Hi ALL……….yup….im back……after a long long time on manmarziyan page……missed u all…. specially jessie,myra,gauri,astha,sathya,s.v,brin,jnana…..& all of u…i may have not mentioned d name but this onez….for u all…..thank u…& loads of love…..
as always….there would b alot of typos and grammatical mistakes…kindly ignore….
Here comes ur…..”MY MAFIA KING”…NJOY D RIDE….& let me know how it was…..
RADHIKA’S POV …..(5 YEARS BACK)……
Standing here…under 100s of gazing eyes….in a hall full of 50-60 armed men…in all the chaos…all d booming noises….my heart silently repeated one word…one single word…”DEAL!!!”….this is what i have become……”…a deal…” for everyone around here….their piercing gaze was enough to made me gulp and realize…..what is happening around…it felt like dej-a-vu….was it yesterday? or a day before that when my father made me a mere “deal”…& now here I’m ….again standing as a deal…..am i nobody…..am i not human…..or don’t i feel pain….then why….why…being innocent i am d one to face all this …what is my fault in all this…what have i done….?????…a silent tear witnessing my agony fell down on my hand…when i was startled by a booming fierce voice…”the f**k…ill let u make her a deal….u r making a mistake arjun…a big one…..he will make u pay for this….u r making a death wish”…as on cue my eyes met d owner of d voice…..there he was…looking over my shoulder…he looked same…but was he?…..an inaudible shaky whisper left my mouth…”saral…”…in a heart beat…his gaze swept over mine….there was an red aura….which suddenly softened as his gaze met mine…now they were filled with care, fear, worry and….guilt….another hot tear rolled down my cheeks…but i didn’t avert my eyes from him….i wanted to see….did he still have this much courage to look strt in my eyes after leaving me all alone….as if in a battle with himself…he lowered his eyes down…but then in a heartbeat he moved forward….with unknown madness in them…..& then he again growled…looking over my shoulder….”u …f**ktard….how dare u even think to deal her to singhania….the bastard who can sell his own wife…”….a shudder ran through my body…..my body started trembling a bit….unconsiously my eyes moved to singhania…..my heart lurched in my mouth…seeing his expression …there he was ….looking at me with a satisfied smirk as if sizing me out…..thats when i heard saral……..”he doesn’t give a damn who d woman is…all he cares abt is his f**king trafficking business & his sick pleasures….What r u planning arjun…..everyone knows u don’t involve urself in this kind of business…..then what d hell is he doing here…???….dont dig up ur own grave arjun…don’t..”…..smirking singhaniya moved towards us…..& said keeping his hand on saral’s shoulder…”aaah….u wound me saral….i thought we were frnds…too bad….u make me sound like a bad guy here….…”…then suddenly his eyes went to nandini…& he said in an unreadable voice…”u see…i can make u happy…if u want….”…..then he swiftly averted his gaze & said ”….hmm…. but saral…i don’t want to make u happy…..u r not the one I’m interested in”…..in a heartbeat his eyes swept over me….lingering for more than necessary….swiping his tongue over his lover lip …he muttered in a sick tone looking strt at me…”…my interest lies somewhere else….….so…”…saying this he removed his hand and turned face to face with him….& muttered in a calm but menacing tone…”f**k OFF”….in a flick saral grabbed him by collar & singhaniya retaliated d action…..suddenly there men started pointing guns at each other…. it became too silent…when a dreading gasp escaped my lips…..after a min of looking at each other…singhania left saral….however saral didn’t do d same…..slowly singhania released his collar & said all laughing…”try this next time & no one would b able to collect all ur body parts…once I’m done with u…”….suddenly he stopped laughing & said menacingly …”I’m not here to fight with u”….he slowly walked towards me and said slowly..”….we are here for a deal… so lets focus on that…”….trembling my body automatically started moving back….my eyes started searching through d room…..neil was nowhere….niether was kabir……panic began to spread through my body…..but my eyes…..they were searching for something else….someone else….hot tears again made there way down…my nails started digging my hand making blood ooze out of them…….but my restless mind didn’t care…as if my eyes looked around hall searching….searching for something…..my heart started beating at inhumane speed….panic filled my body…when suddenly my back hit something hard……..my breath hitched as i inhaled d familiar cologne…..my body abruptly came to rest…..unconciously breathing in d soothing cologne…..my trembling subsided……my breathing stablized….another tear fell down as d realisation swept in……as if struck by the lightening i stood there frozen… its him….something screamed from my insides….a mixture of anger, hurt, fear & ….unknown comfort swept over my heart…….i don’t know why but a feeling of consiousness swept over me…..as if i could feel his gaze on me…but i didn’t dare to move even a inch…unable to take anymore…a sigh escaped my lips & unconsiously i started diging my nails deeper……thats when i felt his muscles tensing behind my back…when gently his fingers touched mine….my eyes widened ready to come out of socket……when his fingers gently eased mine….as if preventing me from harming myself…….mins passed & he smoothely left my fingers….but i stood there frozen…i coudnt hear anything else…my breaths started focussing on his heartbeats…suddenly it felt calming……causing me to lean back a little more….mins passed….there was silence….complete silence all around when my body felt vibration of his voice ……as he spoke…..in a cold and calculated tone……but there was something in his voice which i cannot point my finger at…..”…enough drama for d day????….in d meeting room ….now!!!!!”…..when men started moving towards a room….but he didn’t ….in this chaos….i felt him inhaling & then his breath felt over my ears…& he whispered almost inaudibly….almost…. ” LA MIA PICCOLA REGINA SI PROVA DAVVERO LA MIA PAZIENZA…”…it felt as if breeze touched my ears…..& in a blink he was gone……& i stood there…proccessing what happened…sec passed…when suddenly i found singhania in front of me…i jumped back a little caught offgaurd……then taking a deep breath…i turned around to leave when he held my wrist tightly……a painful hiss escaped my lips….. he tightened his hold and said with a sick smile…..”….so whats ur name little sparrow…???….u know it would b shame if i don’t even know ur name…when i would be making ”…as if on reflex my hand landed on his cheek…d silent hall boomed with d sound of the slap…..my nose flared…how dare he…unable to hold anymore i pushed him away & yelled all crying..”keep ur filthy hands off me….”….….hearing d same…he started laughing…but his eyes they were filled with madnning fury causing me to gulp & take another step back…”aaah…feisty…lovely….now i see why all of them r behind u…”…saying this he leaned a bit towards me…”but..ull pay for this..ill make u….& then u would wish u haven’t known me..”….….unconciously….my body started leaning back…away from him…..chills raked my body…..my insides churned up…..& my memory…it started flashing scenes of that night when jai…a hitched gasp left my lips…it all came back….again hot tears rolled down my cheeks…that all would repeat again…..yes….he would do d same…..my insides screamed to run away…to go somewhere safe away from all this….when singhaniya raised his hands to feel my cheeks…..i stood there trembling …in a crying mess….when suddenly someone held his hand in the air….& said in a menacing tone…..”i wouldn’t do that if i were u…”….’…NEIL…’ i cried loudly & without thinking anything ran to him….& stood behind him…as if hiding myself…..when neil said gritting his teeth…”it wasn’t a warning…..i don’t do warnings….u must have heard…”…saying this he jerked singhania’s hand with a force….there was soul shattering silence around but singhaniya there was fear somewhere in his eyes as if he knew what neil was speeking about….when neil smirked & said…”it seems u have heard…”….saying this he took my hand & turned around…
’Ne….”….before i could speak a word…i found myself standing at the door of meeting room….as if sensing our presence the chattering stopped & all head turned around …..except one….arjun….he was looking in his phone…….feeling others gaze made me uneasy & i shifted a bit towards neil….thats when neil dragged me like a possessed man where arjun was sitting… & stood right beside his chair holding my hand gently but firmly…..another sound of footsteps followed and singhania entered….as soon as he did…..nandu’s eyes widened seeing him….followed by the kabir’s …thats when i noticed…..my finger marks on his cheek…..before anyone could react…arjun looked up acknowledging everyone…..thats when he looked at singhania….& in a moment something dark flashed over his expressions….as on cue my eyes lowered down…all this time neil didn’t remove his eyes from arjun…his eyes as if yielding fire….secs passed….but there wasn’t any sound……from my peripheral vision i saw arjun fisting his palm tightly looking intently at singhania….a terrible feeling settled in my heart….i clutched my dress tightly….thats when arjun looked straight at neil…something flashed in eyes…his fist tightened further if possible….&slowly… very slowly his eyes moved down towards our hands……thats when neil moved our hand a little towards arjun…..& then his hold started loosening..….very gently he caressed my wrist where there was mark of singhania’s hand….as if showing him what singhania did…..& then as gently he left my hand…..but all this time arjun kept looking at that mark strangely…..something didn’t felt right….my heart beats accelerated….thats when slowly….very slowly his eyes moved up…..d moment his eyes met mine…a chilled shudder ran down my spine….his eyes as always….. as in spoke million things….. but still didn’t say anything…why is it so hard to read them….every time i look at them it feels as if something is pulling me…..something like a fire….a cold fire…. a hot tear rolled down my cheek….his eyes followed its trail…..& when they again met mine there was fire…..drizzling fire in them…..a terrible feeling made its way in my heart….something doesn’t felt right…..something in his gaze yelled destruction….thats when i heard his dark voice…”…she slapped you….”…it wasn’t a question……it was a statement….but d way he sounded caused me goosebumps……my eyes lowered down on its own accord…..but i can still feel his gaze….a no of collective gasps were heard…..unconciously my nails started grazing my palm…when again his cold voice boomed…”why did……she slapped u?…”….my breath hitched when he asked him…..but his eyes they never left mine even for a sec…..unable to hold his gaze my eyes lowered down……thats when singhania scoffed & said….”yeah….but dont worry dude…she will pay for that…..”…he suddenly laughed & said…”in my bed …hell…d fun didnt even began & that b*t*h slapped me…” saying this he rubbed his cheek looking straight at me….a low growl came from neil & kabir cursed….neil was abt to move towards him when arjun looked at him……dont know what happened but hesitantly neil took a step back…..thats when singhania chuckled & said…” even this dog couldnt protect u next time little sparrow…..ull pay for this slap….”…my heart lurched hearing this…when suudenly saral came to me & held my shoulders looking for any injury….”u alright…?”…he asked & then turned to singhaniya covering me….& was about to pull his pistol out….when out of no where a snickering sound was heard….every single eye except one moved to d source of the sound……my eyes bulged out….when i saw nandu chuckling….with a smirk plastered on her face she stood up against singhaniya….& asked looking at my fingerprints on his cheek…”…how was it?…” she again laughed & said…”come on tell us how did it felt?”….but singhaniya’s eyes were blazing fire….when he gritted his teeth & said smiling in a sick way…”….b*t*h it felt same what u felt when my father made u a wh…”….before he could complete nandu took her sandal out & “…BAM…” it all happened in a flash….now singhaniya was holding his right cheek…& all his men were pointing gun towards nandu…..but then singhaniya chuckled darkly & gestured them to relax….spitting d blood out of his mouth he muttered…..”aah…u havent changed even a bit..as feisty as ever”…..nandu smilingly leaned a bit towards him…& said almost inaudibly….almost…” i can end ur pityfull life u sick bastard….now… in this very moment….but then where is fun in that….why should i waste my energy & bullets ….when i can sit and watch u writhing in pain with a popcorn in my hand….”….as on cue she yelled…”popcorn…with cheese “…in a flash someone handed her a bucket of popcorn ….. she smirked walking towards arjun & sat on his right…every single mouth hung down there except few….seeing her like this …a creepy feeling spread through me…..& unconciously i scooted a little closer to saral who was next to me…….thats when i again felt arjun’s gaze on me…making me more uncomfortable….when i heard singhaniya…”i gotta give this to u arjun.….ur women….ahh….where do u get them from man….they are so…..feisty…”….saying this he smirked looking at nandu…& in a swift his eyes found me…..making me gulp & unconciously scoot a little more towards saral….then he muttered wetting his lower lip…” & ravishing….”…d way he said caused my heart to leap in disgust & fear…..when arjun stood up with a jerk causing d chair to fall with d thump…..causing me to flinch back….as on cue there was silence …complete silence….…..they all were suddenly cautious or somewhere afraid to see him like this…all eyes now lingered on him..but he…he was looking at me….with unknown silent storm in them…..when he said in his husky yet dominant tone….”….My women u say…huh…”….saying this he turned to singhaniya…his composure all calm….then…slowly …very slowly… he started removing his coat….when….”boom”….before i could even process a bullet shot was heard…causing a shrilled cry to escape my lips…..as if on cue a low grunting sound came from singhaniya….my eyes almost came out of socket when i saw singhaniya kneeling down on one knee…..with a lot….alot of blood oozing out of them….when did this happen…involuntary my eyes found d man standing beside him……”neil…”….he….he shot him……as if feeling my gaze…he looked up at me……a wierd madness covered his eyes….slowly…very slowly he moved away smilingly and stood leaning against wall whistling…as if something snapped in singhania’s men….they all pointed their gun towards neil….when….one by one they all fell on there knees grunting…”Kabir…”..another shocked gasp escaped my lips….everyone stood up all shocked…except two….nandini and…..involuntary my eyes moved to him….there he was….standing there folding his sleeves….as if nothing happened…every single thing around him….spoke only one word….one single word…”…Arjun….”….he then moved towards singhaniya….taking painfully slow steps…all this while his eyes fixed on him….as if a tiger on hunt have found a deer….his eyes… they spoke only one thing…..destruction…..taking few more steps he stood in front of him…..when singhaniya laughed saying….”u r playing d wrong game….arjun…my dad won’t let this go…”….now arjun smiled bending on his knees in front of him….and said…looking deadly straight in his eyes….”thats where u r wrong my boy…..i don’t play games…”.aloud painful grunt followed him….thats when i noticed his knife moving down singhania’s shirt …slowly yet painfully….in secs his shirt became all blo*dy……thats when arjun muttered in sharp and menancing voice….” ..i am d game…”…..saying this he stood up in a hitch…thats when another painful shriek filled d silent room….holding my breath …i looked down at singhaniya….my eyes widened looking at the knife plunged in his stomach….a whimper escaped my lips….thats when nandini stood up & said walking towards singhaniya “…what a show…hell my popcorns r all gone…anyways…i hope u r enjoying there…?…or u need a hand…huh?…”….saying this she bent in front of him….& twisted d knife already plunged in his stomach….another shriek followed…”…oops….my bad…ill try other side…”….saying this she fluttered her eyelids & in a hitch twisted d knife other side….on cue he started coughing blood & said looking at her…”…u bit…”before he could complete….a snap was heard…..a loud shriek escaped my mouth…& my tears rolled down…my body…it started trembling….ar…arjun….he…he…twisted his neck…his hands still around singhaniya’s head…holding it in a very unnatural way….another chocked sob escaped my lips…..he…he is a monster….unable to look at d dreading scene….i hid myself in saral’s arms….whereas saral..he stood there all shocked….again i heard arjun’s ice cold voice causing another shudder to travel my spine…..there was a promise in his voice when he spoke…a dark promise…”…nobody touches what belongs to me…nobody…”……my breath hitched…slowly…very slowly i moved my head from saral’s embrace…my heart skipped a beat when my wet eyes found his dark black one….they looked straight at me…as if staring at my soul…there was madness in them……dangerous madness causing me to cower back & hide a bit behind saral….he kept looking at me intently…& for a moment i saw a flicker of hurt in his eyes…but in a blink it was gone as if it wasn’t there in d first place….”boom…”…another loud shot made me flinch & broke my trance….when i found nandu standing there pointing a gun on singhania’s head….my eyes followed its trail & another whimper left my mouth seeing d bullet in his forehead….d scene in front of me made me cringe…..singhania’s head hung loose from his body in a wiered way…a bullet straight in his head, a knife twisted in his stomach….seeing this i felt content of my stomach ready to come out any min….when i heard nandu…”damn….it felt good….aaah….what a dramatic death…”…..saying this she shrugged making others cower back in fear…..except few…neil… he looked up for a hitch at nandu….seeing her like this he rolled his eyes…& again started whistling as if watching a movie…..thats wen i heard saral…”u…u k…killed him….?”….his words came out a bit shocked…”h…he was alok singhania’s son dammit…&..u..u killed him…..f**k….what just happened…” “oh….just great ….now u guys know ….whom to take his body to…or”….saying this to injured men of singhania nandu pointed her gun at them…as if on cue…they hurried out all limping with his body as fast as they could…….
secs passed but there was silence…pin drop silence……when saral started dragging me out of nowhere….”lets go radhika….we are leaving….”…..saying this he started dragging me out when suddenly he stopped causing my body to hit his….my heart started thumping….& nervously i started biting my lips….slowly as if dreading what i might see ahead…i bent my head a little from behind saral…& peeked at what was happening…..there he was standing right in front of saral…….my breath fastened…..d moment his eyes met mine……his black eyes shone with an unreadable expression …it almost looked like amusement….in a sec…i found d corner of his lips curving a bit…but then it was all gone in next…he cocked his head a bit as if analysing my position…..it felt so unnerving d way he was looking at me…..as if mocking me at my childishness…thats when i realised what i was doing….urrrrgh…..i must be looking like a joker to him…without thinking another sec …i hid myself behind saral….hiding my face in my hands……from….from….i don’t know what…?….when saral said with a scoff..”u think u could stop me…from taking her back?…”…my heart beat accelerated when after few secs i heard footsteps coming in our direction…his footsteps…..keeping my hand on my heart i tapped it there to soothe out the uneasiness when i heard his unnerving voice…”who said i would want to stop u….naah…not at all….u free to leave…”….d moment he said this….my eyes widened….my breath laboured….thats when i heard confused saral…”…that easily….u would let us go that easily….why?”…”tch…tch…..now boy….u r getting ur hopes high…don’t u….”…..said arjun….when saral asked…”i didn’t get u…”…i felt arjun taking another step forward…when he muttered .”oh come on u can’t catch on…now could u…anyways…..u were here for a deal…as u can see….…it got cancelled….& now u can leave…why would i have a problem….its as simple as that….so don’t waste my time…& leave”…saying this i felt him moving away…..i felt an unusual kind of uneasiness in my chest & out of nowhere a hot tear rolled down my cheek….my heartbeat it roared as if in pain….i stood there numb…..when suddenly saral tightened his hold on my wrist & started dragging me after a min or two of thinking….& i let him…numbly…saran’s men started following us like robots……when my eyes landed on arjun….he stood just a few steps away….facing other side ….as if playing on his mobile….i don’t know why but soon tears started flowing down as if a dam broke…d uneasiness in my chest burned….& i closed my eyes….unable to handle anymore..….we must have taken few steps…when i suddenly stopped…causing saral to do d same…he pulled me a little…but when i still didn’t moved….he turned his eyes to me….thats when my eyes involuntary went to d hand holding my hand gently but firmly….my heart skipped a bit….i didn’t dare to raise my eyes…..i kept looking at that hand….after gathering every single ounce of my courage….i followed d hand…& there he was….casually playing on his phone…without a care in world….but his hand holding mine with an unknown determination…..i felt something twist in my chest….& unknown to me ….few drops of my hot tears rolled down….falling on d back of his hand….d moment those drop touched his hand…i felt his muscles tensing….his hold tightened on my wrist as if of its own….& in a flash he turned around….looking straight in my eyes….in a moment his eyes turned to saral & he said…”…i don’t think u heard me clearly…..i said….u can leave…”….as if understanding d hidden meaning in his voice…saral’s hold tighetened a little & he asked in a clipping tone…”what d f**k u mean…?”…on d cue arjun took 2 steps towards us…slowly & dangerously…& said in a menacing tone…looking straight at him..”it means only u can leave along with ur men…only u…”…my heartbeat increased to notch hearing him…& uncnsiously i started digging my nails in his palm…..uneasiness crept my mind….i started biting my lips…thats when i felt his thumb…moving….moving slowly in patterns on my nerves….as if calming my heart……my breath….on an instant i looked at him….thats when saral yelled …”u blo*dy f**ker….u think u can play me….im not singhania arjun….make this clear in ur shithead….im taking radhika with me…& u can’t stop me…..she doesn’t belong to u …damnit”…saying this he tightened his hold on my wrist….causing a painful hiss to escape my lips…thats when i found arjun’s eyes blazing with cold fire..& in aflash…he pulled me in to him …holding my head against his chest tightly…..my eyes widened …another chilled shudder raked my body….my breath came hot on his chest….my body trembling a little ….his cologne of dry wood and earth filled my mind….occupying every single thought there….thats when i felt vibrations of his warm voice…”…she does….”….saying this he looked down in my eyes….& slowly his other hand made its way around my waist…..when he muttered in a tone …which felt too different & too familiar to my ears…”…she is mine..”…my heart skipped a beat & involuntary my hand moved & held his shirt tightly….his hold tightened on my waist & he looked straight at saral…..but my eyes…it didn’t left him…..thats when i heard his roaring voice again….”…she is mine….to destroy…& rest assured i would do that…quite soon….go back saral & tell him….tell him…that ill haunt every breath of his….ill destroy her….slowly & painfully…”…..as soon as words escaped his mouth my body became still…i felt something snapping inside me….as if feeling d same his hold tightened ….a pang of pain washed over my heart….my eyes moved through d room…& when it met neil’s….he started taking calculated steps towards us…his brows furrowed….i can see my pain somewhere in his eyes…..as if it was enough …again my tears rolled down my cheeks & fell on arjun’s neck…rolling down his adam apple….a surge of anger coursed through me….& involuntary my fist tightened on his shirt …it was all a matter of second when i started thrashing in his arms….sensing this…his hold tightened around my waist…..soon i went out of control…unknown anger crowded my mind….& started hitting him with all d force i could muster….a loud cry escaped my lips in anger and frustration….thats when i heard his commanding booming voice …”…still…”….it fuelled my actions more…& my resistance increased…..thats when he moved his fingers in my hairs….& pulled it back in next ….yelling aloud…”i said…..still…”…all my moments came to hault….i stood there in his arms…..all crying….he kept looking at me…..& again said…”..still…”….tears rolled down my eyes…..when saral marched forward like a madman yelling at arjun….”…leave her u bastard…or..”…before he could complete arjun moved his hand from my waist & pointed his gun towards saral’s chest….when saral started laughing…”u think …this could scare me….then u got me wrong….hell shoot me….but im not leaving without her…”…..arjun chuckled darkly and said…”…as u wish…”….sudden fear clouded my mind…will he kill saral…will he….without thinking anything….i broke from his lose grip….& whispering a low “..don’t..” i stood in front of his gun….something gripped my heart….something from inside told me i did something stupid…something wrong….thats when i saw kabir and neil running towards me…nandu …she stood all shocked…thats when i said trembling…”…d…don’t…p..p..p…please …d..don’t….”…gathering every single ounce of my broken courage …i looked up…..& as if ground beneath my leg shook apart…his eyes…they were red…with fury i have never seen…him this angry…it was beyond boundaries…..his eyes held insane anger…….as if madning anger emitting out….my breath hitched when i felt raw hurt somewhere deep inside them….my hands started trembling when i felt a ping of sadness in them…in a fraction his eyes again blazed with anger….deadly anger ..my eyes lowered down on its own seeing him….when he moved forward…& with a deathly grip held my hair pulling it with force …”..u wanna die…haan..?…then u will ….very soon…”….tears rolled down my eyes….& with this he pushed me harshly to neil….without a word neil started pulling me out gently…
soon we were in corridor ….with kabir at our heels….but my heart it ran at unusual speed…my mind couldn’t forget his eyes…loud sob raked my body…i don’t know why i felt guilty….why….i know i didn’t do anything wrong…then why i was feeling all this….my heart as if cried….when suddenly neil engulfed me in a tight embrace…”shh…shh….its all right….shh…don’t cry radhu…I’m here na…”…saying this he patted my head….& kabir started soothing my nerves…. moving his palm on my back to calm me down….soon my sob died down but neil didn’t loosened his grip…neither did kabir stopped…soon only my hiccups could be heard…when neil sighed saying..”what were u thinking radhu….what were u thinking…never do that again….that was so stupid of u….”…saying this he carressed my head ….when something snapped in me…& i flinched…as if realty hit me back…neil & kabir…their ignorance flashed in my eyes….& without thinking…moving forward i held neil’s collar…& “Bang”….a loud thump echoed in d corridor when i slapped him tightly…..he didn’t say anything & kept looking at me….ehen again…”bang…”….i slapped him….& cried aloud..”…stupid….i am stupid…?….its u guys….u all & that beast…what do u think of me haan…am i a toy for u guys….u would do whatever u feel with me….im human…not a thing…do u hear me…not a thing….& u….u…u guys were dealing me off…”…on an instant kabir was on my side holding my crying & trembling form…”shush….princess…don’t cry…nothing happened….& nothing would happen..”…saying this he started patting my back….when i pushed him & slapped him thrice on his cheek…..yelling…”…backoff…..both of u…do u guys even …even have idea …what i..i..went through when i was standing there all alone….& h..he..singhaniya….”…unable to say anything …i broke down….when neil took steps towards me….as if understanding my actions something flashed in his eyes….he looked hurt …sad …then in a flash he held my shoulders burning in unknown anger….he muttered..”..u..u said…u trust me…didn’t u…tell me damnit…don’t u”…….even kabir’s shoulders sagged down & he looked down….something melted inside me looking at them like this….gathering my self together i removed neil’s hands & turned around….when without word he loosened his grip & turned around hurt….i muttered in a low voice…”..i trust u…both of u…i do….thats why…” before i could complete…kabir straightened as if a kid got his chocolate…his eyes shining….& neil…h..he turned swiftly….he eyes looking straight at me….with a different shine in them….he urged me to say further…”thats why…what radhu?…”…he asked almost desperately…..clearing my throat …i looked at my shoes & muttered softly…”thats why….u guys only got slapped…otherwise……if…if i didn’t trust u…i would have kicked ur asses…ur behaviour…i…it…i..was hurt…thats it..but..i..i trust u…”…saying this i looked up…& in a flash kabir came on me catching me offgaurd….hugging me tightly….i staggered back with his weight…& soon we both were on ground….when he pecked my cheeks & said”…u scared me dumbo….i…i thought i lost u…u wouldn’t talk to me ever….u won’t trust me anymore…i..i didn’t wanted to do this…b..but….this was for d best…I’m sorry…I’m sorry….”…saying this he engulfed me tightly…a small smile came on my lips & i lightly hugged him back….when suddenly i realized what i did…maintaining a straight face i pushed him away…”stay away…i still didnt forgive u..”…..to which he pouted….when my gaze moved to neil….i observed corner of his lips threatning to pull up cutely….when i muttered…”.i still didnt forgive..any of u…”…he cursed & whined …..when i turned & started walking away…on my way i heard them….”just see neil..…she can never be angry with me….ill make her smile in a min..”….neil whined & said…”whatever…still u got slapped 3 times…I’m happy and content with that…”…saying this neil smirked & walked back…whereas kabir sat there all confused holding his cheek where i slapped…”…hell yeah….why did she slapped me thrice & neil twice….ouch….it hurts..is she superwomen or what…”….i chuckled a little seeing them like this…& went inside my room…hours passed…when suddenly door creaked open & neil came in….his eyes down….slowly…with short steps he came towards me….i scurried off & sat at d corner of d bed nervously…when he came & sat at my foot on his knees….a shocked gasp escaped my lips…before i could speak a word…he held his both ears like a kid ….still looking down…& in a sec he came forward with a jerk…& …he kept his head on my lap….turning his head other side…not meeting my eyes…a tear rolled down my eyes…& soon silent sobs raked down my body…….he could feel my trembling body….but he didnt say anything…..he sat their tensed….may be expecting me to push him away or may be something else…what ever it was he didn’t let it come out…he stayed still…….mins passed neither of us moved even a inch…neither said anything….when i moved my hand in his hairs & started carressing his hairs……his body relaxed …thats when i felt his tears in my lap……i stopped for a sec & soon my tears followed…. he let out a sigh…& turned his face towards me…looking straight at mine with his tear filled eyes…& said almost inaudibly…”…when i was small….whenever i used to do mistakes…& mom was angry…..i used to b like this….i used to keep my head in her lap…& she would take away all my pain….just by carressing my hairs…as if magic….just like an angel….”……as soon as he said that…i let my tears flow ….but i didn’t saw his tears again….we again felt silence around us….i kept carressing his hairs…& he sat there silently….neither saying sorry nor anything else…it felt he didn’t need to…his actions did…mins passed when he got up & sat beside me….”angel…we…we didn’t wanted to…but situations….”….unable to explain…he moved his fingers in his hairs & said…”….what we did radhu…it was neccessary…i can’t explain u….but it was…..u can’t even imagine what i wanted to do with singhaniya & when…”….he let out another sigh…”…i know u r hurt radhu….& u have every single right to b…i can’t explain my actions….but please trust me….i wouldnt break ur trust…ever…”….he again looked in my eyes & said…”…ever…”….another tear rolled down & i looked down moving my head lightly understanding him….”u know…kabir was so angry that i didn’t let him talk to u & anywhere around u….that he didn’t speak a single word to me all that time….& once he almost punched me in anger & frustration…”….neil chuckled & said…”…almost…”….”…but i got him first…”….saying this he winked at me & i chuckled….”…he must be coming in a while…”…saying this he again chuckled….thats when kabir came in almost running…”f**k…I’m always late….i knew…i f**king knew…..u would b here….neil….without me….u bastard…”….neil rolled his eyes & said…”….& who r u …my wife?…so i would take u every damn where with me…”……kabir wiggled his brow…..& came to neil doing cat walk….sat on his lap as if seducing him…& said in a weird tone…”ohhh…i would love that darling….”…saying this he brushed his finger’s on neil’s chest in an awkward way…..& wiggled his eyebrows saying…”…so at 8?…in ur bedroom?…”….as soon as he said that….neil pushed him on ground & started dusting his pants….said gritting his teeth…”idiot…”….”…ouch…..bastard….u could have warned me…u animal….ahhh…my bum…”….saying this kabir stood up….grogily….seeing this i burst out laughing loudly…..holding my tummy…”omg…kabir….”….saying this i again started laughing…..when i kabir whined & came towards me & suddenly pushed me down…”ouch…kabir”….i yelled…when kabir rolled his eyes & said…”now laugh princess….hehehehe….comeon….laugh…”….i stood up at once & started pulling his hair when…he said…”stop princess….stop….i don’t want to go bald….please princess ….ahhhh….stop yaar”…i stopped at once….& asked…”why did u do that…huh?”…he started moving back & said in a low tone…”u slapped me thrice…”…i looked at him stunned….& yelled all shocked…”what?…”…he flinched back & stuttered while saying slowly….”u slapped me thrice….& neil…u…u slapped him only twice….thats….thats not fair…”….my eyes bulged out….before i could process what he said…he ran away as if feeling tiger on his back…i stood there all dumb….when neil started laughing & muttered coming towards me…”…he left…..”saying this he also went out all laughing…..mins passed when i realised what actually happened…a groan slipped my mouth….”urrrgh kabir…”…..with that a small smile came on my lips…
hours passed & soon sky become all dark with small twinkling stars all over it….as if small shiny lights in a room full of darkness….leaning on d window grill….i looked out at moon….it felt enchanting….as if i couldn’t move my eyes away from it…it felt as if i was in trance…suddenly a pair of dark eyes flashed in my mind…it all came in a flash….d way he held my hand….d way he caressed my nerves….d way he spoke….d way he held me against him……rhythm of his heartbeat….his burning eyes….i stood frozen…..when i heard a husky voice in my mind …”…She is Mine…”…involuntary my eyes closed down….a surge of unknown feeling passed through me…..another moment replayed in my mind….”she is mine….to destroy…”….a slow tear rolled down my eyes reminscing his words……”am i just a deal for him……a thing…why doesn’t he just kill me”……tears flew down…mins passed……when a low sob broke down my lips remincing his eyes staring back at me …..with raw hurt…anger….somewhere sadness…a ping of unknown guilt washed over me……tears after tears rolled down….i cried for something i didn’t knew…..”why is he like this….why does he hurts me so much….why….”….mumbling with tears i looked up at moon….pleading with my eyes….it felt …..moon could understand my agony….my pain….& something….which i couldn’t…..
soon i went down for dinner after a long shower calming my nerves…..changing in a fresh pair of shorts & a loose top….when passing by the corridor i heard a distant growling….finding the room from where the faint sound was coming ….i twisted d knob in anticipation….taking slow steps with loud thud of my heart beats…..i came in …..& looked around in aww….this room was big….very big…..& lavish…there was this different but quite familiar fragrance all around……room spoke volumes of roughness….it was almost dark but there were low lights around….i turned a little to look around….when i heard a low bark….”tiger…”…a low whisper escaped my lips…..when he barked loudly and came on me running…causing me to flinch & move back a little….but he didn’t backed up….a slow smile made its way on my lips…..when he bowed his head down in front of me like a little boy ……without thinking for a sec…… i started scraping his head lightly…..causing him to growl lowly…..then he started nudging my stomach from his head lightly…as if telling me how much he missed me…..i stood there for few mins caressing him….when he suddenly started nudging me to move back……”tiger…” i whispered …..but he didn’t seem to listen & with another nudge i faltered on my legs…..& fell down on d bed behind my back……”ti….”…..before i could utter a single word….my voice died down in my throat…..feeling a hand on my waist caging me in….my heart started beating wildly……when i inhaled a different but quite familiar whiff of dry wood and earth…..with my beating heart …..i slowly turned my head around…….my heart skipped a beat…..eyes widened…..”….arjun…”….i heard a voice from somewhere deep down in me…..there he was…sleeping on his stomach….with his hand caging my waist…..his face just few inches away from mine…nervousness crept through me……my breaths came heavy………seeing him this close ……my mind went blank…..it was dark around….but with the dull lights i could still make out his facial outlines…..secs passed & i lay there frozen…almost unmoved….weight of his hand almost burning my body……suddenly a feeling of safety & home filled my heart….when my eyes slowly moved to his face….”mine..”….i heard a voice from deep within me………as if bewitched my eyes started following every feature of his face……his perfectly outlined jaw….his stubbled hard cheeks….his smooth nose….his dark brows would put any woman to shame….his hairs…dark & soft…..my fingers itched to feel there softness once…my eyes then stopped to his lips….his lips…..they seemed hard yet amazingly soft….i bit my lips hard & involuntary moved my eyes away…..then it fell on his eyes….his eyes….they were a diff story of its own….& his eyelids …..as if enchanted my fingers moved to feel his eyelids….d moment my thumb touched his eyelids…..unintentionally i started carressing them as if possessed…..my fingers froze when his brows furrowed a little….& in a flash ……he pulled me completely under him with a loud groan……almost putting half of his body on mine….his hold tightened on my waist ….& slowly his hand moved inside my top….all his movements stopped for an instance as if feeling my bare waist …..then his hold again tighetened on my waist …..my heart skipped another beat….when he started carressing my waist unknowingly….my breathing laboured…..my heart almost lurching to my throat….when i felt his upper half naked….my heart beat accelerated….feeling his hot body against my after shower cold one….& unconciously i fisted bedsheet tightly closing my eyes……as if feeling my loud heart beats…he moved….& snuggled his face in my still wet hairs….my breath stopped when almost unconciously he started inhaling my scent…..my eyes closed down of its own….a shudder ran down my spine……feeling a diff emotion building in pit of my stomach……..almost unconciously i wriggled against him…….thats when with another loud groan he put almost all of his weight on my body as if restricting my movements…….& then as if possessed man…..he tightened his hold on my waist …in next sec he started moving his face down my hairs……my hold tighetened on bedsheet almost tearing it….when i felt his nose skimming down my neck…….my body trembled when i felt him snuggling his face in my nape……my heart lurched feeling his breath there……my body …it again wriggled against his when he started carressing my waist with his thumb…..it all felt unreal…..when he mumbled unconciously…”…HOME…..LA MIA CASA….”…a soft sigh escaped his lips….when he again mumbled…”….SI SENTE COSÌ REALE….LA MIA PICCOLA REGINA….COSÌ REALE….COME SE SIETE QUI…NELLE MIE BRACCIA….DOVE VOGLIO TENERE VOI…TUTTA LA MIA VITA….NASCOSTI DA QUESTO MONDO INTERO…..ANCHE NEI MIEI SOGNI…..POSSO SENTIRE IL TUO BATTITI CARDIACI….VICINO ALLA MIA…MOLTO VICINO…..COME UNA NINNA NANNA DOLCE AL MIO SELVAGGIO PERCUOTERE IL CUORE…..IL TUO PROFUMO SEDUCENTE…IL SUO COSÌ AVVINCENTE…..CHE MI FA SENTIRE A CASA….IL VOSTRO RESPIRO…. OGNI SINGOLO SOFFIO ….SI MESCOLA CON IL MIO FACENDO UN DOLCE RYTHM…..COME SE WHISPERING NELLE MIE ORECCHIE…CHE SIETE MIEI…SOLO MIO AMORE…” & placed a soft kiss on my neck……..feeling his soft and warm lips there…..a loud gasp escaped my lips….thats when he pulled up a little …..his eyes bored straight in to mine with raw unknown emotion……he caressed my cheek softly …..in a snap i saw confusion in his eyes….as if he was in a dream….& then in next his eyes widened……
THIRD PERSON’S POV……(5 YEARS LATER)
“ma….ma”…..”bhere are u ma…”….raj came running to radhika’s room ….when he found her on bed in curled position….he jumped on the bed….& rolled over her to her front….then slowly lifting her hand he kept it around him….& snuggled close to her….feeling his mother close ….he smiled in content….& kept his tiny hand on her stomach holding her……mumbling….”my mother….only mine…”….& then kissed her cheeks….moving back he frowned…& muttered to himself…”momma is warm…..too warm…”…in a sec his tears flew down…”…is momma ill….?” ….in an instant he hugged her ……hiding his face in her chest crying loudly…..thats when radhika woke up….as soon as she opened her eyes …..a low groan escaped her lips….feeling body pain due to high fever….….then feeling raj ….she masked her face with a soft smile…..& kissing his head softly….she tried to pull him back….but he shook his head in negative against her all crying……then patting his back slowly radhika pulled her back smoothly……as soon as she pulled him back….he started wailing…his nose red…his eyes small & red…seeing him like this radhika felt pain in herheart….she took him in her lap…& then peppered him with soft kisses….slowly he stopped crying…& started hiccuping…….thats when radhika….carressed his face & asked lovingly…”what happened to my baby…?…hmmm?…”…..as soon as she asked tears started flowing down his eyes….now radhika got all worried seeing him like this….& soon started moving him back & forth in her lap to soothe him down….then she asked him again…”what happened baby….wont u tell ur mama….hmm?…”….but raj remained silent….after a sec or two…he looked up at her & said in a small voice…”…u r ill…& in pain…”….then crying he said…”…my mumma in pain….raj in pain..”…hearing him say that….unconsiously tears rolled down her cheeks…& she sat there frozen……thats when raj stood up in her lap staggering….coming up to her face ….he wiped her tears with his small hands & mumbled moving her hairs away from her face…”dont cry mumma….im here na….pain will shoo away…”….saying this he hugged her….& as soon as he did ….radhika broke down in low sobs….hearing her raj started crying & said…”dont cry na mumma….plzzz….dont cry….”….on an instant radhika hugged him tightly….after a min or two they broke away……something clicked in raj’s mind & he ran out before radhika could say anything…..
“dada….dada..”….raj ran to neil all crying in his office…..seeing him crying….neil went to him & kneeled down in front of him….as soon as he did…..raj ran to him & hugged him tight….snuggling his crying face in neil’s chest…..”what happened champ”…”neil asked rubbing his back to soothe him out….moving back a little …raj hiccupped….”mumma…pain…mumma …ill..”…saying this he again cried & hugged him tight…..hearing him neil panicked & asked….pulling him back by holding his shoulder…..”radhika……what happened to her raj…tell me…raj?…..”……..”mumma…mumma is warm….she is in pain…she is ill dada….help her dada….raj dont like this….mumma crying…..mumma in pain…raj in pain…”….without wasting a sec neil picked him up….& called doctor….he then went towards her room…..at her door he stopped unable to enter…..his hesitation clear as he knew radhika wouldnt want him anywhere around….”but she is ill..& nothing is more imp then her health…”….muttering this he went in with raj ….as soon as he went in his heart skipped a bit looking at her…..there she was curled up like a ball….tears flowing down her eyes….she looked pale…..almost lifeless….neil looked upwards to stop d tears which threatened to fall any moment….then holding himself together…he asked…”what happened…?”….hearing him she looked at him emotionlessly & as if a robot turned her face away….neil closed his eyes unable to bear d hurt….but then composing himself….he stood at d corner waiting for d doctor….after few min doctor came & checked radhika ….prescribing few medicines…..while going out he called neil to discuss few things….”what happened to her doctor vajra..?”….”neil….i know how conditions are with her…..but this is not good….she needs help……after raj came….she showed improvement….but now….she is again going towards depression…its like she doesnt have willingness to live….she is weak….her weight is reducing….& now this fever…….”….doc vajra let out a sigh & said patting neil’s back…”look after her…”….saying that he left…..but neil he stood there….frozen….it felt as if something broke inside him….again….he felt pain….everywhere …..as if struck by this pain……he staggered back…& then feeling anger, sadness, helplessness & frustration…he punched d wall behing him with all force….shouting loudly…..secs passed but he stood there leaning against the wall….then slowly he wiped his tears …& composing himself went in…..walking towards bed he picked raj up & made him sit near radhika…..then he took a glass of water & a tablet …..moving around the bed he put the same in front of radhika……but she ….just turned her face away….sighing …he muttered…”have it….”….when she didnt….he came around d bed….& forwarded tablet in front of her…he said…”plz have it…”…..when again she didnt ….he yelled loudly…”….dont u hear me damn it…..have it….”…hearing him raj started crying & in next sec started hitting him all crying….”dont yell on my mumma…..u r bad…so bad…”….saying this raj went to radhika ….& snuggled in to her all crying……radhika hugged his crying form and started soothing him…….when he went back to his normal self….she looked up at neil with blazing fire in her eyes……sitting up slowly she jerked his hand away making d tablet fall on d ground…..seeing this neil sat on bed tired…turning his face away …..in that single moment…..he felt helpless & tired….mins passed & there was silence complete silence…..when neil muttered softly….”…dont do this……raj needs u….you promised ang”….he stopped in between…”…radhika….u promised…dont do this….stop destroying urself……plz”…..when he didnt found any expression on her face he said softly & painfully…” ….raj is just like him….he wouldnt be able to live without u…he would ”….he choked in middle….”….for him….just for him….live….he…he loves u radhika….raj loves u…”….uncontrollable tears rolled down radhika’s cheeks but she didnt say a single word…..as if understanding few part of neil’s sentence…..raj stood up on his knees & said to her mumma…”…yes raj loves u….mumma is raj’s fav…raj dont need anything…not even icecream…..only mumma…” hearing him radhika again broke in to sob & hugged him tight….then looking at neil she nodded & had her medicines……again there was silence when radhika said…”baby….go with ur dada & sleep…”….to which raj nodded in negative…”i will shleep with u…”….radhika kissed him lovingly…& said…”not today baby…mumma is having fever na….mumma dont want raj also to catch fever….ok?….raj is mumma’s good boy na?…”…at this raj started nodding slowly…”….my good baby….go…& sleep with dada….gn….”….saying this she again kissed him soundly…
neil picked raj up….& switching d lights off he went out ….when they reached at d door raj asked him slowly so that no one would hear…”…dada what is this love….” hearing him neil froze in his steps…..looking at him raj said slapping his own head…”even u dont know….???…its ok…”then yawning he came down his hold & said…”im going to drink milk….then we will shleep…otherwise mumma would be angry on me….& i dont want mumma to be angry or sad…im mumma’s good boy….…”…saying this he sccuried away…..but neil he stood there in trance….turning towards radhika’s sleeping form…he let his tears flow freely & said in painful tone….”LOVE???……….LOVE IS DISTRUCTION…”…saying this he wiped his tears & walked away……
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TRANSLATIONS:-
** LA MIA PICCOLA REGINA SI PROVA DAVVERO LA MIA PAZIENZA…===> U Really Test My Patience Little Queen….U Really Do
** HOME…..LA MIA CASA…===> Home …..My Home
** SI SENTE COSÌ REALE….LA MIA PICCOLA REGINA….COSÌ REALE….COME SE SIETE QUI…NELLE MIE BRACCIA….DOVE VOGLIO TENERE VOI…TUTTA LA MIA VITA….NASCOSTI DA QUESTO MONDO INTERO…..ANCHE NEI MIEI SOGNI…..POSSO SENTIRE IL TUO BATTITI CARDIACI….VICINO ALLA MIA…MOLTO VICINO…..COME UNA NINNA NANNA DOLCE AL MIO SELVAGGIO PERCUOTERE IL CUORE…..IL TUO PROFUMO SEDUCENTE…IL SUO COSÌ AVVINCENTE…..CHE MI FA SENTIRE A CASA….IL VOSTRO RESPIRO…. OGNI SINGOLO SOFFIO ….SI MESCOLA CON IL MIO FACENDO UN DOLCE RYTHM…..COME SE WHISPERING NELLE MIE ORECCHIE…CHE SIETE MIEI…SOLO MIO AMORE …===> It Feels So Real….My Little Queen….So Real….As If You Are Here…In My Arms….Where I Want To Keep You…All My Life….Hidden From This Whole World…..Even In My Dreams…..I Can Feel Your Heartbeats….Close To Mine…Very Close…..Like A Sweet Lullaby To My Wild Beating Heart…..Your Alluring Scent…Its So Addicting…..It Makes Me Feel Home….Your Breath…. Every Single Breath ….It Mixes With Mine Making A Sweet Rythm…..As If Whispering In My Ears…That You Are Mine…Only Mine Love….
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