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My Little Queen (Shot 2)
I looked around casually just to see if anyone is noticing me,moving to her house…Luckily No..!! May be everyone were done with lighting and arranging lamps in their houses..Of course,its seemed to be a big task..,she literally spent an hour arranging lamps and relighting the blown off ones..I could see her balcony glowing bright and the Rangoli down next to my foot being decorated with more lamps..Ah..Lamps and lights everywhere..
‘c’mon Arjun..you can’..I said to myself and moved further into that apartment..
Well..its just a three storey building,not even like a apartment…but still she calls so…I found the steps to be too quirky to climb fast,her images of running in those flashed my mind..
I halted and saw the steps behind..,there are chances for her to roll down if she misses one step while hopping like a rabbit…She ran wearing that long skirt too…’Should warn her not to hop hereafter’,I decided and reached the 2nd floor..and saw her flat..It was closed,I immediately crooked a little and checked how far my balcony and my house can be covered from this view…Not bad.! She could get a good view….I saw the Rangoli she had done before her flat….Artistic..!!..She have a good choice of colors…Unconsciously I searched my mobile in both the pockets and clicked a pic on that Rangoli….The wooden door had a fancy paper decor hanging on either sides….Golden color rings kinda..I glanced it a minute…Yea..once she said she make those crafts herself..I smiled…This is how she will be decorating my house too..My house back in Goa…with bright colors and crisp decors…
As I crossed the next floor,I saw both the houses of that to turn shut..Good! I stepped ahead and closed the balcony door a little.,just to avoid any sudden disturbance…She hadn’t
spared the terrace too,the little wide terrace had few lamps on its handle facing the road and I went the other side to find her..She din’t get down after climbing the stairs..
I turned around,but was shocked with the sight before me….
There she stood with folded arms…and that guy Saral…he knelt before her with a rose…I was unable to react…I saw him..proposing in different ways and
her to smile at him..may be she is helping him,I thought..No…he pleaded her and Finally at one point she got the rose and clapped her hands and leaped to hug him….I turned around at that….I couldn’t hold that…I rushed to my home….
It killed me…her look,her smile…her blush looking me…why the hell?? I was so confident that she had feelings for me in spite of the cold relationship we had…I searched my cigarettes…Damn..I did quit for her….There it was..another better medicine….Rum!! I don’t want to..but no.,I sipped a little..I could see her to arrange more earthen lamps now…only her…It was getting darker and she collected the already arranged ones,those,throughout her place, to one balcony…few were blown off….she indeed had made the entire building to glow with lamps..all three floors….What was the need! ..There should be limits in moving with neighbors…what was the need to move like a family….Now…..its me…!! Who is suffering…I sipped again…
Her face was glowing along with the lamps and each time she smiled speaking to some one,I felt a thick pang of defeat to hit my heart…My vision got blurred with tears looking her smiling face…May be…may be …I don’t deserve her..I don’t…after the way I behaved with her every time snapping around,it was my mistake to expect her to love me…I could have been.,no should have been little polite with her..
Now what’s the difference it gonna make…The Rum wasn’t even half done,but my throat burned…It’s long time..I was trying to quit this too..I wasn’t even able to hold five sips…
My eyes still relished her every move!!….Feeling suffocated I shut the window and moved out..,Ah..Dad would have wine.! I began searching like a addicted fellow
only with the image of her lying over me…There was a champagne bottle…I made a quick move grabbing that bottle,for the room that reminded me our moments..
The bed !….the cupboard!….I descended fast sipping the drink..I locked the main door,and took the exterior stairs for our terrace…
“I have a work..Mom..pls..Shop anything of your choice”,I said irritated ,when my mom called me for Christmas shopping…This is something which we do as a family together…
but today I wasn’t in a mind to…Family…A family which became possible only because of her…Radhika!!
I starred the sky,reminiscing the past…the day I met her first….No..the very first day I got to know about her… My mobile beeped with Sam’s msg…Ten angry emoticons..I swiped it and opened the gallery..Gallery full of my family pics…My Family!!
2 years back….
I came here after my Masters in Business.,to invite my mom and sister for the inauguration of a new wing of our retail chain restaurant….To invite mom!! Sam!! They were here in Chennai…While we..,Me and dad stayed in Goa..That was a mutual agreement between my parents…My parents..Dad being a Christian and Mom being a Hindu married against their families will….breaking the religious barriers into pieces and glorifying their love alone…their love which had the power to withstand only 10 years…that’s how I would say….I remember,it was Samaira’s 5th birthday when my aunt,My dad’s sister Samantha Samuel stepped into our lives…The day I wish to erase from our lives….On her very first day of arrival itself.,she managed to create a unsolvable misunderstanding between my parents…Sam slept with tears watching my dad and mom to scold each other…My aunt being my dad’s baby sister.,did manage her best to break our family…All I could do was,only to watch.,plead.,cry..and at last console my sister…Days passed.,months but not a year..,they both came up with something called Divorce…All,me and my sister knew was.,we both aren’t going to be together.,no cute fights.,chasing.,water games.,and Sunday family lunch…I tried hard to explain my dad but it had no effect on him…
Apart from this.,he is a very good person..In fact.,a best dad! and my mom too..She is no less..She got a job and moved completing a valuable term of endurance…She was at no fault..I knew…!! But what’s the use..,they decided for a Mutual divorce..and even got it…We got chances to meet our parents in a swap mode..When Sam comes here.,I would meet Mom..they weren’t ready to have both children together..My Aunt showered unconditional,unnecessary love on me and one day Sam informed me about her being ill treated when she visits dad…Things went on its way.,until I listened My aunt and uncle’s plan for property..Ah..Just for the money..They broke our precious family…May be the separation gave a enlightenment I guess.,that my dad listened to my words against his own blood,for the very first time..
My Aunt planned another wedding for my dad.,which only added fuel to the fire.,and the moment which I awaited arrived…The final face off day of My dad and My aunt…She turned furious.,she spat venom.,and blurted her plans which left my dad shocked…and finally revealed that I was mentioned as legal heir in my grand father’s will…I was 13 years old then..My dad being too much engulfed with guilt said,he will not claim any of the properties.,and was ready to sign the No Objection Certificate..,only on one condition that she should reveal things to my mom too…how to believe a snake?
Even my dad signed but they asked me too..and that’s when I tore the papers…After all.,that lady deserves to rot in hell..How to gift a luxurious life??After the hell we went through for 3 years..I have no belief she will keep her word…My persistence made my dad to think…A mom is a mom! She will definitely listen me….Whats the need of an another lady in between us….My dad called her as ‘Satan’..I still remember me laughing hearing that..Even Sam called her once…
That Christmas.,was indeed a lucky one….Our family was free from evil../.We went to meet Mom and Sam….But Mom wasn’t ready to accept dad,back in her life..Her sufferings as a single parent and much more,leading a life as a single woman turned her against my dad….She believed he is responsible for all the insults she went through….Even my tears failed to get her back…After few months.,only because of us and for us.,they decided to be in talking terms..still.,It was the same.,Sam with Mom and me with Dad…We lived as a family only when we meet in vacations….Dad was allowed but Mom won’t speak a word with him…A Cold relationship…We were a family..broken into million pieces inside…There will be a complete silence,though we four dine in a same table..Hell !!….Dad at times used to scold Mom even at that situation…
When Sam was on her 12th grade they came to Chennai….12 years passed with a little progress on the same card…Dad and mom to respond in monosyllables to each other.. But.,there was a immense change in our behaviors..I,the exact replica of my dad’s anger and Sam of my mom’s tears…The one thing which never changed was our wish and
our belief to be back as a family….the real family.,what the word actually means…
All these years.,we did face,receive numerous advises for how to be a happy family,as though every other family had no quarrels.,only we had….I was fed up listening them,even from a day old friend of dad…One such day happened,when I came here.,after my Masters.,where a lady of this.,the same neighborhood advised my mom to give up her stubbornness for our sake..Stubbornness!! Really..What the hell the lady knew, she advised my mom…Being enraged I scoffed them and that’s when I heard a meek voice speaking with my dad…”Uncle please…Listen to me..”..
Have we become that worthless.,that a little girl advises my dad.,and for what….who the hell are they to worry about us….what they think actually.,poking nose into other’s family issues….I was about to scold but my sister spoke,”Radhu…leave na..dad won’t understand”..
Nonsense!!..My blood too,lost her sense..?!..She speaks in favor of a stranger….
“Shut up,Sam….there is no need for strangers to get inside our family issues..And better stop publicizing about our family…will you?”,I asked her high…
“And you..Get outta here.,now”,I spoke to her knelt down back..and walked away…
I thought its over..But not..I did listen her voice.,speaking one thing or another on a feeble note..What was the need?
“Sam..!!!”,I called high…”Don’t let passers by to take advantage of our situation..Later.,you may regret”,I said with a cigarette in my hand, stooping a little from the stairs..
“You smoke?”,My mom asked surprised…
“What else you expect.,when you stay away from me…Why did you punish us for dad’s mistake?”,I asked aloud and that’s the first day I raised my voice to her…
“Arjun..”,my dad raised a warning tone…
That was something new…but still I obliged..I moved in silence..only to hear the girl to say.,”Aunty..I said isn’t…If not parents who will teach morals to children..you should have been with Arjun”.
“What the F**k…God damn little minx…..Shut your mouth and get outta here…I should never hear your voice till I stay here”,I screamed at the top of my voice from the first floor..I waited to catch the glimpse of that girl.,when she comes to doorway..but No..she stayed the same place…
“Sam…Ask her to…”
“Arjun…will you stop it….Where is your manners? how could you speak like that”,my mom asked as she climbed the stairs and my dad came behind her…I was already drunk..what if my mom gets to know…Just 3 pegs..still..,I feared that,the smell would let me to get caught…
“She is Radhika..Sam’s bestie…and I know her for years…You shouldn’t have..”,she stopped looking me..I tried to avert my gaze… “Arjun..Look me”,her shocked voice was enough..I know she found me drunk… “you are drunk”,she asked with tears..”At home??”….
“I do that frequently Mom….We have no one there…”,I stammered a little but said as clear as I could.,expecting to have a change in them even at that minute…
“Samrat…What’s this? You left my son this careless?”,she accused my dad… Good!! They both conversed a lot..,and finally argued…
“My son?..Mom…Just now your remember me as your son..Why not before?”,I asked… She stuttered to reply…My dad came to her rescue..Again argument.,at one point when I raised my voice on my dad,my mom slapped me..First time..!! I wasn’t angry…but was happy.!!..
“Thank you Mom!”,I said with tears and hugged her when she broke into tears after a minute….I din’t know why she cried..but I too did…The same evening I saw Sam and the girl to speak.,I again scolded her for which my sister cried surprising me…
“Am sorry Radhu”,Sam hugged her…The double plaited, little girl.,turned to me.,but I turned my face in annoyance..How come someone could be this shameless!!…Radhu !!…this girl has already got taunted by me a month back…When I stayed here for 5 days..If not wrong.,everyday I did sarcastically remark about her visit here…..
I moved away…Minutes later.,when I went to convince my mom.,I heard her speak to my dad..,”They said.,being fatherless is a sin..”, My fingers clenched into fist…but what she said next…!
“I think….I have done a unforgivable sin in my previous birth….that’s why am fatherless…Its a living hell uncle..Please don’t give that pain to my friend….I have no rights other than one,that being the survivor of that hell…..What is our mistake?…Sam heard my uncle taunting me…If you leave her.,she will definitely ponder on those…She is emotionally challenged…She is already being teased as cry baby in college….Please uncle..A girl needs her father…at this stage….at every stage….till our death….we need dad…”,she sobbed…
I stood rooted,but heard my dad to sob hugging her..”Radhu..look me…who said so..you aren’t a sinner beta…”
I could only hear her muffled cries….My dad tried to console her..”Then speak with aunty…Stay with sam”,she spoke crying…
“That’s different”
“What’s different..Tell me..”,she cried…I could only smile a humorless one…Did she really think she could do something which I was struggling to do for years… But she did !!..
She spoke ‘God knows what’ in tears and did melt my dad and mom…”They call me and my mom as orphans”,she said at last….which silenced my dad and me too….
For a moment I feared,will those ridiculous neighbors and rest of the world address my mom and sister on the same note…
Next day…Sunday.!!..After a long time….We went to church as a Family….like a Real Family!!…Sam with dad and My mom in between me and dad…My dad promised and apologized with tears which made my mom to rest her head on my shoulders with tears…I was sure.!!..My Family won’t be a broken one anymore…Sam jumped in happiness and ran to the door…I stood dumbfounded looking the Lord before…Its been 15 years I stepped inside a church…Being in a place,where every street to have a church I never bothered to go or pray..Only because my faith on him was eroded..but today.,he did show me what a Miracle is..what he can do…When we all were silent.,he sent someone to speak….How come a stranger girl’s tears turned more valuable than ours,to my parents?…I had this doubt….I saw my mom….My dad helped her with his reading glass as my mom had left hers at home..They both scrutinized on our holy book…My dad to nod his head while my mom read it…She finished and they both prayed together..My wish! My wish!! I saw The Lord with tears..I knelt unknowingly..and bowed my head a little after a prayer..Asking forgiveness for my behavior….Thanking him..,and at last Feeling Blessed!!….
“So..will he come directly?”,I heard a girl of 5 years to ask a question after listening the prayer…
“Lord sent his angels for us”,an elderly man said..
“Do angels exist?”,she enquired and I turned to see that girl..
“Of course yes..I met yesterday”,My dad said and I raised my head to see my dad….but saw a girl in light yellow Saree,trying to cover her head..biting her lips,,and looking everyone with a fear and…and…confused look…
Her brown orbs halted looking me…She kept starring me and her features melted..I wasn’t sure why,until I felt my tears to cross my lids..I quickly wiped and got up….
“Am here isn’t..Stand beta..”,I saw my dad to hold her shoulder….She dared to look me now…
“Do they really drink wine at prayers..when I studied in convent…girls said so…”,she asked feeble and I saw a aunty to turn our side…
I couldn’t have a hold on my smile…but later wondered…Is she new here or isn’t a Christian itself…
“Radhu…Am gonna sing..Listen..okay…”,Sam said and ran to her group…
I was stunned…Is she Radhu….Radhika…!!
She stood adjusting her saree over her head,and smiling to Sam…Listening intently,to the songs..and finally she prayed our Lord…when she averted her gaze….Our eyes met….Mine surprised and hers shocked..I noticed the little stone bindi on her forehead…
“Where is your angel”,the girl in the elder man’s arm asked pulling my dad’s collar…I smiled…Stubborn kid..!
“Here”,My dad wound his arm on her shoulder..
“And she is a Naughty angel”,my mom corrected….
They laughed when she pouted,”Dont scold her pls”,I heard Sam’s voice as she passed behind me with few girls…
I gave Sam a mock glare and turned to my dad’s side only.,only to see her head to raise a little and her eyes to roll in fear,as she got to see me turn her side….
My God!!….What was that look for!!…Why did she see me like that!!..
“Careful”,we both turned our heads to see my dad to hold my mom’s shoulder when she stumbled…I saw Sam giggling like a kid standing afar..and passing a flying kiss to me…No..to her,who now stood behind me…
I turned a little and saw her mumbling something with closed eyes…Prayer! I smiled looking the Lord..
“Angel”,She turned to my side when the lil one called..and she smiled radiantly….she gave a quick glance sensing my stare on her…I smiled at her…while her eyes widened with surprise and lips pressed close in fear…
Arjun Fernandez.!!..your angel is here..!! I smiled bright at her..
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