“Khamoshiyon Ko Bhi Lafzon Ki Talash Hai
Bezubaan Dil Ke Jazbaaton Ko Bhi,
Marham Ki Talash Hai
Aankhiyon Mein Chupi Nami Ko Bhi,
Muskaan Ki Talash Hai
Zindagi Bhi Talash Rahi Hai
Aapne Jeene Ki Wajah
Dil Bhi Dhoondh Rahe Hai
Aapne Dhadakne Ki Wajah………….”
Sagar says to an enraged Shivaay:
-Have you lost it?Do you have any idea what are you saying?What do you know about me and Anika?Just leave me.
-I know what I am saying.You don’t have to tell me that.
-May I know why are you here and how are you related to Anika?
-I will tell you exactly how and why I am related to Anika.Before that you tell me,do you know where is Anika?In what condition and what is she doing?
Sagar goes silent.He falls back on the sofa then covers his face with both of his hands.Breaking the silence he says:
-Last I saw Anika in Mumbai.After that……………
-After that you pushed her away from your heart and life then got busy as usual,no?
-Trust me I tried.I tried a lot to contact with Anika but seemed like she just went vanished.You know na where is Anika?Take me to her plz.I have to ask for her forgiveness.What I did to her………..
-What’s the use now?Rejecting Anika and her love you moved on happily.Got married and started a new life all together.You don’t deserve her forgiveness.
-One second.Who told you I got married?
-Don’t try to act innocent.Your father fixed your marriage with another girl.Anika came to meet you leaving her own marriage.But you………..Coward!
-That’s true.Dad did fix my alliance but I was not ready to get married at all.All the time I was thinking about Anika and our love.
-Love?You call it love?If you truly loved Anika then you would have taken a stand for her.When your father was forcing you,could have convinced him.In front of whole society your father insulted her and what you did?Stood like a statue and witnessed everything.Shame on you.
-I was…..
-You know what happened because of your spineless attitude?Her marriage got called off,her father refused to have any relation with her.And worst part was,Anika lost her memory in an accident.Only because of you Sagar.
-What?So much…..
-Yeah right.So much happened.Anika has lost her memory and there is no surety when she would recover.Here after destroying her life,snatching away her all happiness,you are leading a happy married life.Do you have a heart or not Sagar?
-It’s true I was all set to get married.But when I saw Anika at the wedding venue my defense got weakened and I called off my forced marriage.Right after Anika left,I too followed her leaving the wedding altar but….could not find her.Shivaay says in disgust:
-Don’t tell lies.Don’t make yourself stoop that much low.
-I am not telling lies.Dad threatened me that he would commit suicide if I would not get married.You tell me Shivaay,what would you have done if you were in my place?I was torn in between my love and the words of my Dad.I was helpless Shivaay,I was helpless……….Sagar starts crying.
Shivaay too gets shocked as Pinky’s face comes to his mind.Silence takes over the cabin.Suddenly Sagar stands up:
-I have to meet Anika.Till now I am living under so much guilt that I could not save our relation,could not respect our love.When Anika needed me most,I could not be with her.How Anika must have suffered because of me,in my absence!
I have to atone for my crimes.I am her culprit.Plz take me to her.I beg of you.Sagar joins his hand in front of Shivaay.He says:
-I can see you are under immense guilt.That is going to increase by many-fold when I will break another news to you.Taking a pause:
Anika…..Anika is pregnant with your child.
-What?
-Just couple of days ago,I got to know.For your information,since the day you turned Anika away,she has been with me.I found her on the road all alone,in bridal dress.I brought her at my home and from that day she has become my responsibility.Sagar,who is under shock says nodding his hand:
-This is not possible.Anika can’t conceive.She….Shivaay says getting angry:
-Why not?In the party of you and Anika’s homecoming you two…….He stops then looks away.Sagar says:
-But that night nothing happened in between us as you are assuming to be.(This time Shivaay gets surprised)
Party was going on in a five star hotel.We were not in our senses I agree.One waiter splashed drink on her.Before I could do anything,Anika passed out under the influence of alcohol.I thought it was not safe to drive back home in that condition so I decided to stay back.
-What happened after that?
-Hotel manager told me there was only one room left.It was booked for a newly wed couple.For any reason booking got canceled.Me and Anika got in there.A female staff of the hotel changed Anika’s cloths when I was outside.
-Then?
-In the morning when Anika woke up she suspected something happened between us watching the surrounding and our condition.She could not recall neither could I.
-One second.If you could not recall anything then how come you are saying all these to me right now?
-Anika was really upset.To sort out the matter I went to the same hotel again.There,manager told me everything.
-Had not you told Anika about this?
-I tried but every time she refused to hear anything.Sensing her uncomfortable feeling,I refrained myself.That’s why I am asking how is it possible.
Shivaay falls into deep thinking so does Sagar.After some time without saying anything Shivaay opens the door and leaves.Sagar does not realize that he has left.He turns only to find he was not in the room.
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Shivaay is on the road,driving.He says in his mind:
“If Sagar is telling the truth then it means……..No,no.What are you thinking Shivaay?”
He stops the car then comes out of it.Again he says:
“That night when Anika wanted to give me surprise,I was prepared beforehand.I mixed sleeping pill in her food and she fell asleep.Before that,I had to act like coming close her.Then?(Shivaay rakes his brain)How could I forget Punch party?Oh my God,this is…………..No,I have to find out….”
Shivaay brings out his phone.His phone is connected with the CCTV of his room.He placed those to monitor Anika’s activities.He searches for the footage of the punch party.With a pounding heart he goes through the recording.His tension raises with every passing second.
He stops coming at where Anika is holding out nuptial chain and vermilion box to him.He says in his mind:
“Did Anika get to know everything?But how is it possible?Who would tell her that?”
Shivaay watches further.Anika is not allowing to touch her……She is going out of the room……He is saying something but right that moment it blacks out.
Shivaay:Damn it.Because of power cut nothing recorded further.If what Sagar said is true then……..How,how did that happen?Anika was my responsibility and what I did?How would I know exactly what happened in that night?How would I find the answer of my questions?How?
A Pir Baba puts his hand on Shivaay’s shoulder.He turns getting shocked.Pir Baba says:
-Dear,you won’t find answer until you seek.We all have questions in our heart and God is ready to help us to find answers.He never refuses any pure,innocent heart and who is in need.Open your inner eyes,ask your own heart.You will find your answer.
Because it’s that place where He,God resides,where love blossoms,from where everything has started.
(Aazan gets announced at the nearby Dargah)
You will reach your destination for sure and your love will show you the way.Have faith in God and in your love.May God bless you.
Saying all those Pir Baba leaves towards the Dargah.Shivaay looks at.People are going in that direction with various offering.He too follows them.Bringing out the handkerchief,he ties it around his head.Then,taking off the shoes,he enters inside and goes through few rituals.
Song Plays
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“Arziyaan Saari Meri Chehre Pe Likh Ke Laaya Hoon
Tumse Kya Maangu Main,Tum Khud Hi Samajh Lo
Ya Maula….Maula Maula Mere Maula
Tere Dar Pe Jhuka Hoon,Meeta Hoon,Baana Hoon
Marammat Mukaddar Ke Kar Do Maula
Ya Maula….Maula Maula Mere Maula…………”
Shivaay reaches the holy tomb followed by others.He sits down on his knees with closed eyes.Raising his both hand for dua,he says in his mind:
“Today I need answer for me,Anika and that little innocent life who is getting nurtured in Anika’s womb.If I don’t get my answer,everyone is going to suffer.I will do injustice not only with them but with me too.We can lie to everyone but not to our heart.
I have said enough lies till now,only to protect Anika.I am tired of telling lies to me to her but not anymore.I love Anika.Yes,I love her and I can’t live without her.Can’t term my love as mere responsibility anymore.Anika deserves true happiness.
I have to come to a definite conclusion.That may change our lives,forever.Plz God,show me the way.I am begging of your mercy.Plz hear me once……………”
“Arziyan Arziyan Arziyan
Sunle Dil Ki Arziyan
Arziyan Arziyan Arziyan
Sunle Dil Ki Arziyan
Mere Maula….Sunle Dil Ki Arziyan………”
Shivaay tries to recall the incidents of that night:
“…….Everything we shared was lie,deception,made up things……….This is not my home nor I belong here……….I started feeling things here,inside my heart because of you Anika Vardhan Trivedi……..Shivaay Singh Oberoi will claim his right at that very moment……………You know Anika,I saw you for the first time as a bride…….You were,are meant to be mine…….And you would wear the nuptial chain and vermilion of my name…………..”
After a long time,Shivaay opens his tear tinged eyes.There is solace in his face like a long fought battle just ended.He comes out of the Dargah after tying up a holy thread.As he gets in the car,his phone rings.Anika is on the call;
-Shivaay,where are you?Waiting for you since long.You said you would return soon.Morning has tuned into night.What so important are you doing?Have called you so many times.
-I am sorry Anika that I made you wait.Do wait a little bit more.I am just on my way.After that our waiting will be over.
-Are you okay?You are sounding different.
-I am okay Anika.
-Come soon.Me and baby is missing you…….Cutting the call Shivaay heads for Sunflower Petals.
No Precap
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Awesome, words are less to praise you
Neeru dear,I don’t think I write that much good.But thank you so very much for your consideration.Thank you once again.God bless you.Love you??
Wow amazing!?
Finally SSO will try to know the truth yaya!???
Im so happy for SHIVIKA!!!???
Btw,apu process was super fast tbh.?
No worries,its a friction and it happens. Expected.?
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N i love the way u describe.
No PRECAP MEANS THERE IS A SURPRISE! U said, i believed.???
(Im your cute little obedient younger sister na…heh he he?)
So i am waiting for the surprise.???
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N apu i am again saying,join whattpad.THIS STORY DESERVES MUCH MORE recognition! Trust me your ff is one of the best ffs i read.
If u ask me reasons then they are:
1.your writing is more like a writer than a fan!it is actually very important for the story.
2.way of description. I love the way u describe everything so beautifully!!!
Emotions and actions both reach at the top for this.
3.suspense and surprises. From the starting,i used to guess the story a bit.sometimes they matched n sometimes they didn’t.
4.regular updates. Well i see that u try to update regularly n i love this fact very much apu.
5.ur storyline. U have a fixed storyline and going with that.its amazing.
6.characters and their characteristics. I love your grey shaded characters.n the main leads are really attractive, i love their attitude.
7.dialogues. Amazing dialogue n delivery by the characters.
8.bonds.i love that the characters are careful about their relationships.yeah got very less of that.but the amount i got,i can surely say this.
9.environment of the scenes and chapters. It feels that u put the characters in the perfect environment for a situation.
10.interaction to readers.love the way u interact with us.
So after reading all the chapters u have posted till now,i got these points.there are many more but currently can’t remember.
MONE ASHLE ABAR BOLE DIBO KEMON??
Ur ff deserves more,amnei bolchi na.?dekho kotogulo reason diyechi hihihi.
Atodin porar por aktu proshongsha na korle ki hoy bolo bolo??
N u saw my excitement in the very first episodes too,so Im not lying.??
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So join whattpad if possible apu,and publish this story there too.
I am sure readers will like it.?
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So very much excited for the upcoming.
All the best of luck.???
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Take care. Love you.
May Allah bless you.
Hope u r healthy. Have a blessed ramadan.?
N happy mothers day too apu.?
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Keep me in your prayers!❤❤❤
Hello Noushin,
Wow,such a big reply?So sweet of you.
You are wise enough to understand that in fiction,such realization happens like that only.And I am not following the cult of Ekta Kapoor where anything circles round and round until one feels dizzy!
And you are right.No Precap means surprise and sometimes it indicates that next episode is not ready yet.It works in both the case.
This FF of mine was exclusively for PKJ.Because of them,I started writing in the first place.Otherwise I did not know that I could write FF too.FF writing is really time consuming in every way possible.Those who write know it very well.
About recognition,to be very honest,I did not bother much about comments or likes or how many I would get.I simply go on writing because I love to do so.But I agree with you on this matter.It feels frustrating when one does not receive that much attention for that work which requires so many things happen.Have seen many writers threat(lovingly) their readers that they would stop writing or won’t update if they don’t get enough comments!
It seems to me asking readers to do something which they don’t want to-Forcing them directly or indirectly.And this Force thing I don’t like at all,be it anything.Any creative writing needs readers otherwise it does not survive for long.Only yesterday I was reading and found this line-“A writer’s mind does not work if he does not get enough audience”
Encouragement,praises are the driving force of such private effort.I know if I join wattpad,my writing will receive more attention than I get in TU.
But whatever it is,I don’t want to force my readers to pass comment.If I write good,I will get praise naturally-That’s what I told myself before starting this FF.
In wattpad,IF,those stories which are good receive acclamation at a really good rate.Average writing does not work in those platforms.Only exception I have seen in TU.Here,some stories which contain messy grammar,broken sentence,aimless narration etc. get both attention and comments in abundance.On the other hand stories those have good writing,execution skill,character portrayal get less attention.Watching those much Likes and Comments,I tried to read few of them but gave up eventually as a reader.
Anyway,it’s everyone’s choices after all.You and me can’t do anything.But I am satisfied with my achievement no matter what.It’s my first effort and I am really happy.
And I have an ardent reader like you to back me up.Thank you Noushin,thank you soooooooooooooooooooooooo…..very much for your continuous love and encouraging words.It really means a lot.May Allah bless you too.Wishing you the same.
Happy(belated)Mother’s Day to you too.My blessings are always with you.Lots and lots of love.See you soon.
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Darlos.. So SSO is going to do something.. Kya karne wala hai.. Haa pata hai agle update tak intezaar karna padega.. Yaar aaj kal thodi busy reh rhi hoon toh theek se comment nhi kar pa rhi hoon.. Aur Belated Happy mother’s day to you and aunty… Love you.. Take care.. ??
Hello Sweetheart,
It’s absolutely fine.Trying to shake up the drama that’s it.Like bijli girne se pehle ki sannata!
Thank you so very much for your lovely wish.Happy(belated)Mother’s Day to you too and your Mom dearest.Lots of love.