There has been no proof reading done for this chapter … I don’t want to read it again …
This is the end of season 1 of this ff … So what do you all want … a season break or normal continuation … Suggest any change of title that you want for season 2 … I wish to keep the name of the ff JTMMH only but I am open to all good suggestions
Lastly, ‘Saajna ve/Hai dil ko teri aarzoo has been used in this part so please listen to it while reading … It will enhance the experience
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“Sorry everyone, I was not replying to your messages but boards & entrances were keeping me busy … Good news; I have cleared NEET & I am shifting to Varanasi for pursuing MBBS … BHU offers the best of medicine … I’m leaving day after tomorrow”
This message of Sonakshi had an impact on everyone no lesser than the bomb blasts on Hiroshima & Nagasaki but to live in Delhi was getting suffocating for her. While in Kolkata she was mistreated by her own family, her Dad left her, she had to leave Kolkata along with her Dad’s surname but when she came to Delhi, colors started filling in her life, Dev brought those colors but he was the one who mercilessly took away her reason to live once again. She was desperate to leave Delhi, there was no point in staying in Delhi & so she decided to shift. Elena, Jatin & Vicky had called her & told her not to leave but Sona was not in a mood to listen to anyone. One day Ele dropped at her doorstep & enquired her about this sudden decision, Sona broke down & told her everything that had happened. After that Ele made sure that no one bothered Sona about this decision.
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SONA’S POV
I am finally in that train that would lead me out of this place but even now I am suffocating because of his presence. Maa & Bijoy Kaka are giving me company to Varanasi but all of them, Jatin, Vicky, Elena & Dev have also joined us… I don’t want to even face him … I’ll start crying … He doesn’t deserve my tears … but … but … even though I try so much … I can’t hate him … My hearts still thumps in my rib cage shouting that it loves him
DEV’S POV
I can see that she is stealing glances at me. We are sitting in the train facing each other on opposite seats … So close & yet so far … Say something Sonakshi … Please … Lash out at me, Hit me, accuse me, say that you hate me but please don’t behave as if you don’t know me … You know how much I get bothered by your silence … You are making things even worse for me
Hai dil ko teri aarzoo
Par mai tujhe na paa sakun
Hai dil ko teri justjoo
Par mai tujhe na paa sakun
Mai hu shab tu subah
Dono jud ke judaa
Mai hu lab tu duaa
Dono jud ke judaa
Sajaana Saajana Maahiya Saajana ve
After a long journey we are finally about to reach Varanasi … So many hours have past but neither of us have spoken a word …. Strange isn’t it … Things were so different when we were going to Agra … Do you remember that Sonakshi?
SONA’S POV
I have come to UP earlier also with Dev but things were so different then … You were making so many efforts to sit with me & to talk to me … Why have you become so cold Dev? Don’t you remember anything … I want to cry as loudly as possible once again, just the way I did on Papa’s birthday eve when you consoled me & I realized that I love you … I can cry once again Dev … only, only if you stand by me again … What is it that is holding you back?
Asha: Sona, We have reached our destination, We’ll stay in a hotel today & tomorrow you can join your hostel
Sona: Hmm
Asha: Sona think about it again … You can still go back & study in Delhi … There are so many good colleges …
Sona: Maa we’ve discussed this before … Mera dam ghutata hai uss shehar mein
DEV’S POV
Dam ghutata hai Sona? Great … start hurting me now indirectly as if your silence wasn’t enough to crush my soul … Why can’t we just go & sit quietly in the hotel … Everyone has decided to go to Ganga Aarti in the evening … Once again I’ll have to face her … As if Cancer wasn’t enough to kill me that I’ll have to bear looking at her eyes which are still full of love, tears & questions
Jatin: Dev, I still don’t agree with you … You can stop her
Dev: We’ve spoken before Jatin … This is the best for her
Jatin: Best for her or best for you?
Dev: What are you saying?
Jatin: You know when you were admitted in the hospital before her birthday she was crying because you don’t give her rights to become your partner in pain, your humdard, If you love each other sail through problems together … Be her pillow to let her cry & she’ll be your pillar of strength … You can come out of anything when you are together … when you are DevAkshi … If you can’t tell her your problems let me tell her atleast … Why do you want to be cursed for something you haven’t done?
Dev: No … no … My Sona won’t be able to handle this … I won’t give her anymore pain
Jatin: You are giving her pain now also
Dev: It’s nothing … If I die she’ll grieve even more … She’s trying to move on let her move on Jatin …. PLEASE I BEG OF YOU … I NEED YOUR HELP … DON’T COMPLICATE THINGS FOR ME
Jatin just kept his hand on Dev’s shoulder while Dev quickly wiped his fresh tears
Kai khwab dil tujhko lekar sajaye
Par khauff ye bhi kahi par sataye
Gar ye bhi toote to fir hoga kya re?
Mujhe raas aati hai khushian kaha re
Kyun dil ko dukhana bewajah
Phir aasun bahana ek dafa
Phir aasun bahan ek dafa
Mai hu shab tu subah
Dono jud ke judaa
Mai hu lab tu duaa
Dono jud ke judaa
Sajaana Saajana Maahiya Saajana ve
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In the evening all of our fabulous five along with Asha & Bijoy were seated in two boats in the lap of Ganga to witness the famous Benarasi Ganga Aarti. The priests blew the conch shells & started with the Aarti. The flame of the diyas rose to a great height, as the aarti proceeded the whole atmosphere became divine, captivating its on-lookers in its aura. Jatin patted Elena’s back & whispered in her ears
Jatin: Ele, Have you spoken to Sona?
Elena: About what?
Jatin: About my marriage
Elena: Huh?
Jatin: About her leaving Delhi … obviously
Elena: Jatin, we can’t cage her if she wants to fly … let her fly
Jatin: You know that’s not the reason
Elena: If you know what the reason is please tell your friend to act sensibly … He should have said no to her in a more polite way
Jatin: You don’t know what the real reason is Elena, Stop blaming Dev
Elena: What is the matter then?
Before Jatin could answer the conch shell blew again disturbing their chat. The clouds roared, the weather wasn’t clear since morning but now it seemed as if a big storm was about to come. Lightning flashed as if it wanted to finish all signs of mankind. In a frenzy the boat wala uncle (don’t know the word sorry) brought the boat to the shore & everyone got of it but the situation was worse on the ghat. Thousands of people were running to get out of the ghat. The Ganga who was calm few minutes before was roaring, splashing & flowing with only one motive which was to destroy anything that comes in its way. When Sona got down on the Ghat she bumped into someone & fell down, when she got up she realized that everyone else of her group had been drifted along with the cloud. All she could see was too many strangers rushing past her & pushing her. She didn’t had her mobile & all the money was in Asha’s purse. Due to the constant pushes she was getting, she was feeling dizzy. In between the screams of all those strangers she heard a familiar voice shouting her name but she felt too weak to respond before she could make out who it belonged to she lost her consciousness & fell into the arms of that person.
She remained unconscious for a long time when she opened her eyes she realised that her head was resting in someone’s lap. She shifted her eyes & saw that the person had his head buried in the groove of her neck & was crying profusely. It didn’t take her much time to realize who he was, “Dev!” She muttered under breath. He looked up & smiled at her.
Tu hi to har pal bandha hai
Lamho ki in zanzeeron mein
Tu hi to har din raha hai
Khwabon ki har tabeeron mein
Tu hi to har din dikha hai
Dhundhli oh Ujli tasveeron mein
Teri hi to hai khushboo mujhmein haa
Saajanana ve
Teri hi to hai khushboo mujhmein haa
Ab tu hi to har su har jagah
Ab tu hi to har su har jagah
Mai hu shab tu subah
Dono jud ke judaa
Mai hu lab tu duaa
Dono jud ke judaa
Sajaana Saajana Maahiya Saajana ve
Dev: Are you okay Sona?
She just nodded & freed herself from his embrace.
Sona: Maa, Kaka sab kaha hain?
Dev: No idea
Sona: They weren’t with you?
Dev: You were not with them so I came back to look for you
Sona: Thanks
Dev: You don’t need to thank me for taking care of you … That’s my right
Sona looked at him with eyes full of those innumerable questions again
Dev: We need to go back
They got out of the ghat & hired an auto rickshaw. Sonakshi was in devasted state not just because of the physical exertion but also because of Dev’s behavior he slayed her feelings that day when she proposed her & now he came back only for her. The auto rickshaw was being shared by others also. They squeezed inside it
SONA’S POV
We squeezed inside the autorickshaw. There was barely any place in it. The ride just started when I realized that passenger sitting next to me, a man of about 30 was not having really good intentions. The way his shoulder was rubbing against mine left me disgusted & I froze for a while. The next thing I felt was Dev had wrapped his arm on my shoulder & squeezed it as if reassuring me. He is a bipolar for sure or he is hiding something? I can see it in his eyes that he loves me then why is he behaving like this.
DEV’S POV
I could see tears & questions well up in her eyes again but when she looked up at me I decided to look the other way still having my arm wrapped around her protectively. I guess she got annoyed by this & halted the auto & got down from it without even looking at me. I saw that man follow her. Sensing danger I had to go after her.
SONA’S POV
I couldn’t handle it any longer … without even thinking twice I came out of the auto … I walked for a while when I felt a hand on my shoulder … I thought it was Dev but when I turned around it was that same man … He had followed me & I don’t even know where I am …An evil smirk played on his lips … There was lust in his eyes … He walked towards me … I took steps backward but he followed … My back pressed against a wall & he caged me in his arms … I thought that this is the end but someone hit that man from behind & his grip loosened … I freed myself but stopped there when I saw that my savior was Dev … Blood had shot up in his eyes … The man got up & punched my Dev right on his face … His lips started bleeding … I gave a sharp cry at this … Dev maintained his calm & held the man by his collar & started hitting him brutally … After some time I thought it was right to intervene as I felt that if I don’t stop him his hands will be drained in the dirty blood of that man … When I went to stop him the man took advantage of him & ran away
DEV’S POV
When that man ran away I felt like following him but then I saw Sona standing there, in a vulnerable state, I just pulled her in my embrace & she started crying bitterly holding my shirt… When she controlled her sobbing I held her hand & we started walking after asking some passer-bys we got to know that we were quiet near the hotel … Sona was not ready to step into any auto so we decided to walk … our last walk perhaps …
We were just about to reach the hotel when Sona stopped in her tracks
Sona: Dev, what is it that is bothering you? I know you are lying … It is written on your face … Please tell me Dev … We are friends first I can solve all your problems … I am ready to share your pain … without any expectations … Please give me a chance
I cupped her face in my hands & wiped her tears she looked so vulnerable I felt like hugging her & cry my heart out but when I saw her expressions getting hopeful, I stepped back & told her I would have done this for anyone & ran inside the hotel without looking back. She followed after sometime.
Haa tera saya to mai hu par sang tere na reh sakun
Haa iss safar mein to mai hoon par sang tere na chal sakun
Mai hu shab tu subah
Dono jud ke judaa
Mai hu lab tu duaa
Dono jud ke judaa
Sajaana Saajana Maahiya Saajana ve
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After a few weeks Sona called Asha from her new SIM that she had bought in UP & told her not give this number to anyone from Delhi because she didn’t want to keep any ties with anyone from Delhi
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