Jo Tu Mera Humdard Hai… Part 38

In a corner of his room Ritvik (I still forget the spelling) was busy completing some work on his laptop. It was 2 am when he felt tired. He opened a folder on his laptop which contained Sona’s picture while she was singing during Durga Puja. He rubbed his fingers over her face.

He thought of visiting her FB profile. No new updates since the past two months. Suddenly there was a new notification which said

DEV DIXIT was tagged in Vikram Tripathi’s photo

Ritvik: Dev! Seeing him after a long time.

He clicked on the notification which opened a series of pictures. They were related to some doctor’s medical camp in Mussoorie. He scrolled through the pictures & then one photo made his eyes widen with shock. Along with Dev & the guy Vikram who had tagged him were a lot of people about their age. It was a group of 6 along with a lady of about 60 years. In that group was Sonakshi adorning her vermilion, mangalsutra & a pair of white & red bangles that the Bengali married women wear. Her right hand lay securely on Dev’s chest while her head lay on his chest. An immensely satisfied smile was there on her lips.

Ritvik got shaken to the core. In a frenzy he dialed someone’s number

Ritvik: Hello Bijoy Kaka! Mujhe aapse milna hai Abhi!! I need to show you something right now

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Dev was lying flat on the bed while Sona was still writing something. The room was pitch dark except Sona’s table where a night lamp was illuminating her face.

Dev: Sonakshi!! Kitna kaam? Ab chod bhi do

Sona: Kaam nahi kar rahi hu Mr Dixit

Dev: To kya kar rahi hain aap Mrs Dixit?

Sona: I’m writing my diary

Dev: Diary?!?  Ye kab hua?

Sona: I write it since I was 16.

Dev: Dikhao mujhe… Let me peep inside

Sona: Eakdom na!! 

Dev: Please please

Sona:No

Dev: Ex-boyfriend ka number hai kya usme??

Sona: Think of a better joke PJ KING

Dev: Please

Sona: No & I’m going to the kitchen. Don’t you dare open it

Dev: Itne raat ko khane par experiment Karna hai!

Sona: I’m going to drink water & you still need to work on your jokes

Sona went away after keeping her diary in the drawer.  Dev thought ” Dev Dixit se kuch nahi chupa sakti aap Ms Bose! Diary to mai dekh ke rahunga”
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Sonakshi was sleeping peacefully. It was the perfect time for Dev to sneak out of bed & peep into her diary. When he tried freeing himself from her grip he heard her mumble
Sona: Don’t go! Mat jao

Dev: Mai yahi hu Sonakshi

Sona: Samosa…  Pastries…  Pizza… Burger mat jao!!

Dev held his hand over his mouth to control his laughter. “Weight kam karne ke liye Ms Potato ne saara junk food chod diya & Neend mein uske naam jap rahi hai!!! Sona Tumi Eakdom Impossible & cute too!!”

He slowly got out of the bed & opened the drawer. He tip-toed out of the room & sat in the balcony with a winning smile.

Opening the page he found many diary entries from their school days. Sona was not a regular diary writer, so she had managed to maintain her diary for the past 11 years. There were very few diary entries made in those 11 years. He didn’t want to read the few entries of those 11 years because it would bring back all the sadness so he decided to read what she was writing today.

“So?  Another day spent in complete loss. Total wastage of time & energy.  I’m sick of playing this facade of being happy & optimistic in front of everyone, particularly in front of Dev. He gets upset seeing me upset. I can see him trying to fight my demons. But it’s of no use!! I mean just look at me from top to bottom what am I a complete failure or an excessive dreamer! I can’t achieve all that I had desired for. When I was 17 I wanted to top in my entrance, be happy with my friends, with Dev but life came crushing down on me!  Everything just happens completely opposite with me! I lost my father,  had to live with those devils in Kolkata, moved to Delhi … found some light in my life & in the hope of getting my happiness for eternity I proposed him but then everything took an unexpected turn”

While Dev was reading all of this a crushed yellow rose flower fell from the pages. He instantly recognized it as the one he had given her many years ago.

“In the initial days of my college I hated myself. IMS-BHU is a grand college but my dream was MAMC & I had to settle for less because of my relatively low score. Uttar Pradesh is Dev’s state & it reminded me of him every second. I was so stressed & full of despair in those days, nothing was going well in my life, then I attempted suicide.”

Dev looked shocked & turned around to look at the girl sleeping peacefully in their room through the window

“Obviously I was saved. I met him after so many years at Durga Puja. I came to know the reason of his denial & everything happened so quickly after that. I needed time to repair myself to heal my wounds but then Baba announced my engagement & we had to elope. Although saying that Dev kidnapped me is a funny way of his to take all the blame on himself but  when things got sorted between the two of us I wanted time to understand him … I was seeing him straight after 11 years…  There had to be some space for us in which we understood each other & then take this relationship to the next level. I don’t blame Dev but now that I’m failing I wish I was back in Delhi with everyone. I would have got all the emotional support I needed to once again be the happy & confident Sonakshi Bose Dixit. I remember that LB told me on our farewell that she adores me for having the courage to cry in front of others, I’m bold enough to share my feelings. Now I feel that I have become numb… I have made a rock out of myself… I am happy when things are going great around me but when the tables turn & I feel low, I am not able to open up properly … I am not able to hear my own self which may have some trickles of motivation left in it … I have lost myself…  Maybe staying here with this Obhodro who is not able to let me finish my entry in peace will change me for good. He is perfect…  Just perfect…  The problem is I can’t tell anyone that I’m married & have to hide my biggest happiness…

Are things that are hidden good? ”

Precap – A major twist

Two episodes & 1 for epilogue
Monday is the last day of the ff
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