Breaking The Silence -part 4
Cool winds made their way inside the car as they sped towards their destination after that 10 mins long jam, as it was turning dark she was starting to feel the serenity of this moment and on her own she was drawn back to that one memory months back, it was the night after their engagement and Aditi ,her cousin a few years younger to her was asking and more likely irritating her about how she was feeling after being engaged. And she really had no idea how she was feeling, she just came after the session was over. And all of a sudden this happened ,she really had no time thinking about all that. And Aditi wasn’t alone, everyone who saw her was teasing her. So to save herself from those talks she took the stairs to terrace and thought about resting for a while and forget about all those happenings, she wanted to feel like nothing was changed and she was still the same Krishna.
She tried pulling those hundreds of pins keeping her hairs intact and as she collected them in her fist, she suddenly found the biggest proof of she wasn’t the same Krishna anymore.
she recalled how strange she was feeling all the day, She had nervously extended her fingers when he was going to put that ring in her fingers, and she was so sure she was sweating, her palms were sweaty. But as soon as his warm palm lightly held her, she felt things smoothing out and for the first time she had looked in his eyes that evening But the warmth was soon gone as he had already slid the ring on her finger and waiting for viceversa.
He was mingling with every relative present there ,also with whom he was meeting first time. and she,well she was never too open and social so she was trying hard in that atmosphere where all the eyes were on them and everyone was coming to congratulate them.
When suddenly she found a whisper in her ears “we can stop here itself if you don’t want this marriage but then what we will do of those photo graphs these two men are taking of us.” She looked in the direction and found him talking with a little girl like nothing happened and her smile was back.
She caressed the ring, and though she was not sure about the things ,she was not nervous anymore.
Coming to reality she looked in his direction but he seemed busy in driving ,and so taking the opportunity she stared him for a while and indeed he always looked perfect.also there was this one thing her husband really hated and that was traffic jams and she grinned.
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They have arrived this small sky open restaurant by the lake ,and though small and quiet but this natural looking place was just perfect she thought as they walked to that one table which was the distant one from others and perhaps especially designed to provide privacy.
After they settled on their chairs, and ordered for their coffee, “you need anything cause I am really hungry and I will go with a sandwich?” he asked .
“no , I am fine with coffee.” She answered.
“I am coming here after ages,”he started and she looked up “while in college I used to come here often for, the peace it provides.I had a feeling you would love it and by the looks it seems I was right .”
You are always right ,yeah I love this place,” smiling she completed.
“So how was your day?” in his company she was finally gaining the confidence after the last night incident.
“Haaah, it was fine,” he stretched his fingers, something he always did when he was tired. “ we are nearly done with the project and rest is upto testing department so can say I am free.
“You are tired?” she asked as he completed . “yeah, had a long day but how did you know, i guess you yourself feel I don’t look that good always.” He again teased touching his jaw line.
“ no, no I didn’t mean that , you were stretching your fingers so – and she was cut midway “ good observer wifey.”and before he could have said anything more to make her blush even more their order came .
And he practically launched on the sandwiches, and sipping her coffee she kept herself busy admiring the beautiful architecture of the place.
“Isn’t this place poetic? He asked wiping his fingers with tissue. I used to come here just to free my mind for a while and in those hours I even rhymed a few lines.
“You do poetry?” she was amazed of him ,she knew really little about him.
“Don’t take that seriously ,it was the effect of this place that I ended rhyming a few lines, they were not that good anyways.”
“By the way You love gardening that I have come to know with the new plants in our balcony, also you are so quiet so I guess you would be a booklover, other than that what are your hidden talents Krishna? He asked .
He too was a good observer , and she couldn’t contain this to herself, “ good observer! You too husband.” Well two can do better with teasing.
And suddenly he was surprised with her reply. But didn’t comment anything ,just looked in her eyes and this action itself was enough for her to loose her grounds. She had seriously something with his eyes, everytime he looked directly into her eyes she was clearly not okay.
“Well, you already said ,other than that I love drawing portraits .” she answered the earlier question in an attempt to keep the talks going on and leave no room for the silence as the silence was playing a true enemy today.
And like that the evening kept going on where she was finally free from any hesitations and indeed this place had some magic.
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As they were leaving the restaurant after the dinner “can we go for a walk by the lake,just for a few minutes” she asked him. “We can but you won’t be afraid of snakes na? he recalled the previous mention how she was afraid of snakes and scorpions .
“You are joking, right? Why there would be any snakes ,here?” But she was not sure of her own voice.
And suddenly he laughed , “no no there isn’t a snake here ,but you are such a naïve Krishna,look at your face ,he quipped .
“Okay no jokes, lets go” he lead the way.
And crushing the dry leaves, engulfing the fragrance of night lilies and leaving the world behind they walked towards the life waiting for them.
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No,no its not that way , I mean I love animals in a sense I can’t harm them but I don’t love those furry friends to that extent that I keep them home, I admit I cant even touch them.” She completed her point.
“So then you would be uncomfortable with Tison I guess,” he was again with that lopsided smile of his.
“Sorry, who is he, I never heard his name.”she was confused.
“Well ,our own furry friend as you call them” and she was already sensing a hint of joke in his voice.
“And how come I never knew about him, also never saw him at home.”she asked.
“You never saw cause he is not here in delhi but with chachu in lucknow, he used to live with us but like you ma too cant touch them and as I got busy with job ,it was best for him to shift there.” He answered while turning his gaze to the waters.
First two buttons of shirt opened, sleeves folded till elbows, his jacket on the grass, with uncountable times ruffled hairs, and sitting comfortably on the grass he was looking so dashing. And she was unable to keep her stare off him When he suddenly turned and she got saved as in the dim lit bulbs it wasn’t that hard .
“You never asked what I needed in a marriage?” he asked out of blue and she was back to a same question in some different timeline.
And she was alert “ why this question and this late?” she thought to turn it light, who knows he is again teasing.
“Cause you never heard my answer and I could never give you the answer, right after our marriage we without a word believed in this marriage but today when we talked this much about these many things I thought I should ask you.” He was not teasing or joking but a serious talk
“Ok, so what is your answer.” She was now looking directly to his face.
“My answer is ,I will try to keep this trust into our marriage all our life, also for me it wasn’t much necessary who I was going to marry and when, I just belived ma with that. And I guess she has done an amazing job.” He completed genuinely but his eyes have turned intense or maybe she was feeling too much. “ And one more thing Krishna just don’t feel unconfident about anything, you are best in your own ways. Anyone can’t be everything,we all have some flaws and faults but we have to accept one another with that.” He was saying and she was listening with cool winds touching her cheeks ,her hairs and suddenly she felt wetness on her cheeks and that’s when she knew the tears have made their way already(one more best friend of hers).But those tears were of joy ,of completeness, of being gifted so much from her destiny.
“Hey, not again, I am really bad with these tears and all, please don’t cry.”he visibly panicked and with no way out there, he did something he used to do with a little Yuvaani when he didn’t know how to stop her crying.
He pulled her in a hug and locked his hands around her assuring he was there for her but unknown to himself he did the best thing to break her silence.
Night kept darking, moon kept shining, crickets sang louder but for them moments stopped passing by cause their moment though late have arrived and by that lake ,in the strong belief of him ,nature witnessed yet another poetry.
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Hey guys,part 4 updated finally. I have tried my best to this chapter. Hope you like it and will be waiting for your response. With love Morusya.