HIS LONELY GIRL… (Part 3) ( I just don’t want to move on)

It was 2 days after ap suggested the girl for sanskaar…

Sujatha was quite unsure about this decision while Ram was ready to go with sanskaar’s decision…

Ap : sujatha.. did you talk with sanskaar.. we have to go to see the girl tomorrow so tell him to cancel all his commitments of tomorrow.. the place is a bit faraway from here so we will depart early morning…

Sujatha’s eyes widened hearing her.. she directly ordered her.. didn’t even ask about her or her son’s opinion when it was clearly a question about his life…

“Huh!! Itna Rob apne bete aur Bahu par to jhadti nahi jitna mere bacho pe jhaad ke rakha hai”

She muttered angrily after ap went away from there….

Mumbai…

Here as usual our princess was getting late for college…

“Oh god!!! Everyday I try my best to not get late but everyday I get late… why does maa not wake me up early and ragu too”

She muttered angrily and went towards the mirror to comb her hair…

But upon seeing her reflection into the mirror reality striked her…

Seeing her short, recently cut hair…

She touched them lightly with her fingers… her eyes got teary seeing her own miserable condition…

Suddenly she felt a lot of anger rising within her…

She felt helpless and powerless..

She felt anger on her ownself for being so weak..

She pulled her hairs tightly in her first and scolded herself..

“Just stop it… just stop it swara.. you can’t be so weak… you have your whole life ahead in front of you..  you have to be strong.. you have to be”

Saying this she smiled a determined smile… Though she was broken from inside

She combed her hair in a tight, high point tail…

She was looking so cute and beautiful dressed in a beautiful knee length frock.. it was somewhat green in color with floral designs on it…

She put on her usual smile on her face and moved towards the college taking her bag…

Kolkata…

“And how many times should I tell you mom I don’t want to marry atleast not now… ”

Said an irked sanskaar…

While sujatha looked towards him..

He had become so grumpy ever since those incidents happened in this house..

‘those 2 sisters completely spoiled the happiness of the house… especially that ragini…’ thought sujatha..

Sujatha: but why sanskaar?? You can’t live in the past beta.. you have to move on…

Sanskaar: (interrupting her) (in a loud voice) but I don’t want to move on mom.. I just don’t want to move on…

Sujatha: (helplessly) but why beta.. why don’t you share your pain with us??

Sanskaar: (sadly) mom.. it’s it’s nothing like that..

Sujatha : no it’s like that only.. You don’t feel us as your own anymore that’s why you are not sharing anything with us…

Sanskaar: no mom.. it’s just that am habituated to live alone.. am habituated of keeping everything inside me… I want there with you all for the last 5 years and that forced me to keep up things within me only…

Sujatha : (weeping) am sorry beta.. am really so sorry.. we aren’t good parents.. we were never there for you when you needed us…

She was going to speak more but was interrupted by sanskaar who just hugged her tightly…

He was feeling so peaceful being in his mother’s embrace right now..

He was feeling like all his pain was subsiding slowly…

‘but she doesn’t have anyone to share her pain with.. she’s so alone there.. she’s LONELY ‘ thought he sadly…

After a while he departed from the hug and kisses his mother’s forehead…

Sanskaar: look mom.. whatever happened it was just because of the bad circumstances and it was all written in the destiny.. we cannot change it right.. what we can do is just ACCEPT it… and I have already accepted my past as it is mom.. I have accepted that that(choking voice) kavita is no more… that I came here for revenge and spoiled everyone’s happy going life.. (he wipes his unshed tears and continues after taking a deep breath) but I will surely make it alright.. and until then I cannot move on.. am sorry mom but I just can’t.. hope you will understand…

While sujatha just nodded her head..

Though she didn’t understood the meaning of half of his words but still..

She had to trust him or else he will become more lonely and depressed and stop sharing anything with her..

So she left from there without asking him any further questions…

While sanskaar was relaxed seeing her going without asking any questions…

“How can I  move on.. how can I move on mom.. when some innocent’s life is ruining because of me.. when someone had lost her love due to me..
When someone is away from her family due to me.. I promise once i assure that she is fine, that she’s happy and that she had moved on in her life I to will move on (looking towards kavita’s photo in his mobile)

You might me so sad and angry on me Na kavita.. when I knew the pain of losing my love I still gave it to some another.. at least I didn’t have to see my love being wedded to someone else.. but she has to.. I will move on only after seeing her happy in her life”

Said sanskaar……

Precap : shomi : shona beta after 10 days is ragini and laksh’s six months anniversary.. you will come to the party Na beta…

Swara : (unbelievably and in a choking whisper) maa….

Guys it was a small epi.. am sorry for that but I thought something is better then nothing.. and then I wanted to write something to freshen up my mind…

Just hope that it was worth reading..

Guys I dearly dearly hope that you are looking this story.. thanks for your response on the last part..

Will be waiting for your reviews eagerly…

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Meet you all in the next part till then bubye..

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