Chapter 8 – Part One. Krishna’s POV
He kissed me passionately and I kissed him back. He slowly stopped and I then realised what had just happened. I opened my eyes, he was looking directly into my eyes, his nose was touching the tip of mine, his cold hands were on my cheek. I stepped back looking at him in shock.
My immediate reaction was to push him away.
‘Are you mad?! How could you do that Sayyam?’ I shouted. I pushed him again on his chest.
‘Answer me, what we you thinking?!’ I was hysterical, I kept on shouting at him.
He looked at me shocked. I pushed him again.
‘I-I don’t know, I-I wasn’t thinking.’ He stuttered.
‘You weren’t thinking??!! Did you not think what the implications would be of this meaningless kiss?? How this would affect us?? How this would affect Yuvan??!! I mean what was this? Some sort of breakdown?!’ I shouted.
‘A breakdown?? I just had a breakdown??’ he raised his voice at me. He seemed startled at what I had said.
‘Look you let me do it, you let me kiss you! Yeh?? And I didn’t think of the implications ok, I wasn’t thinking!’ He stormed over to the car.
I felt so angry at him. Why did he do that?
He started the engine and waited for me to get in. I was so annoyed with him, I didn’t want to go in the car with him. I started to walk ahead. The rain was getting heavier. He drove up to me and wound the window down.
‘Will you get in the car Krishna?!’ He shouted at me.
‘No!’ I said angrily and continued walking.
‘Look, I’m sorry ok. I take it back, I shouldn’t have done it. Now will you please get in the car?’ He said.
‘No’ I responded.
‘Krishna, we are in the middle of nowhere, it is a long way to your house and the rain is getting heavier, will you please just get in the car?’
I realised there was no way I can walk home. I got in the car, slammed the door and I didn’t look at him. I could see he was watching me from the corner of my eye.
‘So you’re not going to talk to me then?’ He said.
I looked through the car window ignoring him, I couldn’t and I didn’t want to look at him.
We got home. I rushed out of the car and ran straight up to my room. I got out of the wet clothes and had a shower. I then sat down on my bed trying to make sense of everything that happened this evening. I was so confused by Sayyams behaviour. The same question kept coming to my mind, why did he do that? Why did he kiss me? This is a guy who has hated me since childhood. It doesn’t make sense. I lay on my bed repeatedly asking myself the same questions and eventually fell asleep.
It was the next morning, my alarm was ringing. I switched it off, it was 8am. I woke up thinking about last nights events, did all that really happen?
I got dressed and was ready to go downstairs to have breakfast. I felt nervous to face Sayyam. Why did I feel nervous? I shouldn’t be nervous, I didn’t do anything wrong. I assured myself that none of this was my fault and confidently went downstairs. I saw Ma sitting at the table eating breakfast.
‘Morning Krishna, how was the party?’ She asked.
‘It was fine.’ I said quietly.
‘What happened, you and Sayyam rushed to your rooms once you came home.’ She questioned. I looked up at her.
‘Sayyam… Um… Is he not up yet?’ I asked nervously.
‘Sayyam isn’t home, he was up really early. He went out ages ago and hasn’t come back yet.’ She said.
I felt relieved that he wasn’t home. I didn’t want to face him. I know I can’t avoid him forever, but right now I didn’t want to.
‘Krishna, what happened last night? Is everything ok?’ Ma kept on questioning me.
I nodded and gave a faint smile.
‘Ok thats fine. Whatever it is that’s bothering you Krishna, it might help to talk to someone about it.’ She smiled and stroked my cheek. I tried to show its not bothering me, but Ma always knows when I’m not myself. She got up and walked to the kitchen. She’s right. I needed to talk to someone. Someone who can help me figure things out. There was only one person I could really talk to and he isn’t here. Yuvan is the one person I can’t talk to about this situation. I buried my head in my arms on the table thinking what to do. Then I realised there is someone else who can help me.
‘Ma, I’m going to see Yuvani.’ I got up and left to see Yuvani.
I arrived at Suhani Aunty’s house. Aunty was happy to see me, she gave me a hug.
‘Is Sayyam not with you?’ She was looking at the door to see if he’s there.
‘No just me. Aunty, is Yuvani home?’ I said quickly.
She told me Yuvani is in her room. I walked into Yuvanis room, she was sat on her bed looking through her phone.
‘Hi Krishna, come in. How did you find the party? It was crazy right?’ She asked happily.
I looked at her worried, I needed someone to talk to.
‘I need to talk to you about something.’ I said quietly.
‘Sure.’ She sounded concerned. She put her phone down and gave me her full attention. I sat opposite her on her bed. I didn’t know what to say or how to say it. I was so flustered.
‘Krishna, what’s wrong?’ She asked.
‘Um, it’s Sayyam..’ I said quietly. She looked at me waiting for me to complete my sentence.
‘He…uh he…he kissed me last night. It came out of nowhere. Im so confused, I mean, it meant nothing. I just don’t understand why he did that.’
She smiled at me.
‘If it came out of nowhere, then why am I not surprised?’ She asked.
I looked at her with a confused expression.
‘Look Krishna, you need to ask yourself, if the kiss really meant nothing, then why are you so upset and so confused?’ She asked and picked up her phone again.
I sighed and sat there staring into space searching for answers to all the questions running around in my mind.
I stayed at Suhani Aunty’s house until late afternoon. I wanted to avoid seeing Sayyam.
Once I had got home Ma approached me worried.
‘Krishna, was Sayyam at Suhanis house? She sounded concerned.
‘No, he wasn’t, why?’
Ma was starting to panic, pacing around the room.
‘He hasn’t come home since he went out early in the morning.’
I felt my heart sink. Where is he? Where could he have gone??
‘Don’t worry Ma, he will be back.’ I hugged her to comfort her and make her feel better.
I went upstairs to my room. I sat at the balcony gazing at the beautiful sunset. I closed my eyes and felt the warm breeze on my face. I thought I heard footsteps. I opened my eyes and stood up quickly at the balcony. My eyes searched for him, but he wasn’t there. I could feel his presence but I couldn’t see him.
I ran downstairs to the front terrace. My heart was beating fast.
He wasn’t there.
I felt disappointed. I looked down in disappointment and walked towards the front entrance of the house, but I bumped into someone. I lost my balance and was about to fall back but I didn’t fall. I looked up…
It was Sayyam…
Precap- Sayyams POV after the kiss.
There are 2 parts to Chapter 8 as I want to show Krishnas reaction to the kiss and also Sayyams reaction too. Part 2 will be Sayyams POV.