Loving again – part 13

The rains cluttered the glasses on window and Neha tried calming the little cotton boll who was perhaps afraid with the lightning and thunders. In a matter of few minutes, Kavya calmed down and started playing with the pearls on Neha’s earrings.

“I bought these dry tikkas with tea…” Twinkle kept the trey on the bed and walked to the window to seal the latch.

she tried talking with topics that didn’t involve Kunj but It took her a flick of a moment to understand Neha didn’t like the company she had offered her and all the time she tried indulging herself in Kavya and her little squeals.

Twinkle knew she had been the cause of this hatred of Neha and she had to end it, let it be the destruction of Kunj for one more time but later he won’t regret her decision.

“You know Neha, he loves the succulents for the reason they keep thinking about their future… but one can not judge a person based on one of his thought processing.” she herself was surprised with the philosophy she had started with.

“and what do you want to say Twinkle?” Neha was already irritated to start a new unwanted banter.

“Ummm, okay…let me be Honest, I know you are upset about the current events! But…

“yeah, you are right I am.” without skipping a beat she replied back.

“and I think I have the right to be upset.”

She didn’t come for such an outburst leave alone this kind of but she felt like saying it all to the person who was the sole reason for her loss.

“sorry, I shouldn’t have come here… Realizing the damage Neha made the little girl rest in her cot and creased her dress.

“i was the childish and outspoken girl at that time when we met, Yuvi and Me !! we were a match and I knew that as I started spending more time talking with him … Twinkle’s voice was soft.

“why you are telling it to me ?” Neha wanted to just run away from this house.

“stay a moment Neha… I know you feel it is me why he has called off the engagement and actually I am sorry for I am the reason. But you know what, back then I broke his heart unintentionally and it took him really long time to heal himself up…

“and to break my heart?” her own tongue shook with the bitterness she uttered to Twinkle but she felt paralyzed to stop herself.

“See… I need some time to accept all these things happening in my life and then when I am in a little peace I’ll come and we’ll talk about it. But for now, let us not broach these things Twinkle.” and with a swift kiss on Kavya’s head, Neha left the room.

The evening incident had scared Twinkle but at the same time she had a feeling what Neha did was rightful for her, otherwise, she was going to harm herself bottling all the anger.

And here Twinkle needed to make her mother in law understand this thing if not Kunj, because sometimes you just don’t understand but it is not only the Love that is necessary for a relationship.

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Unable to get any sleep He had been watching one old recording of IPL, the one between their respective favorites CSK and KKR… from the time they were in their school till last year much changed but not the teams they supported.

Sometimes these good memories made him feel nothing has happened but this thought was soon replaced with that deadly memory.

But Nowadays he had something beautiful to hang on and that was the thought of finally having his family, finally a life he had lost hopes for…

They were in talking terms with no bickering and no rough comments and that was a big thing for them.

But today there was something off in her tone when she said she was tired… did something happen there? he tried thinking any word in their conversation which could give him some clue but nothing came to his mind.

And how was Neha? He didn’t call her … he seriously hated himself for behaving like this with Neha but it just didn’t come, even if he had said Yes to the proposal he was never the always-calling or chatting kind of fiancé.

But he needed a serious apology from Neha for all the damage he has caused her… he wished things to get better by time.

Though he was Initiating baby steps towards Twinkle he needed to pay a secret visit to this person.

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Perhaps now was the right time to make her account on the matrimonial site… she was just 28, not too old to match the So-called Perfect Grooms.

Taking a sip of the coffee she clicked on the Upload Photograph option and as soon as her index hit the folder choices her wounds opened fresh … all the photographs from her engagement.

It had taken all her energy to take this step, after her meeting with Twinkle last week and the outburst there she had somehow felt guilty of behaving that way… from always she had a feeling that he was searching for someone else.

And life was sometimes more about letting someone go than to hold on that one person for always who wasn’t even there for you.

But just a few photographs and she lost the battle with her heart one more time, she had felt super bad when he didn’t ask her to meet him when he was leaving for Dublin but she reasoned it with loss of his brother, she even made herself think that the lack of calls or messages was because he was busy with the workload but never had she thought about one such possibility of old love revival, this news just poured her with jealousy and insecurity.

She felt her body trembling with all these negative thoughts and one more time she was feeling her nerves constricting and a headache approaching her way but she wasn’t allowed to drown and she started the counting and taking deep breaths.

And suddenly her phone ringed, showing the call of the Knight in Shining Armour who had left her in this torturous agony and before her mind could stop her heart worked on the index and swiping the screen she took the call.

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It had taken him two days to make this trip happen with all the preparations and settlement with his mind and of course with other official formalities but the most nerving moment was this…waiting for her in this restaurant.

“how strange na, we never went somewhere together in the little time I can we were Together.” the calm voice with a hidden bitterness broke his stance.

“yeah, I was wondering that only…” he replied nervously because it was not the same start to this meeting which he had anticipated.

“how are You Neha?” he started with the most genuine question at the moment.

Sometimes you fell in love with someone after being friends for a while, sometimes you fall in love after someone helps you in your rough times, there are also occasions when love starts after loathing the person for like a lifetime but the most common love starts with infatuation on someone… you see that person and you fall for him/her.

It was that kind of love for Neha, she had loved him for years without paying any heed to him as a person, just loved him for he was a person.

And now when she had encountered such things she had somewhat felt disappointed with herself.

“Sir, Ma’am, your Coffee!” the waiter kept their coffees on the table and this is when she noticed the Prussian blue color shirt he was wearing today… one more time she fell for him.

“you look you are not doing well?” she asked and this time she was no less the old Neha who was worried for him.

“nothing, just hundred things going here and there plus working on my permanent shifting to India, you know… its hard for the ladies to stay alone.” his reply was with clarification and she felt bad for this situation.

“Yeah.it is.” she muted with the short response stirring the coffee with the powder sugar.

“your coffee…” she extended the cup to him, she had imagined such kind of a date with him so many times and here when she got a chance she wasn’t letting it go wasted even when it was the Goodbye.

“i am so sorry for everything Neha… suddenly he blurted and she looked up surprised.

“i know I have not been a perfect man for you and I am sorry for I never worked for us but it just didn’t come…” his eyes spoke a hundred folds of innocence and helplessness like he wished her to forgive him and let him go forever with a smiling face.

“i forgave you already Kunj, it is just I am trying to come in terms with the reality. When I think deeply I feel its the best for all of us but then my poor heart…” with a dry laugh she tried collecting herself.

‘it just says you are the one but it is okay I ‘ll be fine soon.” she was trying hard to stop her tears which were on verge of coming out.

“i am sorry but I think I need to go.” and bidding him a quick goodbye she left the table and only after she left the restaurant premises she sat on the stairs of a nearby building and let her heart to put everything out in the form of tears.

“Neha…. his terror-stricken voice approached him.

“Hey…you okay?” he asked sitting beside her and circling her shoulders.

and this was the point, the threshold for her .she forgot everything and hugged him tight for the first time because she needed someone  at this moment and he should not have come there.

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Hello guys! How are you all doing? I am so sorry for the delay but here is the longest chapter till date for this story *winks*

You know what Breakups are so so so difficult when one person is not willing it but the other needs it (yeah, needs it) the first person understand the other but it is just so hard for him/her to make their heart understand it.

This is what happening with Neha , I know I m going deep in her character but I always wanted to do it and I love exploring her ..I hope you guys are also enjoying it.

Next part will be on next Sunday if everything goes well..

Now stay happy and healthy and do like, vote and comment ♥

With love Morusya.