Chapter–10
IF THERE WAS NO THREAT OF SEPERATION,,NO DEATH TO SHAKE US TO OUR CORE..WE PROBABLY WOULDN’T LOVE MUCH AT ALL. .!!
Annika reached at Shivaay’s place….But the door was locked..!!She asked few people there about Shivaay but no one has any idea about it…!!She sat on the chair kept beside her and was thinking where has Shivaay gone..
She tried his old number but it was unreachable,,just then a person came to her…He is in his late 40s…
He asked her,,”Are you annika..??””
Annika replied,,””Yes but how did you know..??'”
Shivaay had told me,,”the man said
You know Shivaay???Where is he???…,,”asked Annika being curious
You’ll get all your answers,,,”said the man and gave her the keys of Shivaay’s house
Annika thanked him and entered the house…!!
There was complete darkness in the house..She searched for switch board and turned on the light..!!Whole house was decorated ,,,there were balloons everywhere,,on wall it was written “Welcome back Annika””
Seeing all this,,Annika got so much happy…She knew Shivaay must have planned something for her…!!!She moved towards study table and found a diary kept there…!!
She opened the diary and found Shivaay’s name wrttn there…!!It was really shocking for her as Shivaay hasnt told her that he also used to write dairy….!!
She opened the first page and started reading…!!!
**I thought of writing Shivaay’s POV too so I included his diary writing too but it’ll be quite short..Some important dates…!!Will be completed in this chapter only..!!!hope you guys will enjoy this…I hope you guys remember Annika’s diary entry,,it’ll be connected to that???**
10 sept 2015
Ohh god…I met a girl on bus..She was also participating…I was just helping her and she,,such a rude person…This is why I dont want to be around people,they all are judgemental..!!
20 sept 2015
Today she came to apologise for what she did…!!I mean she isnt that bad…She was genuinely feeling sorry…But I didnt say much as I dont want to be friend with anyone…!!Yeah she is a good person but in my life there is no place for anyone…!!
30 sept 2015
I won the competition but much more things happened today…!!
That girl,,dont know why she is affecting me like this…Her each word is echoing in my head…I know I am so reserved but I need to be like this..I dont want any attachments in my life..And I was able to maintain this till now…but this girl,,I dont know what will I do next…!!Should I accept her friendship but I dont want to give her pain and I know ultimately she is going to suffer…!!I dont want to be selfish..!!But…..Ohh god…..What should I do..!!Lots of things are there in my mind…!!
5 dec 2015
After all treatments,,I came to know I’ve time now…So I’ve decided to live my life…I’ll do what Annika has told me,,,and I want to enjoy my life with her,,so I’ve taken admission in her institute….I met her after almost three months…She hasnt changed a bit…After my denial she was still ready to be my friend…We exchanged our numbers so that we can be in touch…!!
15 dec 2015
In this small period,,we’ve became really good friends…I really enjoy her company and hope she too enjoys…!!Today she asked me about my this sudden change,,how I became so friendly,,but I couldnt tell her….I want her to know but the same time I fear to loose her…I’ll tell her about all this but not now….!!
Today we went to juhu beach…!!I expressed myself to her,,what I feel about her and she was really happy…and seeing her happy feels just amazingg….
And she texted me first today,,yeah it feels good to know that she was also thinking about me…!!I was just teasing her about our so called pani puri battle…!!But she didnt replied,,I thought she got upset so I just went to her hostel…And she wasnt angry at all…We’d some heart to heart talks with lots of pinki promises…!!Then I came back to my room..!!
And today I’ve to go Bangalore for my treatment,,I havent told her anything about this yet…!!Hope I’ll be able to told her soon…!!
2 jan 2016
We celebrated new year together…I’d arranged everything,,I wanted to make this new year special for her…I told her how special is she to me…!!I told her everything what I feel for her…!!And she said that “”I am the reason of her this smiling face..I am important to her..””
This really mean a lot to me…I hope she always keeps smiling whether its in my presence or absence….!!
5 jan 2016
So annika’s course will start from tomorrow and we wont be able to meet daily,,we’ll meet on weekends…!!And I’ve to leave for bangalore tomorrow for a month treatment….!!
I am going to miss her badly….I know her studies are important and I really dont want to be distraction for her but I really want to be with her…Dont know how will this 1.5 year will pass,,meeting her only on weekend,,,it’ll be quite tough for me…!!I couldnt tell all this to her as I know if I would have told all this to her she will definately do something to be with me and I dont want to distract her….I’ll spend this long time with her memories….
10 jun 2017
Meeting her without any restriction aftr this long time…!!!I didnt want to leave her for a sec…!!I cant say how much I missed her…Today was the bestest day of my life….I enjoyed each minute with her because I dont know how much time I’ve left…I just want to enjoy each moment with her….Her smile,,her joke,,her weird language,,her caring nature everything….!!
Today she insisted to have a race,,I couldnt deny ,,,I know its not good for me but her that smile,,that cute face,,I can do anything for her…!!But my luck….my heart want to do everything she wants but my body isnt with me….Due to running,,I felt dizzy and collapsed there..!!She got so worried,,I somehow manage the situation and reached the hostel…!!
13 june 2017
It seems God also doesnt want any happiness in my life…!!We’ve met after such a long time and now annika’s internship and that too in London…I really didnt want to let her go and she too was ready for this…But I cant be so selfish…!!I know I am really special to her and she can do anything for me but I didnt want this,,she has really worked hard and now when she is getting everything I dont want her to sacrifice all this because of me…
But deep inside my heart I wanted to be selfish this time…Dont know how much time have left and I wanted to spend this with her….I’d almost confessed my love to her at airport but I controlled myself I cant make her feel week…This is really important for her…
But Annika I REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU A LOT… YOU’VE GIVEN A MEANING TO MY THIS LIFE…TODAY I AM SMILING JUST BECAUSE OF ME…..
I LOVE YOU………..
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Annika is turning pages madly to read next page,,tears are continuously flowing from her eyes…She couldnt believe what has she just read…!!Shivaay was going through all this and she didnt know…
She kept the diary aside and went outside calling Shivaay’s name…..She found the same person who has handed her keys…
Ani–Where is Shivaay . ??What treatment was he talking about….!!He is fine n…??Speak up dammit…… (Tears are just flowing through her eyes,,she was holding the hand of that person and pleading him to give answers .. !!)
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PRECAP–Keep guessing….
First of all I am extremely sorry for late update….Actually I wasnt able to login my account thats why…
To compensate this delay I’ve written the long update this time…!!
Dont forget to comments guys…This time I really want to know what you feel about this story…so plzzz comment…
Lots of love
Kanfi