Hello Everyone….Its Jessie here…..Thanks a ton for all of you…”Happy Republic Day”
As said…Its Radz POV on her Fernandez sir….Hope you all like it….Fingers cross.!! Pls dont forget to share your views….Many of you asked her pov..,so..I made it here…I mean even before the last chap….Next will be Impressed…then Sweet mistake…
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My Little Queen (Shot 9)
“Arjun Fernandez”,I peeped down a little,listening his name…Sam and uncle were in kitchen…I rushed downstairs and got the parcel of his name…”Ma’am you?”,he asked…I din’t reply just signed my name..that seemed to be some online purchase…..I placed over his bed….those large windows of his bedroom reminded me,our phone conversation.,we had yesterday…..”Arjun Fernandez..”,I glanced the name on that label…Wasn’t he Arjun Samuel Fernandez…I smiled recalling my Arr..Ferrrr…dialogue and his reaction….
and next moment his angry glare flashed my mind.,only to make me feel down…I had hurt him…!! I sat on his bed unable to control my tears.,thinking about him…
Arjun Fernandez.!!..whom I initially wished to be my brother.,well.,my wish din’t even last for an hour.,when I saw him scolding Sam..!! I never wanted such an angry brother…Still.,I liked him…Though he was angry he was good….He was a reserved person but,over protective on Sam….I rarely got to meet him and uncle.,only after my 12th exams I got to meet uncle…I felt he is so good.,not like what Sam feared to be..Though Aunty gave her the best.,Sam always had a long for her dad’s love…After all.,Being a fatherless child.,who could explain and understand the pain better….I saw myself,inside Sam,crying alone..staying silent with mom…This is so not done!! Only after she got to know that Uncle and Aunt were adamant and her brother Arjun is losing himself in smoking and drinking.,she lost her confidence….Sam had said the efforts he took to get their parents together…well..what would he too do….
Thats when I decided to speak.,and that day indeed was lucky..Uncle listened me.,things went well.,though he dint like my presence….he scolded me as “God damn little minx…”..continuously asking me to get out….I din’t care much…’cause Sam had mentioned about his annoyance,listening numerous advises..well…anyone would…that too for years…but I din’t expect him to smoke & drink at home itself.,and behave arrogant with his parents..and Aunty.,the ever sweet aunty..who used to smile listening his name slapped him….he faintly said “Thanks”..I still remember.,he turned his face.,when I tried to see him…So much angry on me!! Just a month back then.,he taunted me for visiting his house daily….I felt bad…being ignored by a stranger…!! but still..My friend Sam!! I spoke with uncle..may be the impact of his words and behavior I guess,that made me poured my heart out crying to uncle….What he knew.,why I loved to be here.,he passed comments!…I was so offended..My uncle called me orphan once…and that day he.,this Arjun called me stranger!…why fatherless children were treated so….Sam’s tears turned me determined..and yes!! My pain affected them…After all.,aren’t they parents?!!…Uncle kissed my forehead as Aunty spoke with him at last…When uncle asked me to accompany to church,just like I did once with aunty back in Ooty.,I only feared for him…!
But.,next day..when I stepped in that church.,I saw him praying…After all…A son he is!! But what…he was in tears…can someone like him.,love his family to this extent.,that he got tears in happiness…My God!! I felt blissful…!! He looked me unblinking,and a tear dropped unconsciously…I din’t know what he was thinking…but he appeared frozen….
I had never seen a guy like that…So much love for his parents…Happiness lead its way in the form of tears.,he looked angelic..how can person like him look angelic?…but he was!! His love for his parents expressed his worry….the all time defeated look was amiss….he smiled content..!!That day I wished someone like him in my life….why someone..?! him in my life…I was sure he will never hurt his girl….He caught me when I starred him dreamily…
What not I thought.,until I saw uncle to hold aunt when she stumbled…Sam rejoiced in happiness looking them…I wished,such a moment for my friend!!..I just prayed for their togetherness..,behind me he was standing…May be he won’t like me forever was the first thought that crossed my mind…but I never wanted to be in his bad books…Even after years.,If we get to meet.,I dint want him to look me like a trash or irritating girl….My love…My very first love feel.,which bloomed minutes back in that church.,had its end there itself when I saw him looking me…He din’t like me…!!
But after that day,I found him to notice me too….Though I decided that our relationship..,huh.!!,My wish had no chance to face its light.,my stupid heart,never left to beat on his name…I addressed him Arjun!! stupid of me..that too when aunty prepared Eggless cakes for me he said it was ‘someone’s favorite’…bad….too bad!! he…!! May be…he really din’t like me…!! He asked me,not to call by name !! I felt…my guess to be correct…Sam used to say.,My eyes express my feelings…what if he gets my love for him…Fearing that.,he may think me,even more cheap…I decided,to brother zone him…It was tough…still I said…”Arjun Bhaiya..!!…Sympathizing on my fate and luck.,I ran quickly.,but still continued with that…I almost avoided his name to spell..,only to keep myself away from uttering the word ‘Bhaiya’….
I never knew.,he got to know about my suggestion,of making him promise on holy book ,to quit smoking…..Gosh…!! that day.,he indeed blew smoke to my face…I felt my whole stomach to turn upside down at that.,still…when he imitated my reaction.,It was hard to control myself from smiling.,gulping down water.,I ran away….But…when I came back,Cigar packet was there in kitchen counter…..He was arranging table.,and I quickly hid inside my dress…Tackling Sam was a huge task.,but I noticed him to look me curious…well..why? I din’t understand then….,but later when he spoke with me he asked about it..,.Wasn’t he angry on me that day before…Mistaking that I broke Sam’s engagement…That day he again called me stranger…!!
In that one year..,every time when Sam said about his weekend arrival..an unexperienced excitement would take over my self consciousness…still.,I would run away when we meet unexpectedly..Irritated on myself for calling him ‘Bhaiya.’.,though I called him only twice….I never thought him in that angle….So..I was better being a stranger to him….
But..he called me now…to his home…I was stupid to think Sam mimicked his voice…..but he thought I too smoke…..I just tried without lighting the cigar…wonder how he got to see it…
..I went there only for my Sam.,and Neil…Neil…my sweet friend..he was cool,though I pestered him to clear the confusion….How sweet of him.,to fly down for Sam.,once the air got cleared…I called him Jiju..but Neil said I am like his sister….I felt good.,lucky for Sam…Out of the blue.,this angry bird apologized…thanked…I would have fainted if Sam dint call me…That was the first time,he smiled at me.,and asked to speak..what would have I spoke…when I had a doubt of,how to call him…No ‘bhaiya’ again..! that killed me…Arr..No.!!..Fernandez sir…as he said a day before….But with Frrr,I ran off as my savior Sam called me….But.. he gestured me to come!.. God!! Neil was singing for antakshari..I tried to leave…But again got caught when Aunty asked me to pack muffins…Feeling his gaze on me..I quickly packed my cakes..but when and how.,he came before me extending his hand for friendship.. after…teasing me.,that I too smoke…I still remember…how he said Fernandez…when I spelt my name…
Tilting his ear a little to my side,he gazed me intent…His sharp nose..eyes..and above all a manly closeness for the very first time in my life…..the man who I admired a year back..still was admiring.,stood few inches away from my face….”Radhika”,I said feeble
“Fernandez….” he finished….and pushed a banana muffin in my mouth…Thank God.!!.,he left that place,else how would have I hid my blush…listening him….
I was quite confused with his behavior..but when he hugged me on last Christmas.,I felt my world to spin…and..and..he played hitting me as I lit candles..
He wasn’t angry when a person misjudged us as a couple….I was dumbstruck.!! Was he the same person,who could never withstand my presence….he turned jovial..quiet…above all,he dint scold me….even then.,I dared to step beyond hall,if he was at home….he indeed wasn’t angry when I threw Colors by mistake,when I stood covering his dress from being colored….but appreciated me when I shared sweets…!! One more surprise…he who had no belief in God,then.,accepted sweets for Janmashtami !!…
Still…he dint quit smoking and drinking…at times I get to notice him and clicked pics…though Smoking is injurious to health,I just love the way he has his cigar in-between his teeth,while cooking…cleaning his bike…and..and…when playing Piano,finding solace in music….I couldn’t hold myself,when I saw him playing piano.,I quickly clicked few pics….I wasn’t sure.,if he would love me..or whether I would marry him…but I had This unexplainable desire to be with him!…always around him.!!.
When he cornered me near kitchen.,I moved in confusion,only to get slipped and land in his arms….God..!! How embarrassing!!…he may get me as melodramatic one…but he was cool….I dint realize the depth of my love for him until that day.,when Vicky said about his accident…I left my Tancet exam and rushed to hospital..Only to see him in semi conscious state….we covered up for his family that bike had a fault…but…I knew he was drunk…!! what not lame excuses I gave for my mom’s inquires,as I lied that I missed my hall ticket.,and rushed to my bed..only to get my sleep disturbed with his images of lying hurt….I wasn’t convinced until,I prayed for him,in his room…like Aunty used to do for patients in hospital….In that one year…I hardly spoke with him…with lotssa hesitation.,finding him asleep..I wished for his wellness…..I got to know.,am seriously in love with him..but…I can never say to him…to his face…he may think me cheap..for proposing my bestie’s brother….is that why I come here…? I knew he may ask one like that….
“Get well soon…Ferr…Arjun!!”,I mumbled with tears..here.,this same bed of his….!!! Where he lied and I stood…..!!
Life brought a big twist,when I went for one of our relative’s marriage with mom…!! Huh…relatives…that was the first time.,we were invited, ever since my parents love marriage…
None had a thought to visit us or support,even after they got to know,about my dad’s demise….Receiving unexpected kindness and respect,from my uncle my mom forgot all her past,where she was ditched by her own family….Ram!! My uncle’s son…! He just made my mom feel elated with his concern,..he behaved cool,just like friends,and that one week he was my only source for all things I need to get.,do.,ask……Unaware of what was coming up,I was happy with this new found friend.,till I heard them decide my marriage with him…..
‘Arjun…with his cigar blocking me in kitchen’ was the first image to cross my Mind hearing the word Marriage!…..My untold love for that emerging business man bit dust,when my mom saw me with a smile….seeking my opinion…just like Ram..!! Arjun will never love a girl like me…and if its me…he will not even share a glance….I accepted their decision….. they exchanged vows orally….but when his mom asked about something.,they did engagement…
Ram held my hand,when he came to drop us in railway station…he dint even sense my uneasiness…but his touch was prickly to tolerate….That day.,when I stepped inside my home at early hours,I felt the emptiness,my dad’s absence had crafted.,in my life….his commemoration was going on,when Ram forwarded few pics of sarees..,uncaring about my situation and feeling….
“Its 13yrs.,after your dad ..and don’t say such lame excuses…”,he said when I received his call…What if its 13 yrs…A loss is a loss..that too I had lost my dad!! I turned but I saw Arjun…!! Was he here,! Surprisingly he gesture asked about me standing in his portico….Should I be happy that my one sided love interest had a concern on me….Bottling up my emotions,I shook my head….the moment my mom retired for rest,I ran to terrace to spend time in solitude…,but ended up pouring my pain to Sam….
“Are you in love with someone..”,Sam asked listening me….
Re-analyzing my words to her,I retorted but she was adamant…true soul sister she was…the immediate thought of her reaction if she gets to know about my love for her brother,
shook my soul…I would have said about my engagement to her,if only..he wasn’t there…watching me from his terrace….
My mom startled me with her VRS news…and shared about her plans for my marriage…..if my dad.was alive.,may be I wouldn’t have been cornered like that,wouldn’t have been a victim of indirect emotional threatens….too many thoughts disturbed my mind,’with a imagination of my dad being alive’.,which halted with one thought,may be I would have been strong enough, to not to fell for the one who insulted me as Stranger….Yes..He insulted me!! …Happy with the reason,I found to convince myself,I fueled it,only to control me from looking and speaking with him….he only asked friendship.,but I was too weak to befriend with my love….!! My love…! Never… exactly 2 months back…I decided….Never!!..
I was glad with his irregular visits here..but learnt that he had tough time with some deals….his pictures and few of his things I had in my memories folder helped me at times…but I can’t see those,if I get married….Till that cracker I threw, burst before his face,I wasn’t aware he was home on Diwali…His finger lowered when kids looked me….he wasn’t angry on me when he saw kids in his hall…but smiled!…the more I want to and I must,forget him…I fell for him.!!…..
Yesterday….my self control,to not to glance him,flew away when I saw his steps to retreat…but he was there in his balcony…smiling…addressing me by name..asking me to call him.”Arjun!”..once I yearned to…but.,not then….still..his smile.,his eyes.!!….His ‘Something different’ behavior,of past few days seemed to have sense..,when he allowed me to have lamps on his compound….
Once again I embarrassed myself,colliding and landing atop of him…its just 2 months we may be here…I dint want any new problem because of me….he brushed away my answers.,but asked me to get a dress for his dad though I hesitated…Standing behind me….!! So close that my black hit with his front…his breath to fan my neck…and every time when he leaned to hang the dress back to its place.,his proximity teased me,my self control….I shouldn’t have stepped in….What sort of behavior was that?…he had never been so…so close to me…!! Surprisingly..he asked me to choose a dress for him…that too for something important.!..Black,his fav..I chose.,but.,he wished for another choice..and I unconsciously said one of my fav color…I have lots of dress in that color..and…he too has it…I know…He was breathtakingly handsome when he got down in light lavender color shirt with his sea blue shades and now…that shades is with me..!!..
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“Radhu….Radhu….”.Sam’s voice broke my chain of thoughts…… I din’t know.,when she came there..,but she glared me…I walked out of his bedroom….
“Smiling like a idiot…?? Did he propose you?”,Sam asked….
My brows raised in surprise listening the word proposal….No one in this world.,would have proposed like him….All because of that idiot Saral…I came here to pluck a rose.,only with a belief.,that he left for Christmas Shopping…but.,he was there drinking…din’t he give his word !!…His constant sip of that drink irritated me more than his question about Saral….He indeed scared me holding my wrist….For first time!! then holding my waist…!! questioning my concern…
“Is my love that invisible ?”,he asked knocking my day lights off…Love!!…his love?..he loved me?!…and Invisible..means….before I could steady myself.,he called me Sweetheart…Endearment!!…to me.,that too,From my love..!!.
“Am I that bad”,he asked again…’who could say he is bad’…but I did say few minutes back then.,to get off from his hold…but why should it affect him?….His lips smothered mine.,my breath,the next sec.,shutting down all my confusions…wasn’t that my first kiss.!! His hand on my back.,spreading heat waves,penetrating my silk fabric.,to every cell of mine….I did shook my head when he asked if I love him…then???!! I never knew.,what happens with a kiss.,until his tongue played inside my mouth….I thought it was over.,when he pulled back.,but no…he asked me to speak up…ah..how.?…No!!…Saying about some Christie.,he asked Will I love him if he quits smoking….
Astonishing me with his sudden encounter.,he proposed me!..the words which I thought I would never hear from him…He said. that….“I love you sweet heart”…,He again claimed my lips.,me !!…that moment…I wished to kiss him back.,but no..he turned it hard…and lifted me a little…I looked down to see his face.,his eyes..which expressed immense love and desire…Chillness of the wall on my back startled me.,but again…again..he kissed me for 3rd time..this time.,too close…His grip on my waist send shivers deep inside me and I felt my stomach to turn empty as he deepened his kiss….his groan alerted me!! Gosh!! I wasn’t able to hold anymore.,he turned me crazy on him.,that I let him play as he wished….semi dazed….more like half conscious….I could hear and feel every move of him,buried inside my middle…but still wasn’t able to react until he rubbed my thighs a little..easing me…how did he get that…!!
“You din’t love me isn’t”,he smiled at his mock…What he did to me? Am I not engaged to Ram…?and why….
“Did you cry?”,he asked…and proposed me..addressing me as his little darling…Why am I little…If am his darling…??….But he was curious to know the reason for my tears…even then…he proposed again…Trying to make me realize he wasn’t playing or drunken…but…What was I doing?…The more I brushed away his proposal.,he said it again…
“You.Are.My.Little.Darling!…Only mine!!”…he said,straight to my eyes,after doing my blouse hooks….I wasn’t even aware when and how he unhooked…I was so affected with him..!! which was not a good sign for my sobriety….good that his mobile rang…I rushed to my home…Just then I realized my phone and keys were there..back in his terrace….His unexpected hold on my wrist,cost my phone life….I just sat on my stairs….but he did come again.,to convey Sam’s message for me….
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“Radhu…you gone full crazy….am scared with your frequently changing expressions..”,Sam sat next to me.,pulling me back from my reverie again… “You are blushing…grinning…worrying..girl..are you okay?”,Sam shook my shoulders…
Was okay until your brother did his love stunts…I glared her with those words in my mind….
“What.?..you din’t come down..to kitchen…staying here…”,Sam pushed a piece of apple inside my mouth… “What were you doing?”,she asked…
–Reliving my proposal moment— My mind played its voice musical…..!! Thankfully…Sam was busy watsapp’ing with Neil…Neil- a gentleman.,he din’t even touch her until their engagement….but this Arjun…as though he had no enough of,what he did here.,he tried the same at my home too…Bad boy!! Pushing me inside.,hood winking me.,locking the door…Ah…what not he did yesterday….wished to lit lamp with his lighter..!! how does such things cross his mind..?? But,he was on same note..asking my word….I never expected him to love me so deep.,that he pleaded me even after scaring me in bed…’15 mins.,I won’t be hard..Let’s get over with this’….
Not even in my wildest dreams I expected something like that..of pressing his hand on my belly saying.,I will come to him at least for our kid…,Even after that nerve racking moment.,I was relaxed when he said.,he would leave..but No..!! He made me confess my fear and love altogether..and again…
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“Why do you jerk..Radhu…whats wrong…Bhai will ask me..”,Sam pulled my chin to face her…Sam…!! I did wonder when she got to know about my love.,that she held my hand confident,yesterday…
“Sam…how you know?”.,my words trailed off,with her smile…
“I know it baby…Janmashtami…!! Bhai..appreciated your culinary skills.,then you learnt cooking chicken…and he relished your preparation all alone..I noticed all this..I guessed you wont open up…’coz of religious differences…I said to mom….she was so happy but we were worried only about Bhai and his anger…but never expected this…I indeed thought he will leave this.,when you rejected his love,to his face..but No!! he made you to confess before us…Radhu!…you know what,Neil texted now…’Parents will not be happy with children sacrificing their happiness..that too for Parent’s sake….it will inturn be a burden for them’….He is right…!! Aunt said about your engagement…Dad assured he will look into it..but Radhu..don’t say to Bhai…he will turn hyper…I tell you.,he is damn possessive…you too should have got to know it…he gave you his chain,indirectly conveying his right
on you,before our parents…He is like that!! So…”..she stopped hearing a sharp noise…Some keys landed forcefully on dining table….His car keys!!
“Oh…Bhai came…he dislikes eatables here”,Sam pushed those apple pieces in hers and rest in my mouth before I could protest.,and ran downstairs…When I was about to hold her.,I saw him to glare me from there,sipping water….
Dining table and chair only reminded me about our moments….Was he the same person who admired my face.,sitting in chair before me.,claiming my every cell in his control kissing me deep.,and made to feel the pleasure of mutual involvement in a kiss…who understood my plight without a single word or look from me and took the lead.,made everyone to bend to his will….
“I told you not to throw keys..Arjun..stop this habit”,I saw uncle to scream from kitchen…
“Sorry..”,he said looking me and took the stairs…his gaze on me..but I could read nothing from his eyes… “Chew well.,don’t swallow the one you have stuffed inside”,he pointed my cheek.,when I was about to step inside his room..
Yes..He is!!..he is the same person.,who understood my love for him.,without any confession..,even after my repeated retorts…Each time he proposed,I only had my step back…
Dint he say,that I love him…when I said our moments to be a mistake….If he can get my love then he can get my problem too…he has to…!!
Chewing those apple pieces as fast I could,I stepped near his door….Though,I was irritated on Sam for pushing those fruit pieces in my mouth.,now am not,for.,that made him to look and speak with me..more over,the sweet fruit spread its nature to my mind too…He came from washroom.,but din’t speak a word,though he saw me….So what…?
“Fer…Arjun..!”,I called him…He dint respond…I Know,I wasn’t feeble…the nerve of this Fernandez sir..!! Yes..He asked me to call so..why should I stop it…but not now!!
“Arjun…”,I raised my voice.,and he turned my side…
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