Ishqbaazi Ya Junoon – Part 19

Anika run from their room and lock herself in one of the room.. She lean her back on the door and cried out.. Her heart was bleeding.. She feels sorry for her husband.. Her motherhood took over when he told her to kill the baby.. Tear was drenches on her cheeks.. Her eye felt on a photo frame on the small cupboard.. It’s her husband, Shivay .. She took a small step towards the frame and hold the frame in her hand.. She slowly seat on the floor leaning her back on the small cupboard..
Shivay Please forgive me..” Tear felt on the photo frame.. “I know you are hurt and in pain but I don’t have option left Shivay ” Her finger’s touch his face,..” Her voice was fading.. “Shivay . I know you will blame the baby as the reason of my death but there will be a day where you will love the baby more than me..” the frame was drenches with her nonstop tear.. She hug the frame to her heart and cried out on her faith.. In tiredness she doze off and sleep by her back supporting the small cupboard..

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It was late night..shivay didn’t t saw her coming out from the room.. He was aware she might be crying and he was clueless too.. He don’t even understand what he should do to make her agree.. She was being stubborn and her motherly love was coming in between them.. He knock the room door.. He knock for five minutes and no answer from her end.. He was getting nervous what if something happen to her.. He went to take the double key of the room and open it in hurriedly.. Once the door open he saw her sleeping on the floor.. He rush to her.. He lifted her in his arm and took her to their room.. He place her carefully on the bed and put blanket on her.. Her face was pale and dry tear was there on her red crimson cheeks.. He caress her cheek with his hand.. His heart stab by seeing her condition.. His eye move on a frame she was hugging near to her heart.. He slowly take out the frame and saw his own picture.. He know what she is going through but he have to anything to make her survive even he have to go against her wish.. By killing his own baby..

He told gauri to bring warm milk for her.. She already escape her meal.. He went to poolside and called ananya
ananya: “jiju operation arrangement is ready and you have to bring her in morning..”
Shivay -“Make it now.. I will bring her in one hour..” ananya gets shocked so is gauri. Now?? He is determine with his action..
Ananya -but jiju,is di ready..?” She was denying aborting the baby before then how now? Did she agree that soon??..
Shivay “She is sleeping now and once she is awake then it will be difficult for me to handle her..” ananya couldn’t believe he will took this action and he wanted to make her abort the baby when she is unconscious.. He wanted to done all this forcibly..
Ananya “What if she awakes then how you will handle her?? and after listening to u I don’t think so she have agree for the abortion..” Shivay was looking at anika’s sleeping figure..
Shivay -I want her to survive and this is the only choice I has to make her live..” His eye didn’t move a inch from looking at her.. “And she won’t wake up soon as I already thought the way..”
Ananya -What??” she was curious to know.. “Will you drug her..?” with frown brow..
Shivay : “Sleeping pills” She will be given sleeping pills and it will make his further step easier..
Ananya :jiju don’t over dose her.. it won’t be good for her health and just give only one pill..” He cut the call after instructing the ananya and he saw gauri and omru come in with a glass of milk.. He walked to them and took the glass from her. Gauri watches him ,he keeps the glass of milk on the coffee table and took a small bottle from his pocket and drop a pill in her milk.. He shake the milk and went to her.

Omru and gauri get shocked -jiju
Shivay signals them to stay quiet
Shivay -Anika”He called her.. But she was not responding to his call.. He place the glass on the side table and gently cares her cheeks.. “anika.” He call her again.. She slowly open her eye and saw him seating beside her.. He slowly make her seat on the bed.. She was scared to look at him.. What if they fight again and what if the same conversation takes place??
Anika -shivay I ..” been interrupt..
Shivay -anika drink this milk..” He extend the glass to her and she hold with her trembling hand.. She didn’t denied him and continue drinking.. His hand was still on the glass over her hand.. He doesn’t want the glass to slip from her hand.. She drink the milk in one go and he place the empty glass on the side table..
Anika -shivay Please let me give birth to this baby..” a lone tear rolled on her cheeks.. He went to cupped her soft cheeks in his hand..
Shivay -anika.. Please forgive me..” She frown her brow..
Anika -“Why Shivay ..?” she don’t understand why are he asking for a apology..
Shivay -I have to do this anu for us,Ansh and family,I know you will hate me later but I don’t have option and…” been interrupt
anika-What are you trying to do Shivay ..?” her eyes widen.. She know he would be doing something big and its related to their unborn baby..
Shivay -“I have to take a step which can make you survive.. ABORTION” She waves his hand in anger.. Her tear start to make their way.. She couldn’t believe he will be doing this.. the word abortion ring in her ear..

Anika: “You can’t do this to me..?” His eye moist after seeing her swollen eyes and her fade voice..
Shivay -anija try to understand..” his hand move to cup her cheek but in vain she waves his hand..
anika- “You try to understand Shivay singh oberoi ,She shouts.. “You think I’m doing all this with my own will..? You think I’m happy for leaving my family and my husband and son behind?? Can’t you see why I’m doing all this..?” His eyes were throwing dagger and she was breaking inside.. “I’m doing all this for you..Shivay
Shivay -You are worried about future baby then what about the future of ansh u will make him motherless for this unborn baby?” he pointed his finger on her belly.. “You think I would love her/him??” Her eyes was shedding tear.. “There will be no love from me for the baby but only hatred..” She cupped his face and still wanted him to understand her..
Anika-shivay pls don’t do this to me..” She hug him tight.. “Please don’t kill our baby.A lone tear rolled from his eyes.. He wrapped his arm on her.. “Please Shivay .. I want..” her words stop and she doze off on his shoulder.. He slowly took her out from his embrace and look at her face.. he wiped her tear..
Shivay -iam sorry Anika,I don’t understand why r u behaving stubborn ..” He remove the blanket and took her in his arm and asked omru and gauri to come along and drove to the hospital..
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She been admitted in a ward and was inject with a glucose. She was sleeping peacefully on the bed.. Within one hour the operation will start.. He seat on the chair near her and hold her hand in his.. He place her hand near his lips.. Ananya comes along with gauri and a nurse..
ananya-“jiju we will start the surgery even gauri is joining today
Gauri hugs Shivay -jiju why always Anika di should suffer
Shivay consoles her and asks them to start
Shivay -Carry on..”ananya gives him some formal document which needs his signature before they precede the operation… He took the paper and seat on the couch of the ward and was about to place his signature but a sudden scream stop his action.. They lifted their gaze on the voice.. It’s her..
Anika : “You can’t do this Shivay ..” She yelled..
Shivay -Anika, He stood from his seat and saw her broken face with her tear flowing..
Anika-You can’t kill our baby..” He hurriedly walk to her and cupped her face.. “Don’t touch me..” She waves his hand.. “I hate you..” She scream out.. Omru cry looking at her condition while gauri ananya and nurses stand behind

Shivay -anika try to understand..” he hold her hand but other second she waves of his grip on hers..
Anika -you are a KILLER Shivay singh oberoi . You don’t have heart.. You are selfish.. You only care about your own feeling.. You want me to survive because you can’t live without me.. But what about me..??” I can’t live in the guilt of killing my own baby and cries out..
shivay-“YES.. I’m a selfish person.. I only thinks about me and now you have to do what I said..” gritted teeth..
Anika-“I won’t and you can’t force me..” She shouts..
Shivay -“I can..” Her eye popped out.. She know he will force her but she will not give up.. She will protect her unborn baby..
anika-you can’t do this to me..” She shake her head in No..omru pls stop him,gauri pls save my baby,no one move from their places,I Hate u all
Shivay -ananya carry on ” he took the papers and sign in front of her.. She hug her belly with her hand.. She didn’t want to lost her baby but know he was determine.. She cried out..
anika-“Baby.. Please forgive Mamma.. I can’t save you.. I’m sorry..” Her tear was not stopping and her hand was still on her belly.. Shivay witness her condition with his eye.. His eye filled up after seeing her..

Gauri-even have to take di..” He nodded weakly, gauri, ananya and nurses make her lie down on the bed.. She was struggling and not allowing them to touch her.. She was pleading her sisters but they r helpless as they can’t looses their di,nurse give gauri a bottle of dose they have to inject her.. Shivay looking at her with his crying heart..
Anika-leave me..” She shouts.. Gauri holds her hand crying with the help of the nurse and start to inject her.. Her eye was on her husband.. “I hate you Shivay ..” He turn and his back was facing her.. He couldn’t bear her condition.. “I hate yo..” her voice fade and she doze off to sleep again.. He turn and look at her pale and dull face..
Ananya -jiju.. . We need to take her now..” He nodded and walk to her and gently kiss her forehead and wiped her tear.. When he kiss her, his tear felt on her forehead..
Shivay -“I’m Sorry anu…they took her to the operation theater..
Shivay broke down completely, omru hug him
Shivay -she will never forgive me for this

Shivay sat on the couch just few steps away from the operation theater.. His hand was on his face.. She been taken to the operation room few minutes ago.. He realize he is wrong to force her but this is the only way he has to make her survive and he is ready to face the consequence too.. She would hate him and would never forgive him.. she won’t have the chances to carry a baby again.. He try to calm himself.. His heart was crying.. He will be killer for her but deep in his heart he too feels the lost of their baby.. He loves the baby deeply but Anika comes first in his life then the baby and the baby is impossible after her death.. He doesn’t know if he can give a motherly love to the baby or not.most importantly what will he answer ansh who is just 3 yrs old,. His eyes moist.. He recalled all the words she spoke to him..
‘I wanted this baby shivay her drenches cheek stabbed his heart.. ‘Please don’t kill our symbol of love’.. Today is the day where their symbol of love will be kill forcibly by his own father.. ‘You are a KILLER Shivay singh oberoi . You don’t have heart.. You are selfish.. You only care about your own feeling.. You want me to survive because you can’t live without me.. But what about me’ His eye shut tightly.. Her words break his heart.. If saving a life of a person by killing the other life is call selfish, then he is selfish.. He can’t live without her for second than how he will survive for the rest of his life.. The most heart wrenching was went she cried by hugging her belly.. ‘Baby.. Please forgive Mamma.. I can’t save you.. I’m sorry’.. He was being helpless for their condition.. Has her God don’t have mercy on them.. ‘If this baby die than that will be last day you see me survive..’ His eyes popped out.. he try to figure out what she had spoken to him before.. She will kill herself if anything happen to the baby.. No.. I can’t let this happen.. He stood from the couch and run to the operation theater.. He open the door rashly and get in..
“STOP” ananya and gauri rand the staff was looking at him..

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Anika open her eyes slowly and she start to look around.. She feels blank..she hurriedly wake up from her sleeping position and cares for her baby..
Anika : “My baby..” She shouts.. Gauri rush to her and seat beside her..
Gauri-di calm down.. Its not good for your health..” She make her relax..
Anika-gauri My baby..” she cried out..
Gauri : “Your baby is fine di… Jiju have stop the abortion..” She hug gauri tight.. She feel relief after hearing it.. She can feel her baby growing in her womb but she need a confirmation..
Anika : “gauri.. . I’m sorry.. I hide all this from the family,I know omru must be angry at me” Anjali patted her back.. They have been told by Shivay about her complication and he narrated the whole situation in front of the family.. Once they hear it.. There start to shed tear for the poor soul.. She have been bearing a lot of difficult task and now she willingly want to give off her life by giving birth to the baby..
gauri -You should told us before..” They pulled apart from the hug..
anika: “I was scared gauri, gauri wiped her tears..
Gauri-di ..” Been interrupt..
Anika -“Where is Shivay ?” She look here and there..
Gauri -jiju went out to meet his clients..” she know he was not with his clients.. He might be hurt and trying to hide his pain..
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Two days pass,Shivay was behaving coldly with anika.. Even omru avoid her.He didn’t talk to her nor ask anything regarding her health or the baby.. She try to talk to him but he always give excuse he is busy and leave her alone.. Anika was taking out a suit and shirt for her husband to wear.. She likes to see him in white shirt’ She placed her choice on the bed and seat on the recliner waiting for him to come out.. She have prepare breakfast for him his favourite pancakes with toast and juice.. He come out from the bathroom and went to his wardrobe to take his formal attire..
Anika -shivay Wear this..?” she took the shirt and stand beside him.. He turn side way and give a angry glare to her.. She stood numb and he didn’t bother to wear her choice.. He quickly grab his green shirt and wear it hurriedly.. He make his laptop bag ready and place some important file in his bag.. “Shivay .. Your breakfast..” He didn’t give any glare or respond to her.. He took his bag and was about to move but been stop by her.. “Shivay.. You are forgetting something..?” he turn and look at her..
Shivay “There is nothing to be remember anymore..” He walked out leaving her crying.. She seat on the recliner and cried out.. He never forget to kiss her on forehead before leaving to office everyday and now she wanted to forget everything.. Pinky come in and saw her crying she consoled her.. She can see the cold behavior of her son to his wife.. She try to make him understand but he didn’t bother to listen to her..
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It’s already 11 at night.. Anika was waiting for Shivay at their room.. and making ansh sleep. She wanted to have dinner with him.. They rarely talk to each other.. She wanted to make up with him and solve out all the barriers between them.. She wanted to make him understand even it all went In vain.. The door of the room open in one goes’ She lifted her gaze and saw him walking in.. his Face look tired.. he throw his laptop bags on the bed..
Anika-shivay .. I had prepare dinner for you..” She start to make plate for him..
Shivay : “I’m not hungry..” He open his suit and keep it on the bed..
anika”Eat something Shivay .. You didn’t had your breakfast too.. You have to take your medicine..” She was worried for his health.. He was not taking his meal regularly and it will affect his health
Shivay -Why do you care..?” He don’t feel to talk to her but the concern shown by her was making his heart bleed more..
Anika -Of course I care and you are my husband.. What if something happen to you..?” She too stood in front of him..
Shivay -“Husband?? Do you even understand a meaning of a husband..??” with gritted teeth..
Anika -I know I was wrong by hiding the truth but I’m doing all this for our baby..” She wanted to make him understand and make him realize how much this baby is important in her life..
Arnav: “Baby..?? What the use of this baby when you will be not with him?? And don’t take the word baby in front of me.. I feel disgust..remember one thing u r not only mother of this baby but also to ansh who can’t stay even a day without u” His voice was quite rough and his word was harsh enough to make her eyes filled..
Anika “How can you say this Shivay ? Just because the baby will be the reason of my death and you wanted to put all the blame on the baby..” A lone tear rolled on her cheeks..
Shivay “I’m not in a mood to talk on the same topic.. Excuse me..” He walk to bathroom but been stop by a hand on his shoulder.. He turn and look at her..
Anika -this matter should be solve out now and..” been interrupt..
Shivay -And what??” he waves off her hand from his shoulder..
Anika “Shivay please don’t do this to me..” she cupped his face.. “Please accept the baby..” that’s it.. His anger raised to peek.. He hold her hand and pinned her to the wall.. He was throwing dagger to her..

Shivay -Don’t even ask me to love or accept this baby.. There will be only hatred for this baby” with rough tone. “I would never forgive myself to make you pregnant.. If i know this will be the consequence then I wouldn’t touch and make love to you..”His eyes were red due to anger
Anika-shivay it’s hurt..” She was looking at her hand which is in his grip..
shivay-HURT!!” He yelled on her face.. “What about the hurt and pain you give me??” She closed monsters and try to digest his words.. You are succeed to make me feel the pain has you always said I’m a monster without a heart.. And this pain can never vanish..”She open her eyes with shedding tear.. “I love you Anika but at the same time I hate you..” He leaves his grip and walk towards ansh and lifts him.. she seat on the floor and circle her hand on herknees and cries
Shivay -and one more thing stay away from ansh if u make this habit of making him sleep afterwards we will face trouble and leaves with sleeping ansh

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It was 4 in the morning.. She want to eat ice cream.. She shook her husband’s shoulder twice and he look at her with sleeping eyes..
anika-shivay..??” she call him..
Shivay -“What??” raised his brow with sleeping voice..
“anika-I want to eat ice cream .” He give a last glare to her and sleep off.. He didn’t bother about her nor her craving.. She saw him turning.. She feel hurt by his behavior..

She sleep on the bed by her back facing him.. her tear was not stopping to roll.. Her heart break with his behavior.. He is no more the same Shivay.who will buy her favourite things before she ask,She just ask for ice-cream which can be get at any store.. She sobs and sobs the whole night.. She cares her belly with her soft palm..
anika”Sorry baby today ur mumma lost, I can’t hurt everyone anymore and she texts ananya something and cries hugging the pillow

PRECAP -ANIKA HUGS SHIVAY AND CRY…
SHIVAY -WE R GOING TO DEHRADUN