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Chapter 4
Swara’s pov
“This all is the punishment of making my parents sad nd ashamed…. i left them for a man who dont even love me… for a cheap man… for a cheater… they always say me to be away from him…. nd dont trust anyone like this… bt i m i m such a big fool… have not given any heed to their words….today i m paying for nt listening to them… for nt trusting them… for nt able to know the difference between pure nd selfish love…. for him it was jst a attraction.. today for me tomorow for smeone else… bt bcz of his attraction my whole lyf goes spoiled…. bt still i love him…i cant hate him even a bit..” thinking all this i sat near the bed…keeping my head on the bed nd cluctching the bed sheet tightly nd crying hard…..
I felt everything around me laughing for being such a big fool…..
I dont know how much i cried whole night nd wen sleep overtake me….
“Aahh” i woke up rubbing my eyes as they were paining bcz of continous crying…
I got up frm their nd went towards the mirror….
I touched my cheek nd slap marks are clearly visible on my cheeks….”aahhh”….i cried out wen i touched it…. sanskar slapped me for that b*t*h…. ??….
All the scenes were flashing in front of my eyes… i felt soo much pain deep inside the heart…
Then i quickly packed my stuff…nd opened to the door to go out….
Bt as soon as i opened the door….my blood again started boiling seeing the sight….
Sanskar ws crying keeping his head on tht b*t*h’s chest nd she was hugging him nd consoling….
I started moving towards the door widout looking at them further….
“Swara wait” sanskar called me….from behind… i stopped their immediately because i know i need to end this…. doesnt matter how much pain it gives to me….bt this matter needs to be ended…..
” u will get divorce papers in nxt few days..” i managed to say….trying nt to fall weak….
“Wat???” Sanskar asked shocked nd that gf of my husband seems to be happy….??….
“only this u want sanskar…i will snd the divorce papers…so that u can continue ur relation wid full freedom nd need not to give explanations to anyone”…i said nd strted moving out….
He didnt stopped me for once….neither i looked back to see him……
I dont know why bt still i was expecting him to stop me….. bcz i still love him blindly nd wanted his happiness either with me or wid smeone else…???…..
I left nd never seen behind to him….
I left the city nd thought to go back to my home place to my parents….
That tym i left to kolkata… i reached their the nxt day….. i thought to go to home bt hw can i face everyone over there…. the people i left long behind bcz of my selfishness…
I was walking on the road all alone…tearss rolling down my eyess… thinking wat was my fault…??? Why i fall for such person…???
All the happy moments of sanskar nd mine were going thru my eyes…nd at last i cme out of the dream world wen that face cme infront of my eyyes….erggghh…i will go mad….
I fell on my knees crying hard….
Then sme lights fell on my eyes may be due to car….aaah….i was not able to open my eyes…
I slowly tried to stand nd then i saw the person stepping out of car…. i was shocked nd felt guuilty on seeing the person i jst wanted to run and hug him… bt i didnt get this much courage…. i felt ashamed of myself for choosing him over my father, my family….
i turned back not wanting to see him suffer because of me once again….bt as soon as i turned he called me from behind…
“SHONA” he called me wid all love…..
i broke all the chains of my mind nd ran towards him nd hugged him tight…. i sobbed on his chest…he was jst standing their rubbing my back trying to calm me…..
After sme tym i felt better… nd looked in his eyes which was filled wid love nd worries…
” Shona wat r u doing here…??? Where is ur husband…??? ” he asked me… i dont know how to answer him…. i stood numb…he asked me again…
” we fought..” i lied…hw can i tell him that he cheated me….how can a father bear this pain…i know he is alreasy a heart patient…so i dont want to give him much stresss…
“I m sorry baba… i know i did wrong..” bt i wss shushed by my father…
“Its ok shona….that was past let it be past only… i am sorry i was also nt able to understand u… bt know i understood nd dont worry my child everything will be fine soon….” he said hugging me…
i cried again…nd thought now nothing can be fine baba…nothing….
We went to our house…nd i told them the same tat i nd sanskar fought for small issue….nd i wanted to meet u all so i will stay here…
Evryone can emotional to see me… nd then forgived me…. no one knows that me nd sanskar are on different paths….
That tym i realised family always supprts u in every tough situation…. i left them bt they never left me…. bt accepted me wid whole heart wid a pinch of scoldings…..
I slowly strted trying to forget my pain, my past nd tried to move on wid the help of my family…..
Maa used to pamper me like old tyms…papa and i use to make fun of maa …… i nd laksh my jiju used to tease ragini…. nd most important… my ansh….my nephew… is my life now….
I loved to play wid whole day…??…..
Like this 2 months passes….
I tried my best to forget sanskar, nd my past…
Bt it never left me…. 1 day i was watching tv…. i saw sanskar in a award function…. my eyes immediately welled up wid tears…. fortunately no one was at home at tat tym…..
I left the place nd went to room nd started crying…. bt dont know from where ragini entered the room nd worries….
I tried to be normal bt whom i was trying to fool… my soul sister who undrstand me more then myself….
She have asked 1000’s of tyms abt me nd sanskar in last 2 months bt i always lied her…bt this tym i want smeone to listen to me… smeone who can consol me… i told her everything that happened…i noted that her eyes also get wet wen i wss telling her….. she hughed me tight nd consoled me while i was crying….
Bt we both departed wen we heard a loud sound of smething falling down…..
We turned in the direction only to find baba lying unconciouss…holding his left side of cheest…….
We rushed towards him nd took him to hospital..
I know he heard everything….. i cant afford to loose my dad… i was praying to god for his safety….
We sat outside the OT…. w8ing for doctor to cme out…finally he cme i was jst praying that everything shud be fine bt it looks as if god was nt on my side today… i got the worst news of my life….
The best person, my superhero, my first love was nt wid me anymore….??…. i felt as if my whole world turned upside down…. i saw my family crying nd breaking down…. bt that tym i wss nt enough capable to handle them as i was more broken from inside…..
I locked my self inside the room for abt nxt 20 days…i have not been a part of his last rights… i was nt enough strong… this 20 days were the worst part of my life… i cried nd cursed my life….
I jst thought to end my life….
I took a knife nd abt to slit my wrist wen smeone stopped me…..i looked to find the person to be laksh…
He consolled me nd made me belive in myself again…. she built up a new swara from the broken one….
On his saying i cme out of room nd consolled my broken family….
Following laksh’s words i started business… as dad’s company needs one representative mom was nt in the state nd ragini was always busy wid ansh….
I locked all my emotions in the room of my heart…. nd started going to office nd handled dad’s business…. by handling his business i wanted to repent for my deeds…
Everything again cme normal finally…..
On a fine day
“Shona we are going for shopping plz handle ansh” ragini said entering my room….
I immediately nodded as i so wanted to play wid ansh….it has been a long tym we spend together….
Ragini, laksh nd maa left for shopping….
I nd ansh enjoyed a lot that day…
I was feeding him wen my phone started ringing….i picked it up….
“Ms. Bose ur family met wid the accident they r in xyz hospital plz cme soon…” my whole world started shaking again…. bad thoughts started occupying my mind… bt still i kept sme courage nd left to hospital….
On reaching hospital i get to know tht my mom nd laksh died on spot …..bt ragini was still alive nd was in icu….
I fell on knees nd criedd my heart out…..
I dont know why always this happens to me…am i soo bad that everyone wants to leave me…??????….
I jst prayed for ragini to be alright….
Bt god again betrayed me….
I lost everyone each nd every person of my life…
For which sin i m getting this much punishments…??? Wat i have done…???
Why everyones leaving me….i cried my heart out sitting in the middle of hospital until smeone took me back to home…..
I was sitting inside my room…..
Nd crying…suddenly i heard a crying sound….
I followed the voice nd saw ansh crying in the craddle….
Wat is his fault??? I questioned good…..
I went towards him nd picked her up in my arms….
“No swara no…u cant fall weak…u have to live for ansh his better future… yes i will live for my ansh …. i will be his mom…. dad taught me nt to loose hope in any condition…mom asked to believe in myself….. i will do everything to make his life better……”
Screen freezes on swara’s determined face….
To be continued………