You are and always be my life! (KKB) episode 17 (Special)

First of all I really don’t have the mood to write ff after hearing the news yesterday about Suha…but I felt that I should dedicate this episode to her….I really loved her writings and especially love from sky….U all can’t imagine how much I loved it as I am a person who have fantasies about aliens and UFOs…and when she wrote about that I was super excited…So this epi won’t follow the precap given ytd..its totally for Suha, my unseen choti and friend…Suha wherever u are Suga over here will always remember u….That’s for sure….

Abhi was looking at some things that were in his room and had tears in his eyes….Abhi, how i wish they were here now…they were here just like before whenever i feel that i need them to care for me….whenever i feel that I need them to scold me….

Pragya on the other hand in her room felt something strange…She felt that Abhi was feeling upset…So she decided to call him…

Abhi heard his phone rang…He picked up the call ” Haan Fuggi…What’s the matter?”  Pragya ” Are u ok?” Abhi ” Ya I am ok…Why did u call at this time?” Pragya ” No…actually I felt that u are not ok…I mean just felt that u are worried about something…” Abhi, She knows me very well…Pragya ” Are u there?” Abhi ” Hmm ya…” Pragya ” Then tell me…” Abhi ” Ok Fuggi! I will tell u but….” Pragya ” It’s ok if u don’t feel like sharing it with me…” Abhi ” Nothing like that Fuggi…I will tell u…Just had the memories of my parents who are no more…I saw the toys that they had bought for me when i was young and it made me have tears….made me feel how badly i miss them now…” Pragya ” Can i tell u something?” Abhi ” Haan…” Pragya ” I know its not easy to accept that your loved ones are not with u anytime…..but at the same time its not difficult to accept that they are with u every time…” Abhi ” What u mean by that?” Pragya ” If u think they are not with u at anytime that u want then u are wrong…actually they are with u every time…..with your feelings…whenever u feel for them…then they are with u…whenever u think about them…then they are in your thoughts…This means that they are with u everytime…its just that u can’t see them but it doesn’t mean that u can’t feel them right? It doesn’t matter if u can’t see them but at least u can feel them…feel them through whatever they had done to u…that is what matters the most… Sometimes what we feel has more emotions than what we see or hear….when u remember the times how they talked to u, it means that they are still talking to u…its just that u can’t hear them now but u can feel them…feel their presence…” Abhi remained silent as he was trying to feel them…feel his parents…their words…their affection towards him…and he felt that they are with him now…it felt as if they are with him at anytime and everytime too…

Pragya ” Suniye! Are u there? Why are u still quiet?” Abhi ” I am feeling them Fuggi….and it makes me feel that they are with me everytime and also anytime that I want now!” Pragya ” Ok go back to sleep now as they are always with u…” Abhi ” Thank u Fuggi!” He ended the call and felt some kind of peace and calmness as his feelings were filled with the memories of his parents….

Ok guys don’t feel that Suha is no more…she is always remembered for her works here and whatever she have written is all unimaginable…a special talent of hers including fantasy and love together…very rarely u can see…so just have to say that life is very unpredictable…anything can happen at anytime….I am always accepting that and that’s why I try not to get myself attached to so many things but still its difficult…Suha reminds me of someone i know before… she was my primary school classmate…she was very popular and intelligent in school…i only know her for short period of time as she came from india and studied with us for 3 yrs….her death was also unexpected to us… she was only 12 at that time…it was my first time seeing death too…I also felt bad as my friends and I went to hospital but we were not allowed to meet her as we came right after school and they were saying its not hygiene enough to see her….I only spoke to her like few times but she was a  very warm hearted person loved by everyone as she talked to us so jovially…i dont know why but she reminds me of Suha now…that’s when i realise that death can happen at anytime…Until then I was thinking death is for old people…but its not the truth…truth is always not easy to accept….So please don’t say that Suha is not here but she is all here in our hearts and mind as long u all remember her writings….That’s all I have to say…As i previously mentioned in one of my ff…Think those who u miss as they are within u…within u with their thoughts and memories…then u will not miss them anymore…. And yes like what Monesha said just like how Suha don’t like others to cry…I also don’t like others to cry and hope this update of mine had made u all feel that Suha is filled in our thoughts and feelings…..and don’t cry but try to remember her as always a friend of us….

And to Monesha and Saranya, I understand that both of u are very close to Suha…Its difficult to accept but stay strong for Suha as even she will want that….

Maybe I am like talking too much about this even though my interaction with Suha is very little but I felt it very memorable…and that’s why I felt like writing this update just for her…..

I am also sorry if any of my words had hurted u all…its just my genuine thoughts and i just hope it made u all feel better…

And one more thing…I really don’t know whether is this right or not….just had this sudden thought I really love her ff…love from sky and love from eternity….I find myself now bad for not commenting regularly in one of my favourite ffs…I was just overthinking about certain things in my life which made me not even to read some ffs properly….and one of them is hers…but still i read that lately and now i am really feeling bad for not commenting on them….Coming back to my sudden thought….I wish to continue her love from eternity ff, may be i am getting this idea because both of us share the same liking for aliens and stuff….. I am not sure if  i can match up to her standard….but still I can try if u all are ok with it…I seriously dont know why i got this sudden idea…I am sorry if my thought on this is not correct…As i consider u all as my friends and thats why I am sharing with u all what i thought of…. I am uploading one episode of love from eternity that I have written keeping her style of writing in my mind…if u all are ok then i will continue…I am doing this as a way to show my love and appreciation for her writings and the short conversations we had….This is a very small way of showing respect to Suha from Suga….