Nothing For You DARLING but Still “I love You” (Episode 42)

Whenever you start feel responsible for some mishappening in your life, you tried to punish yourself….feel guilty…but is it the way to lower down the pain of your loved one….

Same is happening with both of them, radhika thought she is responsible and arjun thought he is responsible…….they torcher themselves but why dnt they understand it is a torcher for everyone around them…..
anu tried her best to keep radhika happy…..silly jokes….poor thoughts…all day blabbering…..but no…..whenever radhika tried to smile….speed of her tears turn out to be more than her lips!!
Neil and sam both are worried for radhika and arjun now, they met them separately but no solution….. finally sam and neil decided something……
Sam call arjun
Arjun “hey sam…how are you?”
Sam “arjun….i need your help”
Arjun “okk….carry on…”
Sam “no….meet me please..”
Arjun “ok….evening 6 pm….at CCD”
Sam ok…c u there
On the other side neil call radhika
Radhika “hello..neil…”
Neil “how are you chashni?”
Radhika “m fine…u tell”
Neil “I need your help…please….dnt say no…”
Radhika “my help???…ok tell me what can I do for you?”
Neil “meet me at CCD”
Radhika “no, please I cnt come anywhere”
Neil “u hv to…..m not going to plead you for this…at 5 pm sharp…I will pick u”
Radhika agreed….

In the evening….
Radhika become ready in baby pink chudidaar…totally simple….lip balm and hair tied in a pony tail. As neil reached n honk his car, she come out of the house. Neil feel so bad…..she was so bubbly…so worry free…and now……why chashni…why you do this with yourself? He thought
He come out of his car and turn towards radhika….hug her and offer her to sit while opening the car door for her…..she resiprocate him with the tiniest smile……..
Engine come into life and they reached at their destination on their prefixed time….neil select a corner table…..he order two cup of coffee…..
Neil “lost?”
Radhika “no…m here…with you”
Neil “but my chashni…..she lost”
Radhika’s eyes are ready to become wet anytime…..she bend her head to hide her tears…..
Neil hold her hand and squeeze it….”look at me buddy”
Radhika do nt react….he move forward little bit and hold her chin to make her straight…. But after looking his chashni’s face…his eyes also turn to be wet……..he hv to control………”no….enough now……dnt cry please”
Radhika “neil….i destroy every happiness of my life”
Neil “listen….i may not understand your pain but that doesn’t mean I cnt understand you right now…..radhika we all knew what is the meaning of a baby in our life but tell me one thing does arjun is not important for you?”
Radhika “I love him….i love him neil…but I cnt face him…his red puffed eyes….they kill me each and every second….i cnt c him in so much pain that only I gv him”
Neil “for god sake radhika how many times do we tell u that it was not your fault…….y dnt u understand this”
Radhika doesn’t speak…..
Neil “I dnt want to hurt you radhika but I think it’s a high time now……let me make one thing very clear to you…if you keep on ranting all this again and again very soon you will lost arjun also……”
Radhika shouted “r u mad neil?”
Neil “that will be going to happen very soon……no matter what you think about me….”
Radhika “no way”
Neil “y??? u love him na…..then if u think that u r responsible for his pain why dnt u leave him to be happy without you?”
Radhika “neil…have you lost your mind??? He cnt live without me….”
Neil near about to shout but to make her understand what he want to say he have to keep himself calm….. “but yoy only give him pain na??? as u said”
Radhika hv nothing to say now…..neil shifted on a chair next to radhika ……”chashni…both of you love each other….and both of you need only each other right now….he was always there for you…it s your time….forget whatever happened…and make him also to forget that……he shattered day by day”
Radhika place her head on his shoulder “neil……help me please…I dnt want to loose him…..i cnt handle it anymore”
Neil gv her a side hug “I knew my doll…..just stop showing him your back all the time…….try to speak with him….if u dnt want to share your pain…atleast share his pain”
Radhika nodded……”I will try”
Neil “just give him one hand…..rest he will handle you…..i hv no need to explain him to you…..no one know him better than you”
After that they had their coffee……\Same cafeteria 6 pm….sam reached their with arjun…..they also sit on a corner chair but sam selected it so that arjun n radhika cnt c each other……
They order their coffee….
Arjun “ok…now tell me….what do u want me to do?”
Sam also clear whole matter to him like neil did too radhika ….
Sam “arjun…u knew her very well….if this matter doesn’t got solved now…u will loose her soon”
Arjun “sam….i cnt even imagine myself without her..but I think I should back out from her life…so that she may live happily……I fail….i fail to myself….i fail to keep her happy….i am the reason of her sadness”
Sam “arjun why dnt you understands….she needs you……nd if you think she will be happy without you…I suggest you to throw her from some high cliff….nd kill her…”
Arjun shouted…. “do u call me to gv this advice?”
Sam “no…but u compel me for this”
Arjun “sam…..i dnt want to hurt you….u r like anu for me…but please stay out of it….what do you think…is it that much easy……I lost mybreathe the same moment when I look at her face…..which lost his glow……..i snatch that from her…….dnt I knew she cry all night……without looking at her I can even tell u when she blink her eye……….i knew she is in pain…but as the reason for her sorrows….how can I gv her smile….”
He get up from the chair and as he turn he find radhika their …….she stay like there…….neil ask sam to come out with him…..
Now arjun and radhika are there staring each other….arjun bend his head…..radhika move towards him and hold his face from cheeks……turn upwards to look into his eyes…..arjun doesn’t expect this…..he feel stunned at the moment but somewhere he is so happy…..he need her….he need her lap to cry…..he need her shoulder to share his pain…to take all his heart out to her…..
Radhika doesn’t utter a word but hug him……..after a while he also hug her back…… arjun was always there to handle her….to solve her problems….to take care of her….this tym they both are in same pain…..but my ancestors told me…..”A WOMAN IS ALWAYS STRONGER THEN A MAN”….
They come out of the cafeteria….neil n sam stand ide and just pray that this tym they try to get up from all that……they feel happy when radhika and asjun come outside with like more comfortable…..past few weeks were the worst………
Neil’s chashni decided to get back the smile of his handsome husband back now….they see off each other with good wishes…..
They reach back to home….arjun and radhika struggle to find words how to start….
Finally…they entered in their room, radhika “I am feeling hungry”
Arjun doesn’t expect anything like this at all………”ohkk…what do you want to eat?”
Radhika “paani puri”
Arjun with creases on his forhead..”radhika…how many times do I need to tell you…street food is not healthy..”
Radhika “but I want that only…”
Arjun “what yaar…we will go some restaurant na…”
Radhika “m nt interested” in fake anger…
Arjun “radhika…” before he speak anything further radhika stare him with serious eyes….arjun “what happened?”
radhika…..”dare you to call me radhika one more time….i will show you what happened to me”
This time radhika’s eyes turn to be wet…arjun also understand what she want to say…”where do you want to go button?”
Radhika cnt control anymore…she hug him…”I am dying to listen this word from your mouth…..”
Arjun “and I am dying to call you with this name….”
Radhika break the hug…..”then who stopped you?”
Arjun with teary eyes…..unable to speak anything…….just put her head on her lap…hug from her waist and cry hard… “I am sorry button….”
Radhika…”no please…its enough now…stop blaming yourself……..i dnt want anything….just you…”
Radhika shifted a little bit ….to make him comfortable lie on the bed while keeping his head on her lap………arjun turn and now his face turn to ceiling…..”button…I love you…”
Radhika “I love you too my pumpkin…..” and both of them laugh with this word…..its like they got their smile after years of sadness….after some time both of them settle down on their bed….but this time in each other’s arms…….they need each other……….

Back ground song……from wazir

Tere binn…..tere binn…..trre binn….tere binnn…..tere bina jeena nahi…..marna nahi tere binn…..