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~ROMEO JULIET~
Closing his eyes and feeling the warmth of her palm on his cheek, he failed to feel her finger slightly moving….
What if his mom didn’t gets convinced? “then I have to go!” he answered to himself. He was lost in his own thoughts while she slowly came to her senses… he had promised to be with her forever in the railway station of Patna.. didn’t he? She doesn’t know for what he was telling, ’then I have to go!’ and to whom he was even talking? struggling with the darkness and numbness, she finally opened her eyes a little, everything was blur… she saw that sanskar had already stood up and has started walking outside… fighting with her pain, she whispered in a soft, weak and a choking voice, “DON’T BREAK YOUR PROMISE!” she saw him stopping on his tracks and then felt her vision becoming clear…
Startled with the sudden voice, he stopped walking, it didn’t took even a second for him to realize to whom the voice belonged to, and his legs just froze realizing it.
A smile forming on his lips with tears flowing from his eyes… he turned back and saw her… she had her beautiful eyes opened with tears and a smile on her lips… same state as his! Just a two to three feet away… but he ran to her like a marathon runner… standing near her bed, he cupped her face still crying… the smile never leaving his lips as he whispered, “swara!” she smiled at him and tried to sit, frowning at her, he immediately holded her shoulders and glared at her, “swara! What’s the need?” she smiled at him and continued her trial to sit avoiding his scolding making him frown more… she finally succeeded and sat on the bed, of course with his support and help.. she looked at him and saw him glaring at her. She sighed and said, “sanskar! am fine!” his frown disappeared, a curve forming on his lips with his tears flowing endlessly hearing her voice for which he is earning for so many hours! He sat near her on the bed wrapping his arm around her shoulder as she readily went in his embrace… she closed her eyes keeping her head on his shoulder.
“even I told that you are going to be fine! Did you even listen to me?” she took her head from his shoulder with his hand still wrapped around her shoulder. She saw his tears, of course she had seen him crying, they are together for so many years! But it looked as if he was crying more today with his red and puffy eyes. It looked as if he was suffering an extreme pain today.. an unexplained… an indescribable… a very different pain, never has she seen him so much vulnerable! Her hands reached his cheeks to wipe the tears, he holded her hand stopping her from wiping his tears as he shouted angrily, “you and your rubbish talks!” she frowned seeing him shoving her hand stopping her from wiping his tears. “everything has an end! This… that… You scared the hell out of me!” she gets shocked seeing him shouting like anything with his tears never stopping. He closed his eyes tightly as his sobs became uncontrollable, swara gets tears seeing him so miserable.
She immediately hugged him, she caressed his hair and closed her eyes feeling him crying aloud, his tears making her wet. His miserable condition hurting her as tears flowed from her eyes. She felt him hugging her back making the hug more tight. Don’t know why she felt that this hug was different from all their hugs. Don’t know why she felt that there was a change in him, there was something new in his eyes. Brushing away her thoughts, she continued to caress his hair to calm him. but he was just crying more and more, his happiness overflowing finally seeing her fine, but he remembered her words again and again. What if something would have happened to her? He hugged her more tight trying to release himself from the fear that was holding him tight. She was fine! She was indeed fine! But still, the situation is just too scary. All have not been so lucky to be alive after getting a bullet. He has seen so many cases. Suddenly, the darkness, the pain, the guilt, the fear strangled his soul like anything making him cry more loud. His brain suddenly going to the memories of their childhood as he said still choked with his tears, “do you remember the drama we did when we were in our school!” swara stopped caressing his hair, her eyes shrinking as she tried to think… they have did a lots of dramas! He broke the hug and held her shoulders. His face was completely red. She pressed her lips as a one more tears flowed from her eyes seeing him suffering lots of pain. “the drama in which you played the character of Jhansi Rani!” she looked at him confused, from where did this topic suddenly come from? Of course, she remembered it! It was during her sixth standard! No! maybe seventh! As she tried to think when she exactly did that. Her thoughts broke hearing his loud angry voice and also the way he jerked her shoulders, “I think you are still in the effect of that drama!
Thinking yourself as a Jhansi Rani! You could have just told me that there was a goon standing beside me!” she smiled seeing his concern for her. “don’t you dare smile!” she pressed her lips controlling her laughter, his anger has always made her sad and cry. But sometimes, his anger is very cute! Her smile disappeared seeing his tears. She hugged him again becoming teary eyed again seeing his pain. “never do this again!” at his choking command. She just smiled and hugged him more tight. She can do anything for him! she can even follow his command and for him, she can even break them. She broke the hug and wiped her tears.
“swara, I have to say something!” his heart almost jumping, he was going to tell her! But she placed her head on his chest and hugged him. “sanskar! I hate this hospital smell. Let’s go home!” he frowned hearing her. “swara, I…” his sentence remained incomplete as she interrupted him. “sanskar, please! Accha, where is maa, didi and chote?” sanskar closed his eyes and sighed. He had to call them, even they were worried for swara! He can’t let them suffer, he can tell her after going home! He lightly… very lightly kissed her hair and broke the hug and walked out to call everyone while she was just froze in her place. Of course, she felt it. A soft, tender and a heavenly touch. Did he just kissed her? Did he?…..
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SINGHANIYA MANSION…
SWARA’S ROOM…
Swara’ s one hand was holded by ragini and the other was holded by sanskar as they both carefully brought her inside. Swara gets irritated and said, “I am not so sick that you both are handling me like a baby!” ragini said calmly, “shona! Doctor told to take care of you!” swara frowned hearing her sister. “we can at least walk a little more fast!” avoiding her cute pout, both ragini and sanskar walked very slowly bringing her to the bed. They made her sit on it, ragini caressed her hair, very happy to finally see her sister fine. She made her lie on the bed and covered her with a comforter as she closed her eyes. Ragini smiled at her and sat near her on the bed patting her forehead, she looked at sanskar astonished as he still didn’t leave the room but continued to stare at swara.
Ragini stood and asked him in a low voice so as to not disturb swara, “sanskar?” sanskar looked at her and then replied in the same slow voice, “ragini, I want to talk with her… ALONE!” he felt a little uncomfortable to tell to swara’s sister that he wanted to talk alone with her sister, but surprisingly she was not at all uneasy, she just nodded to him and went out of the room. After all, she just wanted her sister’s happiness, she just wanted sanskar to stop them from going away….
Sanskar went inside the room. Tears almost brimmed in his eyes, closing his eyes to control his emotions, he then opened them and called her, “swara?”
swara opened her eyes hearing him. she was not asleep. She just had her eyes closed because she was feeling very tired. After closing it, she felt few soft pats on her forehead which would obviously be her lovely ragini didi and then there was no more noise. At least, she thought like that. It was so peaceful when sanskar suddenly called her. She got up and joined her back on the bed post sitting comfortably, she looked at sanskar confused. He sighed and sat beside her on the bed, “swara! Why you did this?” her confusion just grew more because of this question by him. what does he even mean? “sanskar?” at her confused and questioning voice, he answered, “all this! Why did you risk your life?” swara frowned seeing his tears and also by hearing him. why was he digging this again? “sanskar! we already talked about this in the hospital”. He wiped his moist eyes stopping his tears from coming out as he continued, “I just scolded you in the hospital! We didn’t talked about this”. Swara blinked her eyes, he was very serious, she cleared her throat and whispered in a soft voice, “sanskar! he was about to shoot you!” and this time, he couldn’t stop his tears from flowing out of his eyes.
The girl in front of him has always loved him like anything and he has just given pain to her. Guilt once again captured him as he whispered, “so? Let him shoot me!” she frowned hearing him. her eyes became red with anger as she suddenly shouted, “sanskar, have you gone mad? He was about to shoot you! Do you even get that? He was…” her sentence remained incomplete as she gets choked with her tears. Why was he not understanding? Anything could have happened to him, she could have lost him! “why do you care?” she becomes irritated hearing his questions, of course, he knew the reason! Not once, but she had told many times how much she loves him. “you know the reason sanskar! I love you!” her words suddenly going very weak with her tears flowing endlessly as she looked away from him.
sanskar smiled with tears hearing her, she loved him! and for the very first time, he was very happy listening these words from her. Whenever she said this, there was nothing but awkwardness and pain between them but now… this was giving him immense happiness. He immediately hugged her tightly.. as much tight as he can. His happiness knowing no bounds as he finally whispered, “SO DO I! even, I love you swara!” he closed his eyes letting his tears flow. He said it. He finally said it.
She closed her eyes as soon as he hugged her, she hugged him back crying. Why does he always somehow remember her that she loves him and he doesn’t love her! Crying with the tears of helplessness, she suddenly heard his whisper. Shock would be a very small word. He just said that he loves her? She immediately broke the hug and looked at him blinking her eyes with tears continuously flowing.
He placed both of his hands on her cheeks, he was still smiling with his tears. His heart melting being finally saying her his feelings. His happiness touching the peak when he suddenly saw that she was…emotionless. She was just blank, what had just happened? “sanskar! please don’t think you are making me happy….” She said choking and gulping her tears. She was literally shivering still blinking her eyes. He looked at her confused. “you are just hurting me!” he can’t do this to her! He was the one who has always said that they were JUST FRIENDS! He was the one who has rejected her again and again! Suddenly, he just can’t love her, he was doing this to make her happy. She felt so soulless and lifeless hearing his lie. How can he just do this? She sobbed closing her fist tightly. “SWARA!”
he gets horrified seeing her crying. He immediately cupped her face and wiped her tears. he felt so painful to see her crying. “swara what happened?” he asked weakly, because he lost all his energy to see her like that. He gulped feeling himself becoming empty by her tears. it hurts. It damn hurts to see her crying. “swara, why are you crying?” he asked holding both her wrists as she had her palms closed and even her eyes were closed. Her head hung down. He holded her face lifting it and wiping her tears controlling himself. “swara! Please tell me!” “because of you!” she finally whispered opening her eyes.
She wiped her tears and nose like a kid and shoved his hands, “because you are lieing! You…” she stammered feeling herself going so weak by his tear filled eyes that looked so painful… so hurt… so guilty… “you don’t love me!” she whispered still looking in his eyes while his eyes almost widened and turned hard. His face titled hearing her, feeling his head spinning and almost falling though he was sitting. He holded the bed post tightly… very hardly. A few more fresh tears flowing from his eyes, his eyes going red feeling his breathe almost stopped. “you don’t love me!” her words echoing in his ears, blinking his eyes to actually make sure that he heard right… his love!…
this was so painful, just so painful.. maybe by now he realized how it feels to just insult someone’s feeling. His eyes concentrated on her as she continued, “you want me to be happy and that’s why you are lieing! But sanskar, trust me. I will be happy if you just don’t lie to me!” she said fighting with her ownself, cursing herself for thousand times saying this. These were the words for which she has always earned, he indeed said that. But this can’t happen, he suddenly can’t fall in love with her! She has got the bullet for him, so he was saying this to make her happy.
Suddenly, her heart cursed her like anything, sanskar was not a type of person who can make his feelings a lie! But, still somewhere she was unable to accept this. She sobbed more feeling herself standing in a very much complicated situation. Her thoughts broke when she saw him standing from the bed and going out of her room. His eyes becoming more and more red as if blood was oozing, his whole self becoming numb remembering her words. Even his tears froze because of his shock. She thought his love as a lie? He almost stumbled and then continued to walk to his room gulping his pain…
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IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT…
SWARA’S ROOM
Sanskar entered the room slowly and saw swara sleeping… there were tear marks on her cheeks clearly indicating that she cried for hours. He sat on the cold floor lifelessly continuing to stare her pale and weak face. It seemed like as if the Romeo has came to meet his Juliet in the middle of the night without anyone’s notice but this was surely very different because this was definitely not a happy meet. Every time Romeo and Juliet met at night, they had just made a one more memory to cherish, it was a very happy meet for them. That’s what he has read in the stories! Unlike him, who had came to meet his love just to make sure that she was fine!
Maybe he was not as lucky as Romeo and Juliet who had a happy meet every night but he really didn’t wanted to be as unlucky as them who had a sad ending! He didn’t wanted his story to have a sad ending. He caressed swara’s hairs before whispering in a choked voice, “I am not lieing swara!” a lone tear escaped his eyes which fell on her palm. He closed his eyes shivering with the helplessness and pain. He stood up from there and walked out of the room before moving a hair strand from her face. Swara opened her tear filled eyes and saw his retreating figure while he was unaware that swara was awake…
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Precap: ~Pain~
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A/N- the story is reaching the end!!
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