An Apology
One Shot
Love is something which helps you find your own true self. It is a bond which helps two people, completely or partially different from each other, to come close and become one soul from two bodies. They become one soul and fight against the world together. It is about caring for the other person. It is about believing and confiding in the other person. It is the ultimate bond which may not have any relation of blood, but it is a connection of two hearts.
“How are you, Kunj? I know you must not be keeping well without me. I know you still love me like before and will continue to do so. Believe me, even I love you like before, but some relations of love aren’t meant to be complete just as ours.
Do you remember, you never wanted me to feel embarrassed in front of anyone? You would never let anyone talk a word against me. I felt proud to have a husband like you and even now I’m proud that I spent five years of my life with the best person of this world. I am sorry Kunj for leaving you when everything was setting normal in our lives. I know Usha maa never accepted our marriage and you were never bothered about it, but I really wondered what was it that I didn’t have and she wished that missing quality of mine in your wife. You’ve told me many times not to worry about her as she didn’t mean anything to us, but it wasn’t so easy. I wanted to lead a life along with you, but that doesn’t mean that I would exclude everyone else. You know me, I always wanted to lead a happy and contended life with you and both our families.
Kunj, you’ve always considered maa and papa as your own parents and I’m really grateful to you for everything that you’ve given me till date. I was the one who wanted separation and not you. You never ran away from your responsibilities. Inspite of all the difficulties between us you’ve always sent me the things I required for leading my life alone so that no one could point out on your Twinkle. But Kunj even I didn’t want anyone to point out on you.
Kunj, I was three months pregnant when we parted our ways and I was suffering from ananemia. I decided to stay away from you until everything sets fine, but you were always right beside me, caring for me, loving me. I would always tend to forget about the promises I made to myself for our baby. I decided to move away from you and promised to come back to you when everything would be fine, after my delivery.
But I think our love wasn’t meant to be completed in this birth Kunj.
~ Your wifey, your Twinkle”
“How are you, Twinkle? I know you must not be fine without me right beside you. I know you’ve always loved me and will always continue to do so no matter what. I know the separation you’ve asked for has some reason behind which is unknown to me, but believe me, despite everything I can’t imagine that you told me, we’ve nothing left in our relation. I was hurt, Twinkle.
You know, you’ve been the only one who has understood me, cared for me, loved me and stayed beside me for all these past years. Maa was never beside me after you came in my life because she couldn’t accept you and I couldn’t accept her demand of leaving you.
After you asked me for the application of a separation, I became an alcoholic. I thought it was my only support which could possibly bring me out of this dark phase of my life without you. I expected you to come back, but it has been a long time now Twinkle that I’ve been waiting for you. Don’t worry, I’m still not tired of waiting for you but, alcohol is an addiction which can destroy your life. Doctor told me that I would be able to live only for two or three weeks more as my liver has become dysfunctional because of excess alcohol consumption.
Twinkle, believe me, I never wanted to leave your side, but our love isn’t meant to be completed in this birth.
~ Your Kunj”
I finished reading both the letters as a drop of tear rolled down my cheeks and fell on the letter. It absorbed the water just as Kunj and Twinkle absorbed their problems all to themselves. I felt bad for the two of them. They struggled for their love, but they couldn’t make it up together.
I remembered the long forbidden deaths the two of them had. Twinkle had slipped down the stairs and because of blood loss, she lost her life being an anaemic patient. Kunj died because of his dysfunctional liver and his neglect towards his illness.
I removed my glasses and wiped the tears off my face. I remembered what Twinkle had told me while breathing her last breath. `Mahi, hand this to Kunj` was all she had mouthed before her eyes looked at me expressionless. I took a sealed letter out of her palm and was looking at her painfully. I rushed to Kunj’s house immediately to inform him about Twinkle’s death, but who knew that their destiny had met at the same end.
Their hearts were beating for each other and had stopped beating at the same time. They were meant to be together. May be not in this world, but in some other world. Thier love for each other was eternal and even if not in this world, then it would be completed in their next birth or another unknown world.
I placed the letters back on the table and stood up. I walked towards the cupboard to get ready for the day while the two sealed letters laid there with a rose on top of them. `AN APOLOGY` were the only words scribbled next to the seal on both the letters.
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Hello, everyone! So, how was this? This was the one shot I had told you all about. How was it? I guess it wasn’t up to the mark. Apology for that. Well, do drop down your thoughts below. I’d be eagerly waiting to hear them out. Suggestions and criticisms are always welcome, but no abusive language.
THE CAPTIVES – FIVE SHOTS shall be posted soon. Do stay tuned.
Loads of love,
Ria