Fear of losing (Swasan OS)

Hey everyone! I’m new here, actually I’m a writer on TU page but first time writing something on Swasan though I’ve written this story on ViDha but because of someone’s request I’m submitting it on this lead so hopefully will get a nice support.
Ignore my typos and grammatical errors

Fear of loosing-
One shot:
Every girl has some insecurities, some fear towards marriage but HER fear was different however all this can be vanish if the life partner is lovable and supportive.
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At the stairs of Ganga lake, a boy and a girl was sitting and having some talk!

Girl was wearing a pink shalwar kameez with chiffon dupatta, she is Swara
While that boy was in casual T-shirt with jeans, he is Sanskar.

Sanskar: so Swara what are you thinking for ? I guess it’s high time
Swara: (with a sad expression) Sanskar I’m..
Sanskar: Swara we are in relationship from one year now it’s time to give name to our relation, you’ll be my wife and I’ll be your husband (smiles broadly)
Swara: I don’t know Sanskar
Sanskar: Swara why this don’t know come in all this
Swara: (looks at him) you’re scolding me ?
Sanskar: (in a calm voice) I’m not scolding you Swara but this answer is so irrelevant. You always denied whenever I tried to talk about marriage, you know I’ll never force you but..
Swara: Sanskar there is a reason in fact a problem behind my refusal
Sanskar: (lifting his brows) what reason ?
Swara: I can’t tell you
Sanskar: if you won’t tell me then how we will take out solution of that problem (holds her hand) Swara do you exactly want to marry me ?
Swara: yes Sanskar..

Sanskar: do you want to spend your life with me ?
Swara: yes I want to..
Sanskar: do you love me?
Swara: obviously yes Sanskar I do but..
Sanskar: then why this BUT is coming between us everything is set
Swara: I don’t know
Sanskar: not again yaar
She stood up and walked off!
Sanskar: Swara don’t go like this wait
He tried to stop her but went in vain so he too ran behind her. Scene shifted to a house where an old lady was talking to a middle aged woman and a man

Old lady: (while taking a sip of tea) so tell me your decision, it has been two months I’m asking you about this alliance, today you’ve to answer me after all she is your sister’s daughter, her soul will be at peace if her daughter will get marry to a boy who is her brother’s son
The man silently bowed his head while the lady was giving an annoyed expressions
Lady: maa jee why are you insisting so much, whole family knows that she is an inauspicious girl who ate her mother at the time of birth then her father met with an accident when he went out for work. All these are sign of inauspiciousness, her bad fortune has affected everyone even her khaala haven’t invited her in her son’s wedding all runs away from her and you want my son to marry that girl, you want him to suffer from the pain. You should think about others too instead of Swara
Old lady: but.. (before she could complete her sentence her eyes fall on Swara who was standing behind them with teary eyes, she can’t able to tolerate more so runs to her room cryingly) Swara beta suno!

But she didn’t stop whereas the lady made faces to show her hatred towards her
Old lady: (stands up and points to the gate with her index finger) there is the gate, get out right now, today you’ve crossed all your limits If you don’t want to keep any relation with Swara then don’t even think to come here again
The lady stood up with a jerk and walked out whereas the man tried to speak but due to fear of his wife, he too left from there
Swara: (enters inside her room and sits down on bed with all shattered and hurt state) all are right I’m inauspicious I ate my family, even if my shadow falls on any plant, it will be damage

Old lady: (came inside and gets tears in her eyes seeing her granddaughter crying, she moves towards her and sits in front of her) Swara beta rote nahe hain, you know naa I don’t like when you cry
Swara: but naano they are true I’m bad, very bad don’t know why I’m alive I should also die
Old lady: (wiping her tears) nahe beta don’t say like this, have I brought you up for listening all this, you are my fairy, my princess it’s their narrow mentality that’s why they can’t think good about others
Saying so she hugged her to reduce her pain or sorrow. Next day Swara and Sanskar were sitting in a park, sanskar was pacing from right to left with little anger and frustration
Sanskar: so this is the reason, you think that (sighs) I can’t even repeat it
Swara: this is true I’m inauspicious. I don’t have right to marry you. Even my own family doesn’t want to see me
Sanskar: Swara even my parents died one year back but no one say all this to me, no one blamed me like that
Swara: because your situation was different than me sanskar, it happened with my family soon after my birth but you were matured at that time
Sanskar: I don’t know anything but all these are useless things (sits beside her) Swara you are an educated girl, belongs to a good family and lives in a good atmosphere, at least you shouldn’t think like this. Look at your surrounding world is changed, it has become so modern you’re living in the era where people are going to Mars so please..
Swara: why are you arguing sanskar?
Sanskar: I’m not arguing, it’s you!
Swara: sanskar I don’t want to loose you, because you’re the person who gave me the feeling of love, after my naano you love me selflessly. I can live far from you but can’t live without you
Sanskar: (bends on his knees and keeping his hand on her knees) Swara why are you thinking all this, I promise nothing like that will going to happen, you think that something drastic will happen with me if you’ll come in my life but I can give you guarantee that if you won’t become my life partner then I’ll surely die. I couldn’t be able to live
Swara: sanskar (with a cold voice) why are you not understanding ?
Sanskar: because there is nothing to understand everything is clear (smiles broadly and cups her face) so should we proceed to your home ?

Swara: at this time ?
Sanskar: yes right now as I don’t believe you
Swara: (unwillingly) ok but..
Sanskar: (stands on his feet and holds her hand to make her stand) come on, no more discussion!
Both reached the house, her naano opened the gate and got little surprised after seeing sanskar
Sanskar: (bends to take her blessings and she blesses her) so you’re her naano, she always use to talk about you
Old lady: (smiles looking at Swara) and you’re sanskar, her friend ?

Sanskar: yes but she didn’t tell you anything more ? (Both smiles at his silly question) Emm! Can we go inside to talk actually it’s important

Old lady: oh yes, I’m sorry! Come inside

All went in drawing room, swara was standing at doorway while sanskar and her naano were sitting on a sofa in front of each other
Sanskar: (taking a sip of juice) don’t know how to talk actually my parents aren’t with me else I would’ve sent them
Old lady: I know, Swara had told me about your parent’s demise. Don’t worry you can talk with me freely
Sanskar: I want to marry Swara, I don’t want to be straight forward but.. (takes a deep breath) I love her and want to keep her happy always she has told me about inauspiciousness and all but I don’t believe in all this, for me these are baseless topic
Old lady: so you love her and want to marry her!
Sanskar: (nods in yes) You can ask me anything even Swara knows everything about me (looks down) We need your permission
Old lady looked at Swara who was signing her to say no with teary eyes, sanskar noticed her gaze and turned back to see Swara
Sanskar: Swara don’t force her to say no, you can’t run away from your destiny and I’m always with you in your destiny
Old lady: I don’t have any issue, I have seen same love in your eyes which I have seen in her eyes. Apart from me you love her unconditionally, I’ll be pleased to fix this alliance
Swara looked on hopelessly. Sanskar smiled and walked towards her
Sanskar: swara please now say yes, happiness are waiting for you, have faith on God! I promise nothing wrong or bad will happen, don’t run away from yourself. I know deep inside your heart you want to say yes
Swara nodded in yes with tears in her eyes, sanskar smiled broadly and was about to hug her but stopped seeing her naano.
Sanskar: (stretches his hair) so I’ll come tomorrow for wedding
Swara: (in a questioning voice) tomorrow ?
Sanskar: yes, why ? Do you want me to marry you today ?
Swara: (looks at him with impossible look) kuch bhe mat bolo!
Old lady: next month will be ok!
Swara: naano I want this marriage to happen with simplicity
Old lady: but..
Sanskar: alright! Maa jee if Swara wants this then it’s ok. We’ll do everything according to her wish

Old lady: (smiles) I’m proud of you, your parents have brought you up so nicely. Though it’s not important to say this but being her grandmother I want to request you to always take care of her, I’m handing over my life, my dearest thing to you as I’ve nothing apart from her
Sanskar: I promise that I’ll meet your expectations and never leave a single chance of complaint for you and Swara
Swara was looking at them with smile but she was feeling nervous inside, fear was pinching her from inside. One month flew away and Swara was somewhat coming out of that delimma. Finally the day came for which every girl dream of, beautiful life was waiting for swara and sanskar. Sky was filled with fireworks and in a room swara was sitting in bridal attire, she was waiting for her husband, her soulmate in short her everything, a person to whom she belonged now. Sanskar came in and sat beside her

Sanskar: MashaAllah you’re looking too beautiful (Swara shyly looks down) Swara I want to talk something important in fact I want to tell you something
Swara: (with a tense expression) what happen ? Is everything ok ?
Sanskar: Swara you were correct, your insecurities and doubts were true as I was about to die that too be four times
Swara: (shockingly) how? When ?
Sanskar: woh a car was about to hit me but by the grace of God I got save then I was carefully climbing the stairs but don’t know how my feet slipped and I was about to fall badly but..
Swara: deykha ? (Tears escape from her eyes) I’ve told you but you didn’t listen to me! My presence will harm you

Sanskar was trying to control his smile but couldn’t take any more and giggled
Swara: here I’m getting tension and you’re laughing
Sanskar: I’m sorry but all that was joke
Swara: matlab ?
Sanskar: matlab nothing like that has happened with me, I was kidding. See now that you’re part of my life, your shadow has fallen on me then also I’m perfectly fine, sitting in front you in one piece (takes her hand in his hands) in fact you’ve given me the reason of living, my life is changed because of you. Swara the girl like you can give life to someone but can’t give death. So now throw all your worries
Swara: (looked at him with tears and smiled broadly) thank you!
“Qadam qadam pey yeh dil tera sath chahta hai
Baat baat pey jo mehkai woh ek baat bhe tu
Yeh ati jaati hoe saans saans tujh sey
Hoo tujh he sey din hain mere taaro bhari raat bhe tu
Tu sirf shareek e hayat he nahe hayat bhe tu plays”

In morning, Swara after combing her hair sat beside sanskar to woke him up
Swara: sanskar uth jao, it’s already late (he gives no response) sanskar wake up (she shakes him but still he wasn’t responding, seeing this she starts panicking) sanskar, what happen to you (while shaking him) sanskar please answer me
Sanskar opened up his eyes and bursted into laughter, swara first didn’t understand anything but then realized that all this was a prank. She hit him on his shoulder and started crying
Sanskar: (looks at her and feels regret on his joke) Swara I’m sorry yaar, (gets up) I don’t want you to cry
Swara: which kind of joke was that, meri jaan nikal gae thi (hits him again)

Sanskar: (while rubbing his shoulder) ouch! Acha naa sorry. I want to make our first morning some unique so..
Swara: unique ? Now don’t talk to me. Kabhi baat nahe karna
She stood up and was about to go but he grabbed her wrist
Sanskar: I’m really sorry, I’ll never do this again promise (stands up from the bed and wipes her tears) please forgive me this time
Swara: don’t ever do this again
Saying so she hugged her tightly, sanskar looked on with teary eyes and hugged her back, caressing her hairs.
Time was passing smoothly, both were living each moment beautifully. Swara was the most happiest person on the earth. Both used to go for shopping, having candle light dinner and what not. They were the perfect couple, the couple about whom one can give example to anyone. One night both were sitting on terrace leaning their back on wall and were staring the full moon
Sanskar: you know I always wanted to sit like this on terrace with you
Swara: (smiles) acha
Sanskar: hmm I’ve always wished for two things from God
Swara: (looks at him) woh kia ?
Sanskar: I wanted you to become my life partner, I wanted to build a house of love with you (a curve appears on his face) this wish has been fulfilled

Swara: (while staring him lovingly) and what’s the second wish ?
Sanskar: (looks at her then looks straight) I want to have many kids (listening this her smile vanishes and she gets little scared) some boys, some girls but all’s faces must be like you. Some will climb on my shoulder, some will hold my legs and some will be in my lap (dreamily) it looks so cute to imagine. Right Swara ?
Swara: (who was thinking something come to her senses) han, han. Right
Sanskar: Swara are you Ok ? Why are you sweating ?
Swara: (gives a weak smile) no, nothing like that, maybe because of tiredness
Sanskar smiled and stood up then forwarded his hand, she kept her hand on his palm and both left to their room. In afternoon viplav reached home little earlier than usual, he entered inside and called out “Swara” and she without wasting a minute came outside with a tensed expression

Swara: what happened sanskar ? Why are you shouting ? And why you’ve come so early? Is everything ok ?
Sanskar: swara, swara relax tum itne jaldi pareshan hojate ho mai kia karun. Everything is fine, I want to show something to you
Swara: what thing ? (points to a file which he was holding) and what is this ?
Sanskar: telling, first come with me
Both went to hall, he made her sit on sofa then sat beside him. He opened that file which was having many pictures of cute babies
Sanskar: look at them, these are the most cutest babies in the world and they’re same as you are (takes a picture in his hand) see this, his nose is just like you and this one’s eyes are like you (while handing the pictures to her) and deykho tou her face resembles with you a lot, it seems like this is your childhood
Swara: (with a fearing expression) but why you brought all this at home?
Sanskar: because I want to paste them on our room normally people do this in expecting period but I want to do this before (looks at her in astonishment) why are you getting afraid, didn’t you like these pictures ?
Swara: no I like them, who can dislike baby’s photos
Sanskar smiled broadly. Later he was pasting all those pictures in his bed room, swara came inside the room and looked at him confusedly
Swara: what are you doing ?
Sanskar: pasting these pictures on wall, we’ll see them everyday and night (she doesn’t reply, he notices her silence and shifts his gaze from pictures to Swara) swara kia hoa ? If you don’t like any picture then tell me I’ll remove that one
Swara: no I like all of them actually I want to tell you something
Sanskar: (walks towards her) kia hoa ? You’re looking worried. Everything is ok naa ?
Swara: (tensely) sanskar woh I..
Sanskar: (keeps his hand in her shoulders) you can freely share anything with me Swara so go ahead I’m listening
Swara: sanskar (in the verge of crying) I don’t want to become a mother
Sanskar: (confusedly) you don’t want to become a mother but why ?
Swara: I don’t want to loose my life
Sanskar: but how..
Before he could complete she ran from there keeping hand on her mouth and trying harder to control her tears. In night both were at terrace,
Sanskar: so you think that something will happen to you or to our child
Swara: sanskar I don’t want to suffer from the pain through which my mother went. I’m sure my inauspiciousness will harm me or our baby
Sanskar: swara again you’re starting yaar. You were thinking all this when I proposed you and at the time of marriage too you were having these kind of doubts but see nothing happened to me, I’m standing with you in one piece with my both hands and legs. Don’t you have faith on God ?

Swara: I’ve faith on God sanskar but my mother has suffered so much pain while giving birth to me, she lost her life because of me. I’m very afraid of it now because no one can change the fact that I’m..
Sanskar: (holding her hands) alright! But I’m not saying this because of inauspiciousness, I’m saying this because of your fear wesey bhe I can’t take risk of your life for my happiness (while hugging her) so now we won’t talk on this topic again
“Wajood aur rooh naa mil pae aik sath kabhi
Tu mujh sey durr bhe hai aur mere sath bhe tu
Yeh ati jaati hoe saans saans tujhe sey
Hoo tu sirf shareek e hayat he nahe hayat bhe tu plays”

Whole night they kept crying silently, why they don’t know the reason but the tears which they were hiding from each other was flowing, their backs were facing each other
Sanskar: (thinks while wiping his tears) why I’m crying, nothing should be important for me than Swara not even kids
He turned his face to her and looked on. In morning sanskar was removing all those pictures from wall, swara came in and felt hurt
Swara: why are you removing them ?
Sanskar: because if you will see these pictures then it will hurt you so better to..
Swara: sanskar I’ve taken a decision
Sanskar: what decision ?
Swara: (smiles innocently) I’m ready to become a mother and I promise I’ll be the best mother in fact we’ll be the best parents
Sanskar: so you’re ready to.. woohoo! (He jumps in excitement and hugs her tightly) thank you so much
Swara: (hugs him back) So now can we paste these pictures back on wall
Sanskar: (frees her from his grip) yeah sure why not!
Screen gets blurred! After awhile it gets cleared, swara was working in kitchen, someone came from behind and kept his hand on her eyes
Swara: (smiles while touching his hands) sanskar! Let me do the work
Sanskar: (turns off the stove) leave all the work and check this out (keeps some envelope on her hands)
Swara: what is this ?
Sanskar: see by yourself
Saying so he caressed her face and went from there in a contended state. She looked at him confusedly then opened the envelope, her smile faded away when she read the reports
Swara: (sits on a chair) I’m expecting! (looks up) God please give me courage for passing this phase
Days and months kept flying, sanskar was taking her full care, he did everything which make her smile. He tried his level best to vanish her fear by his support and love. Both were passing that time whole hearted and set the room of their unborn child with the things they like or love. Then finally the day came, the day from which she was getting scared. Swara was standing in the lawn when sanskar came to her with the mug of coffee
Sanskar: (hands her the mug) why are you standing ?
Swara: I was tired of sitting so thought to pass some time in this position
Sanskar: I know you’re getting afraid
Swara: (with teary eyes) everything will be fine naa ?
Sanskar: yes everything will be fine. Tomorrow our home will be complete. I can even listen our kid’s voice, their cute voice, calling me dad and you as their mom. I’m so excited

Swara: (smiles) even I’m excited
Next day Swara was on stretcher, crying and holding sanskar’s hand
Swara: sanskar I’ll come back naa I don’t want to loose my life, my kid. I want to live my life with you
Sanskar: (while walking with the stretcher and holding her hand tightly) swara you’ll be back yaar, be strong! This is natural phase through which every girl goes through
Swara: (in the verge of tears) I love you sanskar!
Sanskar: I love you too and this love will protect you and our kids

Camera focused on their hand which was getting apart from each other because she went inside OT with nurses and doctors while he waited for her outside, he was continuously praying with folded hands. Later doctor came out and seeing her, he quickly walked towards her
Doctor: congratulations your wife has given birth to a boy and a girl
Sanskar: (smiles widely but then gives a worried expression) and how’s my wife ?
She said something which was muted
Screen freezes!

After 6 years;
Sanskar was standing in front of swara’s picture when suddenly two kids came running to him, he bends on his knees and hugs them
Sanskar: so finally you’re home. I was waiting for you all since long
Priya: daddy we have bought so many things today
Sanskar: (excitingly) really?
Aryan: yes papa come on, we’ll show you
Sanskar: you guys go and unpack your packets I’m coming
Then they ran from there while sanskar stares at the gate through which a girl appeared, he smiled looking at her
…: arey tum agae sorry to make you wait woh we went out for shopping
Sanskar: (walks towards him) it’s ok swara by the way what’s the date today ?
Swara: (staring him lovingly) 19 Jan, today you came in my life
Sanskar: (holds her hand and twirls her) happy wedding anniversary
Swara: same to you! Sanskar today I want to thank you for everything, the way you supported me changed my mentality, I’m so lucky to have you my life partner. Since childhood I was considered as a girl whose fate is bad but you and naano were different because of you I became a wife, a mother else I would’ve kept running away from these beautiful relation so I pray to God that He blesses every girl with a soulmate like you
Sanskar: (caresses her face) bus bus swara else I’ll start flying in air and if that’s the case then I pray to God that He blesses every boy with a soulmate like you, now come on our kids are waiting for us, I should go else they will start jumping on my head

Swara: (giggles) ok you may go, I’ll bring some snacks for you all
Saying so they left from there, holding each other’s hand
“Tujh he sey din hain mere taaro bhari raat bhe tu yeh ati jaati hoe saans saans tujhe sey
Hoo tu sirf shareek e hayat he nahe hayat bhe tu plays”
————THE END————-
And in this way HER fear of loosing finished because of her husband’s unconditional love<3

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