Finding my Angel: Episode 27

Finding my Angel: Episode 27 (LONG EPISODE)

Previous Episode:
Episode 26

(Snippit Of last Epi for anyone who has forgotten)
“I felt the spark through our bodies every time we touch, I feel the pain she goes through when she feels mine- it is like we are one, but not joined… And by this relation joining her life in the near future… We will never be joint…

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Yuvraaj falls on his knees, unknowingly, his eyes turn misty as he feels his hands trembling, a lump forming in his throat, he bleeds the salt of his soul and as it pours from his eyes where his clenched fists press blocking all of the light, he sees the darkness that he knows will soon swallow him and he fears it, longs for it. The salty residue still trickling down his face- before he realises the atmosphere he is in and quickly whips out a handkerchief and dabs the stray tears away, before turning on his heel leaving the building, his eyes puffy and red… ”

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Author’s note x

Hey guys I know it’s been a long time since you last seen this FF, and this one won’t end so soon either- since this one is from my own creation, not a spin off x so I want to make this one last x

I will make a post with all my past FF’s if u want to read them x Well I have been really busy with school- I need to start applying for college now- so I am undergoing a very tough time (it would be very kind if you bear with me!)
Now back to the episode

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Time nonchalantly passed- the wedding was full of bliss for many but failed to be for a few individuals.
Yuvraaj spent the rest of the blessed occasion with his eyes swelled and bloodshot while intoxicating himself with the diluted liquor- slurring out words of unending rhetoric to passing women (making them giggle every so often).

Meanwhile Suhani disappeared for an hour, but entered promptly after avoiding any form of contact with The Tigers and made her way directly to the stage to take pictures with guests and to sit with the bride to act “sociable” and plastered a huge fake smile on her face masking the turmoil of pain and overwhelming emotions of depression and anxiety bubbling up.
Cameras clicked furious, while seconds passed by- their masks slowly falling when they caught eye contact with each other, a shock caused them to instantly turn their faces forcing them to let their guard down for a split second… A thing they both regretted as Sharad picked it up.

Suhani regained herself faster- putting a smile on her while telling jokes to Rags- who laughed along. She then got up and decided to sing a song to teleport her from the horrid world she is in.

Rags looked at Suhani in awe as she began to hum without music forming a tune from raw voice. Pure talent. Sneakily Rags put a microphone in front of her before quickly tiptoeing away from her.

Suhani’s Pov:

Music hypnotises me, it heals me- especially singing for myself. Singing inspirational songs and uplifting. I love it… Right now, I feel like I have to sing before I break and fail to keep up my image in front of the people of this wedding…

Singing comes naturally to me, I don’t need to think I just say, I feel… And now I feel like Nico and Vinz- the most uplifting and real duo ever… Well arguably anyway…

As I slowly shut out the world by humming the words slip out my lips while gently shutting my eyes…

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“Am I wrong- for thinking out the box from where I stay? Am I wrong for saying that I choose another way?”
She uses her hands and puts her hands on her temples while shaking her head- her voice quiet- but audible.

“I ain’t tryna do what everybody else doing, Just cause everybody doing what they all do. If one thing I know, I’ll fall but I’ll grow, I’m walking down this road of mine, this road that I call home”
She then uses her hands to act out the words in the song- like she is the song, her voice starting to become louder

“So am I wrong
For thinking that we could be something for real?
Now am I wrong
For trying to reach the things that I can’t see?”
A lone tear rolls down a cheek while she smiles through the words.

“But that’s just how I feel. That’s just how I feel. That’s just how I feel, Trying to reach the things that I can’t see”
She stretches her arm out then clasps her fingers while dragging her hand back- realising that the thing she wants is too far out of her reach…

“Am I tripping for having a vision?
My prediction: I’mma be on the top of the world”
Her voice more harmonious- while she sings louder and sways side to side gently.

“Walk your walk and don’t look back, always do what you decide
Don’t let them control your life, that’s just how I feel
Fight for yours and don’t let go, don’t let them compare you, no
Don’t worry, you’re not alone, that’s just how we feel”
This part of the lyrics a bit for uplifting- lightening her soul with a glimpse of hope as she smiles.
“Am I wrong (am I wrong)
For thinking that we could be something for real?
(oh yeah yeah yeah oh)
Now am I wrong (am I wrong)
For trying to reach the things that I can’t see?
(oh yeah yeah yeah yeah)

But that’s just how I feel,
That’s just how I feel
That’s just how I feel
Trying to reach the things that I can’t see”
She then starts to smile even more profusely as tears roll down her cheeks while putting her hands on top of her chest.

“If you tell me I’m wrong, wrong
I don’t wanna be right, right
If you tell me I’m wrong, wrong
I don’t wanna be right
[2x]”
She twirls around after these lyrics stumbling a bit but regains herself while pouring her heart out for the last part of the lyrics…

“Am I wrong
For thinking that we could be something for real?
Now am I wrong
For trying to reach the things that I can’t see?

But that’s just how I feel,
That’s just how I feel
That’s just how I feel
Trying to reach the things that I can’t see

So am I wrong (am I wrong)
For thinking that we could be something for real?
(oh yeah yeah yeah oh)
Now am I wrong (am I wrong)
For trying to reach the things that I can’t see?
(oh yeah yeah yeah yeah)

But that’s just how I feel,
That’s just how I feel
That’s just how I feel
Trying to reach the things that I can’t see”
When she slowly ends the lyrics- she ends up whispering “see” and hums the outro- then the crowd begins to roar- awakening her from the trance she was in.
She realised that it wasn’t only her the lyrics healed but the souls of the people listening- smiles on everyone’s faces. The gathered crowd humming the tune of the words- and the millions of words exchanged to each other while looking at admiration to the singer…
Suhani realised that it wasn’t the end for her, she could find happiness- maybe not with another person but with music itself.

Yuvraaj staring at the stage, his glass clasped weakly in his smile- shaking, a smile tugged at the corners on his face… Maybe she couldn’t be with him- but her words can…

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The wedding hall deserted, tears shed, people left…
The bride had left, the groom had left, it was only Sharad and Yuvraaj who had been given the duty to see everyone out.
This allowed Sharad to unlock the key to Yuvraaj’s heart- to allow him to spill the evident emotions clouding up Yuv’s conscience.
“guru,” Sharad broke the unwanted silence, “what is the matter with you!”

“Sharad… I lost her, she is getting married to Rohan, she even admitted it…” Yuvraaj’s strong image broken yet again, ear-shrilling wails slowly crept out his mouth. This caused Sharad to drag Yuv into a hug- patting his shoulder.
“Guru, there are many more people in the world, maybe she wasn’t the one… There must be a reason for her to do this Yuvraaj. I have been a fan of her for God knows how long, she won’t purposely break you without-“ Sharad began to lecture but was broken off by Yuvraaj intervening with his cracked voice
“No, no… I didn’t tell her I liked her… I was afraid she doesn’t like me back, and Rohan. I had to get in the middle of it- so now I have no chance…”
‘KYA! YOU DIDN’T WHAT! WHAT DO YOU THINK DUFFER! SHE OBVIOUSLY DOESN’T KNOW YOU LIKE HER! MAYBE IF YOU TELL HER SHE WOULD LEAVE ROHANI AND BREAK OFF THE ALLIANCE!” Sharad infuriated by this, his mind on the brim of exploding. How stupid could his non-biological brother be!
“but, but… I know she doesn’t like me, someone as amazing as her.. Never- She deserves better…” with that Yuvraaj pulled away from Sharad’s grasp and walked out of the desolated hall- leaving Sharad standing mum.

Yuvraaj’s PoV:

Ugh! How can she not realise my feelings! I clearly made them evident! Everyone must’ve noticed. I don’t understand how one girl can change me, she changed me- she got me effed up! She got me falling at her toes with totally oblivious to what spell she had casted on me.

She got me wrapped around her fingers and I hate that! Now look, she is devoting her life to a man I hate! My cousin. Rohan. The high school Player!
I hate that I love her! I hate it!
Not even Safiya or Sofia or whatever made me feel like this! See I even forgot her name- Suhani! Why?!?

Precap: Her eye make-up smudged, her wrists leaking…

Well that was my extra super dupper long episode, it wasn’t my best- neither was my worst, but hopefully you enjoyed x 😀 Weeeellll thank you for your infinite support x