I am sorry guys but I got so busy in my studies that I totally forgot about my ff lol. I know I am stupid but plz forgive me… I think you already forgot the last ff I posted so I am giving you guys a link..
Episode 31: http://www.tellyupdates.com/just-us-swasan-31/
The second these words came out from his mouth, he regretted it. Swara just kept quiet and had nothing else to say.
Sanskar: I am sorry Swara, I… I did not mean that. I just don’t know what I say sometimes.
Swara: By the way where are we going?
Sanskar thought: What the hell? Why can’t she share her feelings with anyone? She just diverted the topic like I said nothing.
He just stopped the car on the side and looked at her whereas Swara did not say anything. She knew that it was coming. Sanskar will confront her one day or another and she was just not ready.
Sanskar: Swara what the hell is wrong with you? Why can’t you share anything with me? I promise I won’t judge you or anything and if you don’t like to share anything with me, then there is Ragini or Laksh or your best friends. You have so many people other than me to share your feelings if you don’t feel comfortable with me.
Swara: Shut up, Sanskar. Do you even know the words that are coming from your mouth?
Sanskar: I am sick of you hiding your emotions inside and having a happy mask on your face.
Swara: I don’t know what to do or what to say to you right now.
Sanskar: Then what are we doing here? We should just go home and postpone this marriage as of now. Until you don’t put your own heart into this marriage, how will you be able to enjoy our most special day? I don’t want to remember this day for the rest of my life with your frowned face.
Swara: Stop it, Sanskar! You have no idea what you are saying.
By now, Swara had tears in her eyes and any moment now, she will burst out crying.
Sanskar: You have to let this all out that is buried inside you some day and I assure you that you will feel so much lighter. How long will you carry this unnecessary weight?
Swara: I… I am f… fine. Let’s just go home.
She started sobbing and Sanskar got mad at himself for saying all this to her. He was so patient with her until now. He just took a sigh to calm himself so that he can be there for her when she needs her most. He opened his window and walked towards Swara’s side. He opened the car door and gave his hand to Swara. She took it and he jus hugged her. She cried her heart out on his shoulder and he just caressed her hair and supported her. He didn’t stop her from crying but he was there for her and this is what she needed the most right there.
Sanskar: You ok now?
Swara just nodded but didn’t leave him. They both were silent at that time. None of them spoke for a while.
Swara: I am sorry. I don’t want to include you in this mess with me. I know I am being so stupid and over reacting but I don’t know what else to do. I was a daddy’s little girl in childhood and I loved him the most. But when I saw his true side, I was broke from inside. At that time, I didn’t think that it would have such a big impact on me. And now he is back without giving any warning. I don’t want to forgive him and want to hate him with all my strength but I know that I am falling weak seeing Mom’s happiness. Am I such a stubborn person that I can’t say that I forgive him? Will I be stupid to say that dad, please hug me? I am scared Sanskar, what if he leaves us again? I can’t take this risk again. I am so tired and exhausted after thinking all this every single day. I look at him and see him busy with all my marriage preparations fulfilling his dad’s duty but it is just not enough.
She was saying all this by hugging him without crying. She was calm now but her inner storm was anything but calm. Sanskar knew about all her insecurities already but now, he was happy that she opened herself to him.
Sanskar: Well, I knew that you were stubborn as hell already so this is not a shock.
Well, well done with this 32nd episode. Please guys comment and I promise that I will post another one in two or three days. So stay tuned!!! 😉