A/N:
Guys I want to ask something. Do you want it to be RAGLAK too? Do you guys want me to write a RAGLAK love story too? Actually I wrote a story on RAGLAK previously but couldn’t post because of my exams. I think I should continue it again. What’s say? 😉
Well in this FF it won’t be RAGINI and LAKSH as I named them KAIRA and ABHIMANYU respectively..
Hope you like it 😉 …
**Fears**
Swara’s pov
It was late at night when I started feeling cold. Switching off the A.C, I sat down on the couch opening my laptop. The most painful lesson is no matter how much it hurts, the world does not stop for your heartache. When you feel so desolate and lost the world does not halt to see your pain. When the morning comes after another sleepless night, the commuters on your train will not grant you a smile nor will they be gentle. The world does not grieve for your loss. Although painful at the time it is for the best – the world does not allow us to give up. The world keeps spinning and our hearts keep beating The wallpaper displayed and tears rolled down my eyes.
“Another sleepless night without you by my side…” I dusted his photo and held it close to my heart. Sometimes holding the photo close to ourselves feels like they’re really close to us. Love is like quicksand…The further you fall in; the harder it is to get out. I fell for him the moment I saw him, dad made me marry him and it was all fine until the first five months. We were happy but everything turned upside down and that was the darkest night of my life.
What we had was perfect, what we had was true, I loved you completly and so did you, but what we had is now over, its all in the past, I guess I have to admit that good things never last! But I can’t escape the thought of you. Even in my dreams, you are there. Its really not fair how you’re gone and how you’re moving on so fast while I am still living in the past.
“Swara…” Kavita stood up close to me “Not again!” she kneeled down beside me and wiped my tears. Sometimes I think, am I so lucky to get such a best friend? She never makes me feel lonely, takes care of me and my parents, she is like a pillar to our family, making us together. After he left, dad didn’t want me home. He said I was stupid and not capable to be a mother or a daughter. He asked to not return to my house as the house I left was mine and this house no more belonged to me. Kavita and bhai helped me at that time. It was tough but I did it!
“It’s sad when someone you know becomes someone you knew” she whispered in my ear as my tears made their way through my cheeks again.
“Nothing was the same ever since he left. Many have come and went but they remind me of the past. I was such a fool of letting him go; now I miss him. I sighed and Kavita pulled me to the bed as I placed my head on her lap.
“I love him” I cried again.
“I know. Tell something new, that I want to hear” she pressed my temples with the tip of her fingers and massaged my forehead.
“Why is the heart the most important organ if it breaks so easily? I didn’t run from him, I walked away slowly, and it kills me because he doesn’t care enough to stop me…”
“And he won’t care. The one’s that make you cry, never deserve your tears, and the ones that do deserve them will never make you cry. Swara enough is enough now stop crying” she cupped my face as I cried more.
“He said he loved me, Kavi. He promised.. how can he leave me now? I love him. I love him..” I shouted on the top of my voice and gripped onto the edge of the bed, crying vigorously.
“How much are you going to cry, Swara? He doesn’t love you anymore. He won’t come back dear” she pulled me into a hug and I cried upon her shoulder “It’s been six years…”
“And six years of sleepless nights hoping to see him back, hoping to see him again and to pull him into my life”
“True love is sacred. Some find it, some don’t and some live a life pretending they found it in a love they know doesn’t exist. It’s not easy to forget someone- you may never forget him… But you can learn from it. Everything in life is a lesson- what you take from what you learned is what is important. If something did or didn’t happen, it did or didn’t for a reason. The first 3 days of a break up are the hardest- but each day that goes by is easier. Sometimes it takes a heart break to learn what we really need and want in life- and it’s those who don’t stop until they have just that 100% who truly succeed. You may no longer have that person, but you have the lesson, the will power, the knowledge, and the reason to find someone THAT MUCH BETTER!” she kissed the top of my head “Nikhil may be home anytime. I hope you don’t want him to see this. Get freshen up and down for dinner” I nodded as she left.
The biggest ingredient in a best friend is someone whose actions you respect and who you can truly be yourself around. Let her be somewhere abroad, far away from you but she will be always with you, in your heart to guide and support you. I joined for dinner with bhai and Kavita. As I sat down beside bhai he looked up at me authentically.
“Shona, you put on makeup?” I gazed up to Kavita who was giving me a blank look and bhai changed looks between us. I put on the make up from him so that he couldn’t recognize my red, teary eyes.
“Wo..bhai wo..” he awaited for my answer “I was going out..” I bit my lip as the stupid idea popped and I blurted out. Shit! I had to pay now. Kavita was giving me unbelievable looks.
“With whom?” he was trying to be serious but I knew he was doing it deliberately.
“Ah! Wo…bhai wo…”
“Vansh? Isn’t it? It was Vansh with whom you were saying” I gave her a ‘stop it’ look “I mean you said he asked you for a date..” all the while glancing looks from bhai.
“Is it true, Shona?” Kavi made a face and folded her hands for a ‘yes’. God! I hate you.
“Yes! Bhai a small one after dinner” Kavita sighed.
“After dinner, strange” he sighed and continued dinning himself “Okay go but take care and don’t be late. We have a meeting tomorrow” I nodded and continued the dinner.
After bhai left for his room I looked for Kavita who was doing the dishes.
“You know, I hate you” I perked up between her work.
“But I love you, sweety” she kissed me on my cheek “Enjoy ;)” she pushed me out of the door.
“Hey!” Vansh stood there in front of me. I hate this girl, she called him “Will you like to join me for a date?” he whispered and kissed my knuckles.
“Not again” I murmured to myself.