hiii so today I’m very very angry and upset
.. I am like nobody in TU loves me and I’m very bad…. so this os is just what’s going in my mind…..
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Thursday,
11.25 pm
Dear Diary
I never thought of penning my thoughts….but I donno why today I feel that there’s no one with whom I can share my feelings…. I feel like I shouldn’t have born….. every thing that I want is snatched from me..
and look now I’m crying….. and I should because today I attended the wedding of my love……..my life….but my love’s life was in somebody else… yes…. he loved somebody else and who made them together….. their common friend…… and who was that…that was me… yes it was me…. today I think I’ve lost everything….. mom died on the day I was born, father died when I was of 5….and from then I was in orphanage….and then met my best friend,who was everything to me…she supported me every time….. but who knew that we sisters from different mother’s will fall for the same guy…. but look at my destiny that boy was already in love with her and not me….. again I lost someone…. but then I remembered a story you know what… lemme tell me….
one day a ghost was talking to a boy…
Boy – how did u die ???
Ghost – I died while trying to save some one…
Boy – why ???
Ghost – because I didn’t want her to get hurt …..
Boy – you really loved her a lot ♥♥♥ she might be sad and missing you…
Ghost – no… she’s living happily because the one I saved was not her but her love…?????
and after remembering this I think sometimes it’s better to sacrifice than to get something or I must say snatch…. if I would have come between them or tell my feelings to them then everyone would have thought that I’m the villian…. yes because one side lovers are always considered that…. but it’s the best feeling…. because it’s only you…only n only you who r in a relation….
and only you have a right on your love and nobody else not even your love….????……..
But still no one wishes to be a one sided lover….??????????????????????????
every one wants that one hand which they can hold till death, that one shoulder on which they can cry…..that person whom they can tell everything and who cares for them the most…. but I think that was not in my destiny…… but no worries I’ll be his lover …noo no.. one sided lover and his love’s friend forever …… wish he always stay happy… because my whole happiness lies in his happiness…… may be I would be sad to see him wid someone else….but at least I’ll be happy that he’s happy….??????????????????
will always love you my love….?????♥♥♥♥♥♥?????????
bye Diary….
and now she closed her Diary…..
and then sits on her bed….. and cries….?????????
” God I don’t want anything for me but plzzzzz give him all the Happiness…. I know I have written that I’ll be his lover forever and that’s true also but not living in this world but in heaven…… I can sacrifice my feelings for my love but…… and then cuts her wrist…… and falls on the bed with blood flowing
…… but on her face their was a smile….. a smile that he United his love wid his love
….♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
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pehle to sorry isse likhne k liye… and for wasting your precious time….. I know it’s the worst…. sorry.
….. really sorry… don’t bash me….