Essence of love… Os

Again pikachu is here… I really don’t wanna write this but my stupid mind and hand betrayed me… I really want to end life partner soon… But i am not having mood to write that… Let’s start???

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I look everywhere worriedly… But i can’t find her… Where is she… I push the peoples… It’s so crowdy in this area… My heart starts to pain… Why?? I never feel this before…I take out my phone and dial her number… Switched off…Stupid girl… Can’t charge own mobile before going out… I look at her caller picture… This is the only picture i have of her… Pic of before merriage… Long hair… Slight curl at end… White normal suit… No makeup… Slight smile on lip… Looking down …I looks at some men who are looking at me… While eating cigarettes… I feel scared… This city is full of criminals… Murder kidnapping r*pe cases are daily routine of this city… My heart shrunked… Where are you swara… I looks up again those men… One men trying to look at the photo… I quickly off the phone… And again starts to search her….

It’s all starts before 6 months…
I said yes for marry not because i want to marry… Because i need someone here with me to take care of me… I shifted Kolkata after getting job… And here easily i got a new flat also… Where as my parents lives in darjeeling… After coming from office i need someone who will forward a glass of water… Make dinner… I really fade up of eating outside foods… Arrange my Clothes… It’s seems like the walls of flat want to eat me… So it was a need… My mom quickly sent me a photo… I don’t even bother to see it clearly… I just said yes… My only demand she should be a house wife…

It’s not like i am against of woman’s working… But i said right this merriage is a need… We got married… She is also from darjeeling… Merriage day over with rituals and all… Next day we came Kolkata back… I show her my flats and my belongings… The all i could understand in some hours she is very shy type and timid girl… Huh i don’t care… She made dinner… Well her cooking is damn well…
I look at her she was already staring at me… But as soon as i saw she looks down… After eating… She takes the plate and moves to kitchen… I also was about to go room but stopped… Slowly went to kitchen looking at her… She is serving food for her own… Her hand stops feeling my gaze… She looks at me… But instantly change her gaze…

‘food was good ‘ i said and left…
Next morning… I woke up and heard sounds of cooking… I smiled… I saw side table my clothes arranged with my handkerchief and socks…
I quickly got ready and before my calling she came with breakfast and tea… I silently ate… But she went to kitchen… She was doing something there… I finished and about to go… But she came running there…
‘ummm… Suniye… (listen) ‘ i stopped listening that sweetest voice… I looked at her…
She forwards lunch box… I Smiled…
Again i was about go… But…
‘wo… ‘
I look towards her again…
‘ what ‘…
‘ this list… I need some staffs for house and kitchen ‘ she said forwarding a list and looking down…
I silently took the list and went office…
At evening i came… And hand over her the staffs…
Days passed… We lived in same house… But talked so less… I got whatever i want before asking… She engrossed fully in kitchen… She used to come in front of me very less… And talked also very less… I was also engrossed in my own world… Office… Presentation… Running after promotions… After her coming my boss also got expressed by my works… I never thought that in my progress there is a hand which helping me indirectly…

I never thought how my coffee cup never got empty when i work for late night… I never thought how i found myself in perfect sleeping position when i slept on sitting position…
I never wants to know her needs… What she want… Is she happy here or not… We not even eat together… I don’t when she sleep… When i worked for late night… I came from study and found bed is empty… I shrugged… She also awake before me…
One fine Sunday… I was as usual engrossed in my files… I about to take my cofee mug and feel a soft hand… I immediately turned and looked at her milky hand holding the coffee mug… Then look at her… She quickly takes back her hand… Me too… She changed the coffee mug…

She was about to go… She turns and Says in her soft melodious voice…
‘ can you take me for shopping ‘…
I look up at her… She never asked anything in this 3 months…
‘ give me list… I will bring ‘ i said looking at my file again…
‘ ummm… No… I need to go ‘

I look at her with frown… Then nodes annoyingly… I don’t know why i was annoyed…
We came to shopping mall… She buys many things… Some of her girly stuffs like lotion… Deo… Nailpolish… And some creams…even some things of mine like body spray… Hair jel… Shampoo… Well i even didn’t know i need this as they are almost finished
I was just following her… She goes to men section… And choose some of my t shirts some night suit for me… Well i was assumed that she didn’t even bother to ask me whether i like or not… And i also didn’t complain as her choice was good… Then at girl section… She selects some of her suits… She push the trolly for going somewhere… I was following but she turns… I was walking blindly… So i strike with her…
‘sorry ‘ she said looking down…

‘why you stopped’ i asked…
‘you stay here… I will come.. ‘ she said…
‘ ok… ‘ i said confusingly…
I look at her entering girl’s private clothes section… I shook my head smilingly…with some blush… Looking down scratching my head… That’s why she insisted to come…
Again days passed…
She was total introvert type girl… She never tried to be frank with me… Mom used to call me asked me about my married life… I Always used to say good… And about her… I don’t know what to say… I know nothing about her… But used to lie…

Again 2 months passed…
One day… I was soo tired… I slept after eating dinner… At late night i woke up… And see my side is empty… I frowned and gets up… I sees hall room light is on… With sleepy eyes i walks towards hall room… And sees her sleeping on couch… Hugging a book near chest…
Well i have a hobby to collect books… And i made a little library in my study… I took the book without disturbing her sleep…
’50 detective stories… By sharlok Homes ‘…
Oh toh… She is fond of reading…
I took her in arms and makes her lie on bed…

Next day after eating i went to room and again engrossed in files… Suddenly something strikes in my mind… I tip toed to my study… I saw her looking at the book shelf with a pout… I smiled and went to my room.. After sometime i back again… And straight goes to her… She is still in thought… I forward 3 books to her… She jumps in fear…
‘read this… After 7 days i have to return in library …. ‘ she look at me with her big big eyes… I keep them on table and left…
I don’t know why… When i was returning i went to library and get those books… Today my colleagues were talking about there wife… I felt some guilt i know nothing about her… Nothing…
At least I know she loves reading…
One more month passed…
One day my boss called me…
Boss : sanskar… I am sending You delhi for a presentation… You will represent our company in the meeting… And here is tickets…
He forwarded two tickets…

‘two tickets sir?? ‘
‘ hmm for you and your wife… ‘ he says smile genuinely…
I look at him with shock…
‘ ok… You can’t go for honeymoon… And new new married life… Your wife must be cursing us right??… So take her also ‘ he says while laughing…
I blushed a little…
At night i told her about trip… As usual she said nothing… And silently packs her and my bags…

And now here…
After coming here we both come out for roaming the city… I saw her gloomy face… Her lips are curled in a slight smile… For the first time I noticed her carefully… Her big eyes… Pinkish cheeks… Rosy lips… Perfect creation of god… I was staring at her like a idiot when she comes out from washroom wearing a blue and white combo long frok churidar…
At road some people staring at us… Well rather than say at my cute wife… Yes she is so cute…

But near a area… She was behind me only… When i looks back i can’t find her….
And now i am searching her every possible place… My heart is aching a lot… The fear of loosing her… She was my need but i don’t realize when she became my life… After 6 months of our marriage when she is far from me… I feel the essence of love… Yes i love her… I can’t imagine a second without her… Where are you swara…
I with teary eyes runs here and there… Walks back… I hold my head..Tears made their own way from my eyes… I look here and there and my breath stops when i saw her standing near a park… Looking here and there with a fear full eyes …. I run to her and stands in front of her… She looks at me…
I pull her in a bone crushing hug…

‘thank god you are safe ‘ i whisper in her ear… I feel she slowly hugs me back… I hugs her more tightly…
I pecks her shoulder and departs… And cups her face…
‘ where were you… You even know how tensed i was ‘…
She was looking at me shockingly… I look at her shocked face… And shook my head… I hold her palm… She look at our joint hand… I catch a cab and both went back to hotel… Whole way i was holding her palm…
As soon as we entered… She takes out my clothes and forward to me… I was looking at her with mixed emotion… I throw my clothes away and lifts her in arms… She gasped… I place her on bed and sits in front of her…
‘whom am i to you ‘
She looks at me…
‘ answer ‘ i asked sternly…

‘ my husband ‘ she says in slow voice looking down…
‘ then why you so scared of me… Why you so silent in front of me… Why you never complain to me… Why you never ask anything for you to me… Why you always keep yourself away from me… ‘i says shooking her by shoulder…
‘ because you never give me that space… ‘ she slowly says and a tear escape from her eyes…
She frees herself and was about to go… I pulls her and pins her nearby wall… And kissed her… I was Kissing her aimlessly… She was clutching my shirt tightly… But didn’t responds… I leave her when i feel breathless… We both were panting heavily… I rest my forehead against her…
‘does god give me that much fortune that i could know about my wife… And get her care as well as love ‘ i says between breaths…

She also breathing heavily and looks at me teary eyes…
‘ after 6 months swara… I realized you become my everything… When i couldn’t find you i was so scared… Please don’t leave me ever please’….
I hugs her tightly… I feel she is crying clutching my shirt…
‘you didn’t answer my question swara ‘
Swara nodes while crying… I smile and kiss her forehead…

After 8 th month…
Beautiful morning i woke up feeling soft touch on my cheek… I smile without opening my eyes… I hold the hand…
‘ wake up ‘ a soft voice whisper in my ear…
In a fraction of second i pull her and rolls over… She is beneath me…
I dug my face in her neck…
‘ awwoo sanskar ‘… Just then something strikes in my mind and gets up quickly… I help her in sit…
‘ jaan… Did i.. Hurt you… ‘ i Place my one hand on her tummy… Yesterday evening we got the news… She is one month pregnant… I sighs in relief when i saw her smile…

Suddenly she peck my lips… I widen my eyes… She giggles…
‘ what happened to you… Why this sudden change ‘…
She Pouts…’ not me… My hormones… You are looking so cute… I can’t control… ‘
‘ will this hormones Active like this till your delivery ‘ i asked excitedly…
She was like ?????
I laugh at her expression… And kiss her lips… We departs after sometime…
‘ shameless ‘ she hit my chest with a smile…
‘ yes i am but for you only ‘ i peck her lips again and winks…
We both hug each other and together’ i love you… ‘

But the tale ends not here….

I went office… Warning her’ jaan don’t dare to touch sad story books and horror books… I have brought love story books… Read them only… Dont read detective story books also… ‘…
She pouts and nodes… I quickly peck her pout… And left…
I goes to xyz publishers…
Mr malik’ sir here the 2nd edition… And here the check… ‘
I takes them with smile…
‘ sir when will mam give ash-pikachu comic series 80th part… ‘
I smile’ she is writing… Will give soon… ‘
Well… I got to know she draw cartoons so well… And she has draw some comic also… I took them in publisher… And in one month she became children’s favorites… But she never neglect me… I am proud of her… I got best wife best friend best love in the world…

I am sorry if you feel bore… Thank you for reading