Hey its afanficwriter, my kriyyam ff is called Love,an escape. Cover photo credit goes to its editor but unfortunately I’m not sure who that is but I haven’t made it. A yuvani special will be coming tomorrow hopefully for those interested. A little holi present for you all, please please please comment! And ignore my bad hindi. Happy Holi and love you loads!
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It’s very early in the morning and Krishna comes in to her bedroom with a plate of colour in her hands. She sees Sayyam still sleeping and a small smile magically appears on her face. She goes over to him and kneels beside him. She can’t help but admire him, he looked absolutely borable with his pinkish nose, tossled hair and slight innocent smile.
Krisnha- Sayyam… (She whispers sweetly, her brath causing his hair to fly a little.)
His face scrunches up cutely like a child but he doesn’t wake up, she becomes playfully frustrated at his antics.
Krishna- Oi sayyam ke bacche uto! (She yells a little louder in to his ear startling him.His eyes shoot open immediately.)
Sayyam- What is it pagal ladki? (His eyes are round in absolute suprise.)
Krishna- aaj holi hai na? Aur hum pati patni hai na? [Today is holi right? And we are husband and wife?] (She smiles suggestively, hoping he understands.)
Sayyam- haan tho? [Yes so?] (Krishna huffs in frustration at his cluelessness.)
Krishna- so we should apply colour to each other first… (she grinned like a child.)
Sayyam purposely puts on a stern face because in reality he was extremely afraid of his falling in love with her.
Sayyam- mujhe in sab mein koi interest nahi hai thank you. [I’m not interested in all this, thank you.]
Krishna feels a little hurt at his ignorance but she tries to hide it and be a little bolder like living with him has taught her to be.
Krishna- pakka? [Sure?] (She holds out her pinky with a suspicious smile. He rolls her eyes at her childish antics but inside feels drawn to her cuteness. He links his pinky with hers.)
Sayyam- haan. Pakka. [Yes. I’m sure.] (She stands and shrugs with a nonchalant smile.)
Krishna- teek hai, phir mein Yuvaan ke paas jah rahi hoon. [Okay, then I’m going to Yuvaan.] (His muscles suddenly tense up and he frowns. )
Sayyam- Kyu? [Why?](He grabs her wrist quickly and pulls her to sit beside him on the bed again.)
Krishna- Well you dont care about all this, so I’ll go and apply colour to Yuvaan first and then everybody else. (She smiles little as she sees the affect this had on him.)
Sayyam- Yuvaan pehele kyu? [Why Yuvaan first?] (She tries to move her hand from his but his possessive grip had become even tighter. Krishna finally moves her hand.)
Krishna- bus aise. tumhe vaise bhi koi parvah nahi hai na? [Just like that. You don’t care anyway right?] (She gets up and hides her proud smile and begins to leave.)
She is walking out when her eyes become round is surprise. Sayyam had stood up and he pulls her in to his chest, tightly gripping to her waist. He stares in to her eyes and she can see his eyes blaze with incomplete longing. He dips his fingers in the colour she holds and slowly and gently strokes the colour down her face his touch raising every hair of her body. The colour was a mix between pink and yellow, it was extremely unique, just like their relationship. He brings his face inches away from hers.
Sayyam- khush? Abhi tumne kahi jahni ki zarowat nahi hai teek hai? [happy? Now you don’t need to go anywhere okay?] (he whispers huskily, making her breathing uneven, she nods nervously)
He storms out of the room, suddenly stifled by restless emotions.
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Suhani and Krishna hang garland around the room, making the room shine with colour. Sayyam walks through the living room, to get his breakfast.
Suhani- Aree beta! (She caalls out for her son and he looks up at her in concern.)
Sayyam- kya hua [what happened] maa?
Suhani- Can you help krishna the rest of these garlands? I have to go the market to buy some more colours, okay? (She gets off the stool to get ready to leave.)
Sayyam worriedly thinks of the men who make excuses of applying colour to misbehave with women.
Sayyam- Nai maa, aap mat jao… [no maa, you don’t go] I’ll go and come. (His concern was reflected in his voice. Krishna smiled to see how much he cared for his mother.)
Suhani- Are you sure you want to take the trouble beta?
Sayyam- Isme khonsi trouble maa [whats the trouble in this], let me go.
Suhani- teek hai beta [okay] (but she still sounded a little hesistant) thank you.
Krishna- Suhani aunty how will Sayyam bring it all by himself, should I go?
Suhani- (She knew of the dangers and sounded very worried.) beta mujhe nahi laktha [I don’t think] –
Sayyam- koi zarohot nahi [no need] Krishna. Im going. (His heart had sped up a in worry but the coldness in his voice hurts Krishna.)
He walks out.
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Sayyam is walking through the bustling streets of Allahbad when he senses somebody behind him, he turns around but nobody is there, he turns back around but raises an eyebrow in suspicion.
Krishna comes from behind a stall where she was hiding and carries on following him. He turns around again to catch who he thought was tailing him. His eyes turn as round as saucers when he spots her.
He storms toward her and grabs both her hands, his concerned anger radiating off him.
Sayyam- pagal hogaya kya? [have you gone mad?] What were you thinking budhoo!
Krishna- I just wanted to help you! (She pouted cutely like a little child which unknowingly melted his heart.)
Sayyam- (He used a softer sweeter tone of voice.) It can be dangerous out here… now come quickly, lets buy the colours and leave. Stick close to me. Okay? (She nodded with a small smile, realising his care. She begins walking beside him but still a little too far for Sayyam’s reassurance.) Usse bhi kareeb aao Krishna, (He eyes the men around them protectively.)
Krishna comes closer to him and holds his upper arm with both her hands, pressing up against him, feeling safe and protected. Sayyam becomes a little startled at her proximity but suddenly becomes a lot calmer. He tres to hide how he feels happier having her near him.
Lady on the street- Hai, hai, hai! Itni pyaari si jodi, bhagwan aapka bhale kaare [Such a cute couple, god bless you] (Kriyam realise how close they are and become uncomfortable. Sayyam looks to the ground, pink rushing into his cheeks. Krishna also becomes flustered but thanks the lady awkwardly.)
People play holi around them, splaterring them with colour. The smell of bhaang is strong in the air and contagious happiness engulfed everybody around them. A man ran at krishna with handfuls of green colour. Sayyam spots him coming closer to his wife and heimmediately starts walking faster, instictive wrapping his arm around Krishna’s waist protectively. Krishna looked up at him but he looked straight ahead, but he was close enough for her to hear his racing heart of worry, she smiled a little.
They reach the shop but they then see that there is a huge queue. Sayyam looks around with care in his eyes at Krishna who looked worn out and exhausted, he led her to bench.
Sayyam- idhere chup chap beto, jab tak mein wapas nai aata , hilna mat. [sit her quietly, ad till i come back, don’t move] Understand? (he spoke sternly but caringly, like you would to a child.)
He leaves to complete his work, Krishna looks around hesistantly, feeling uncomfortable without Sayyam. A man approaches her but she tries to look away and ignore him but he carried on nearing her. He stands infront of her and smirks.
Man- hey chamak challo, humare saath holi kelunga? {Hey beautiful girl, will you play holi with me?]
Krishna- mujhe koi interest nahi hai. [i’m not interested.] (She shifts uncomfortably and fiddles with fingers and prays for sayyam to return. )
Man- maaf kijiye darling, yeh ek savaal nai tha…{Forgie me darling, it wasn’t a question.} (he grabs her hand by the wrist and begins to drags her.)
Krishna- (Krishna yells out in fright.) Sayyam! Jaldi aao [Come quickly] sayyam please!
The man takes her to a deserted corner. He presses her up against the wall roughly.
Krishna- Sayyam! Mujhe meri sayyam chaiyiye! Bachao! [I want my Sayyam! Save me!]
The man places her hand on her mouth to forcefully silence her.
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Sayyam walks back to the bench holding the packets of colour. His heart skips a beat when he doesn’t see Krishna there, he drops the colours on to the floor in shock.
Sayyam- (He yells desperately, straining his voice.)Krishna! Krishna!
He looks around frantically.His eyes turn watery in restlessness as he is trying to dissmiss the awful scenarios that pop up in his head.
He suddenly spots a trail of the pink and yellow mixed colour that he remembers streaking across her face. He sprints in the direction it followed, faster than he ever had before.
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Krishna’s eyes were squeezed shut as terrified tears spilled from them. She flails and kicks at the man but the man’s hand approaches her filled with colour.
She opens her eyes as she is freed from the man’s grasps.
A infuriated Sayyam is beating the man repeatedly being completely unaware of his actions. He was blinded from rage, his eyes watering in pain.
Sayyam- What the hell did you think you were doing! Tu meri Krishna ke saath badtameezi karunga! Meri Krishna ki saath! [You will do this with my Krishna? My Krishna?] (His eyes were bloodshot with rage but before he could hit him again the man sprints away.)
Krishna breaks down in tears, suddenly feeling like she was going to fall to the floor. She felt utterly lost.
Sayyam runs over to her and holds her up before she gives way to the floor with extremely scared eyes. He immediately takes her limp body into his arms and hugs her tightly. He closes his crying eyes and kisses her head repeatedly, as if trying to reassure himself she was there.
Sayyam- Im so sorry, this is all my fault. What was i thinking? Oh my lord. (His voice was broken and chaotic and he weeped with guilt.) Krishna, mujhe maaf kardo please… mujhe maaf kejiye [Krishna, forgive me please, forgive me..]
The previous words of the man ‘maaf kejiye darling, yeh savaal nei tha…’ echos in her mind, haunting her. She drops to the floor in frightened agony, hugging her knees like a child sobbing in fear. He watches her and cant controll his tears in horror at her state.
Sayyam- aagao hum ghar chalte hai Krishna {Come, lets go home Krishna…}, I’m not letting you stay here a second longer. (Krishna refuses to move lost in her pain, more tears spill from his eyes as his heart aches with guilt, anger kicks in to his veins.) Mein vadha karti hu Krishna … mein us admi ko maar doonga. Maar doonga mein us ghatiya insaane ko! Aao Krishna! [I promise Krishna… I will kill that man. I will kill that disgusting man! Come Krishna!] I dont like you being here!
He realises that she is too traumatised to move and lovingly lifts her in to his arms. He walks home and Krishna’s head was nuzzling in to his shirt for comfort.
He walks in to the Birla House to see utter chaos. The family members were searching around with worried faces and even two police officers stood were present in the room. Suhani turns to see them and sighs in staggered relief.
Suhani- He bhagwaan! Sayyam beta, tu aur Krishna mujhe dhar se maar dala… Krishna gayab hogaya tha… [Oh my god! Sayyam, you and Krishna scared me to death… Krishna had disappeared.] (All the family members look around and see them in relief. )
Suhani then notices Sayyam’s torn clothes and blo*dy and muddy hands and his tear streaked face and then the weeping Krishna in his arms.
Suhani- (She ran toward them.) Krishna!? Sayyam kya hogaya tum dono ko… [hat happened to you both] (Sayyam stood not knowing what to say, knowing it would bring back bad memories to her) Chup kyu hu! Bol do Sayyam, bolo! [Why are you silent? Tell Sayyam, tell!] (her lips tremble in worry, she grabs on to Yuvraj’s arm in worry, who is just tensed as her.)
Krishna- Daidu… (An almost silent broken whisper left Krishna’s lips.)
Yuvraj- Krishna! (He ran toward her in concern.)
Krishna- sayyam… sayyam mujhe aandar jaana hai. [I want to go inside]
Sayyam- Haan Krishna, hum abhi jaonga [Yes Krishna, we will go now] (he rushes inside to their bedroom, Suhani and Yuvraj both try to follow them but Bhavana holds both their hands to stop them, indicating to let them be alone.)
Sayyam tenderly places her on to the bed in her room , and watches her with watery eyes.
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Sayyam explains what happened, a lump of pain in his throat as he tries to speak.
Suhani’s face was absolutely horrified and filled with shock, she was silenced for a few seconds in shock.
Suhani- Krishna… meri krishna. Krishna meri tarah hogaya Yuvraj! [Krishna… My Krishna. Krishna became like me Yuvraj!] (Her voice turns from a whisper to a scream. She hugs Yuvraj and sobs, he’s also crying badly.) This is all my fault! I was meant to go to the market, it was meant to be me. Im so sorry.
Sayyam- He is crying at his mother’s state, feeling guilty and hurt that memories of his dad has become fresh in her mind.) nahi maa, aisa kuch nahi hua [no ma, nothing like that happened.] I arrived before-
Yuvraj- its okay Sayyam, I’m with her. (He held the crying Suhani to his chest.) Abhi Krishna ko tumahre sahara zarowat hai, uske paas joa. [Now Krishna needs your support, go to her.]
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Sayyam walks in to see Krishna weeping and about to slit her wrist with a fragnent of broken glass.
Sayyam- KRISHNA! HAVE YOU GONE INSANE!? Kya bakwaas hai yeh!? [what the hell is this?] ( He was screaming defeaningly. He sounded extremely desperate.)
He runs toward her and tries to grabs the glass off her. She pushes him away from her with pained eyes.
Sayyam- What are you doing?! (His raw eyes were stinging with hurt.)
Krishna- mujhe nahi jeena hai! [I don’t want to live!]
Sayyam grabbed her arms and stared at her in undescribable rage.
Sayyam- Pagal hogaya hai kya?[Have you gone mad?] Nothing like that happened!? Will you give up your life for that disgusting man!
Krishna- Usne muje daag diya! abhi koi mujhe issat ke saath nai dekhenga, koi bhi mujhe pyaar nai karoonga! Mere paas kuch bhi baccha nahi hai Sayyam! [He stained me! Now nobody with look at me with respect, nobody will love me! I have nothing left!]
He looked at her helplessly with tears in his eyes, thinking how to describe to her how he felt, what she meant to him.
Without a second thought he takes her face into her hands and locks lips with her. He kisses her soft lips with every word of his love lingering on his lips. He shocks her out of her trance, making her look straight into his intense eyes, he takes the glass and throws it away.
Sayyam- Never do that again! Mein tumhe kabhi nai choodunga,chaiya kuch bhi ho! Tu meri hu, chaiye kuch bhi ho! Mein tumhe pyar karunga, CHAIYE KUCH BHI HO! SAMJHI!? [I will never leave you, no matter what! You are mine, no matter what! I will love you, NO MATTER WHAT! UNDERSTAND!?]
Krishna’s smiled as she cried at the emotions in his voice, he had told her exactly what she needed to hear. She threw her arms around Sayyam and hugged him tightly, clutching on to his shirt. Sayyam hugged her back, stroking her hair. He sighed in relief, and gripped tighter as if he was scared she would slip away.
Krishna- I love you too Sayyam, i love you so much. (He couldnt controll the tear that fell from his eyes and his smile of pure joy as he heard this.)
He gently caresses her face and lifts it to meet him.
Sayyam- uss admi ko bul do. Ab mein tumhe ek centimetre bi door nai hoone doonga. [Forget that man. Now i will not let you stay a centimetre away from me.] (Krishna smiles a with a little mischief.)
Krishna- Sacchi?[really?] (He nods with a sweet smile, her voice becomes cheeky.) Then am I too far now?
Sayyam- haan. (He smirks and wraps his arms around her waist and pulls her against his chest.)
Krishna brings her lips inches away from his, she can feel his warm breath sweep across her skin. She loops her arms round his neck and she looks up at him flirtatiously through her long eyelashes.
Krishna- now, close enough? (she whispered seductively, making Sayyam grin. )
Sayyam- nahi baba… (he slowly rests his face in the nook of Krishna’s neck, inhaling her sweet scent and sending shivers down her neck.)
Krishna- Phir bol do, mein kitni kareeb hona chaiyya? [Then say, how close should I be?] (She bit her lip, drawing his attention to it how soft and full there are.)
Sayyam- mein nahi boldunga, mein dikhata hoon na? [I won’t say, I’ll show you na?] (She pulls at the back of his hair as she gasps when she feels him nuzzle in to the sensitive spot on her neck.)
Krishna- Haan, dikhawo mujhe… [Yes, show me…](Her breathless whisper turned him mad.)
He lifted her in to her arms and placed her on to the bed, hungry for her love. He lies on his stomach facing her and slowly strokes a finger down her face, admiring each and every perfect feature while she smiles shyly at him. He can’t controll it when he sees her adorableness. He places a affectionate kiss on her forehead, then her eyes, her cute button nose, a gentle peck on her lips and then started placing a loving trail of kisses down her neck.
Sayyam’s hand softly ran across the skin on her stomach. And suddenly for a split second, everything rushed back to her and she remembered the way that man had stared at her. She couldnt controll her sudden fear and burst in to tears, shocking Sayyam. He holds on to Krishna’s hand while frowning in concern.
Sayyam- Krishna kya hua? [what happened?] Im sorry, i didnt check whether you were ready… (he was hit with worry that he had become like his father.)
She hugged him with deperate need, hiding her face in his shirt. He hugs her back immediately, circling his arms around her and shielding her from her fears.
Krishna- Aisa nahi hai Sayyam, mujhe us admi ko yaad aya. {Its not like that, I just remembered that man.]You can carry on, sorry.
Sayyam- No Krishna, there is no need for all of that. You dont need to prove that you love me. We will wait until you are ready. Okay? (Her eyes watered as she realised how much he cared for her.)
He kissed her hair affectionately with his eyes closed and cuddled her closer to his chest.
Sayyam-I love you (He whispered, already half asleep.)
Krishna smiled at him and reached up and softly kissed his cheek.
Krishna- I know…