Thought of writing my other FanFictions but then stopped! I think I should end this story and start another one!!.. The one’s reading Mr. Stalker and I, Meri Pehli Mohabbat, Roses and Thorns, Yeh Dil Kya Karein??.., A Piece Of Silence season 2 (which I have not been writing since many months! ??) wait till I finish this FF..
Swasan fans so finally the pair is….. SwaRun!!.. And the one’s asking who’ll be Varun? I don’t know ?? I really don’t watch serials and I rarely know whom to opt for. Friends whom ever you want you imagine him as Varun. Some of you are thinking about Sanskar’s make over to Varun. So you can imagine Varun Kapoor as Varun Oberoi.
Swasan, what you said was also right if we see through Sanskar’s pov. So initially Sanskar has full rights to live so don’t worry he would be happy!!.. Don’t cry for him. Someone asked me to make him die. But he too deserves a life isn’t it? What he did was not right but making him die is also not good…. I’ll not make him suffer more! Promishhhh…. ??
~~?In Love?~~
**3 months later**
Varun’s POV
“If my love for you is a crime, I want to be the most wanted criminal” well that’s quite true… I’m going deep down in love with her, Swara, my wife. It’s hard to be away from her, it’s hard not to love her, the thing she wants!!.., it’s hard to say that I don’t love her. Infact, the day I saw her, I fell in love. The day she was giving her presentation happily, smiling I fell for her but never did I gather the guts. I could never tell her how much I love her and then I came to know her past!!.. Though I wanted to soothe her but couldn’t, she had always made a wall. A person can live without a family but can’t live happily and contented without a supporter, a partner, it’s hard!!.. We need a partner may be as a friend or a life partner to share your needs mentally as well as physically.
When we started talking it wasn’t good, never!!.. It started with wars as we were rivals but eventually we became friends within two years and the day came when I met Ansh. He’s my little, sweet son. The first time I saw her, I was enchanted by her beauty. I hadn’t seen her inner self. But the day I saw her with Ansh, loving and caring him, even if he wasn’t her own son, I fell for her more!!.. That day the love and care I saw in her eyes turned into respect! We became close and I started visiting her. I learned her parents weren’t hers but the way she loved them and they returned her back, I was in awe!!.. The cute, little, sweet family!!.. I asked for Swara’s hand when I was sure I was in love!!..
Kuch To Hua Hai, Kuch Ho Gaya Hai…(2)
Kuch To Hua Hai, Kuch Ho Gaya Hai…(2)
Do Chaar Din Se Lagta Hai Jaise
Sab Kuch Alag Hai, Sab Kuch Naya Hai
Kuch To Hua Hai, Kuch Ho Gaya Hai
Cheezein Mein Rakh Ke
Bhool Jaati Hoon,
Bekhayaali Mein Gungunati Hoon
Ab Akele Mein Muskuraati Hoon
Badli Hui Si Meri Ada Hai
Kuch To Hua Hai, Kuch Ho Gaya Hai
Pighla Pighla Hai Dil Mera Jab Se
Achcha Rehta Hain Mood Bhi Tab Se
Haske Milta Hoon Aaj Kal Sab Se
Khush Ho Gaya Hai Jo Bhi Mila Hai
Kuch To Hua Hai, Kuch Ho Gaya Hai
Rang Chamkilay Saare Lagte Hai
Raah Mein Bhikre Taare Lagte Hai
Phool Ab Zyaada Pyaare Lagte Hai
Mehki Hui Si Jaisi Hawa Hai
Kuch To Hua Hai, Kuch Ho Gaya Hai
Dhyaan Ab Apna Zyaada Rakhta Hoon
Sochta Hoon Main Kaisa Lagta Hoon
Aaina Ho To Dekh Leta Hoon
Kaise Yeh Chehra Aisa Khila Hai
Kuch To Hua Hai, Kuch Ho Gaya Hai
Kuch Ho Gaya Hai, Kya Ho Gaya Hai
Yeh Nasha Jisme Dono Rehte Hai
Yeh Laher Jisme Dono Behte Hai
Ho Na Ho Isko Pyaar Kehte Hai
Pyaar Mila To, Dil Kho Gaya Hai
Kuch To Hua Hai, Kuch Ho Gaya Hai
Kuch Ho Gaya Hai, Kya Ho Gaya Hai…(2)
We married and it’s been six months now. I’m happy and she? She isn’t!!.. Her eyes speak that! I know she’s still in her past, still there where Sanskar left her!!.. It’s hard for her I know, but I have to do something to take her out of these miseries!!.. Right now I’m in airport ,waiting for the flight to take off. I am traveling to Kolkata to by a plot! It’s a bungalow ,that’s in auction. I want to buy that for Swara. It’s her birthday this month and I want to gift this bungalow. I hope she likes it!!..
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Swara’s POV
It was 12 at noon when I woke up. It’s not that I always wake up late but I slept late yesterday! I panicked when I saw the time and searched for Ansh and Varun. Ansh had school today and I’m late. Off!! Varun?? He had his meeting. Swara what you did??.. God! I got up and searched for Ansh he wasn’t hope nor Varun. I tried calling Varun but it was switched off. I panicked more. I thought of freshening and there I got a note stuck to the washroom door.
“Swara, we’re out. I have made breakfast and I send Ansh school, you just have to pick him up. Sharp 1 OK? Don’t be late or he’ll cry. I had a work so I’m out of town. Will be there by tomorrow evening. Don’t try to contact me! Miss me! ?? and yes… I have already made the breakfast, have it, and take your medicines in time. I don’t want carelessness! Otherwise, my agent’s there he’ll inform me? and doctor asked you not to miss your tablets as you are weak. So take it!”
I smile crept my face. He’s so caring!!.. These six months of marriage was like…. Something different! Though I don’t have that love for him but I have respect!!.. He’s too good!!.. ??
A caring, loving husband, a friend sometimes and also a parent who cares for you guides you!!.. I’m blessed!!..
Once di said: “I’m lucky in having found the perfect partner to spend my life with. Everyone doesn’t get. Nobody can predict the future. You just have to give your all to the relationship you’re in and do your best to take care of your partner, communicate and give them every last drop of love you have. I think one of the most important things in a relationship is caring for your significant other through good times and bad. You’re not looking for perfection in your partner. Perfection is all about the ego. With soulmate love, you know that true love is what happens when disappointment sets in – and you’re willing to deal maturely with these disappointments. It’s not though always about love, it’s about sacrifice, respect, support, care, helping hand and most importantly understanding!!..”
I freshen up, got ready and left to pick up Ansh. The moment he saw me, he jumped into my lap and kissed my cheeks.
“Awe! What happened my baccha? Why this special treatment?”
“Mumma, I won. I won in yesterday’s essay competition. You know I got the first prize see” he handed me over his trophy. I had happy tears, my son was receiving a medal and I was happy that I’m successful in bringing up my son. I kissed his cheeks and we returned home.
Later that night, I was peeing the moon through the window. It’s my habit gazing the moon and speaking to mom, dad and di. I kept staring thinking how these 4 and a half years went by. Tough times, happy times, emotional everything seeming like a perfect drama! I had fulfilled Di’s wish, I hope she’s happy now and in the upcoming future also I don’t back off from my responsibilities. I keep loving, caring and be a good mother to my son, as I have been!!..
Coming to the next turn of my life, Varun, a caring, loving husband! I hope I can give him what he expects rather than be selfish as I have been till now. I know I’m not prepared, I know he has given me time but still I don’t want him to take all this as a burden! I’m giving him so many responsibilities, with me he has Ansh as well!!.. But I know he loves Ansh so much! I am sure I love Sanskar no more nor do I love, Varun! But the fear of losing your beloved is still there, creeping a heavy mark on my heart that it’s too hard to forget those memories and move on!!…
So this is it! I have the fear of losing Varun again! Though I don’t love him but I don’t want to lose a good friend!!.. I trust him but not so much and I can’t be blamed. I have trusted someone for once and consequences are here! I don’t want to repeat those things again and again, I don’t want to feel that pain again so it’s good not to involve in love again. I want to be apart from him and lemme be…. I am happy with the happiness I have around! I am contented!!..
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Varun’s POV
I reached Kolkata and I had participated in the auction. I asked Swara not to call me, it’s a surprise!!.. I went for the auction and bought the house. It was a beautiful one. It was put up in the auction by bank as the owner was no more and his company was in debt! The next day I came to that home, I wanted to view it. I went inside and it was then that shaked me! The house I bought was Sanskar’s. How much I try the past keeps on coming back. I wanted to surprise Swara but I was going to make her fall in the pit again. I enquired about it and it was true, it was Sanskar’s!!.. I enquired where he was and I got to know everything!!..
I knocked the door of a house in the outskirts of Kolkata and there he was!
“Sir! Are you sure? You want to take his responsibility?” the woman asked.
“Yes” I said nodding.
“Sparsh come here” I called him “You are going to be with us from now. Not here OK? We are going to Banglore”
“No I won’t go leaving nanny and dadda will come back no? I’ll wait for him” he said innocently.
The child has been suffering without any mistakes. He hadn’t to be blamed but he was! He was suffering for his father’s deeds.
“Sparsh, you know? I and your father were great friends. You’ll be happy with me in my home rather than here and after your dadda comes back I’ll drop you out here again! Your dadda had asked me to take you” I said rubbing his back and soothing him “Please”
He looked towards his nanny and when she nodded he smiled at me. Packing his bags, I made him sit with me at the back of the car and left for home. I don’t know what will happen when Swara knows about him. I just don’t know! Even I don’t know how am I going to convince her!!..
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