“M sry.. I never thought what u wud have felt.. Unless.. dat day.. 2 years ago wen my bf left me without ny reason just as I did to u.. N since dat day m regretting n repenting on my decision.. My heartless decision for u.. Dat tym all d moments I spent with u flashed back in front of my eyes.. Ur voice kept piercing my ears.. I used to see d strings of ur Guitar everywhere.. I craved to hear dat endearment ‘Angel’ u used to call me.. Whenever I looked at my fingers n d spaces between my fingers, I realised how perfectly ur fingers used to fit in d gap.. Whenever I saw myself in d mirror, I saw myself in d circle of ur arms.. Whenver a stray lock made way over my eyes, I realised how u never let me touch it rather u urself wud tuck it away.. Whenver I went for movies, I missed dose entangled fingers.. Whenever I became sad I missed ur efforts of parodying to make me laugh.. Whenever I listened to romantic music, I missed dat incomplete rhythm u used to play.. In al those years, I missed u, ur love.. But it was too late.. D tym I realised dat I love u, I need u.. I rushed to u..
But I came to know dat u left Amritsar n no1 knew where u shifted.. U changed ur fone no..
U deactivated ur facebook.. Der was no way I cud find u.. N wen today, I came here to meet my frnd.. I saw u.. U were singing.. N I know u still love me.. I knw dat my destiny has gave me another chance.. A chance so dat I can again have what I lost.. I know u still love me.. I know dat u can’t love ny1.. I know dat u still miss me in dose sunsets.. I know m still der.. Say dat u love me.. Say.. ” Roshni shook him with endless tears flowing from her eyes..
Roshni.. His love.. His meaning to music.. But she left him long 2 n half years ago..
Kunj stood der numb taken aback.. He was waiting for dis moment from last 2 years… N when dis moment was in front of his eyes, his stilled eyes were befalling shining crystals of elixir, drenching his soul.. All dose tears which he was controlling from d tym wen his life stopped were dripping down his cold cheeks.. His red puffy eyes were d evidence of his pure spirit..
“Where were u all dose years when I forgot how to smile, when I stopped listening music.. God knows how much I craved for u.. D day u left me, u took away my soul with u.. I loved u from all of my heart.. Dose sunsets always reminded me of d colours u once filled in my life.. I’ve always been in limelight but now I’ve become a loner.. D bunch of fans who used to surround me every now n then r replaced by no frnds at all just me n my loneliness.. N d most gracious n flirty dude of d school has now become a churlish n hermit guy.. D bibliophile, d loner dat’s what people call me today.. Where were u d tym when I used to cry all dose tyms.. Whenever I used to hear dat bla-bla guy deceived his girlfriend I always used to think where I went wrong..??? I shud also be a player.. I shud have enjoyed d love as a GAME but I din’t.. N till today’s date I dismissed d thought thinking dat somewhere above.. He’s d one who’s watching all dis.. He’ll himself decide what to do.. U left me saying dat der was nothing between us.. Tell me what else u wanted..?? ” Kunj burst out screaming n sniffing..+
“Roshni.. Listen.. I m still always der for u.. Whenver u need me.. U can ask me.. U have been a great frnd of mine since years.. N m still d same Kunj for u.. ” Kunj said cupping her face in his palms..
Meanwhile, Twinkle was standing der listening to both of dem since last 5 minutes.. It was all too much for her to listen yet she was holding on to d conclusion.. She was praying dat Kunj wud say no to her.. May be he now loves Twinkle.. But she was wrong.. From der conversation she concluded dat he still loves her.. She was happy dat he’s happy now.. D one for he was crying all dose years was beside him.. D only thing she regretted was she shud have confessed her love.. With tears in her eyes she scurried from der without telling Kunj anything.. N neither did Kunj see her leaving..
“I know.. Kunj.. I love u.. ” Roshni smiled saying dis..
“But.. I dn’t love u anymore Roshni.. I’ve lost u once.. N I think I can do it again.. ” Kunj answered hanging his head low..
“Whaa…ttt…?? U mean dat u n her a couple..?? ” Roshni asked wid shock..
“No.. Not yet.. But yess.. I do love her.. N I dn’t have ny reason why I love her.. I just know dat u made a place in my heart wen I was d most vulnerable, d friendly happy-go-lucky Kunj.. N she..?? She made d way to my heart when I created dose big walls around my heart.. When I was hostile towards her.. Even when I affronted her she stood der.. In all dose sheer dark tyms, she became d guiding light of my lyf, she can read my eyes, my soul, d words in my silence.. N I m not going to lose her at ny cost.. N now.. I need to confront her with my heart.. I dn’t want to let my destiny snatch my love dis tym.. M leaving.. I wish u a happy life.. I no longer hold grudges for u.. n m sry but I think u were just a part of my story, my future life is waiting for me.. ” Kunj said wiping off his tears n running inside..
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Kunj din’t find Twinkle der.. He called Twinkle but it went switched off.. He asked evry1 out der but dey din’t know nythng about her.. Restless he ran outside.. He searched for her everywhere.. Shouting in d middle of roads.. He briskly checked each n evry place where she can be.. While wandering here n there he came to know dat some1 watched a girl in fuchsia dress crying taking an auto.. He checked d tym it was 10.30 pm.. He realised dat she might have gone home..
Baffled, he also left for his apartment.. He constantly tried calling her on his way.. He knew dat something was wrong.. Something was bugging her.. When he reached his apartment.. He din’t know wht to do.. It was too late to go to her place.. He was briskly walking in his room.. “Calm down Kunj.. Calm down.. Nthng wud happen by panicking.. ” He plugged in his headphones..
“Kyun Baadalon Ki Gali
Chaand Hairaan Hai Kya Pata
Armaanoo Ke Sab Iraade
Pareshaan Hain Kyun Bhala
Aye Dil Bata
Jaane Kyun Is Martabaa
Tune Mujhe Yeh Kya Keh Diya
Aye Dil Bata
Aise Kyun Hairat Bharaa
Yeh Pyaar Yun Tune De Diyaamjhaya Tujhe Kitna Phir Bhi
Kiya Tune Bas Apne Maan Ki
Galiyon Mein Jaake
Kyun Baitha Ishq Ki OoOooo
Kuch Nahi Ab Mere Bas Mein
Kuch Nahi Yahan Tere Bas Mein
Badmashiyan Hain Yeh Kis Ki Ishq Ki
Be-Pata Lapata Ho Chalaaa
Aye Dil Bata
Jaane Kyun Is Martaba
Tune Mujhe Yeh Kya Keh Diya”
[Song: Aye dil bata from Ishq Actually]
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Twinkle was lying on her bed, all drenched with tears.. With headfones in her ears n her face buried in her pillow holding her teddy tightly..
“Chhayi hai tanhaai, kyun naa jaane
Saza yeh kyun hai payi, kaun naa jaane
Sooni hai raahein, sooni hai baahein
Sooni nigaahein, jisko hai kho jaana
Woh milta hi kyun hai
Ho ho chahat bhari woh aankhein, ras mein doobi woh baatein
Kho gayi jaane kahan
Palkon ke thay jo saaye, kyun ho gaye paraye
Kyun aa gayi dooriya’n
Jisko hai kho jaana, woh milta hi kyun hai
Dil ko hai murjhana, woh khilta hi kyun hai”
[Song: Chhayi hai tanhaai from Love Breakups Zindagi]
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Roshni was sitting curled on her knees.. She was repenting for what she did.. May be wud have come back a little early she wud not have lost her love.. She sat der frozen.. Waiting for a miracle to happen.. In her head a song was constantly fighting n she was dismissing it saying dat he’s still der.. He still loves him..
“Lakh duniya kahe ‘tum nahi ho’
Tum yahin ho, Tum yahin ho
Lakh duniya kahe ‘tum nahi ho’
Tum yahin ho, Tum yahin ho
Meri har soch me, meri har baat me
Mere ehsaas me, mere jazbaat me
Tum hi tum ho
Tum har kahin ho
Ho o laakh duniya kahe tum nahi ho
Tum yahin ho, tum yahin ho
Ho o laakh duniya kahe tum nahi ho
Tum yahin ho, tum yahin ho
Tumne chhoda hai kab saath mera
Thaame ho aaj bhi hath mera
Koi manzil koi rehguzar ho
Aaj bhi tum mere humsafar ho
Jaaun chaahe jahaan tum wahin ho
Ho o o lakh duniya kahe tum nahi ho
Tum yahin ho, tum yahin ho
Tumne chhoda hai kab saath mera
Thaame ho aaj bhi hath mera
Koi manzil koi rehguzar ho
Aaj bhi tum mere humsafar ho
Jaaun chaahe jahaan tum wahin ho
Ho o o lakh duniya kahe tum nahi ho
Tum yahin ho, tum yahin ho
Ho o o lakh duniya kahe tum nahi ho ”
[Song: Laakh duniya kahe from d movie Talaash]
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“I can’t wait here like a fool doing nthng.. I’ll talk to her now… ” Kunj murmured slipping in his shoes..
He reached Twinkle’s place.. He waited der for few seconds thinking what to do.. Finally, he climbed on d pipeline n reached upto her window but eventually found it closed..
“Twinkle.. Twinkle.. ” Kunj whispered standing at her balcony..
But der was no response.. He then took out keys from his pocket n knocked dem over her window..
Twinkle who was lying der was distracted from dis sound.. Scared, she moved towards d window n nervously opened it a little n when she saw Kunj der drooping like an idiot she swiftly opened d window n pulled him up..
“Are u crazy…?? What r u doing her now..??? ” Twinkle almost screamed..
“N what u did was perfectly alryt..??? What r u upto Twinkle..?? What’s going on…??? ” Kunj asked placing his hand on her shoulder realising dat she was badly crying..
“U r asking me what m I upto.. As if u dn’t know nythng..?? Kunj plz leave.. ” Twinkle burst out in tears..
“But at least tell me what happened.. I was so worried for u.. ” Kunj said palming her face..
“Kunj.. U din’t tell me nythng.. I saw evrythng.. Evrythng dat happened at d restaurant.. N damn it don’t ask me y m acting crazy.. What do u think dat if u spend tym wid me, if u help me evrytym, if u tell me evrythng abt u widout ny fear, if u sing song for me publicly, if u dance wid me perfectly, if I start being comfortable wid u, if we wud talk all day n night I wud start loving u..?? I wud start falling for u..?? Thn.. plz u r wrong.. In fact m happy, dat finally u r happy… U got what u wanted.. ” Twinkle said n wiped off her tears..
“Twinkle.. Gosshhh.. U r so silly.. Can’t u see dat I loved u… If I wudn’t thn y wud I sing d song.. Y wud I do all dose poetries.. Damn it.. I played d Guitar for u only..!! I left it long ago..But still I played it coz ur twinkling eyes were flashing before me all d tym.. I want to see u happy.. I love u.. I love u more than nythng.. N in d restaurant I was not flirting I was just trying to know what u feel by making u jealous.. N I guess u listened to half of it, u din’t listen dat part when I told her dat I love u.. I want to see dose sunsets wid u n not her.. Baby evrytym, I picked u in my arms I was falling for u..
N only u’ve seen dat side of me… Twinkle… Ask me nythng I can do to make u believe dat I love u.. ” Kunj said with tears in his eyes..
“Idiott.. I love u too.. I started loving u d day u poured ur heart to me.. But sachhi…?? U love me naa…?? ” Twinkle asked..
“Haaaan.. Tell me wht shud I do to make u believe dis.. ” Kunj said..
“Nthng… U dn’t need to do nythng.. ” Twinkle said diving herself in his arms..
Kunj hugged her tightly, crushing evry inch of her back.. With a feeling of conquering the world, he longer wanted nythng..
“No more tears.. M der for u.. ” Twinkle said parting a little still holding him in her arms n wiping off her tears..
“Never.. N I wud also never let u cry.. ” Kunj said..
He held her chin up, ran his fingers thru her hair holding her face in position.. He leaned towards her wid both of them eyes closed.. He touched her lips wid hers.. A burning sensation was created amongst dem.. He slowly rubbed his lips to hers thn bite on her lower lip.. Their breaths were heavy, ragging harshily.. N thn slowly kissed her wid Twinkle matching his pace kissing him back even more passionately n letting him expose her mouth.. His tongue made his way inside her mouth, stroking her tongue, exploring her inner side of d cheeks.. It was not a normal kiss rather d two souls meeting each other after a long tym.. After d kiss dey just stood der with nuzzled foreheads, Kunj’s arms squeezing her belly to his belly..
“Ekdam se kya ho gaya tha..?? ” Twinkle asked blushingly..
“Kuch nahi bas lahu muh lag gaya ab to.. Rukne ka mann nhi mann nhi kar rha.. ” Kunj laughed..
“Kya tum b kuch bhi.. ” Twinkle lightly slapped him..
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ME: 😛 😛 No words for d kiss.. I dn’t know wht happened to me while I was writing it.. 😛
Plz.. 😛 Kiss wale part k liye criticise na karna n reviews de dena.. 🙂