ISHKARA FF : MY HEART’S DESIRE { PART 14 BY RENIMA }

Hello ishqies…how are you all ? …… Sorry for making the previous part too short…..And guys……am happy that you all are liking my ff……it’s a mixture of certain emotions ….which I don’t know…..how it is coming….. But it just happens…..And I am posting 14th part…And here are the links for previous parts…….
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Scene – 33 { @ Ishana’s House}
{While Ishana was lost herself in omkara’s thoughts……Shivaay arrives her house and interrupts her thoughts by calling her “Ishana”}
Ishana : Shivaay……
Shivaay : Hello……Ishana….
Ishana : Hello…..mmm…..please take your seat…..and what would you like to have ….tea, coffee…..
Shivaay : No thanks….i want to talk to you….it’s about om…….mmm….your paapa……
Ishana : Shivaay……he is inside…..actually he has taken medicines….and he is sleeping……
Shivaay : {interrupts}Its ok……whatever I want to say….its about you and om….
{Ishana is tensed…..she stares the ring …..she was scared because she felt whether omkara has disclose the matter to shivaay ….}
Ishana : Am sorry…..shivaay…..it’s not his mistake…..whatever happened……just because when my paapa expressed his wish…omkara was not able to reject his wish and that’s why…….this ring…..
Shivaay : Excuse me……I didn’t get you……om didn’t tell anything…..in fact he is not here…… he has gone to my mom’s village with my mom…….
Ishana : {tensed} Why ? All of a sudden he went out of station……
Shivaay : Even I don’t know…..and I felt there might be some reason…..and I think it’s you…..and……I don’t know……what’s happening among you guys…..and even om will not reveal much……also……but I can feel that he is upset and…..he told me that he is confused…..as you feels love for him…..while…..mmm……om…….thinks….he doesn’t feels the same……And…….am worried because…..if he faces any major problem……he will again start…..taking drugs……and I can’t see that……
Ishana : Drugs ?

Shivaay : Yes……drugs…..Actually whatever he witnessed in his life……whatever he suffered in past…..some times he lost control over himself…..He will share his problems…..to me….but some times…..the way he conveys ……am unable to understand what he feels from heart…..because….i prefer brain rather than heart….may be…..That’s why…..I will not be able to stop him from drugs….as I always comes late……Once when the intoxication was too high…….he fall unconscious…..and you know…..that day…….i was scared…….as….If anything will happen to my brother……I will not forgive myself…..but……thank god…..nothing happened and he was alright…..But still am scared whether I will lose him……{emotional}
Ishana : Shivaay….relax…..nothing will happen to him…..I am able to see omkara’s pain….and trust me…..I will try my level best to heal his pain…and I will try to support him……
Shivaay : I know……Ishana….you are able to see his heart….then……I want you to stand as the wall for him always……because…..even though am the wall for him……some times the wall is not able to hang him…..
Ishana : Shivaay….don’t lose hope…..he loves you a lot…..and omkara is honest….he won’t hide things from you……
Shivaay : You have analysed my bhai well…..But unfortunately he is not able to understand your feelings…..it seems strange…….
Ishana : Shivaay….you will feel it as strange….but It’s not necessary that whatever we expect…..whatever we feels….whatever may be our desire…….always come true…….but ……we can wait for that….and doesn’t matter if the person whom you love may not feel the same for you….but he can’t stop you from loving him……even after breaking my heart also…. I still love omkara……and nobody can stop me from doing that……{literally cries}
Shivaay : I hope your dreams come true……any ways I have to leave……I was just passing through this way and I felt to see you……that’s why I came here……and Ishana ….I really want to thank you for the concern which you shows for om…..Thanks a lot…….Bye…..
Ishana : Bye….shivaay…..
{Tears are filled in shivaay’s eyes….But he wear the sunglasses over the eyes and leaves the spot in rush…….Ishana stares him with wet eyes}

Scene – 34 { @ Oberoi Mansion}
{Jhanvi goes to omkara’s room and observes the brushes, colors and statues……She touches one statue and smiles……She was mesmerized with the talent of her son….Mean while Tej arrives there and throws a file @ the floor and shouts….”jhanvi”…..jhanvi gets shocked to see tej’s anger……}
Jhanvi : Tej….what happened to you ?
Tej : Have a look @ the file……
Jhanvi : {takes the file and goes through it} It’s really unbelievable……malhotra’s cancelled their contract……and asked to return their money which they paid as advance…..
Tej : This news is unbelievable for you and for me…it’s shocking……Do you have any idea how much I lose when this contract was cancelled…..10 crores……jhanvi….10 c rores…..and this happened just because of omkara…..I lost the contract because of omkara……if he would been ready to have alliance with kritika malhotra……then I would have saved the 10 crores…….But……my son ……he is mad……his world is limited to these non-living objects……like…….colours and statues only……unfortunately …..his mother……she is also a looser…….a looser mom and a looser son…..
Jhanvi : And what about you…..Tej ? Omkara…..is your son…..also…..
Tej : Unfortunately….he is my son….

Jhanvi : Tej……for those 10 crores….you are blaming your own son…you have stood against your son……I don’t know why you are not able to understand omkara……You said him and me as loosers……we are loosers….tej…..you forced to make my son and me as loosers…… In your list of gain and loss …..you are breaking all relationships…….you witness the money which you lose….only……but you are not able to witness your son omkara’s heart……He is still alive in this world just because of his brother shivaay…….Because shivaay….knows omakra better than you and me…….
Tej : {interrupts} Of course….shivaay’s concern towards omkara……you know what omkara…he is an emotional fool…..and shivaay knows this fact very well…..Whatever he express to omkara…….he is just pretending that he loves his brother……he want to make his business safe and he don’t want any person to compete with him in business……in the race of reaching heights for business…he has grown up and almost he has become the winner…. Am still back……and I don’t prefer to stand as back……and I really want my son to come and lead me to run towards the finishing point as soon as possible……
Jhanvi : Tej….he is a human being…..he is not a puppet in your hands…..he has grown up and you don’t have any rights to ruin his life…..He is an artist by profession and he has established his identity @ his own feet…..But you are not able to see his success as apart from business ……you don’t know anything…….shivaay and omkara …..whenever omkara is in trouble….shivaay forgets every thing and rushes to him…..He always stood for omkara…… and both are our children……you should not doubt their brotherhood…..
Tej : Think…..whatever…you want…I don’t care…..But…jhanvi……I prefer business over my son…because I want to make my son’s future as secure……[tejvi share an eyelock]
Jhanvi : {touches tej’s shoulders]Please try to understand…..Tej…..your preference….is less important than our son’s feelings……You should be able to see him as omkara…..our son…… he is able to choose his path for life…..and we should not impose our demands on our son….which will make him more and more weak…….Remeber …..Tej….When you will busy in gaining contracts and earning crores by selling your son…….he will feel more depressed and it will lead to the separation of omkara from you…me….this house…….Then just sit and go through your files and burst your frustration …….Nobody will listen you…..because my son has a true nature and ultimately truth will win….and …. you……. {she gives the file to tej and leaves……tej presses the file in anger and leaves ……]

Scene – 35 { @ Pinky’s House…..Hall is arranged for Jagraatha]
{All are happy to see pinky after a long time…..Omkara was also feeling better as he felt that people in village were so friendly and they all were enjoying their life as they don’t have regrets in life…..Mean while an old man arrives and stares pinky……}
Old man : Pinky……..
Pinky : Oh MY Maata !!! Baabaji……you still remember me…..
Baabaji : How can I forget you puthar ? Whoever comes to maata rani’s temple……will say “jay maata di” and only you will say “oh my maata”…….{omkara smiles}
Pinky : Baabaji……oh my maata has become a habit of my life….like daily we will gets up and brush….we will take bath….oh my maata has become a routine of my life….and I can’t change it…..isn’t it…..omkara ?
Omkara : Yes…
Baabaji : Omkara!!!
Pinky : Baabaji…..omkara….is my ….{stares omkara}…beta…..mmm….baabaji please bless my beta…..He has suffered a lot…….
{Omkara touches baabaji’s feet….baabaji places his hand on omkara’s head}
Baabaji : Beta……problems will always come across in life…..but you should face them with courage……And I can see in your eyes that your mind is confused…..whatever it is ….just close your eyes and worship maata raani……she is with you…..beta…..
{Omkara smiles and stares pinky……} Pinky : Omkara….i already told you …..this….hope maata raani will help you…..oh my maata!!! {pinky walks away and engages in preparations of jagraatha…..Omkara stares maata raani’s idol …..He closed his eyes and starts worshiping maata raani……Mean while pinky stares him and feels happy for him…….She gets a phone call from jhanvi……}

Scene – 36 {Pinky- Jhanvi- conversation}
Jhanvi : Pinky…..Am unable to bear this torture from Tej……He is so rude that….he is not able to see his son’s pain…..
Pinky : Oh My Maata…… Jethaniji…….think that a person is ready to see and heal omkara’s pain……
Jhanvi : What ? Tell me that it is just a dream……..
Pinky : No….its not a dream…….I mean…..now it is only a dream….but soon it will happen……
Jhanvi : Pinky……please tell in detail…..{pinky explains about ishkara}
Pinky : Oh My Maata !!!! I just want that girl in omkara’s life…….
Jhanvi : Me too….pinky…..by the way….how is omkara ?
Pinky : He is fine…..jethaniji….after a long time am getting these lovely moments with my beta……jethaniji……..you know…..what….who ever asks me …..am just telling that omkara is my beta…..oh my maata!!!
Jhanvi : Pinky……omkara is your son….infact I just give brith to him…..but you brought up him….
Pinky : Oh MY Maata ……..you mean to tell that am yashodha maa and you are devaki maa…. Am I rights?
Jhanvi : {laughs} Pinky……you are just amazing …….you are too good like yashodha maa…..
Pinky : Ok Jethaniji…..its time for aarti…and I have to go…..bye……
Jhanvi : Bye….pinky…….

Scene – 37 { @ Raana Nivas……Kitchen…..}
{Sidharth asks all the servants to go out from the kitchen and starts preparing a dish……Mean while his mother Ketaki Raana arrives there and gets surprised}
Mrs. Raana : So my son is learning cooking…….
Sidharth : Excuse me…..am not learning cooking…..can’t you see am preparing dish ?
Mrs. Raana : Of course…..you have added all ingredients….but still you have missed one thing…….Just look @ stove……you have forgot to lighten the stove burner……
Sidharth : Oops !!! {in rush he lightens and takes a deep breath and smiles} Now its perfect……
Mrs. Raana : Beta…….why you are doing this ?
Sidharth : Am doing this for Ridhima……
Mrs. Raana : Ridhima……
Sidharth : You know mom….she is very special……I was just gifting so many things and was just trying to express how much I loves her……with a sweet smile she received all things and I was asking again and again……just to prove that am ready to do anything for her……. But she demanded only one thing……she want to have food from my hand……and I decided that I will prepare a dish and I will feed her…..
Mrs. Raana : That’s good……so you are keen to make her happy always……
Sidharth : Of course….mom….because……she is my love……and whatever it is….small or big…..i will try to make her happy always because I love Ridhima……a lot…….
Mrs. Raana : It’s great….that you are trying to understand Ridhima and you are trying to show how much you values her……Else there are some people who never look back when their partner needs them….{emotional}
Sidharth : Mom…..{he touches her cheeks}please…..just forget that incidents…..
Mrs. Raana : I have already said good bye to past…..beta….but some times bitter memories will come intentionally to harm mind…..And ……its not so easy to forget and forgive things…..
Sidharth : I can understand….mom….but your son is always with you….{he hugs her} love you mom……
Mrs. Raana : Love you too beta…….

Scene – 38 { @ Pinky’s house- late night}
{After jagraatha……all were tired ….Pinky asked omkara to come and sleep….But omkara expressed his wish to spend some time alone in hall……When every one left the spot omkara stared the maata raani’s idol and lost in thoughts……So many questions were revolving in his mind…….”Why my heart tells I need Ishana…….{He recollected the first meeting of him with ishu…..}That day…..when I saw her eyes……I felt that her eyes have lost its grace…because what all I witness in her eyes were nothing except pain and fear for her paapa….as uncle has drunken too much…….The day when ridhima said she hates me….almost I have lost control over my life…..but…..Ishana….she was able to see my pain and she said she want to be a part of my pain…..My heart was almost clear that whatever ishana and me share…….its a bond of pain……but when she confessed her feelings…..{he recollected the moment when she hugged omkara for the first time}…..What happened to me…….Though if I don’t have that feeling….then why I am worried for her ? And if there is nothing….then…..why I promised uncle …..why I allowed him to dream big and why I allowed him to grow that desire…..when I don’t have any feelings……And…….Ishana……she is suffering pain again and again…… That ring…..Why I put it on her finger ? And……why am not able to realize what my heart says…….{literally cries}….You are maata raani {stares idol}…..Choti maa…..said you are able to show me the path…..then….. tell me……what should I do…..now……..{he closes his eyes for some time……he felt his heart was beating fast……so he placed his hand on his chest……after some time he opened his eyes and stares the idol}…….I got it…….{smiles with wet eyes}

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