Here I am compensating for all those days I was missing… Such a quick update … Happy Reading!!!
Dev came back home completely drenched. He crept to his room & gently shut the door. He turned to face the door & stood there for a while as if trying to gain some strength from the support of the door. He slowly walked towards a shelf. His face clearly reflected pain & agony as if his entire world had been snatched from him. He took out a diary with a brown cover … He sat down near his bed & flipped through some pages … These are excerpts from his diary …
“I woke up in the morning, freshened up, went to school came back …WHAT RUBBISH IS THIS! Just as rubbish as that fat girl, Ms. Potato … What was she saying to Nikki in the bus that to improve your writing skills you should maintain a diary … Rubbish is the idea … Why did I even listen to her ideas”
He turned the page
“This is too girly … I’ll call my diary as a journal just like the Wimpy kid … Stupid girl potato … stupid diary thing”
Another page read …
“Jatin is getting to close that Sonakshi … what journal didn’t you get it? Sonakshi is Ms Potato …If Jatin even thinks of dating her I’ll punch him till his jaws come out … Not because of Sona but because of Jatin who is my close friend & I won’t share him with her”
He kept on reading
“That girl is mad, insane, bumped into me & then banged her head against mine again saying that if I don’t do so horns will grow on her head … When I laughed at her kiddish behavior she got offended stupid Sona”
A tear drop made its way through Dev’s eyes & fell on the next page it was difficult to read but he continued
“I am feeling bad today for Sona she has no friends in class & she spends her break in the library sitting alone … I thought that I saw her crying today … I’m not sure … Snobbish & egoistic she is … she deserves it … Mera Kolkata Mera Kolkata karti ghoomegi to kaun baat karega”
Dev smiled at his unreasonable anger against Sona
“It was raining everyone was out of the class, the library was closed today. In the recess when I came back to the class I saw Sona standing alone, looking outside the class … I was sure she was crying … I looked at her & I was feeling sorry for her … This potato is cute … I couldn’t see her crying but the bell rang & she wiped her tears & went back to her seat.”
He flipped through some more pages
“Dev Dixit … you stood 2nd in the class!! Sona came 1st … I don’t like this but for the first time I saw her smiling in the class … So this chota sa failure is ok”
He read further
“Some guys were making fun of Sona & I fought with them … I have got bruises all over my face & my lips are bleeding … Lady Bacchan has scolded me so badly … Why did I fought with them? They are louts & make fun of everyone but why couldn’t I take it? Why is she so special?”
Dev wiped his eyes & smiled because he noticed that throughout he was unknowingly addressing Sonakshi as Sona. Next followed the Maggie adventure, Agra trip, His becoming the head boy, Khatta meetha nok-jhok with friends … He went on flipping the pages till he found another entry which was dear to him
“Today we were hosting a show … who we? Arey DevAkshi … she slept so innocently on my shoulder I love her cute tactics … Actually I love her head to toe”
Another one said
“ Bangla is not that bad … I was looking for some songs for Sona & I’m hell confused b/w these three
Amaro Porana Jaha Chay, Tumi robe nirobe, Aamaro nishitho raater … I guess I should propose her on her birthday … I’ve realized she is not ordinary but my first & last love …. Uff this feeling”
The color of his face started fading when he reached another of his entry …
“ The reports are positive … I have Leukemia … My world is fading … I’ve lost everything … Why god why have you given this stupid power to cancer to take away the lives of our dear ones? I hate you … I hate this cancer … How will my Sona take this? I will not tell her anything about it”
Dev shut that journal with a force & threw it a corner.
Dev: It’s okay Dev It’s okay !!! Calm down … This was the best decision for you … the best one for Sona … The best for Sona … The best for DevAkshi …
He went near his balcony & looked over the park where he & Sona enjoyed the rain to the fullest … It was raining today but there was no Sona … He closed his eyes & the scene where Sona had confessed flashed through his eyes …
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Sona: I love you Dev … I love you so much … I love you to that extent that I’ve started living you … I think of you from dawn to dusk … You have touched my life in such a way that I’ve learnt to live … I’ve started living you … I know this is abrupt & has come upon you suddenly but had I waited for a second more I would BLAST”
Dev had a smile across his face, he was about to jump & hug Sona but then he remembered his cancer … His expressions changed from that of a loving one to an evil smirk
Dev: What did you say? A good speech that was though but Sonakshi I never thought that you will also be like those girls … who drool over me & want to be with me … to improve their status symbol… What is the difference b/w you & Natasha? … Look at yourself fat & ugly … who can love you? Ungli pakdai to madam ne haath pakad lia
Dev said all of this in one breath, without even looking at Sona … He stopped & looked at her … Her eyes had lost any sense of life … Dev could not see her like this but he had to control … Sona was crying, she lifted her hand to wipe her tears & looked at Dev who was looking down … She got enraged & in a fit of anger held him by his collar & shook him badly while all Dev could do was look down … She opened her mouth to say something but all she could manage to say was “I love you” & she broke down beyond repair. Dev’s heart was aching he could not see her like this & bend down to pick her up but she shoved his hand away & looked at him with teary eyes asking innumerable questions. It began raining, she managed to get up & continued her walk just like a zombie oblivious of her surroundings while Dev just looked at her receding figure
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Dev closed his eyes & let tears flow down them profusely. He banged his fists against the wall & broke down letting his heart screech all the pain inside him
Kismat ke likhe
Kisne dekhe
Kaun jaane zindagi me kya ho
Kaun jaane zindagi me kya ho
Saath chalte chalte raahein juda ho
Apno ke aage aksar ishq kurbaan ho
Haq jaante ho jinpe unke bina jaan ho
Jeena naa bhay
Jeena na bhay fir bhi ho jeena zaroori
Kaise bhi
Kuch Rang Pyar Ke Aise Bhi
Kuch Rang Pyar Ke Aise Bhi
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July, Dev’s POV
It’s been 6 months that Sona has spoken to me & today when my phone beeped I was super happy to see her message on my phone … I guess she has realized that we can still be best of friends … Hope everything gets ok … I picked my phone it was message on our whatsapp group “Fabulous Five”
I read the message
“Sorry everyone, I was not replying to your messages but boards & entrances were keeping me busy … Good news; I have cleared NEET & I am shifting to Varanasi for pursuing MBBS … BHU offers the best of medicine … I’m leaving day after tomorrow”
The phone slipped from my hands & I fell on the ground … I had lost everything
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PRECAP- HAI DIL KO TERI AARZOO PAR MAI TUJHE NA PAA SAKUN (in Varanasi)
PS- Comment guys I need comments to write further because these episodes are emotionally draining … Chalo silent readers comment otherwise I’ll go silent for some time
PPS- Dev is not going to die … I know I said that he’ll suffer from VSD but I have some personal grudges from cancer & so added it here …
PPPS- Hope no one is crying, You know they’ll be together & married soon