Hello everyone…….back with a long episode after a looooooooooooong time……i dont how it will be….it wont b my best……i know that…but still i wanted to write…missing my tu family…..myra,asthu,gauri,sathya,shree,sv,brin………this one’s for u all…….kindly ignore my typo & grammatical mistakes……
Njoy d ride guyzzzzz………
RADHIKA’S POV…..(5 YEARS BACK)….
.kabir!!!!!!!….kabir!!!!!……u duffer….where are u?…u better come out this moment or….or ill break ur bones………urrrrrgh……kabir!!!…….”awww…look who we have here”….suddenly my voice died in my mouth…my throat dry…..my body started trembling the moment i heard him….j…jai….n…no…this can’t be…..h..he is dead….yes….he is dead….breathe…radhika….breathe…”baby….didnt i tell u….u can’t run away from me….”…my breath hitched when i felt him breathing on my neck……a shudder ran through my body …. & a lone tear fell from my eyes …..it was him….jai….he was here…..i froze d moment realisation struck me….he wouldn’t let me live….he would kill me….or even worse…..i would never be able to run away from him…..a sob escaped my lips when he slipped his finger along my hand….as if coming to my senses i pushed him away all crying….no…..u…u…were dead……..i….saw….ur dead body….ur heart…u…u…were dead….saying this i slipped down against the wall holding my head in my hand….yes….u were dead….when suddenly he yanked me up & pulled my hairs laughing….”dead…?…..am i?…..b*t*h…..i wouldn’t die that easily……atleast not before making u my personal whore…” saying this he pushed me against d wall…..”aaah…” i cried d moment it hit my head with d force drawing blood out of my forehead…….i stood up with jerk…& started running towards d door…..when he held my legs making me fall down face first on d ground……”not so soon….whats d hurry baby…..”….saying this he started dragging my body pulling my legs to a dark room….alll d while i kept crying for neil…& kabir……….yet nobody came…..”neil…..kabir…….neil…kabir…”…calling out to them loudly he started laughing & said leaning towards me….”nobody’s gonna come baby….tonight u r all mine…”….saying this he took out a knife …..thn moving it all over my face he said in a mocking tone….”lets start the game baby…shall we?”……”aahhhhhhhh…..”….i cried d moment he made a deep & long cut along d length of my right hand…… tears of pain & fear rolling down my cheeks…..whimpering in pain i looked up at him…..when he smirked & said….”awwww….baby….did it hurt…?”….when i didn’t replied …..he grabbed my chin tightly & made me look up at him….”did it hurt?…”….i didn’t replied again…& tried to wiggle out of his hold…..somewhere deep down i knew i wouldn’t make it….alive…..”aaaaaaaaahhhhhhh”….a loud cry of pain escaped my lips when i felt heart wrenching pain in my stomach….looking down….i saw red…only red…..blood was oozing out of my wound…..he plunged d knife deep again in d same spot & asked…”now….baby…..tell me did it hurt….”…..i cried loud…”plz….plz stop….stop this….”…..this time he twisted knife in my stomach & said…”baby…..u r not being a good girl….didnt i ask u a simple question…”….pain moved all over my body….it felt like someone is peeling my flesh off….loud sobs escaped my lips…..now he rolled his eyes & said…”ugggh….this is not fun…..u r not cooperating baby….damn…..im getting bored….lets finish this off”….saying this his he pulled my hairs again causing a loud cry to escape my mouth……slowly he pulled d knife out of my stomach…..causing loud & painful sobs to fill d darkness of d dark room….thn with a jerk he moved knife right against my neck……& said”….c u again…”……with that he laughed & moved d knife…..”aaaah….”….another painful shriek escaped my mouth….when someone started shaking me……”radhika…radhika….”….
my breaths came in panting……my heart felt restless….someone kept yelling my name….but all i could feel was pain….imense pain….when suddenly someone grabbed my hand making me sit with a jerk…..panic struck me & i tried pushing the hand away…..i tried to wiggle myself out…”plz…plz…leave me….its painful…plz…”……i cried…..when d hold didn’t loosen up….i started hitting d person all crying…”leave me….leave me…”…..when suddenly a pair of warm but hard hands cupped my cheek…..& someone said….”look at me….princess….look at me”….very slowly i looked up meeting brown eyes…..a gasp escaped my lips…..tears rolled down my eyes…”kabir….”……i cried & hugged him…”kabir….he was here….he …he would k…kill me….h…he came back….h…he came back…j…jai…”loud sobs accompanied my outburst….”h…he is b…back..”….panic struck me…….i clutched him tightly…”blood…b…blood…make it go away….plz…plz…make it go away….its hurting……plz kabir….its unbearable…plz…”….crying i kept my head on his chest…..mumbling..”he is b…back….b….blood….”……thats when kabir brought his hand around my neck holding me tightly against him….he started rocking me back & forth……& thn very slowly he placed his forehead against mine…..taking deep breath he said…”it was a nightmare princes….only nightmare…..he would never come back…he is gone…” hearing him my body started trembling & i pulled away with a jerk….”no…no…he was h…here….kabir….he is back….he would kill me…..he would kill me kabir….im saying truth….plzzz….kabir….believe me…..he is back…c what he did to me…”…saying this i started rubbing blood off my hand harshly….…& cried….”he would kill me….he promised he would c me again…he is back…he is back….…..”……now kabir tugged my hand making me look down…another gasp escaped my lips….there was no blood….i stuttered…”…h…how….?”……..slowly i looked up at him with my tears filled eyes….when he averted his gaze & took a deep breath while running his hand through his hairs….thn he looked straight in my eyes & held both my hands gently in his & said…”it was a nightmare princess….believe me…..he is dead….he wouldn’t hurt u ever again….i promise……”…..saying this he hugged me once again….this time i broke in to heavy sobs & said….while clutching onto him…”it all felt real….everything….his presence….his words…..blood….pain…everything felt real kabir…real…..”…..he slowly rubbed my back calming me a bit….but my heart was restless……it felt like i needed someone else…moving away from him….i slowly wiped my tears…& looked around when my eyes fell on neil …..he looked straight in my eyes….his eyes as if saying million things…but the he quickly turned around clutching his fist tightly ……seeing him again tears made their way down my eyes……i got on my knees on d bed….& crawled at d cornner of d bed…..hugging him tightly from behind…. he turned around with a jerk pressing my head against his chest very tightly…..this time i didnt sobbed but cried silently…while he stroked my hairs lightly…..very slowly words came out of my mouth in mere a whisper…”im scared neil….im so scared …”…hearing this his hands stopped for a moment but then he again continued & after few seconds he said…” i know….i know ……” thn his hold tightened on me & his body tensed when he said….”but i can’t c u in pain….i…i can’t” when i moved my face up to look at him….he was already looking at me with red eyes….he slowly bend down & kissed my forehead……saying…”i would have killed him a million times before he would hv even breathed again in same air as you….he would never come back radhu….never…..it was a nightmare… just a nightmare…hmmm?….”…with that he made me sit on d bed with my head leaning on his shoulder …on my other side kabir came & held my hand gently but firmly……there was silence for sec…peaceful silence…..but my heart was restless….there was fear inside me….suddenly….i started looking around…as if something inside me was looking for something ….someone…..but nothing calmed my nerves….looking around i spotted a figure at d door…my heart sped up….& i quickly sat straight…trying to look at d door….but thn d women from yesterday morning nandu came to my view….& a feeling of dissappointment brushed over me…i dont why….but something tugged my heart….i looked up at her again to c her looking intently at me…..she stared at me as if contemplating something….as if she was confused for a sec….but in a fraction of sec hate was eminent in her eyes…& she turned around leaving the room…
i don’t know till when i sat like that….in silence …sleep was long gone……only voice that could be heard was slow breathing of three of us…it was already 1 at night…..when i looked around…i saw kabir sleeping soundly holding my hand tightly….a tear escaped my eyes looking at him….slowly i removed his hold & tried to get up when i felt something…..turning around i saw neil sleeping holding my sleeves tightly like a baby…..a low sob escaped my lips….quickly i covered my mouth with my fist holding back my sobs……removing his hand lightly i got up & left d room…..d moment i sat on d couch in d hall….i let it all out…i cried….holding my knees close to my heart….i cried for pain…fear….family…friends…for arjun….his hatred…everything……i didn’t want to live in this fear……but i know it will always be there all my life……my heart felt restless….i felt broken…everything came back to me in a flash……hatred filled words of arjun started playing in my mind….his eyes filled with immense hatred…f…for me…………loud sobs escaped my lips….how much hard i tried to control it by forcing my fist between my teeth….i couldn’t ….i was scared…so scared..”….mom…”…..words left my mouth before i knew…..increasing my pain by ten folds…..in this moment i wanted my mother….her warm & comforting arms….which would make me feel safe….& hide me from all d world….fresh warm tear left my eyes knowing it would never happen…never…..hugging my trembling body i let my tears fall…& laid down on d couch closing my eyes…my sobs turned in to hiccups ……mins passed but i knew i couldn’t sleep……suddenly i felt something or someone i don’t know….i quickly got up & my eyes looked around desperately for something….something i didn’t knew….more minutes passed but there was nothing…..i sat down on d couch with a tug in my heart…….& slowly very slowly sleep engulfed me….
around midnight shivering with cold i rolled my legs close to myself….& moved more in to d couch….when suddenly there was warmth….heart calming warmth….…it felt like my whole body was now resting on something more hard but at d same time soft & homely……i felt heartbeats…..which felt undeniably close….a soft & warm feeling spread over my waist causing a light shiver to travel down my body……”home…”…..hearing a single word unknowingly i snuggled more into d warmth as if craving for it for days……mine…an unknown feeling engulfed my heart…..somewhere i felt complete…like my heart found a missing part…..& thn i felt something hard but gentle tightening around my pinky finger…my pinky finger as if of its own tightened around it in response….i felt safe…hidden from all d world….as if no one could harm me now…i…i felt home…unknowingly wetness rolled down my cheeks which was soon replaced by something warm & soft…. .engulfed in d soothing warmth slowly my body relaxed……drawing myself more closer to d warmth if possible…my nerves calmed…..heart beat felt light…thts whn i felt light caressing warmth near my ears & unknown words filled my heart…”……non mi lascia mai la mia piccola regina … non mi lascia mai … … anche senza te stesso il mio respiro mi sento come sferrare il petto … senza te sono niente … niente ……. tutto La mia vita ho ucciso la gente … ho fatto la loro vita peggiore poi l’inferno … li ho visto chiedendo … piangendo … .critando nel dolore …… ho fatto le cose peggiori di chiunque altro potesse immaginare …… neppure una volta ho sentito qualcosa … niente … ma Oggi ti vedo in tanta sofferenza … … ho preso ogni cazzo di un singolo oncia del mio controllo per non correre a te … e ti tiene stretto … ..so stretto che i nostri battiti del cuore diventano uno … che ti potrei sentire nel mio Ogni singolo respiro …… la tua ogni singola lacrima mi fa venire voglia di bruciare tutto questo mondo … … non hai una sola idea fottuta che cosa mi stai facendo bambino … non so cosa sia in te … .that Mi tira verso di te così … se solo potessi mostrarti i miei pensieri su di te … ti avresti correre fino alle colline …… im infantile bambino … folle per te … .im paura Non sarò in grado di controllarmi molto più a lungo … … sei come un farmaco a me regina … mio molto personale droga …” …something soft & warm caressed my cheeks….causing a low contended sigh to escape my lips….& with that i drifted more in to d depth of slumber….
as morning rays fell on me….i stretched like a cat…..slowly opening my eyes…..pulling my warm blanket up to my neck…rolling on d soft couch….wait a minute couch???….blanket???…..huh?….sitting up with d jerk…..i felt d soft material of blanket on my hand…suddenly everything came back to me in a flash…..nightmare…..kabir….neil ……my breakdown…t…that dream….but…but i didn’t bought a blanket with me last night….my eyes grew wider……..my breath hitched…..jaw dropped…..my heart skipped a beat when realisation dawned in…..i…it wasn’t a dream???…….i…it was real??…t…tht person was r…real?….”ouch”…..i hissed when someone smacked my head breaking my trance….”kabir??”….he stopped in his track giving me a confused look….”uhhh….princes gm to u too…..ummm why is ur mouth wide open & eyes as if ready to pop out of sockets…did u saw a ghost or what??”….saying this he chuckled….while i kept holding blanket tightly to my heart…..when he sat in front on d table & smacked me again…..saying..” why d hell were u sleeping here…..& yeah next time increase d temp of ac before sleeping if u don’t want to turn in to an ice cream…stupid girl…”….i looked up at him expectantly & whisper asked….”blanket???”….he averted his gaze….& said without meeting my eyes…”umm yeah….i…i wrapped it around u in d morning….ummm yeah…”….i let out a disappointed sigh & looked down….disappointed?….why would i be disappointed….anyways it was just a dream…suddenly a grin appeared on my face ….i got up on my knees & messed up his hairs saying “thank u…monkey…”…..he huffed & pushed away my hand saying “dont touch my hairs…”….i got up from d couch saying…”ok…ok….no need to b grumpy…”….with that…i went upstairs…when i was walking in d corridor i heard a weird sound as if like growling…..but there was nothing around….shrugging i went ahead…when again i heard d same voice again from d other end of d corridor…..my heart beat sped up….clutching my dress tightly i turned in that direction & started walking …..when i reached a door from where d voice was coming from….after contemplating for a min abt what to do & what not….i slowly opened d door…moving in….i saw there was no one….i let out a sigh…”uhhh i think I’m going mad…”….saying i turned around to leave when a loud shriek escaped my lips…..my feet automatically started moving backwards in fear seeing d huge night black animal standing in front of my eyes…his teeth sharp….eyes predatory black….w..what was it?….fox???…wolf???….dog…???….i don’t know…..i cried out loud….but my voice died down in my throat when this beast started walking towards me as if it would eat me alive….panic struck in my nerves……looking around….i spot a vase….holding vase with my trembling hands…i tried moving back…when it growled loudly….another shriek escaped my lips & i fell down scratching my elbows in d process…i tried to crawl away…when it again growled loudly…..& moved towards me like a hungry predator….causing a whimper to escape my lips…i looked around helplessly….beads of sweat trickling down my face….when suddenly it lunged towards me all growling……another shriek escaped my lips & i closed my eyes waiting for d pain to register in my body….secs passed but i didn’t feel pain…..but thn i felt weight….breathing heavily i opened my eyes & looked down……my mouth hung open in shock….d beast was lying on my lap forcefully…snuggling to me……a shocked cry escaped my mouth & i tried to move back….but beast again growled & snuggled closer to me….i tried to push it away….but it snapped loudly as if telling me to shut up…..& i did d same….trembling i sat there silently with d beast lying on my lap lazily as if he owns it….”stupid….beast..”….i said under my breath….but it again growled looking at me…..& i flinched back a little…..min passed like that neither did d beast moved nor did it allowed me to …..suddenly door hung open & i heard…” i don’t know….an hour ago she was in d hall with me…..yes….i searched everywhere..
..i…”…..as soon as kabir looked at me his mouth hung open & his phone slipped from his hands falling on d ground with a thud…..i don’t know if i would ever be this happy seeing kabir….but right now i couldn’t explain it……but that fool stood thr gaping at me….as if I’m an alien…..”kabir!!!!….kabir!! stupid stop gaping & save me….”…..seeing him beast again growled ….if possible thn loudly thn last time…as if ready to kill him….& slightly changed his position snuggling closer to me as if marking his territory …..now laying on my lap looking at kabir as if challenging him to move towards his territory…..the moment kabir came out of his trance he gulped & took a step forward saying cautiously….”Tiger??…”…..d moment kabir let this words out he snapped at him loudly ….kabir flinched back…sweat forming on his head….cautiously he took two steps back & started shouting…..”arjun???….neil???……urrghhh…..guyz….???”…..when no reply came…..he cautiously bend down picking his phone while keeping his eyes on tiger…thn he made a call….”neil….second floor …..NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!” ….in few min neil came along with few men & nandu……d moment she looked at me….her eyes grew wide in shock……..others with him looked scared & took a step back……whereas neil cursed loudly…..”b*t*h….”…….huh??….he was cursing me???….what did i do???….loking at him sharply …i raised an eyebrow……”not u radhu….i was telling him….”…..he said pointing towards d beast or ’tiger’ or whatever his name was…..neil alone came a little forward & said…”tiger…..dont be a b*t*h…..leave her….& what d hell r u even doing with her….tiger????……now!!!…”…..beast didn’t move a little instead snapped & growled at neil ……neil rolled his eyes & muttered…”urrgh….always a b*t*h…”…..slowly tiger moved a little as if making himself comfortable…..what d hell…my heart picked up its speed…..but thn he did something unusual…he started licking my scratched hand from where a little blood was peeking…..thn very slowly he lowered his head a little in front of my hand as if asking something….hesitantly i moved my hand slowly & scratched his head lightly…moving my hand slowly over his back…..he again settled down in my lap…taking deep breath i gathered every single ounce of my courage & said in a commanding tone……”tiger……move…..NOW….”…..to my utter shock he let out a low growl & moved a little away…….. thts when kabir cried….”WHAT THE f**k!!!!!”…..he turned to neil in shock “what d hell is happening here…..he is behaving like a pet dog with her….hell he is even following her command…..…..bastard almost ate my leg d day he saw me….he killed many of our people….even nandu couldn’t handle him …..damn he hardly even listens to u……thn now what happened to him…..he never stays like this with anyone…except ar….”…..thts when neil groaned stopping him in d mid & said through d gritted teeth….”..as stubborn as his master”……now he smirked & said “after all like master like dog…”…….master???…..”neil…..who is his master????”…..now neil gave tiger a knowing look…..whereas kabir started coughing …..on d other hand nandu was looking at me in shock ,confusion…..but thn she gave me a sharp look & left……thts when kabir cried…”princess what d hell u did to him???….plz plz plz teach me tooo naaa…..plz plz……u know he is such a pain in ass….”….now i laughed when tiger again came & stood close to me as if gaurding me….lightly rubbing his head i said…”good boy…”…neil huffed & said…”good?…..ha…..believe me radhu he is anything but good…” again tiger growled at neil…..neil rolled his eyes saying…”b*t*h…” & left from there……..
As hours passed by kabir tried to control or least touch tiger….but every time he moved towards him….tiger would growl at him & snapping at him …showing his sharp teeth to kabir…i was laughing madly looking at him like this……finally kabir gave up being tired…..soon after that kabir & i walked to d dinning hall for lunch…..i turned a little towards him & asked something which was bugging me since 2 days….”kabir…..who is nandu?…..”….kabir looked at me for a sec then awkwardly scratching his neck he muttered….”princess….nandu is arjun’s sis….they r not blood related…however there way of expressing love is quite weird….but they hv something more stronger than blood….he is like a son to her….umm but nandu is not always a good news……u c she has weird ways…she gets what she wants….dont go on her looks princess….she is like a siren for her enemies….being one hell of a killer…..damn her looks….& brain….well lets say…..one would never want to cross her…at least if they want to live enough….another thing being….she doesnt trust anyone….not that easily at least…there are only few who could handle her danger side….like arjun ,neil,rana….but with neil its kind of twisted ….he doesnt like her ways…. hell they never get along….but surprisingly she trusts neil as much as arjun….umm….well..u…u should stay away from her as much as u can….umm…she doesn’t seem quite happy with u…ummm ….yeah….just stay away….”…..biting my lips nervously i nodded my head….why would i go near her….i don’t want to die this early……walking towards d table…..i saw neil & nandu their….seeing her i gulped & took d corner seat away from her……neil was busy on phone…while nandu looked at me sharply with hatred in her eyes…….urrgh…..this brother sister duo has sweared to make my life hell….as if one wasn’t enough for hating me this much….she also joined d same grp….oh god…..what will i do…. all d while i was having lunch she was glaring at me….when she suddenly said….”where is arjun neil…?…tell him to end this soon….otherwise ill…….urrrrrgh……till when are we gonna let this whore live….all this is irritating me to hell….”….saying this she looked at me menancingly causing me to flinch & move a little towards kabir….he quickly held my hand assuringly…whereas neil ignored her & looked at his phone as if he didn’t give a damn abt her….thts when she lost it….& got up with a gun pointing in my direction….”stop behaving like a f**king friend with her kabir…she is gonna die a death she wouldn’t imagine…..i so want to kill her right here …right now…..f**king b*t*h….”….my body started trembling….seeing her like this…all other people went away in fear leaving only neil,kabir & me…..when again neil didn’t say anything ..she laughed loading d gun & said “u wanna test my patience neil…?….thn lets do it…”……in a moment neil stood in front of me….covering me from gun……they both stared at each other without saying anything….but her eyes it said million things….there was this look on her face as if her doubts are now cleared….but she didn’t look happy abt tht..instead she seemed restless….they both kept staring at each other without blinking once….when neil said gritting his teeth…”take her away kabir…”….d moment neil said this words kabir started dragging me….when i felt tug at my hand….i stopped in my way….causing kabir to look back….turning around a little i saw neil holding my sleeves tightly…..slowly his brown eyes found mine…his eyes as if speaking a story of their own which i couldn’t understand…their was care…assurance…pain?…fear??…but what seem to get my attention was vulnerability in his eyes…..his body tensed….jaw locked….like a low whisper he asked looking strt in my eyes…”radhika?…..do u trust me???”….hearing this kabir left my hand….a shudder ran through my body….something tugged at my heart seeing neil like this….when my eyes landed on nandu…she took two steps back….a look in her eyes which i couldn’t decipher…looking back at neil….i saw him looking at me…his eyes as if trying to look through me….when words left my mouth….”yes….yes neil…i trust u…”….with tht i turned around & left with my heart beats drumming against my chest….i don’t know why…but i felt as if something was coming….something bad….very bad….
in evening i was sitting out in d backyard….after the incident on d dinning table…neither did neil nor did kabir came to me even once….a feeling of fear engulfed my heart….my heart was feeling restless….a heart wrenching feeling set in d pit of my stomach ….urrrgh…..holding my knees close to myself i moved myself back & forth….a thought came to me….when would all this end..???….when will ill b able to leave from here…?….letting out a tired sigh….i stood up & started moving inside….it was all dark…urrrgh….why doesnt here anyone turn on d lights….i huffed & started looking for d switches….when i heard hushed voices…as if someone was whispering….thn d voices got loud…..an uncomfortable feeling started building inside me…..somewhere i was scared…..taking deep breath………….I followed d loud voices….& thn I heard tht dangerous tone..”find her moron…..look around…..I want her back…..did u heard….I want her back at any cost……now Stop looking at me stupids….go & look for her……& yes….if u want to live don’t come back bare hands…..”…..suddenly my feet halted & my breath hitched….this voice……without thinking anything I start moving towards d source of voice….& thn my feet as if of there own stopped looking at d person right in front of me….a gasp escaped my lips….& a hot tear rolled down my cheek ….there right in front of me was standing d person whom I thought was in love with me….d one whom I trusted…..d one who gave up on me so easily…..before I know …his name escaped my mouth in a small whisper…. “Saral…” ……in a sec he turned around ….d moment his eyes fell on me….they widened…& he stopped dead in his track…before I could understand anything……he came to me in 3 long strides & hugged me tightly……for once I was shocked….but then slowly everything came back & another lone tear fell down my cheek….suddenly I felt weird…. So weird….something inside me yelled to move back….to move away….as if it was wrong……but just when I was abt to move….something happened….it was as in a flash….a hand came from somewhere & pulled my arm with a jerk moving me away from saral….I looked up to see who it was….& thn as if everything froze…….seeing him after the night a diff feeling build up inside me….i was angry, very angry, somewhere happy……why i don’t know..d moment d dark eyes filled with unknown fire met mine…..I felt scared….of something I didn’t knew….his eyes bore in to mine forcing mine to look down…..before I could even breathe I was thrown away harshly on someone….another hand held mine….this hold was firm & tight but unlike d one before……as soon as I understood why was happening I tried to wiggle my arm out but d hold got tighter & tighter….looking up my actions suddenly came to hault there…. Neil was standing looking in front with a dark look….his hand holding mine tightly….he didn’t even looked at me once…..it felt like he is diff…..like he wasn’t d same Neil……slowly his eyes met mine…..there was something in thm ……anger?????…..without thinking anything I silently looked down….thn i saw nandu standing at other side of neil…..she looked at me…..thn again averted her gaze…..looking around I spotted kabir ….his expression were almost same as those of Neil…fear filled in my heart….i don’t know why……suddenly I felt something & turned around…..my heart started beating faster thn ever…..I could feel a pair of dark eyes on me….I gulped down…..how ever hard I try I couldn’t make myself to look at thm……again….I started digging my nails in my palm unconsciously…… There was silence…. Silence before d upcoming storm……….mins passed no one said anything….guns were pointed from both d sides….when saral said..…”…shocked?..how did we got in ur territory….haa arjun???…….”….saying this he moved forward & stood right in front of the arjun looking straight in his eyes….keeping his hands in his pocket….whereas arjun kept looking at him without blinking…..thn suddenly he turned around….he sat on d couch behind him keeping his one leg on the other like a king…..his eyes dark black looking straight in those of saral as if challenging him to move an inch ahead…..thn slowly a smirk covered his face…..saral raised an eyebrow……when he said in dark & cold voice sending shivers down my body….” you are late…..i expected u here few days ago…u r still a newborn in this business….arent u……anyways….dont they say….better late thn never…”….saying this he looked straight in his eyes….whereas saral looked at him all baffled …”what do u mean?…..dont try to play games with me arjun…if u do …..ull regret it badly…….come straight to d point…”……at this arjun chuckled darkly & said….”aren’t we little impatient…….didnt he teach u anything???….what a shame all those 12 years of ur training was a waste….”….saying this he clicked his tongue…& cleaned imaginary dust from his shirt…..hearing this saral’s eyes grew wider & words came out of his mouth in a whisper…”u knew??….”…..few sec passed by when suddenly saral looked at me….thn turning around he smirked saying….” what a shame……even if u know…..u couldn’t do a thing….now could u?….” saying this he chuckled…..now arjun smiled evilly & said….”….now now…..didnt i tell u patience …boy….patience……aaaah…..this is getting interesting…..shame we won’t b getting much time for this….third party would b arriving any minute….”…..hearing this saral’s mouth hung wide open…..his eyes red in anger….his fist clenched …..with gritted teeth he asked….” what d f**king hell r u talking about abt?……third party???”……suddenly neil’s hold tightened on my hand …..his whole body tensed….his other fist clenched on his sides….his eyes looking ahead…..my heart started beating faster…..i don’t know but all this didn’t seem good…..thats when arjun said….”aaah…didn’t i tell u earlier….ohhh may b it slipped my mind……let me tell u now….just few more mins….. third party will arrive here….thn we can complete this deal……”…..saying this he shrugged…as on cue….14-15 people entered inside carrying guns……with a man of around 30 leading thm….his aura intimidating….but not as much as arjun…..there was a deep scar on his face…..with a smirk he came towards arjun….& put his hand forward for shaking….arjun just gave him a look & averted his gaze…now that man’s face looked angry…but thn chuckling he took his hand back…& said….”arjun….arjun ….u r still d same man……..ahhh…saral…..even u r here”…. saying this he looked around d room when his eyes settled on nandu…he smirked whereas nandu gave him a disgusted glare….he chuckled…..thn his eyes found mine…& they grew wide…..he looked at me from top to bottom….his eyes filled with lust….my heart sank seeing him…thats when neil’s hand tightened more hurting me…his body ……tensed…..knuckles white……jaw clenched……looking around i saw kabir….he was looking everywhere but me…..his fists too clenched at his sides….while it seems like all d colour drained from saral’s face…..he stood there like a stone for a sec or two…he tried to say something but words didn’t came out….”singhaniya…….????….” saral whispered still in trance….thn burning in anger he asked….”which deal….?????….which deal arjun???”…. saying this loudly he took dangerous step towards arjun……now arjun stood up…..if possible neil’s hold tightened….while standing right in front of saral arjun said….”why ofcourse…..right now we only have one imp deal…NEIL!!!!!.”……now neil started pulling me towards them looking straight….thn he made me stand right in front of saral……exactly between arjun & saral …..with my back towards arjun…..….saral’s eyes grew wide…he slowly looked at me…..there was shock,fear, anger……murderous anger in thm….suddenly every eyes in d room turned towards me…….sec passed….d moment my mind registered what was happening …i stood frozen…my heart stopped for a sec…..my breath hitched…..i felt scared…….unconciously i started digging my nail in my palms….goosebumps covered my hands….i looked at neil….but he looked straight as if avoiding my eyes……”neil???”…..painful whisper escaped my mouth in shock….tears rolled down my eyes….thts when slowly his hands started slipping from mine…as if in a reflex my hands tightened around him….looking at him with teary eyes…..i nodded my head in negative ….pleading him to not to leave me…..first time in all this time his eyes met mine….a sob escaped my lips…..there was nothing in thm….nothing……forecefully he removed his hand….thts when i held his shirt all crying…”neil….neil…p… please…”…..he held my hand tightly on his shirt …..thn looking straight in my eyes he removed my hands from there & turned around ….giving his back to me…….something in me broke down….crying silently i moved back & called for kabir…”kabir…..”…..d moment his name slipped my lips …..his eyes met mine……looking at me ….they softened…..but thn in a fraction it was gone……& he averted his eyes….”please kabir…..please…d…don’t leave me alone like this….please…..”….he clenched his fist tighter but didn’t looked at me…..
THIRD PERSON’S POV…(5 YEARS LATER)
Radhika was sitting in backyard holding her bleeding knuckles….when suddenly raj came shouting…”mom….mom…bhere r u…..mom?”……quickly she turned her hand around hiding d injury……when he came & stood in front of her pouting….”mom …u r here….i wash looking for u…eberywhere”…..now she bend down pecking him & asked …”& why my boy was looking for her mama???”…he made an angry face…& said….”mom…tell tiger that u lhove me more than him…”….as if on a cue tiger who was standing beside raj let out a low growl in disagreement….& walked towards radhika….standing beside her…..raj huffed at him & complained…..”momma c hw he is …..he is not even a good boy…..he dent listen to anyone…but I’m such a good boy….tell him na that u love me more…..he doesn’t listen to me”…..now radhita chuckled & ruffled his hairs….thts when he said angrily…”u r laughing at me…..im not going to talk to u…”….saying this he walked away huffing angrily…..d moment he left tiger laid down on her lap….snuggling closer to her….she laughed & said…”u both are impossible…”
angrily raj went to neil who was sleeping…..& the started shaking him…neil groaned & turned his face around….thts when he came on top of him & said loudly…”dada……dada…..wakeup…….dada…”…..now neil opened a single eye & looked at him….& holding him close to his chest he sat up & asked….”whats d matter champ???”….raj huffed angrily & said..”I’m angry…”….neil tried to hide his smile & said covering up…”that i can c….but what happened……tell me…ill break all d bones of d person who troubled u…just tell me d name…”….now raj’s eyes twinkled with happiness & he asked expectantly…”u will?”….now neil adjusted him properly on his lap…& said …”ofcourse….how dare he trouble my champ….just tell me d name…& thn see”….now raj looked angry & said..”its tiger…”….neil looked at him all confused & asked…”tiger???…..our tiger..??”….now raj nodded innocently….& said…”he is always near mommy….either around her or on her lap….& whenever i tell him to move away from mom he doesn’t listen….moreover when i told him that he is my mommy & she loves me more than him…he started growling at me…i don’t like him…”….saying this he pouted….now neil took a deep breath & said “even i don’t like him….he is a …”…….now both neil & raj said at d same time…”b*t*h…”….hearing this neil’s eyes grew wide & he quickly covered raj’s mouth thn looking left & right he said…” never…..do u understand…never say this in front of ur mom….she will kill me….plz…”…..saying this he removed his hand….while raj giggled saying…”u r so afraid of mom…..arent u???”……now neil started scratching his neck awkwardly ….& the said “ don’t laugh at me champ….now lets go & teach tiger a good lesson…”…..with that he picked raj up & started searching for tiger around…..after few min raj came down of his hold & said… commandingly..”u go that side….& ill go this side….whoever spots him first…calls for the other ….ok???…& yeah dada don’t make unnneccesary noise”…..neil nodded confused….& thn muttered to himself all confused…”wasn’t i supposed to tell him to what to do & what not…”….shrugging he started looking for tiger…this when he reached in d backyard….his feet stopped automatically & he took two steps back…..right there in front of him…..tiger was laying on radhika’s lap…& she was moving her hand on his head lovingly…..he stood there mesmerised looking at them….thts when tiger leaned up a little ….radhika looked at him all confused….but then he suddenly started licking her wound….a tear rolled down her cheeks…& she removed her hand saying…”its nothing….just a little scratch…..it will b fine…”…hearing this tiger again growled & started licking his wound again….seeing this radhika chuckle with tear filled eyes….& said….caressing his ears…”stubborn aren’t we…???”….tiger again growled & snuggled closer to her…when she said…”ofcourse….like master…like dog…”…with that she leaned her head down on his ….looking as innocent as ever…with tears rolling down her eyes…..seeing this neil turned around….& stood against d wall….when he felt something wet & warm on his cheeks……he slowly touched his cheeks….realising that it was his tears….he quickly wiped thm & silently went away…
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TRANSLATION
”….. non mi lascia mai la mia piccola regina … non mi lascia mai … … anche senza te stesso il mio respiro mi sento come sferrare il petto … senza te sono niente … niente ……. tutto La mia vita ho ucciso la gente … ho fatto la loro vita peggiore poi l’inferno … li ho visto chiedendo … piangendo … .critando nel dolore …… ho fatto le cose peggiori di chiunque altro potesse immaginare …… neppure una volta ho sentito qualcosa … niente … ma Oggi ti vedo in tanta sofferenza … … ho preso ogni cazzo di un singolo oncia del mio controllo per non correre a te … e ti tiene stretto … ..so stretto che i nostri battiti del cuore diventano uno … che ti potrei sentire nel mio Ogni singolo respiro …… la tua ogni singola lacrima mi fa venire voglia di bruciare tutto questo mondo … … non hai una sola idea fottuta che cosa mi stai facendo bambino … non so cosa sia in te … .that Mi tira verso di te così … se solo potessi mostrarti i miei pensieri su di te … ti avresti correre fino alle colline …… im infantile bambino … folle per te … .im paura Non sarò in grado di controllarmi molto più a lungo … … sei come un farmaco a me regina … mio molto personale droga …
”————————————————————————————…don’t ever leave me my little queen…don’t ever leave me…..without you even my own breath feels like pricking my chest….without you I’m nothing….nothing….all my life i killed people…i made their life worst then hell….i saw them begging …crying….writhing in pain……i have done things worst than anyone else could imagine……neither did once i felt something …anything…but today seeing you in so much pain…….it took every f**king single ounce of my control to not to run back to you ….& hold you tight…..so tight that our heartbeats become one…that i could feel you in my every single breath……your every single tear makes me want to burn this whole world down….…you don’t have a single f**king idea what you are doing to me baby…i don’t know whats it in you….that pulls me towards you like this….damn if only i could show you my thoughts about you….you would run to the hills……im going insane baby …insane for you ….im afraid i won’t be able to control myself much longer ….…you are getting on my nerves like a drug regina….my very own personal drug…