Deep Inside Heart (SwaSan OS) by Marsuu

Hello guys!!! Here is my 25th one shot on swasan!!! Silver Jubilee ho gayi??? The story is continued after six months leap when sanskar went to see designs for uttara’s marriage function and ask swara to marry nikhil. I hope you all will like it.
Let’s begin:

Deep Inside Heart (SwaSan OS)

” Nikhil Weds Swara”
” Tum tho bas apne bachpan ke dost ko apni zindagi banane ki socho”
” Mere dur jate hi tumne dusre options dhekne shuru kar diye”
“Vase it’s not a bad choice, nikhil educated hai, Canada mai rehta hai, smart hai sucessful hai right!! Manna padega swara tumahri tho choice sudar gayi”
” Jayo jakar apne nikhil se shadi karo”
” aur is baar mai tumhari kushiyon ki bharat apne hatho se sajayuga”
Sanskar’s words were ringing in swara’s ears when she left badi. It’s becoming hard for her to believe what all sanskar said. Did sanskar really believe that swara had relation with nikhil???? She was hurted badly and in search of peace she left her house but where she went, nobody knows!!!

Sanskar open his eyes and saw it’s 11 at night. He slept after he came from swara’s house. His head is paining because he had consumed alcohol. His confrontation with swara few hours back played in his mind.
” Just shut up sanskar”
” Kitni khatiya bate kar rahe ho”
She was crying listening to his bitter words.
” what all i said” sanskar mumble running his hand through his hairs. His senses were controlled by alcohol that’s why he spoke just to hurt her.
He was still lost in his thoughts when his mobile rings,
” hello” he uninterestingly answered not even caring to look at the caller id.
” hello sanskar beta” on the otherside shomi said tensely. Listening to worried voice, he checked the caller id and seeing ” shomi” the only thought came in his mind is whether swara is fine?
” yes ma what happened??” He asked getting up.
” sanskar do you know where is swara??? She is no where since evening” shomi told. Swara is not there means after their meeting, she left but where and why??
” no ma i came to meet her then she was there only” sanskar also panicked. It’s going to be mid night soon and this girl has vanished.
” ma i will find her don’t worry” sanskar said reassuring her.
” thank you sanskar” shomi signed in relief because she know sanskar will find her anyhow.
Sanskar quickly got up and left the room. He didn’t even cared to change his clothes. He is trying swara’s number but it’s coming switch off.
” where this girl has gone??” Sanskar talked to himself.
” i said bad to her and she must be upset and when she want to be alone she go to park, yeahh she must be there” sanskar guessed and left to the park near badi.

After fews mins, sanskar stop the car outside the park and immediately come outside and run to the park.
Yess!! He was right. She is here, sitting on the corner bench and crying. Though they are separated but he know her very well. Sanskar stare her under the moonlight, her hairs are messy and face is tear stained and pale.
” swara” he whisper approaching her. But she didn’t heard as she was so much lost in her own grief. Sanskar took deep breath and place his hand on her shoulder. Sensing someone, swara quickly wipe her tears and look at the person. Sanskar was shocked to see her red teary yet hell tired eyes. He got the clear idea that she was crying from long time. Swara look at him for few seconds and again turn her face.
” i had changed the designs according to your choice” she blankly said thinking may be he came to know about designs. Sanskar signed unbelievably that at midnight she is telling about designs and there her family is tensed.
” are you mad!! All are worried for you and you are sitting here” sanskar’s tone was loud.
” i just called ma and informed her that i will come soon” swara calmly replied. Her tears are non stop flowing. Sanskar was not able to see this anymore, so he leaned to touch her cheeks but she move her head back. Sanskar knew she is stubborn, even he is no less. Swara close her eyes as he wipe his face.
” i want to alone please” swara said asking him to go. He didn’t moved but sit beside her little far. There is silence for several minutes between them. They both are hurt and need each other but their ego is very big.
” swara! You are thinking about what i said you in the evening??” He finally asked as he himself felt that it was wrong.
” i never thou..ght you will thi..nk me and nik.hil…..” her words chocked. Sanskar felt guilty and keep on staring her.
” he is just my friends, don’t use such words which i can’t bear please” swara requested taking deep breathe.
” sanskar we are separated but i can’t even think of giving your place to anyone” swara said. Sanskar knew her very well and he also don’t want to use those words, it’s just he was frustrated and under the effect of alcohol.
” i didn’t mean that swara” he said taking her hand in his.
” you never give importance to our relation” sanskar further said as his eyes got wet.
” i know I’m very bad wife and sanskar i think i never deserved you and your love” swara said breathing heavily. It’s not easy for both of them.
” you deserve it” sanskar protested her thinking.
” may i ask one question??” She said looking at him with teary eyes. Sanskar nodded her head.
” you really hate me now??” She asked blinking her eyes several times. Sanskar was surprised to see the change in her behaviour, the strong swara is now broken infront of him.
” don’t hate me please” swara requested him sniffing.
” i can never hate you swara” he genuinely said and it’s the truth which can’t be changed or neglected. Swara give him faint smile.
” do you also still love me??” Sanskar asked hopefully.
” yes i love you” swara repied bringing a bright smile on his face.
” i miss you in fact i miss everything about you” swara told him. Sanskar move little close to her.
” i miss your warm embrace at night, the way you pamper me” swara said staring at the sky.
” i also miss when you wake me in the morning and order me like my boss” sanskar chuckle sadly. Both are crying and broken. They can show their real self and what they feel just to each other. They are very strong in front of others but they don’t have strength to hide their emotions from their better half.
” but all this happened because of you” sanskar blamed her.
“You choosed your sister over me” he was angry with her.
” don’t compare yourself with others because you have always been special to me” swara corrected him.
” and i accept i left you but you also broke our relation on call” swara reminded him. She was crying and sniffing all the while.
” means we both did wrong and swara you can punish me but i can’t tolerate this separation” sanskar said holding her hand.
” you were going to punish me after laksh would be found” she said. Sanskar remember how he used to threaten swara for punishing her in the worst way.
” what punishment you will give me?” She asked.
” you guess” he said caressing her hand which was in his hands.
” may be you will beat me” swara blink her eyes and told with fear.
” seriously swara” Sanskar signed.
” means you will beat seriously beat me” swara said crying.
” shut up and if now you will cry then you will see worst of me” sanskar warned her.
Swara keep her hand on her face and close her eyes.
Then only sanskar’s mobile ring, swara lifted her head to see who is there.
” hello” sanskar said.
” okay i will come tomorrow” sanskar ordered and cut the call.
Swara was jealous because otherside girl’s voice was coming.
” who was there??” Swara asked.
” mom wants me to marry again and she is the girl” sanskar lied getting serious.
” you said you want me” swara whisper.
” yeah you can come back, i don’t mind having two wives it’s just you have to compromise” sanskar said casually.
” i will never come to you and will marry nikhil” swara told.
” don’t you dare to take his name, you are only mine” sanskar pull her closer.
” tell me who is that girl?” Swara is still worried about her.
” she is agent who is working to find laksh” sanskar said.
” why she called at midnight??” Swara being suspicious wife asked.
” swara they work day night so simply she called and mrs maheshwari don’t worry she is married and have three kids” sanskar clear her doubts. Swara widen her eyes and make faces.
” you don’t trust me?” He asked.
” i trust you but not other girls, my husband is so handsome and caring that all girls want him” swara sounded like a possessive wife.
” may i kiss you??” He asked staring at her glossy lips.
” you are asking permission” swara roll her eyes.
” I’m gentleman” sanskar innocently said.
” love you” swara held his collar and smash her lips against his. She kissed him so fast that he didn’t got chance to respond.
She break the kiss and lick her lips.
” i will break you legs if you will again touch alcohol” swara said pointing her first finger.
” i don’t need it if you are there” he intensely said joining their foreheads.
” let’s go home” sanskar said.
” hmm leave me at badi” swara got up.
” why badi?? We will go to our house” sanskar said standing near her.
” we can’t be together” swara slowly mumble looking down. Sanskar’s face which was shinning turn pale as he don’t want to be away from her.
” why??” He asked angrily holding her shoulder. He thought she still care for her words of not entering in the house until laksh comes.
” sanskar, uttara’s marriage will break if i will come back. You know na that uttara’s mil has kept condition that you won’t unite with your bengali wife” swara smile sadly.
” we will make her understand” sanskar said finding solution.
” she won’t listen moreover she don’t like me” swara said.
Swara mobile start ringing displaying shomi.
” ma is calling, i should leave ” she said.
Because of sanskar’s promise to uttara’s mil, she can’t come with him.
Swara was about to leave when she stopped and hugged sanskar.
” take care and don’t drink” swara said.
” don’t go please” sanskar kiss her palm.
” we will try to talk to them after uttara’s marriage may be they will listen” swara assures him. Sanskar kiss her forehead. She left as badi was near. Sanskar stare her retreating figure and left to maheshwari house.

Next Morning:
Yesterday swara came and slept not talking to anyone. She is getting ready when her mobile rings.
” ha sanskar” she said picking the call.
” swara i got to know about laksh” he said happily.
” really where is he??” Swara asked.
” he is in hospital because he met with accident but don’t worry he is fine now” sanskar said. Swara give good news to all. Sanskar went and bought laksh. It was double happiness for maheshwari family, firstly uttara’s engagement secondly their son came back. Ragini and laksh were happy and she come back.
” now everything is fine, swara you also come back” ap said. Swara look at uttara’s mil who is angrily staring her.
” if your bengali dil will come then we will not do uttara’s marriage” her mil said.
” I’m sanskar’s wife and i have all rights to be here moreover we are not interested in you people who are marrying for money” swara sternly said. Sanskar told swara that gayatri has asked for huge amount of money.
” yes we will not give you anything so you can leave” sujata said. Swara made her understand that giving money to them won’t help to keep uttara happy.
Gayatri felt humiliated and left. They were not sad as uttara’s marriage but happy their daughter got saved.

At night:
Whole day sanskar didn’t talked to swara once also. He is so silent and stern like before which perplexed swara. He came to their room and close the door.
” sanskar” swara said moving near him.
” so are you ready for the punishment Mrs Maheshwari??” His eyes were blank which scared swara. Sanskar give her one envelop.
” are these divorce papers??” She fearfully asked.
” don’t run your stupid mind, open and see” sanskar ordered. Swara open the envelop and saw there are two tickets for london.
” you will give punishment in london??” She asked biting her lips. Sanskar roll his eyes and pull her closer.
” yeah on our honeymoon” sanskar whisper kissing her cheeks.
” honeymoon now?” Swara asked as its being so long they are married.
” yes” sanskar roam his nose on her cheeks.
Swara push him as she remember something serious.
” what happened??” Sanskar asked confusedly.
” Mr Maheshwari do you have some sense” she said and drag him to the cupboard. She open it and inside it was overloaded and messed with clothes. Sanskar knew what is coming for him next, “A big fat lecture on cleaniness from his dear wifey”. He signed and sit on the bed infront of her. Swara was cleaning and packing their stuff while giving him lecture and he was nodding his head like obident husband. Finally she is back and his over messy room will be cleaned within a day. He can’t handle anything without her.
” sanskar you understood??” She asked after clearing the mess.
” i love you” sanskar said smiling sheepishly.
He pull her closer and tightly kiss her lips and she closed her eyes.
” so ready for our honeymoon??” He asked teasingly.
” always” swara hide her face in his chest. He smile and pressed his lips against her forehead.

” Love never faded between them, it was just buried deep inside their hearts and was covered by their temporary ego”

The End.

Thank you for reading. I had written many one shots and other stories and you all read and always support. I have a question
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