick lunch and then I will drop you back home.”

(Ragini) “Done. But it would be my treat, because you have given the new me and you definitely deserve a treat”

(Laksh) “This is my profession Ragini and I wouldn’t accept your treat, I will ask for it when I want. Let’s Dutch this time”

(Ragini) “Ok”

Like this Raglak had left the clinic for lunch and there was a man who had followed them all the way till the restaurant who was feeling agitated seeing Ragini happy.

Precap : Swasan, Friends Lunch and much more..

I will give an early update this time I promise.. Love you all.