Looking at his eyes she can understand maybe he has cried, maybe he is missing his family very badly….. so she says….
“Oh….ok….Do you need any help in packing?”
“No”
Then there was silence for few seconds so Gauri was thinking to leave from there.Then she hears he is saying…
“Gauri…”Calling her name he paused three seconds and then added “ji…”then after taking two more seconds break he continues with fumbling tone “Wo ..I mean Gauriji….Will you please say the same to maaji…I mean I will leave early morning so I don’t wanna wake her up this early…. So I will not be able to take her permission ..I mean leave.. I mean wo ..please inform her and say that I have asked for her blessings….”He started with fumbling tone then in middle though he was still fumbling but he started talking in one breath speed and in last line he got emotional and feels low.
“Ok….I ….”Before she completes he starts saying….
“It’s very late night…. I think you should sleep now….Good night ji…”
Nodding her head she says…
“Ok….Good night……Eat your food quickly…. its getting cold.”Saying this she leaves toward her room.
After she leaves he lie down on bad .His eyes are wide open.Hundreds of thoughts are running in his mind.
He doesn’t wanna come in front of Gauri’s mother…. as he is feeling so low.He has given her the position of mother but he has failed as a son….She was sick and because of that Gauri had come to her but he has accused Gauri in such disgusting manner. It’s true Gauri hadn’t said him about it but as a son it’s his responsibility also to keep tabs about his mother.
He has failed as a son-in-law also as he has never given any happiness to her daughter. In fact he has always hurted her daughter.
She has so much faith in him.Now also she is not believing that Ajay’s words.And what he did?He failed…. He has no courage to face her so thought to leave from here silently…. like a coward.
He has stopped Gauri from saying anything more and bid bye with good night as he was feeling so low to stand in front of her.He doesn’t deserve her …..she is so pure.He has lost her for forever….
Thinking all these again his eyes starts to flow….
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When Gauri comes to her room she sees that Richa has slept….but she is having clear stress marks on her face.Gauri knows her friend is blaming herself for the situation but Gauri is feeling that it’s her ill fate because of which she doesn’t get any happiness and always ends up in a situation like this….
Gauri lie down on bed and starts to remember all the moments she has spent with Omkara…. From the time she had met him at Bareilly to the time she has left him at that dark night.That day she was thinking to confess her love to him but after giving hope and spending that beautiful romantic moment he just crushed her brutally.But still she is not able to hate him.She doesn’t know how and why she fall in love with him this much.All night she remembers all those good and bad moments…. smiling-crying-feeling happy and then sad …. with this when dawn has arrived she didn’t realise.
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After crying for hours Omkara getup from bed before sometime of dawn.He thinks to leave from here as soon as possible…he is feeling suffocating here now…..he just wanna go back to his brothers ….he wanna cry keeping his head on their shoulders,he wanna hug them,he is missing them very badly as he is feeling that someone has snatched his life….he is feeling empty.
Getting up from the bad he goes to kitchen with the plate which is still having the food untouched by him.He throws the food to dustbin and then washes the plate.After that comes to room and gets ready to leave.
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It was dawn when Gauri getup from bed.She didn’t sleep thinking about Om whole night.She getup remembering that Dilpreet had said he will leave early morning so she thought to make breakfast for him before he leaves.She goes to bathroom and takes bath.As much as she knows there are no vehicles leave for Bareilly to Panjab before 7 AM so after taking bath she thinks to do her morning prayer first before going to kitchen.
There are still four days left for Dewali but she illuminates the whole house with lamps like a Dewali night…. wishing that these lights take away all darkness from her life.
She sits in front of the idol lighting one more lamp.
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Richa is having a disturb sleep ….she touches beside her still closing her eyes and realising that Gauri is not here she getup quickly.She don’t know if Gauri had come to room or not yesterday night….. waiting for her she has slept last night….. Richa quickly comes out of the room in worry searching for her friend.After coming out of room she sees Gauri is lighting lamp in front of idol.
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Om also comes out of room to leave but notices that almost half of the hall is illuminated with lights.Then he sees Gauri is lighting lamp in front of idol.He stands there watching her as if capturing that image in his mind and heart for forever ….. saying himself that her images,her memories are only his surviving pills now.
Richa and Om stand behind Gauri from two different sides unaware of eachothers presence.
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Gauri after lighting the lamp remembers that day how she agreed for marriage with Ajay.
Flashback
Gauri at Ajay’s house
“You want that I do this marriage… right?Ok then I will do this marriage…”
FB ends
Then she remembers the moment when she had almost died because of Swetlana and then came back from the mouth of death.She remembers Omkara’s face was looking how worried at that moment….
FB
Gauri just comes back to conscious and she is looking at Omkara’s face. Though he is trying his best to mask his emotions but the concern for her is clearly visible on his face.He slowly lifts her up looking at her eyes…they are having a eyelock and thousands of emotions are running in their respective hearts which they are not able to recognise or understand.
FB ends
Gauri folds her hands in front of the idol and starts talking with the goddess….
“You know this …. What.. whatever I am doing this is for Richa’s good…to save her life I am doing all this and you also know this,I haven’t just loved Omkaraji ….I have worshiped him….and now also I do the same….Yes I agree that I had released him from this bond by myself…. Because I didn’t want him to keep tied in this unwanted bond…But that doesn’t mean that our relation has ended… In my life no one can take the place of Omkaraji. I know he hates me but after all this also my heart still loves him…”
Though she tries to stay strong but her eyes again starts to flow .
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Hi everyone….How are you all? I have edited a little from the last chapter here….as I wanted to make Omkara more and more feel guilty.Gauri can’t hate him so what, for his mistakes he should hate himself. I think repentance is a big punishment itself.
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I am loving IB current track sooo much that I have lost interest in this story.But don’t worry I will not leave it incomplete….
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Though I am loving all the episodes after Dewali night but this Goa track and new entry are again making my mood bad …. I just hope it ends soon and in a good way…
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