SWASAN: SOMEONE FOR ME
rajiv, rina gadodia- swara’s bade papa and badi maa
shekhar and sharmishta- swara’s dad and mom.
ragini- rajiv’s daughter[lives in delhi after marriage with laksh.]
swara- female protagonist [lives with shemish and ayush in kolkata]
ayush- swara’s younger brother.
swara’s room-
ragini- swara why don’t you want to marry???
swara- di please, not again. i said naa i don’t know. i am 25 and have to pursue my carrier high. i am just doing my pg 1st year. i want to be a successful doctor first and di i don’t know how the guy will be?
swara said to her sister who came to convince her for marriage and even brought a good proposal for her.
ragini- [holding her hand] shona calm down first.
swara- [relaxing herself] tell what you want to say.
ragini- shona i am not saying you to marry but i want to know few things.
swara- what?
ragini- what do you want from your life. if not now but at some point of time you have to marry someone. so what are your expectations from your life partner?
swara- [came to window and looked outside] di that’s the biggest problem with me. i don’t exactly know it di.
swara- but still something i would want is…. i want a life partner who understands my heart and loves me for what i am in real and not for my status, job, position or looks. [in mind] one who sees the real me which is hidden inside me deep somewhere waiting to open up to someone who understand my perspective without me acknowledging it. i want someone who can make me free from my own shell that i have made around me.
ragini- [cupping her face] shona for that you need to meet people and don’t you trust our elders that they will choose the best for you.
swara- i do di. infact you know that i always prefer the last decision on any matter to be taken by maa and baba.
ragini- if that is so then why don’t you agree for marriage.
swara- but dii….. [sighed] huh!!…. ok i agree. go and inform them that i agree for the marriage. happy.
ragini- really……. yippeeeee….
swara- di behave like mature. you are married. huh..and i have conditions.
ragini- excitement doesn’t see that you are married or not. and what conditions??
swara- di i will continue my profession the way i wish and i will not be in anyway a traditional bahu. i will wear suits and jeans even after marriage. the family and guy you all choose should know this and should not put restrictions.
ragini- ok. i will inform them and you know what the person we all were talking about is very good and you both are from same profession and so u will understand better. and your jiju know him very well so there will be no problem. [she went to inform others]
when everyone knew about swara’s approval their happiness knew no bounds and they called the family for meeting.
3 days later-
the maheshwari’s came to see swara. sitting in hall both families were discussing and knowing each other better.
maheshwari’s- durgaprasad and annapurna- sanskar’s father and mother.
sanskar- male protagonist, age 27 and a doctor. completed his pg.
aniket- sanskar’s younger brother, age 24, joined dp in buisness.
uttara- the youngest , age 21 doing final year graduation.
swara was brought downstairs by ragini. swara wore a simple suit with just a pair of earrings as jewellery, a wrist watch, no make-up and a spectacle concealing her eyes. made to sit beside sujata, swara felt nervous but didn’t showed. they all talked and swara found the family to be good but she knew that one meeting doesn’t tell exactly about a person’s nature truly but at the same time she knew her family will choose the best and correct for her.
soon swasan were sent for talking alone in the garden. they were silent and fidgeting about what to talk and how. finally swara broke the silence.
swara- what are your expectations from your life partner?
sanskar- not much….just she should keep my family intact always. respect and love my parents and siblings, same as i do to them. it’s a relation of strength and love which i expect. well shouldn’t have we introduce ourselves first?
swara- i guess we were introduced inside with our complete bio data. [although nervous she acted bold]
sanskar- [smiled being embarrassed and impressed] yaa right. well may i know your expectations from your life partner.
swara- respect for my family and loyalty. i don’t mind if you had girlfriends or were in relationships before but after marriage i want the other to be loyal just as i am because trust is basis of every relation.
they talked a bit more where swara also shared that if they agree for marriage then after wedding she would need time to adjust and accept.
maheshwari’s went back telling that they would inform about their decision later. 2 days later the relation was agreed upon and marriage dates were fixed after a month and half. swasan were busy in their own schedule of studies and practice and didn’t talk much but swara often went for shopping and all with uttara and aniket along with ragini who stayed back for swara’s wedding preparation.
time passed by quickly and after a mnth and half all rituals were done and finally swasan were married.
first night in swasan room both have changed and were sitting on the either side of bed in awkward silence.
sanskar- i think we should sleep. you must be tired. [swara nodded] good night
swara- good night.
they both layed down sanskar was fast asleep but swara turned and twisted for a while as it is new place for her but tiredness led her to sleep.
few after marriage rituals followed the following days and swasan completed all of them being cooperative. they slowly tried to know each other and they were good with each other, infact they discussed a lot about their work and experiences.. swara mingled with others easily and created a good bond with uttniket and ap, dp.
four months passed like this and everything was well but somewhere something bothered sanskar and that was swara’s ignorance from few days. he tried to figure out the reason but in vain and finally one night he confronted her.
sanskar- swara what’s going on.
swara- about what?
sanskar- why are you ignoring me and trying to be away.
swara- [boggled] umm… no i didn’t ignore you.
sanskar- oh really….. swara i don’t know the reason behind your ignorance….. [he sighed frustratedly] ….”I WISH I COULD IGNORE U…..LIKE YOU IGNORE ME…. BUT I JUST CAN’T”.
sanskar- i am not getting you and this is not done swara. you said naa you want loyalty from me in our marriage, that’s what i wish for too. and swara loyalty means not just for telling about boyfriend or girlfriend but every aspect. i want you to open up with me which i don’t find in you completely. why is that hesitation between us. answer me swara.[said holding her shoulders]
swara- [a lone tear escapes her eyes] sanskar please let’s sleep.
sanskar- swara once trust me and speak out please.
swara- [finally sobbing] i am sorry for ignoring you but i didn’t want myself to build new dreams, to expect something from you because i fear that it would break the same way my other expectations and dream broke.
sanskar was shocked by her words and sobbing. he made her sit and made her drink water. sitting beside her he took her one hand in his.
sanskar- swara for once tell me your heart out and i promise i will try to be with you and be your support.
swara- i….i was a bold girl and always spoke out what i had in my heart. when ayush was born i became an elder sister and i sincerely stood up to it. i fought with those who fought with ayush, did his homeworks, stayed up late at nights for preparing him for his exams. i became a tomboy and an over protective sister. i never thought of my dreams or wishes.when i went for my mbbs things changed. a cousin sister came to my house for preparation of some exams and ayush bonded with her well. when in holidays i visited home ayush was changed. he was no longer my brother who always shared everything with me or talked and fought with me but he was more attached to my cousin and rarely talked to me. i know he respects me but that bond and spark we had in our relation just got destroyed when i took first step towards my dream carrier.
swara- i had just started dreaming many things then. when i built my dreams, something for my own it got ruined because every dream of mine had ayush in it. the one person i could do anything for other than my parents or even more than them. my wishes , my dreams, my expectations just remained unfulfilled. everybody thinks that i am too strong but i am not. i too fear, tremble, shiver but no one notices because i never let that be evident.
swara- but… but then you noticed sometimes. you cared for my wish, expectations and was with me when i needed. but remember 15 days back when you went to other city for work for a week and you couldn’t lift my calls due to some work and then network problems we couldn’t connect. i felt lonely, that void was again there and i felt it …..again. i realised i have again started dreaming and expecting which i shouldn’t because unfulfilled dreams hurts. i realised that i…i have started accepting you and may be ..loving you…and so ignored you. that was way too difficult but i never want another heart break.
swara- you know my heart wished that we sort out everything.i always said that i am ok but sanskar …. [looked into his eyes]….”SOMETIMES WHEN I SAY “I AM OK” I WANT YOU TO LOOK ME IN THE EYES, HUG ME TIGHT, AND SAY,”I KNOW YOU ARE NOT”…….. i wished to confess everything but my fear overtook it. i am sorry for my behaviour but you know over every wish i have one ardent desire and need and that is SOMEONE FOR ME, someone who understands me more than myself because i am a confused person. but now i am sure about one thing that …i..I LOVE YOU…. you need not reciprocate. i just said what i felt. i am sorry.
swara stood to walk out from there wiping her tears but sanskar pulled her resulting in her landing on his lap. holding her waist and cupping her face he whispered looking in her eyes.
sanskar- I LOVE YOU TOO and wish to be the someone for you. i liked you in first meeting for your boldness and straight forward nature and in these months i fell for you. will you give me a chance. i promise not to break your dreams and be with you and understand you always.
swara looked at him with tears of happiness and hugged him tight crying her heart out first time in front of a person and not soaking her pillow. finally she got the “someone for her”.
from that day they shared everything, every feeling with each other and in few days they consummated their marriage. sanskar always considered swara in his each decision and tried to fulfill her every dream and swara just did one thing that is to love him unconditionally and be his support and strength all her life. their love had passion and understanding which was their strength.
they lived happily always and sanskar mended the relation of swara and ayush and now the family was content and happy.