ISHKARA FF : MY HEART’S DESIRE {PART 7} BY RENIMA

My Heart’s desire [part 7]
Hello guys…. How are you all ??? Am super excited now…As only two days are left for new year…..So wish you all a rocking year in advance…..Ok…..without wasting time….am presenting the 7th part of my ff…..And as usual here are the links for previous episodes…… Here
Please read and express your views through comments…..which really inspires me to write ff…..

Scene – 15 { @ Ishana’s House} [continuation from part 6]
Ishana : Paapa…….if you want you can slap me again and again……I don’t care…..but am not ready to give you the wallet……
Paapa : My wallet….my money…..I can do whatever I want…..I will spent money for drinks……You have no rights to question it……Do you understand…..Ishana ?
Ishana : I have understood….paapa……in your life……those drinks are more important ……not me……paapa…….you give rights to those drinks for healing your pain…..but you will not give that right to your daughter……and what else I can do apart from holding your hands when you falls unconscious……[emotional]
Paapa : I didn’t mean it…beta…….you know…..i am still not able to overcome all those bitter incidents which happened in my life……And I really want to stop drinking…..But…..I am not able to do it……
Ishana : Paapa…….{touches his hands} you can do it……it is possible……just leave those drinks……and share your sorrows, anger, pain with me…..paapa……not with that drinks……because…drinks are not able to wipe out tears……but if you give that right to your daughter…..then……she will try to ……{cries}
Paapa : Ishana….beta……..{he gets emotional……and hugs her]
Ishana : Paapa…..please don’t drink……{they share an emotional eyelock}
Paapa : Beta……am in extreme sorrow….because when I find that boy……sidharth raana……… has engaged with a girl……I felt that as an injustice to my daughter’s fate……
Ishana : Paapa…..sidharth has not committed any mistake……And whatever haapened……paapa…..My mom…….she is not Mrs. Mehta…..but she is Mrs. Ketaki Raana….. she has left you….her daughter…..everything….and now I don’t have any right to say…..that she is my mom…….because when she changed her identity as Mrs . Raana…..she never look back…..when sidharth came to her world….she forgot the fact that she had a daughter…… Ishana Mehta…..You know what….paapa……when I was leaving that home….I just look back….because somehow I was feeling that may be….she will look @ me….may be she will call me…..ishu beta……but….

@ her world……my presence was unnecessary…….She was completely involved in establishing herself as a part of Raana family…..Before the whole world…..she said she had only one son……Sidharth Raana…..And this is the bitter truth…paapa….We have to accept this truth……
Paapa : Its truth….But …..that day……I just can’t tolerate when I find my daughter was standing @ the corner……while that sidharth…..my wife’s son……was in full of happiness…….i was feeling jealous….because am also a human being…….and ketaki……she didn’t noticed you…….she can ignore me….I don’t have regrets….Because …..I didn’t give her actual space which she deserves in marital life…..it was my mistake…..but for my mistake why she ignored you ? You are daughter of ketaki also…… But she didn’t consider you because….. now am her ex-husband…only…….a dark past……am nothing…..just a useless fellow…..a useless fellow…….. but that day…..i really wish I could stop that engagement……but I was not able to stop it consciously……because…..ketaki’s eyes…….her tears……every day……those tears are troubling me…….the day when we got divorced…..that was the last day….when I witnessed that tears…….I felt they are asking me certain questions…..which am unable to face……. I can’t face her….i can’t face that tears….because…… because… I am responsible for spoiling her life…….But beta……whenever I find sidharth infront of my eyes…I will feel I am just an utter failure….only…..that day…..i decided I should not fail……So I drank too much and…..I…..{he is unable to complete words}

Ishana : Paapa……now also you have failed…….not only you……but also you made your daughter to fail……only…….Paapa…..we don’t know what destiny had written in our lives…… Your drinking habit…….is showing your weakness only…..paapa….you should have stand there and blessed sidharth…….if you are not able to do that….then you should have left that place….when you was in a drunken state…the whole world was mocking @ you….when I was trying to hold you….every one was staring me with sympathy……People were laughing @ you and me…….what else they can do ? Because paapa….you yourself proved that you are a failure….and with you your daughter also failed……{emotional}
Paapa : Ishana……Am sorry……beta……I felt pain…..Sidharth is like my son…….and am happy he is getting a life partner….but what about you…..Ishana……you left every thing for me……and you are bearing the consequences of my sins…..But……you never committed a mistake……And when sidharth was wearing ring on a girl’s hand……I was staring you…..only….. Because I want some one should hold my daughter’s hand forever…..A person who can take care of my daughter……Who can offer he all happiness…..in this world which a father failed to give the daughter…..Trust me…..this is my dream….beta….and when I will know my dream has become true…..i will say good bye to drinks……forever…….{emotional}
Ishana : Paapa……I wish your dream come true….but it is impossible…..paapa…..
Paapa : What are you saying ? Beta….don’t lose hope……you will get your love…….

Ishana : Love!!!!! Paapa……sometimes it is unconditional….while some times it is conditional…….Today only I came to know that love is based on these criterias……Paapa…. When the whole world ignored a drunken man and his daughter……A person was ready to help us….And that person was ready to share his pains…..with me and he was able to witness my pain….also…….He was omkara…..A man who was so good @ heart…… I trusted him…..paapa…….because I witnessed his honesty in his eyes……When I saw his pain…..i felt am in pain……..Paapa……He told me to listen my heart also……But when I said my heart is beating for his love…..he asked me to break that heart…….Paapa….He is ready to wipe out my tears….He is ready to walk with me…..But…he is not ready to love me….he doesn’t love me….paapa…..[she bent on her own knees and burst into tears]
Paapa : Ishana….beta…..{emotional}
Ishana : Paapa……{She hugs him and cries}
Paapa : Beta……you will get your love………my daughter will not fail……{he kisses on her forehead}
Ishana : Paapa……I will try……to win……..but don’t know…..whether I will win or not……{releasing herself from hug}
Paapa : Don’t bother about it….Ishana…….whether you win or not……Am with you……and am always ready to love my daughter…….{emotional}
Ishana : Is it ?
Paapa : Yes…….
Ishana : I love you paapa……..{she hold his hands}
Paapa : Love you too…..beta…..{they smile with wet eyes}

Scene – 16 { @ Mehra’s Villa}
{Sidharth drops Ridhima to mehra’s villa}
Ridhima : Thanks Sidharth…..{stares his eyes}
Sidharth : Ridhima…….the roses…..{he stares the roses}….i mean…..
Ridhima : Don’t worry…..i will handle it with care…….it contains thrones…..isn’t it ?
{They share an eyelock……Mean while Ridhima’s eyes were fledged with tears and she was pressing the roses and the thrones stabbed in her hands and again her hands got injured]
Ridhima : Aah !!! [screams]
Sidharth : Ridhima…{holding her hands}…..take care……
Ridhima : {releasing hands from hold} I will take care…Sidharth……I can put medicine on my wounds…..and my hands will be alright within two or three days…..But the wounds of your heart……Which I give you today…..I know its not so easy for you to …..{she stares him with wet eyes} Am sorry for hurting you… …..
Sidharth : Am also sorry…..Ridhima……
Ridhima : Sidharth…….I will try to give answer for your question…..
Sidharth : Iam waiting….And I will wait…….because I don’t want to lose you…..ridhima….
{They share an emotional eyelock}…..Please take care….bye…….{he leaves…..}

Scene – 17 { @ Oberoi Mansion}
{Dadi was searching some thing……She was asking every one about that….Finally she reached omkara’s room and asked the same thing}
Omkara : Dadi……don’t get panic……After all it’s an ear-ring…only….i will bring you another one….
Dadi : Omkara……nothing can replace it…..
Omkara : Dadi…..if it is so important…….then you just tell me about it’s design…..i promise dadi….i will bring you the same….
Dadi : Omkara…..are you able to replace the feel of love ?
Omkara : What dadi ? I didn’t get you…..
Dadi : That earring was a gift from your dadaji on our first wedding anniversary…….
Omkara : Dadi…..you still keep that earring with you…..
Dadi : Of course…..puthar…it was the symbol of your dadaji’s love……and how can I lose that……whenever I wear that earring I feel my husband is with me……Though he is no more…..i can feel his love every where…….As I trust he is always with me….And those small things which he gave me……when I see them before my eyes….I can feel his touch…..i can feel his presence…..through them…..Because only he has passed away…….not his love towards me….And how can I lose the precious love ?

Omkara : Dadi….love is precious…..but some times it is possessive……I mean when it comes to two persons…..it’s not necessary that always the feel of love will remain as the same….
Dadi : Puthar…….these happens when people starts assessing the partner’s character….. When two persons fall for each other….just they feel their love is eternal….nothing else….When both of them start facing reality …..most probably…they will look forward and will start blaming each other instead of rectifying mistakes…..But if they look back their feel of love….they will realize that they were able to make love as their strength….And they were able to handle situations together if they really don’t miss their love…..
Omkara : But this love is making confusions……
Dadi : Puthar……you are an artist….and you convey what you feel…then you are saying love is making confusions……Ask to your heart…..it will give you the answer……..
Omkara : Really….dadi ?
Dadi : Yes……omkara…..[she leaves]
{Omkara was in a dilemma….ishana’s face was revolving his mind again and again……}
Omkara : I said Ishana to break her heart…….How can I say that ? [confused]

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