Pragya’s POV
My name is pragya …I don”t know what to call me ..Idiot ..no..this is something more than idiot…I always considered me as most loving and caring girl …I think ..innocent ..But in reality ..this is not innocence ..Innocence is something more precious ..i which doesn’t suite my character ….I can’t even explain it to any one ..no one can never ever understand the feeling which i am feeling now .. Why ..Why..Why .it always happens with me ..Is it wrong to love someone ..unconditionally ….
The thing u r calling luv na ..this is not luv ..from which angle u can consider it as luv …Luv is a relationship which is based on trust …If there is no trust than u r not allowed to call it as luv…In luv there is no need to give explanation …U r saying that u luv him …impossible ..u r loving him from the day ..u hve seen his name …but at that time he doesn’t know about u….Right ….but one day he came to know about u…and he message u …What will u feel??U will be on cloud ninth na …I can’t even called it friendship …This is not called friendship ..Friendship is the most beautiful relation..in the world . ..but what u did pragya ..shame on u ….Something like a relation called friendship u ..just break it on the basis of others….If u trust him na ..if u luv him na ..then u can’t never trust other so easily …Wo alg baat hai ke ..circumstances ,the situation was similar ..but that was a co incidence nothing else …i am ready to accept my mistake ….even i am ready for the punishment….But ..isn’t it possible that i can get a ..one chance ..impossible …because it was ur mistake that u beleive ..that he is going to leave u forever …it was ur mistake that u pray all the night for him ..it was ur mistake that u pray for him instead of praying for ur result ..It was ur mistake that u cried this much that ur eyes goes red ….But who cares ..
He is not going to listen u once ..because u break the trust ….Did u know the meaning of word trust ….If u can’t even take care of the word trust …in ur relation than i think ..what he did with u…it’s good ..not good excellent …And secondly …u even message his friend ….just for him …what will u explain ..that u messaged her .just like the way ….it is shown in serials ….Hahaha…great ..welldone pragya …life is not a serial …this is ur mistake ..u always considered life as a serial…..Tu aisa hi hona tha na …..What was my fault …that i always wanted a friend …now i can just laugh on this ….word ..friend….whenever i ask GOD ..for a friend …he always gave me the best of best …but i never care for it ..i always waste that friend on the basis of my so called innocence ….So from now on …i am ready ..to ..start a new life …where there will be no innocence ,no friend ,no luv,no trust,no caring …nothing except my Deadbody ….Today i am like a …walking deadbody …for everyone ….there will be no chinese smile …no echo of laughter not s hour of happiness ….for me only …not for him….It doesn’t mean ..i will forget him ..i will always remember him….I will always pray for him …..And by the grace of GOD …one day …when i will be praying for him ..i will be no more ….That will be the best day of my life ……
Because i always live in this …khushfahmi ke …koi aye ga aur tumhe smjhe ga ..koi nhi aye ga …ab aj ke baad kisi bhi insan ki wja se meray chehrey pr smile aye gi ..nhi aye gi ..kbhi nhi ayi gi ….aj ke baad koi mujhe pasand nhi krey ga ….kyun ke ye kha jata hai ke …jb koi qimmati cheez koh jati hai ..tu dobara nhi milti aur iss ki qadar krni padti hai …..
Hahaha…….shaid mai iss qabil nhi thi ..ke uss heeray ki qadar kr skti …..
Mai iss ….kis…kisi ….koi ..
Bhi …cheez,insan,pyar,mohabbat . Even nafrat tk ke qabil nhi hu …..
May be someone will consider it as ..just a dialogues ….but for me ..this is my future …because in life i hvn’t seen to ditch someone …even in his/her absence ..or his/her conversations ….So ….Hope ke ye zindagi bilkul waisey hi khatam ho ..uss example ke jaisi …ik tree ko taney mar mar kr ..skhir kar mar hi diya tha …….Hope so .
.pragya mehra…..