Connected by Pain, Locked in Love ( A Ragsan OS by Saghi)

“You love her don’t you?”
 
“Its nothing like that massi, I don’t love Ragu”
 
“Who said I am talking about Ragini? And why don’t you ever call her by her name? Why is always Ragu for you?”
 
“Whoever you are talking about Maasi, I don’t love anyone. I only know how to hate. I hate everyone. No one is any exception.” Sanskar said. Struggling to shut his heart screaming out  its disapproval.
 
Maasi grabbed his arm and turned him to face her. “Then I assume you hate Ragini as well?Great then! Can you please explain me why are your eyes dark with pain and agony?Why is your heart flinching at Ragini’s departure- so much so that that not only is the pain reflected on your face? But your eyes are shimmering and voice choking at the threat of tears? Can you explain me that Sanskar?” Maasi screamed at the top of her lings, demanding an explanation.
 
Unable to hold back any longer, Sanskar fell on his knees as tears oozed out of his eyes.Covering his face in his hands, he spoke between his sobs, ” I wish I could hold her back, I wish I could see her, I wish I had told her, I wish…” Lifting his head to look at Maasi, Sanskar stood up, shell shocked at the sight of him. Amusing whether he had gone demented and was having illusions, he blinked his eyes, only to find the pair of green eyes still staring back at him- conveying an osmosis of emotions he could not comprehend, or could he?
 
“Ragu,” was all Sanskar could manage to utter.
 
Seeing Ragini nod while tears streamed down her face, he gave a watery smile, still not fully convinced.
 
Gathering some strength, he asked, ” Why are you here? I thought you were…”
 
“About to leave?” Ragini completed for him.
 
Still dazed at her presence, Ssnskar noded confusingly.
 
” I was on my way to the airport. But I could not leave. For some strange reason I felt as if I was leaving behind something. I did not know what. When I took a U turn to come here, I felt as if I was coming closer to the thing. I did not know what. Finally when I came here and saw you, I realized what I had left. So here I am, back to you, to claim my possession.

Seeing him rooted like a statue, Ragini stepped forward. Bending down a little, she kissed him on his chest, just where his heart was thumping.
 
” I had left behind my heart here, and I have come to get it back. Or else I can’t go Sanskar. I’ll die if I go away form you, because my heart resides in you. Please give my heart back , please?” Ragini begged, as the ruthless tears blotched her pale skin with the mascara.
 
Surprised at her gesture and stunned at her words, Sanskar’s lips finally twisted to a smile as realization dawned him. He smiled with content!!!
 
” First you snatch my heart and run off with it. And now you are blaming me? I see you haven’t changed a little ever since our second meeting Ragu. You still nurture your habit of doing the crime and confidently put the blame on others? Well then I must tell you that I was a fool then to fall in your trap for once and land in jail. But now I am a bigger fool to fall in your trap and land in lifetime imprisonment of your love” Sanskar said smirking, mischief lurking in his voice.
 
This time it was Ragini’s turn to be confused.
 
Pulling her closer, he heard her gasp as Ragini held her breath. Seeing her cheeks turn crimson as she looked down, he whispered, ” If I have your heart, you have mine too. I was a nitwit to reject your love, a turkey to overlook my love, I stupid to let you go, and a LOOSER as you put it to loose my heart in the beautiful game called love, to this beautiful angel in my arms. I have fallen head over heals in love with you Ragu. I just couldn’t help. You walked into my life when I needed someone, but I pushed away everyone. I wanted to love and be loved, to pamper and be pampered to the hilt, to hug and be hugged. But I was scared…of being alone…being snubbed…being refused…being rejected. I built an invisible world of anger and hatred to shield me from my fear and insecurities. I made myself a repelling personality. If I didn’t allow anyone near me, nobody took the initiative to take me toward them. Except you. You not only broke my wall and came close to me, but magnetically drew me towards you.Evryone around me were happy Ragu, yet nobody pulled me away from my world of desolation. You had your own share of tragedy and pain. You were forlorn. Yet you put aside your sorrow and embraced me in your love, engulfed my sorrows every time.

I misbehaved with you, venting out my pain. And before I realized, you broke of my shield and tied me in the knot of your love. I am very exhausted Ragu, I am scared. I am worn out. But you are a fighter, always full of life. I can never be like you. We are opposite, Dard se Jude or Pyaar se bandhe (connected by pain, locked in love). I want to be healed Ragu, will you heal me? My pain is a disease which only you can cure. You are my cure. Will you cure me? I promise I won’t take much of your time. Only this lifetime I promise. Please heal me Ragu, Please love me. Don’t leave me please?”

They joined their foreheads kissing each other’s tears. Moving away Ragini said, “Only if you will never change, not for me, not for anyone, for no one.You will still scold me, misbehave with me, vent your anger on me, but you wone shield youself away from me.You won’t ever go out of your way to please me.You will resume your old life, you will do street fights, bike race, but just for fun.. You won’t hurt yourself. You will spread love around you, and let everyone love you.Can you do this much? If you can, you will get immediate admission to Ragini Mehra’s Cure Centre, I promise you the best treatment, Ragini stopped smiling playfully, filling the room with her unique naughtiness and mischief.
 
Engulfing her in his embrace, Sanskar buried his face in her hair, breathing in her scent.She was perfect…he knew it now.
 
” Do you know how perfect we are?” Sanskar asked, still holding her in his arms as they moved to his house.
 
” No, you say,” Ragini replied, her face glowing at the feeling of completeness Sanskar’s companionship was giving her.
 
” WE are as perfect as the pics of jigsaw puzzle put together.”
 
 ” No we are not that perfect,” Ragini pouted, moving out of his arms.
 
Seeing him frown, she got back to his embrace, Wrapping his arms around her shi murmured, “We are imperfectly perfect”.

Smiling, Sanskar pulled Ragini closer to him, her petite figure almost crushed within his hard frame.

Feeling something cold touch her skin, she looked at her left hand which was resting on Sanskar’s chest. The ring finger was shining at  the majestical glow of the sapphire centered platinum, ring edges bordered with miniature diamonds.
 
” Sanskar,” Ragini seemed to be at a loss of words.
 
” Placing his forfinger on her lips, he silenced her. Here we go with your first wish fulfilled…that of a sapphire ring. The next one will be tour to Switzerland…the Alps…we will have our honeymoon there.” Sanskar paused to see her staring at him with a mixture of  surprise, shock and bewilderment.
 
” Maasi told me,” he answered Ragini’s unasked question. Without giving her any time to react, he continued with his story, ” So as I was saying, once we are in Switzerland we will work on my dream….of seeing you bloom up into a drop dear gorgeous expecting mother, with our love grow up inside you for nine months before stepping into this world.

Will you walk with me in this journey? I promise to remove all the thorns that will block our way.”
 
“The ring and the trip to Switzerland is too alluring to let go. So it is a yes form me.” Ragini teased.
 
Both burst out laughing, embracing each  other, looking forward to spend a wonderful life ahead…a life which might not be as perfect as they are…but is definitely full of unconditional love…Ragsan love…
 

Thank you for spending some time in RAGSAN land!!!