12/06/17
new york
pragya’s pov
I know you , I know the deepest of you and also you so called fake smile. I loved you by expecting more from you. expectations are at fault when it comes to love but I can’t be numb because your behavior make me feel nothing. I thought you to be a beautiful rose which smiles at others which lives by making people happy irrespective of whoever they are by just having a sight of you . I never expected to be more than someone who would see you and get delighted. when I said I love you, you said lets date as if its just something like good morning. you were so bright for me to see the thorn in you and my wish to hold you after being watching you so long persuaded me to come close to you. I saw a lot of rotten things around you when I came close to you . my attraction changed into affection that you were so bright even when you were surrounded by something which bothers you like hell. I thought of cleaning up the mess for you to be happy. I suffered a lot but the wish to see you brighter made me stronger. I was hurt when you noticed me in pain but didn’t feel that I was in pain and that hurt me tooo much. still the though of having you brighter blinded me. you never once said you love me .never once showed affections to me. you were so practical to the point when am dying for your love you just said you don’t know to show affection. you never felt for me when I was cleaning the mess for you but you started throwing the rotten in my side jut because I clean it. you wanted me to be in your side just to keep your self free from the hell and never once thought about me or cared for me even never ever considered me………..because you are practical person. for you, i am…….some one who volunteered to be ur side to take your pain and you are not ready to care for me and will never stop hurting me ……..since you don’t feel it ………my love