The recent episode of Lock Upp witnessed a shocking revelation about Saisha Shinde. During a conversation with Payal Rohatgi and Poonam Pandey, Saisha shared that before her s*x reassignment surgery, he was in a relationship with a guy, who mentally tortured her back then.
Saisha said, “Even I was abused in a relationship but it wasn’t physical, it was mental abuse on another level. He made me feel like I am sh*t. He used to stand outside my door and just wait thinking that someone will come and I’ll cheat on him. And, let’s say if I cheat on him, he’ll catch me red-handed and he will use it against me. He used to climb on the terrace, go on the pipeline, stand on the pipeline, open the blinders of the bathroom and see slowly if I am mast********, to use that against me.”
When Payal Rohatgi asked Saisha, “Why can’t you mastu*****?” She responded saying, “Because that’s the reason than that I don’t want to have s*x with him. Back then, I thought maybe he’s saying the right thing but I was never happy in there. Physically, I was never happy at all. I used to always wonder, ‘kya mujhe samajh hi nahin aa raha hai’ because I was a woman inside who was having s*x with a gay man. Obviously, something was wrong but I told myself that I am gay only.”
For the unversed, Saisha Shinde is a renowned fashion designer and has styled several popular Bollywood celebrities including Kangana Ranaut, Kareena Kapoor Khan among others. She also designed the finale gown for Harnaaz Sandhu for the Miss Universe 2021.
Saisha realized at the age of 15 that she was interested in men but was still confused about her identity. She took therapy and at the age of 40, underwent the surgery, and now is a proud transwoman.